For Mothers and Grandmothers and all our Ancestors~~How Astrology connected me back to you~~

Nothing in life ever made sense, everything was too arbitrary, too random, too chaotic. There was a larger pattern somewhere there, I knew it, I sensed it. But how could I find that design? I knew somethings were connected and sometimes events and scenarios repeated themselves. Why? I’d ask myself. What on Earth was the connection?

But the connection was not just on Earth you see! The connection is quantum, the connection is everything. Looking up at the sky, I knew that there were stories there. There was a pattern up there I realised, but did that pattern somehow relate to the one below.

Then I discovered astrology. I think I was sixteen and it changed the way I looked at life. The planets above spiralled through the highways in space and entered different signs. Sometimes they appeared to go retrograde. No they are not moving backwards, they just appear thus to us.

The situations and scenarios that led me here have to do with the veil lifting slowly. Yes the pattern exists. I was ecstatic. Kinda EUREKA moment there! AS ABOVE SO BELOW. The natal chart became a fascination for me- mine, my mom and dad’s, my baby brother’s. I became obsessed reading all kinds of astrology books.

II used to go to the National Library, which is the largest library in Asia to study up on the occult. Astrology was a favourite. Things started to fall into place and in fact this perusal of this ancient subject got me more and more interested in spirituality.

By then Blavatsky had happened to me. Bailey opened my mind to ESOTERIC ASTROLOGY and till today I have not stopped learning from them. HPB has made herself known to me through many meditations, channellings and writings which I will share with you as and when she asks me to.

Her first instructions came when I was asked to open this group on FB around nine years ago I think.

https://www.facebook.com/groups/hpblavatsky/

Again I divert. Back to how astrology not only made me connect to the COSMOS in an abstract way, it also directly connected me to my ANCESTORS. Developing my psychic gifts have opened up so many portals, so many narratives and meta-narratives, so many visions and illusions, so many worlds and Universes. Every human being is gifted with this psychic capability and BECOMING AWARE and BE-NESS(state of just being) are steps to come closer to these powers. They will manifest in everyone in due time.

My mom left today. She was with me for the past month and a half and today she is gone.  sit on my WC and howl my lungs out. The cry is primal, it is raw and it is NORMAL(especially under a Pisces Moon, ah, it is also the last Moon to conjunct Chiron, in Pisces as well). Crying and letting go of emotions is very healthy. Do not stop anyone from crying, let them CRY for fuck’s sake, there is too much Pisces going on here. ha! Their tears are cosmic healers. The tears will not only cool your breasts as they fall on your chest, they are the balm the Universe is sending you. Let them come, let the floodgates break. This primal feeling took me back to the Scorpio full moon we just went through. Boy! Was that heavy!!!

The Gemini season is lighter, less intense, but it is intense when the Moon in Pisces squares Saturn in Saggy.

But still I cry…I cry for all the time lost, the useless harsh words uttered by me in moments of rebellion(very strong Uranian energy), the intense events that I afflicted on her(Moon in the 7th can do that for you, especially if it happens to be your SEVENTH HOUSE).

I cried for my lost childhood and I cried for my daughter. Her granny is her whole world you see. I cried for all the lost hugs and kisses, all the sweet stories and tea-parties, all the lullabies and playing dressing up.

I cry for the LOSS OF INNOCENCE, I cry for IMPERMANENCE! Because as a mortal, nothing scares me more that these shifts. I know not that everything is a vibration, pure mathematics. I only know of emotions and raw feelings- of pain, loss, suffering(Pluto aspects in the natal chart do this) and of course of love and bliss. But every feeling, every sensation is TEMPORARY.

No matter how strongly I try to hold on to it, they just disappear, like evanescent bubbles, each bubble a Universe unto itself. So many Universes coming into being and then dissipating while new ones appear.

Dear Ma,

As you are well aware, I have been doing these special RELEASE and FORGIVE meditations since February. It is done to FORGIVE ones parents. We have to forgive our parents for every thing we may blame them for consciously or unconsciously. You know that as we have spoken in-depth about this.

