NEW MOON IN AQUARIUS: Existential Angst personified


The philosopher Manly Hall put it succinctly: “astrology is the study of the anatomy and psychology of God.”

Haha sexy people! Feeling rebellious? Feeling like society is crushing your individuality? Feeling stifled in your relationship?

Yes honey you are UNIQUE and this NEW MOON in AQUARIUS(very intense as is not ASPECTED) is going to put the accelerator on your INTELLECT. This also initiates the Chinese New Year of the Yin Fire Rooster which starts on the following day, Jan 28.

The year of the ROOSTER is very INTENSE, loads of drama and theatrics, but there is FOCUS, DRIVE, DETERMINATION, POSITIVITY too. Every 12 years there is a Rooster year, beginning at Chinese New Year. A year of the Rooster always comes after a Monkey year and before a Dog year.

Chinese astrology is considered to be the most ancient system in the world and is believed to be over 5000 years old. While Western astrology is depends on the 12 months of the year, Chinese astrology is based on a upon a twelve year lunar cycle. Your sign is determined by the year in which you were born (in the Chinese calendar). Each sign and those born under it, are represented by one of twelve animals, and each sign is given a set of attributes that the Chinese believe describe the nature of each particular animal.

According to legend, the Lord Buddha summoned all the animals to wish him goodbye before he departed the Earth, but, only twelve animals came to bid him farewell. He rewarded them by naming a year after each one in the order that it arrived. How cute!

Sun and New Moon in Aquarius will vroom you to feel REBELLION is in the air. Uranus is DIRECT! Yay! But channelize this feeling as a PATH TO GROWTH. As a way to FOSTER COMMUNITY! Sometimes this HUGE REBELLION can cause disruptions and if you let yourself be aware, you will see how this REBELLELIOUS STREAK is actually hampering your growth. Analyse. Study yourself.

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment….Buddha said that. The one and only Sakyamuni. All well and fine Buddha, but this NEW MOON IS IN AQUARIUS and Aquarius is all about the FUTURE! So bite it!

Let us think of the FUTURE this NEW MOON. Set your INTENTIONS! It’s like one of the most important manifestation portal. Let us join TOGETHER(a MASTER SWITCHWORD) and CREATE-DIVINE-PARADISE for all of us. That is a SWITCHPHASE and is very powerful to activate.

This MAGICAL MOMENT available to us right now can define our PURPOSE. And this my friends will not be any old PETTY DREAM. This will not even be about how much money you can hoard or how your friend will buy that car, this is about HUMANITY. This time is best to PROJECT PEACE and rethink of your equation with HUMANITY. How do you feel about it? Now Aquarius is very INTELLECTUAL. Air Sign. So intellectualize this. Get to the crux of how you feel for people, for animals, for trees, for birds. Do you give a flying fuck if the Environment is destroyed? Or our future is damned? If you do, then synthesise your feelings and get prepared to go full throttle to do something. HELP OUT.

I would suggest you STOP INTERNAL PROJECTIONS and go out tonight to genuinely meet new people. You could actually meet someone AMAZING! I am feeling this twinflame vibe very strongly. You can too tune into these energies…with MEDITATION!

Also a good time to ponder about WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A HUMAN? Lot of activity going on in the SUBCONSCIOUS and UNCONSIOUS! I do it all the time!!! Try it! Transitions in life give us mind-space to think of things which we would have not bothered with. However, feeling UP one moment and DOWN the next is also possible. This vacillation will probably keep you in chaos if  you don’t consciously CALM THE FUCK DOWN. Sweety these influxes are for HUMANITY and AQUARIUS will shove a finger into our eyes and show us the TRUTH.

To deny people their human rights is to challenge their very humanity…Nelson Mandela. This is the norm. Human Rights are BEING DENIED at every step of the way. The drone bombings, the Syrian crisis, stoning women who are raped, abusing and molesting children…I could fucking go on and on…but you know exactly what I mean. The Aquarian energy does NOT SUPPORT THIS. Humanity and its greater good is the plan of Aquarius.
Eccentricities and quirkiness is to be fed. Honey there is NO BOX, so fuck that “think outside the box” shit. Nope. The vista is open and is glorious. Take a dip in the waters of existence and embrace the Aquarian energy. This is also the AGE OF AQUARIUS.