You know how everyday I have created this sacred spot for you where you and baba have visited. I have surrendered all my anger and resentment maa, you know that. With each meditation, I have released you from any known or unknown karmic ties of suffering that I might have unleashed on you. In turn all I ask is your forgiveness. I know you have always, already forgiven me. The Dasein has anticipated your forgiveness ahead of time.

This meditation that I created to forgive you made me overcome so many psychological repressed issues that I finally let go. I wrote about it, I meditated on it and cut the toxic chords forever. I have grown maa, ready to take flight on my wings and be the butterfly you wanted me to be.

This overwhelming crushing sense of loss at you leaving has left me so vulnerable, that today I understand that the meditation has opened up this block and today I experience FORGIVENESS as I have never done before. The intensity was rapturous. A rush of endorphin, Release of serotonin. Oxytocin.

Maa today I cry as I know that our story must end one day and that breaks my heart. I know we have had a complicated herstory. I know ma. Lilith in Cancer can do that you know. See this placement of Lilith means that the mother will sooner or later, through her action, words or deeds hurt the person!

Yes maa I was hurt and I hurt you. I took your protective love to be oppressive when I should have looked at the scenarios with less selfishness and more compassion. Today I know what it means to be a mom as I cuddle my daughter in my arms, as I smell her hair, as I listen to her sing to me or when she kisses me. I know how mothers feel. I know how you felt.

Maa you have a sensitive artist’s soul and no one can hold a candle to your illumination. Your heart always so full of live and wonder! You are a gift! To me from the Universe. Maa you have been my first Guru, my first spiritual guide.

From teaching me Shiv Puja to Adyastotram, from taking me to yoga classes since I was ten, to making sure I meditate daily during my school and college life. Maa today I see how important you have been in my spiritual journey. You are irreplaceable in every way.

You know maa, as a child I had this inexplicable fear of losing you. It was my worst fear and you know what as I explore this spiritual vibe, I can tell you that although I know how interconnected life and death are, it still makes my heart skip a beat when I think that one day you might not be there.

As the North Node has entered Leo, everyday I am becoming more of me and today I forgive you for every bloody thing. And maa, today I am sending spirals of love vibration to all the women I have shared my mitochondrial DNA with. I love you all.

Thank you ~~tintin

Dear Gita,

I want you to know that you are a part of my soul tribe and you are truly a remarkable woman. You lost two children and still continued to spread your love and light to the world. Your contribution will never be forgotten while me and my daughter are alive.

Your stories will live on through the mouths of my descendants I promise you that for you may have ended just this life, not the IN-finite fractals of narratives and meta narratives we have created through incarnations.

I met you in one of my most intense regression sessions last week. You are a part of my 144! Gita, I release you from all stigma, shame and guilt that society may have thrust upon you. I also release you from every karmic pain and attachment I might have inflicted on you knowingly or unknowingly.

I ask for your forgiveness and readily forgive anything and everything for LOVE is all I feel. You see nothing matters except the huge samsaric seas of consciousness where we have forayed together since infinity.

Gita I love you and always will.

Thanking you deeply~~ tina

Dear Namita,

You left leaving me hollow from inside. Your stories, your songs, your spiritual side, left a profound impact on me. There is so much to say today and I wish you could see the work I am doing. I know you knew where I was headed.

Your fascination for books and literature amazes me today. What depth of knowledge you had about Bengali literature and culture. What insights and you never shied away from providing me with guidance.

The paternal grandfather is the 10th from the 10th = 7th house and the Moon sits in my seventh house. The Moon(SUBJECTIVE MIND) has to do with INTUITION and you have helped me immensely to develop that gift.

You have meditated with me as a child. You have shown me the details of havan and puja. Namita I know you have suffered, but each time you have opened your heart and let the light shine through the crack and you have taught me the same.

I have learnt to open my heart from you. I pay homage to you and your mother Namita and all the great women who created you and me in turn. I send you spirals of love energy.

Thank You~~tintin

I bow down to all the mothers and grandmothers of my lineage going back to 14 generations and beyond. I salute you and your femininity.

I bow down to all the mothers and grandmothers out there, through all of space and time.

I bow down to the original FEMALE who is all our ancestor.

I bow down to the MOTHER MATRIX or DEVI energy.

I bow down to you in reverence as I am a vibration of you, as you are of me. We are FRACTALS of that ONE CONSCIOUSNESS swimming through SPACE. We are the Universe watching itself.

Blessed by the Sun in Gemini, this is my offering….I don’t know why but I compelled to urge you to CONNECT with your MOTHERS and GRANDMOTHERS~~Please call them…please…astro

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Facilitate Spirit-CONNECTION! Mars sextiles Neptune!

I see the world being slowly transformed into a wilderness; I hear the approaching thunder that, one day, will destroy us too. I feel the suffering of millions. And yet, when I look up at the sky, I somehow feel that everything will change for the better, that this cruelty too shall end, that peace and tranquillity will return once more… Anne Frank

My sweeties I don’t have a better way to begin this convo today. The quote above sums it up pretty fucking decently. The last few days have been so charged with fertile chaotic energy and for me it brought about ancient karmic connections. Someone from many, many past lives walked right back in. It has been so hectic, meeting people. Yes lovelies, people from my past.

Just last night I had this amazing dinner and long-drawn out convo with an old friend who also happens to be from a famous Bollywood family. The convo was about U.G and Jiddu Krishnamurthi, Archetypes and primordial memory! And of course there were convos about old actors, directors, huge movie stars and the whole industry in general. Acid trips and Vipasana. Venus in retro does leave such astounding gems for us to glean and if we manage to obtain what we are meant to, then we are infinitely wiser. Even though we may not realise it that moment. Sometimes it takes people a whole Venus cycle to reconnect the dots.

See Venus in retro is making me revalue all my ideas and notions regarding concepts of art, cinema, beauty, finances. I mean, I have worked in the media industry for over a decade and am still very much a part of it. I have been finding closure or answers or more questions to concepts regarding these matters. I have been reevaluating my own constructs that I have created. I am sure all of you are going through these same self enquiries. I know collectively we are seriously looking into matters Venusian and this time with an introverted lens. We are journeying inside with these concepts and letting our intuition guide us.

Cinema is ruled by Neptune, the ruler of Pisces. So the topic of cinema pops up. Today there is a dreamy cinematic quality to life that you can tune into. Yes the authorship of today’s events is in your hands and boy can you make it MAGICK!

Mars in Taurus sextiles Neptune(look up your time zone) and suddenly boof! Our spiritual sensitivities are stirred. You wake up with a dreamy feeling. Your antennae are picking up vibrations from some sort of fairy tale world. Your very own fairy tale. You forget that you are a debt slave, working nine to five to pay off EMIS and other loans. You forget that you have to drive to work for an hour and a half through crowded city traffic. You forget that you are a slave to money. You shed off the incessant need to try to be NUMBER FUCKING 1.

No! You relinquish all that madness. You find a moment, far from the madding crowd and you light a candle in your heart. This day is full of potential for empathy and kindness. Why don’t you find a suitable way to explore this theme, but remember to keep it spiritual as Neptune will have you do.

If you can make everything in front of you SPIRITUAL, then the battle is won. You have created an infinity-sacred-space! If you decide to meditate today, then consciously send out healing energy to the whole world. See the love radiating from your heart chakra and kiss it forward. To help and heal. To be the balm that people need. You need to be the Goddess and the Hero today. You need to create your very own heaven. If you need a Yidam or a deity to concentrate upon, then you can invoke Blue Tara or Nila Saraswati today. Blue because of the Neptunian influence.