Oh, oh…good day for PRIDE MARCHES and any form of unconventional activity. Uranus is in Aries and Jupiter is in Libra. Let us look what this clash of archetypes could mean down here. Tension. Definitely. Who are you? You know who you are? But does that equate to or is similar in some way to what people see? How do people perceive you? Is there a clash? This will be a prominent motif in this cosmic dance.

Who are you? Who does the world think you are? Conflicted? I suggest, look objectively at the two ideas and contradictory opinions. But DO NOT GIVE UP BEING WHO YOU ARE! No way Jose! You are smart and sexy and gorgeous….let no one else tell you otherwise! Just don’t let past bullshit get in your way. Hello, don’t you know?

There is NO PLACE for the PAST with AQUARIUS.

There is this parallel aspect happening Venus in Pisces is squaring Saturn in Sag. Sag is ruled by Jupiter and Pisces is by Neptune. Venus hates to be restricted by SATURN who TEACHES US THE POWER OF LIMITATIONS. Neptune is SPIRITUAL, the higher OCTAVE of VENUS. So there is love but one of a spiritual variety which if not aligned with SPIRITUALITY will bring much conflict. If what you seek does not align with your SOUL EVOLUTION, then boy, you are in for a RUDE AWAKENING. Time to separate EMOTIONS and be super OBJECTIVE.

So Venus will be going retrograde on the 4th.

With Venus going into its pre-shadow on January 30th/31st, there may be some new developments, changes, or reconsiderations unfolding regarding relationships, money, values, pleasures, indulgences, femininity, beauty, lust, and creativity. These Venus themes will go through a ‘figuring out’ process during the retrograde starting March 4th until the post-shadow from mid-April to mid-May. The retrograde portion of this upcoming period will consist of some inward reflection on these Venus themes…CARMEN DE LUCCA COLLECTIVE EVOLUTION

Hello, it’s an Aquarian New Moon! Oh ho, the Sun is also in Aquarius. What more of a hint do we need? The rise of FEMINISM, the protests of the indigenous people for water rights, racism…it’s all making a HIGE COMEBACK! All themes and motifs of the HUMAN CONDITION.

At 8:08pm Mars at 29:52 Pisces Quintiles Pluto at 17:52 Capricorn.

This is a welcome aspect for sure! Mars is set to ingress Aries, but gets magical nod from Pluto that his actions are well-received. Pluto as an authority in Capricorn, will allow the childlike instincts of Mars to create some magical envelope to play in. Sex, passion, financial backing and more will create some magical outcomes that we might have only imagined in our Higher Minds;) Use this energy to your best advantage!…5D ASTROLOGY

Yummy stuff really. You could explore SACRED SEXUALITY and YABYUM meditation during this time. It could create spiritual fireworks if you know how to use your body. Personal pleasure transforms into COSMIC ORGASMS. Love those words. But seriously are you feeling KINDER? Do you feel a connection?

Are your teenage children rebelling? You must work through this with a lot of patience and care. Arouse in them feelings of love and compassion. Spend time with them. Let them explore their styles, sexuality and friendships. Just make sure you are guiding them and educating them about the world.

The Moon in Aquarius decan 1. The needy embryonic Moon is not comfortable in a decan that is so much about cutting the umbilical cord to freedom. It is also one that will tend to rebel against its mother country and feel at odds in whatever home they find themselves. The Moon here is continually searching for the ‘Promised Land’ but rarely finds it. This New Moon Aquarius 1 is so idealistic, that it finds squaring its high expectations with earthly domestic reality extremely hard…DARKSTAR ASTROLOGY

There is a conflicting energy surely. This need to identify with the collective and the need to hold onto our individuality. I think we need to stop focussing on PROMISED LANDS. Who promised it? Why can we not move on? The world is without BRODERS, man made them and look where we are. Polarised. Divisive. Segregated. Selfish.

The Sun is the SELF and the Moon is our internal makeup emotions, feelings, instincts. Reinvention is the name of the game. A reset on ourselves as a WHOLE. Both of them are in Aquarius and we can DO IT.

Sartre, my favourite and I mention him here because I interpret his work as extremely SPIRITUAL and profound. The prevalent energy is all about the EXISTENCE OF HUMAN. Sartre says existence is a result of CHANCE and our FREEDOM creates meaning and purpose and he asks us to RELY ON OUR OWN RESOURCES. Sartre thought that existence manifests itself in the choice of actions, anxiety and freedom of the will. In this way the responsibility of building one’s future is in one’s hands, but the future is uncertain and so one has no escape from anxiety and despair. The choice is ours….whether we look to the heavens for inspiration or whether we are nihilists.

There is no escaping this Sartrian FREEDOM and CHOICE this NEW MOON in Aquarius.

The key to growth is the introduction of higher dimensions of consciousness into our awareness…LAO TSU

Solar Flare Activity

NOAA forecasters estimate a 40% chance of polar geomagnetic storms on Jan. 28th when a stream of fast-moving solar wind is expected to hit Earth’s magnetic field. Arctic sky watchers should be alert for auroras this weekend…SPACE WEATHER

The Sun is a conscious BEING! It is possible to harness the power of the Sun, not in the limited sense Scientists understand. But in a more profound manner. Yogis have been known to harness the INFINITE POWER of the Sun. In fact, in Tibet, in a spiritual place called Gyanganj, there are yogis and occultists who know how to create things harnessing the solar rays.

They know the way to manifest through their MIND-POWER or ICCHASHAKTI and they create whatever they wish to, by projecting solar rays through some type of lens onto normal cotton. Yes true alchemy. But then these yogis of Gyanganj are very high level adepts and have learnt the secrets of space and time.

SOLAR SCIENCE or SURYAVIGYAN is taught to aspiring neophytes. Paramhamsa Vishuddhanada, one of the highest adepts had spoken about this Scientific discipline. The lens is made of CRYSTAL!! We know crystals are ALIVE!

In fact, number 1 of the 7 Hermetic Laws is this: Hermetic Law of Mind; all is mind & everything is energy. That’s the very point I’m trying to drive home here. I feel that studying crystals along with their geometry is the key to understanding the science of the cosmos! Of EVERYTHING! …HIBISCUS MOON

Both Eastern and Western Metaphysics have pointed to the fact that everything is ENERGY which reminds me of Tesla’s iconic quote. “If you want to understand the Universe, think in terms of ENERGY, FREQUENCY, VIBRATION! And what do we know of ENERGY?

In physics, energy is a property whose form can be converted, and whose quantity is transferred by work or heating, thus constituting a capacity limit on work or heat. In Newtonian physics, there is a universal law of conservation of energy which says that energy can be neither created nor be destroyed; however, it can change from one form to another.WIKIPEDIA

So energy is ever transforming! Scientists have proven that CONSCIOUSNESS migrates to another dimension/universe after DEATH! So there is no annihilation of consciousness. It is a FOREVER CONTINUITY!

Therefor it makes perfect sense to call a QUARTZ CRYSTAL, a living breathing being. These lenses they use for Solar Alchemy is CRYSTAL! It is made in Tibet, in esoteric hermitages. These lenses differ greatly in size and shape. I have read that such lenses are not available anywhere else.

The Great White Brotherhood and its many offshoots are the only ones who work with these lenses. Yes it should be wielded by a Yogi for its proper usage, but by itself it is also magical. So a common person can use these lenses, but who knows what they will create? Their MIND is chaotic and cannot muster such amounts of ICCHASHAKTI or occult willpower.

It could potentially be dangerous if a war mongering culture got a hold of these crystals. For if they are pointed at the right trajectory at the Sun, they can be as powerful as a mini Sun! So Tesla’s DEATH RAY could have been based on such tech. But ancient Tibetan, Nepalese and Indian yogis are very capable of using these lenses. Their MIND POWER can create UNIVERSES!

I am translating these bits from a Bengali book called Vishuddhabani and in it there are numerous writings from different disciples who have written about Gyanganj, about Paramhamsa Vishuddhananda and Solar Science.

Swami Vishud­dhanandji (d. 1937)(sometimes spelled: Vishud­dhananda, Vishud­hanan­daa; aka: Gandha Baba, Perfume Saint), well-known for his super­nat­ural pow­ers and said to be an adept associated with the mys­te­ri­ous Gyan­ganj (Jnana­ganj) hermitage somewhere in Tibet —a secret place of great masters — demonstrated this 11cef160933a4f0f49ee22a39b8d0c1epractice in Varanasi and proved that it is not a myth…SWAMI RAMA

My grandfather was his disciple and spent much time with him. My father has a lot of his stories that he keeps feeding me from time to time. My grandfather has witnessed his Guru transform flowers into precious gemstones!

These Beings harness these SOLAR FLARES, sometimes even cause them. To create, to distribute, to balance! Who knows? Who can tell? These things are so out there that it becomes difficult to tag and label them, put them away in a neat and clean storage area! As if!!!