The Blue Tara is very effective to quell anger. She is called Ekajati and is an emanation of wrathful feminine energy. She can transmute bad karma into swift spiritual awakening. Therefore she suggested herself to me. Use her energies. Chant her mantra- OM) BHIM TARE VRIM. Visualise her as sapphire blue.

You can use lapis lazzuli or blue sapphire. Although before you don a sapphire, I would suggest you get your natal chart looked at by a gem therapist who will see Saturn’s placement before you can wear it. I have seen contradictory results with the use of sapphire. In my own life.

The position for today will be the TREE POSE! This will bring the necessary equilibrium you need. Still your mind and body in unison. Place the crystal near your heart chakra while you perform this.

I leave you with a very potent number- 719 481 71. This number will manifest your plans and thoughts into tangible reality. Write it on your left wrist, recite it mentally or just carry it in your wallet.

Thank You!

Namaste!

Email me- tina@tinaheals.com

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ORBS!!! Interdimensional Beings!!!

Okay people! I am finally writing about ORBS as I had promised some of you, besides one visited me yesterday.

What are ORBS?

Pale, colourful, spherical, for some of us who have been visited by these INTERDIMENSIONAL BEINGS, we know what they are(at least we have felt some pretty intense moments with them). They appear out of nowhere with high speeds and may hover around before they zip off and disappear.

I have had some electrifying experiences with ORBS and I love them, but what are they? Who are they? Are they sentient? Are they a figment of our imagination?

Yes they are sentient and be called upon to bring healing and bliss. And no they are not a figment of our imaginations. No for if you can imagine it, it does exist. As scary as it sounds!

Worry not if you have seen them and people have labelled you off as a raving lunatic! Fuck them. ORBS appeared in my timeline many times and hopefully they will keep doing so and each time they have visited me, I have felt so many symptoms of ASCENSION!

Yes folks…now listen. Do you know we bring these ORBS into manifestation. How on Earth do we do that, you ask? My friends, the answer is simple…your DNA. Activated DNA can create tiny WORM HOLES. Let that sink in.

These super small WORM HOLES come into being and are maintained for the tiniest of fractions of a second. If certain conditions are presented, they organise into a stabilised unit can can then form distinctive vacuum domains which transforms one phenomenon into another. Like GRAVITY can be TRANSFORMED into ELECTRICITY!

Isn’t this stuff just hair-raisingly mind-boggling? These VACUUM DOMAINS that were creating are the ORBS, which are ionised gas with considerable ENERGY! Compact balls of vibrant energy! They kind of have that lightning feel. Not so powerful of course.

People and places all over the world have seen and experienced ORBS. In my life, I have seen them quite a few times and shockingly mostly during the SOLAR ECLIPSES. Yes I realised that I had encountered my first ORB 19 years ago, during the last Pisces/Virgo axis Solar Eclipse in 1998 and I saw one YESTERDAY. Exhilarating experience!

These balls appear so frequently in Russia that they have finally managed to put together enough data to conclude that these VACUUM DOMAINS are the ORBS. And there is a WILD PHENOMENON associated with them.

Okay, when I had seen a group of ORBS in Goa in small Vagator, I had thought to myself, that ALIENS if that is you, send me a sign. Instantly I felt something so intense that when I looked up, the ORBS had formed some sort of SACRED GEOMETRY PATTERN. Like a spiral formation!

I can never forget that moment. The pattern dissolved to a bunch of clouds forming the most perfect STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN. What an archetypal trope was invoked in me that night. It was full of surprises and wonderful experiences that night in Monkey Valley as I danced the whole night and let the energy of the ORBS engulf me and my being. I felt their warmth, their energy. It was so POWERFUL and PROFOUND! I am vibrating just writing about it!

The ORBS have often put on quite the performance when I have caught them up in the sky on rare occasions. How quickly they dart as if going from one Universe to another, carrying back all that information. Enriching us.