Getting back to Tesla, he knew that the Sun could provide enough energy to power the whole of Earth. He wanted to give humans free tech, electricity and what fucking not! But nope! Lovely humans like J.P.Morgan would make sure Edison gets to be in HIS-STORY! Enough already with the free shit.

Seriously, we don’t need to work and be wage slaves. We need not worry about survival as ABUNDANCE is our true nature, like the SUN. But we are not tapping into our full potential, like we are trying to do with the Sun.

These flares herald great activity flux, up in the heavens and below, on Earth. This comes often as a jolt of energy which could turn violent. Mars is also making his foray into Aries. The lower vibrations of this transit can be quarrels, fights, disagreements, violence, bloodshed. This solar flare could really heat things up and the new moon is the next day!


Let me know whether you feel the Solar pulse or not? Are you connected to the rhythm of the Sun? My heart beats in sync with the Sun, being both my Sun and Ascendant. Even my Vedic Lagna is SIMHA or the LEO/LION. So I am very, very, very entangled with the Sun and feel his movements very strongly. Do you?

A hole in the sun’s atmosphere is directly facing Earth, and it is spewing a stream of solar wind in our direction. This is a “coronal hole” (CH)–a region in the sun’s atmosphere where the magnetic field opens up and allows solar wind to escape. The emerging stream of gas should reach Earth on Jan. 27th or 28th and influence our planet for 2 to 3 days. ..SPACE WEATHER

What do you think is this STREAM OF SOLAR WIND??? This is pure SOLAR ENERGY coming at us at high speeds. The AURORAS will surely sizzle! What are the yogis and occultists of Gyanganj doing with all this SOLAR ENERGY? Are they harnessing it? When will we truly realise the SUN’S full potential? Hopefully soon…

A bit about me!!!

“Love is the only reality and it is not a mere sentiment. It is the ultimate truth that lies at the heart of creation.” – Rabindranath Tagore
That is the very core BELIEF of my heart.
Born into a Bong family. Tagore! Ray, Bankim…the usual baggage.
AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF A YOGI – my Bible. Childhood afternoons spend in writing, dreaming or drawing mythic lands. Listening to my grandmom’s stories of her Guru and other Kriya Yogis, I grew up with Maa Kali and supernatural stories of tantra and yoga. We are from a long line of Goddess worshippers.
“You can’t cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water.” – Rabindranath Tagore
And that is how I began my spiritual journey, after staring at the sea of humanity, I finally dived in and joined the Cosmic Dance. Awoke to my purpose. Awoke to DIVINE LOVE!
My formative years were spent trying to understand the mystery of the Dark Goddess. I don’t know why I was so attracted to her. Her stories, her folklore, her subversive attitude. The first symbol of feminism in my life. My work comes from an intuitive force I attribute to the Goddess Principle. Sometimes she is Kali, sometimes Durga, sometimes Isis, Hecate or Diana…she is the feminine principle, the Creatrix.
Whenever the Ganga sagar mela would come to the banks of the Ganges in Ootram Ghat, I would make it a point to visit. Whenever I could, I began to spend time with babas, sadhus, pir babas, Sikh yogis, Christian mystics, tarot readers, astrologers. I was insatiable when it came to the occult world and I learnt pretty young the basics of studying a chart.
My grandfather was a high level initiate of a Mahayogi and used to travel around Tibet and the Himalayas, Banaras and Gaya and was often gone for days. My father told me stories of Mahavatar Babaji and Gyanganj which I lapped up. Shambala or Gyanganj and the Immortals of the Spiritual Brotherhood that lived there fascinated me.
The Maha and Ardha Kumbha Melas were major spiritual awakening times for me. Mixing with a wide Diaspora of Yogis, sadhaks, tantrics from around the world, my knowledge was deepened. The Babas let me linger on, photographing them, interviewing them and learning about esoteric sadhanas from there like wide-mouthed children…This led to a deep profound love for the spiritual world.
“The butterfly counts not months but moments, and has time enough.” – Rabindranath Tagore
My initiation happened in tantra and yoga a few years back, but I have been treading this path forever, I feel.
I knew my time would arrive, when I could pursue spirituality and actually make it my life’s mission without any distractions. The time is rife.
I am born a psychic and an empath. Empaths are emotional mirrors to people around them. The most powerful empath is known as Heyoka, the sacred clown or fool. It is this fool archetype that plays powerfully in my life. The Fool of the tarot. The sacred fool destroys structures and patterns of our well-ordered world run by foolish fools. The wise fool provides truth, balance, play, recreation, destruction, creation, change. As the holy fool I will bring us change. I can conduct your emotions, feel them like you. From there, comes my power to heal you. I feel the need to heal you like I would to heal myself.
My philosophy is simple – live a life that is environmentally sustainable and spiritually fulfilling. My passion lies in helping you explore spirituality, freedom, happiness and cosmic orgasms.
So getting back to my spiritual journey…I was also researching and studying Theosophy and its Magnum Opus, The Secret Doctrine, Alice Bailey, Alexandra David Neel, Agni Yoga, so much more and getting deeper into the occult. At the same time, I kept up the reading in Hindi and Bengali, reading a number of well known spiritual books ranging from writings of Ramakrishna, Vivekananda to Aurobindo and Mother, from Crowley to Gurjeiff, and Kalachakra tantra to Yoni tantra.
“Reach high, for stars lie hidden in you. Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal.” – Rabindranath Tagore
This is my very ethos…
It feels like I have waited for this moment all my life. My quest in trying to find and team up with kindred spirits. I want to share my love with you and whatever knowledge I have gleaned from life and there are many tools I use.
Astrology, Tarot, Switchwords, Energy Circles, Number therapy, Colour therapy, Touch therapy, Chants, Crystals and Stones, Singing bowls and so much more. I have been actively learning astrology and reading charts for over a decade. Each chart to me points out how each human is unique and irreplaceable.
Around 2000, I held my first tarot deck procured from the flea market in Goa. That night, I went to the rooftop and in silvery moonlight, began to look through the imagery. It still gives me goose bumps. Whatever happened that night, whatever my psyche perceived, I was enchanted(the perfect word, yes) with the tarot. The deep, penetrating archetypes of the tarot drew me in and began to whisper to me. Today I own and use numerous cards for multiple reasons- as a tool of self actualization and meditation, of self reflection and analysis. To me it is not a mere fortune telling tool, it is so much more. I use a form of intuitive tarot.