DNA can be activated for a multiple of reasons and you may begin to fell MAGIC overpower your life. I have started my DNA ACTIVATION COURSE and I am already feeling so MOTIVATED. The ORB yesterday was so perfect and timely, like a gesture form the Universe. “Hey what’s up! Good that you’re finally looking into DNA,” says the Universe. Lol!

I was in a NLP lecture(I am a getting into the space of Coaching and Mentoring) and as I stepped out of the cab, the ORB, one single BEING appeared. Neon green colour with fiery golden iridescence. It looked like it had holographic tentacles.

As I focused my attention into that glorious INTERDIMENSIONAL BEING it slowly faded away till a tiny drop remained. As I inhaled, that drop came floating by and entered through my nostril! I was not actively visualising this! It was a process and it was happening to me and I was just experiencing it.

I felt so charged all night that I could sit in meditation for over three hours and did not even feel it. By the time I crawled into bed, it was 3.30 and I went to sleep. I had intended to write, but no human words were coming from my mouth. There is a SILENCE in my inner being today, unlike anything I have experienced in a while and all I feel is GRATITUDE TO THAT BEING WHO IS IN ME. In a tiny drop, in the ocean of my consciousness.

I had heard that interacting with ORBS physically can blow the human body up. That thought came to me right now actually. It did not even pop up in my conscious mind, so I am not going to elaborate on it. Rest assured my body is intact.

My father told me that PARAMHAMSA VISHUDDHANANDA could create tiny balls of light. Actually many MAHATMAS have been known to do that. In fact when MAHAVATAR BABAJI appears, a number of ORBS appear before him.

All of us who have been doing ENERGY WORK will know how balls of light are visualised for so many modalities. Reiki, Distant Healing, Prayer….so these balls of light we create with our minds are also ORBS. They are our PERSONAL ENERGY ORBS. They heal and often have a deeply profound effect on us and the one we are healing.

Medicine Buddha also appeared in a LIGHT RAY of deep blue to heal and help. How did this Bodhissatva appear? Due to HYPER COMMUNICATION of our DNA to the COSMIC CODE! This evolved consciousness we call SANGYE MENLA answered to the hyper communication we send out to the DIVINE DNA of the Creator.

When our DNA sends out HEALING thoughts while we send healing, we can tap into many species of INTERDIMENSIONAL BEINGS who appear from our of our SPACE/TIME structure. Angels, light workers and other such beings appear from this energy arising out of hyper communication.

Listen if you see things no one understands, it is okay. Always remember humans see less than 1% of the ELECTROMAGNETIC SPECTRUM and hear less than 1% of the ACOUSTIC SPECTRUM! Can you imagine that kind of stuff we are missing.

Know this, there are other people like you…

Do a tiny little ORB MEDITATION today during the SOLAR ECLIPSE. Remember that ball of light I inhaled. I was so overwhelmed with gratitude, that I created this meditation to send back all the love I got from the ORBS manifold towards you guys. You can do it too and increase the flow of energy to bring the collective towards healing.

If you have a clear Quartz crystal ball, then sage it and set it aside. Collect incense, books, candles and oils, find a quiet spot. Keep your spine straight, head relaxed and begin breathing. Observe your breath.

Slowly visualise a ball of light in your HEART CENTRE. Understand the feeling it is generating. What colour is it? Is it changing colours? Does it feel warm?

This ball of light is activating your HEART CHAKRA. You are sitting in peace and bliss. Slowly begin to purge the negative emotions and thoughts. Delete them one by one. Take your time, do it slowly.

Once all what you can purge has been purged, sit watching your breath. Now what does the ball feel like? What are its colours? The warmth…has it increased?

Feel your heart swelling with love and feel the ball of light vibrate. Then in your mind, reach inside your heart, draw out that ball and stare at it. That ball is a manifestation of LOVE and PEACE. You sit with it as long as you need to, then slowly…blow it away….to the Universe as a gift of your LOVE!!!

Peace and bliss my friends…

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