“We live in the world when we love it.” – Rabindranath Tagore
This is how I live- as a mother, as a woman, as a lover…
To enter into altered states of reality, I like to combine dance, yoga and meditation. I also use numbers and Switchwords as combined modalities with these and then of course colour therapy, stones and crystals and singing bowl meditations are my personal favourites.
I was always snubbed for my over-active imagination which got me speaking to trees and animals. Oh yes, I began hugging them too. You can try hugging your own tree to see if it brings a bit of magic to your life. Don’t believe me! Do it!
And dancing is the best form of therapy ever and I am the Dakini, the sky dancer of Buddhist myths! You are too, feel the Dakini energy empower you. Nietzsche was correct when he said that there is more wisdom in the human body than in all the libraries! Immersing yourself in dance, healing with the power of this ancient feminine practice- nothing can be so liberating.
A vegan for over six years now, I work closely with street rescues, fostering and homing abandoned, sick animals. I have been a caregiver to several species and loved them with everything I had. Working in animal rescue opened my heart chakra and watching so much death and devastation and physical agony made me aware of IMPERMANENCE and my own vulnerability! Death is inevitable…In my darkest night of the soul came the answer, in my most vulnerable moment I saw that life and death are two sides of the same coin, inseparable. Life is too complex, yet too simple and the only way to heal is LOVE. Selfless, unconditioned LOVE.
I have provided healing to so many animals in pain, also birds and fishes, in so many cases they survived, but in many they went over the rainbow bridge without much pain and I am super grateful to the Universe for that.
“Let your life lightly dance on the edges of Time like dew on the tip of a leaf.” –Rabindranath Tagore
Sacred sexuality is the basis of all creation- the yin-yan, the Sun-Moon, the father-mother, the male-female polarities. I was heartbroken with some of the experiences I had in the world. After much pain and suffering, I did some soul searching and then magic happened. I began a relationship with myself. I learnt to fall in love with myself, I learnt to pleasure myself and when least expected, true love walked into my life.

When we sit in yabyum, we enter a world of stillness and tranquillity, yet we fear touch. Think of a couple embracing naked. It is not lewd or salacious, it is about human connection and touch.

Break all the conditioning and explore your divine sacred sexuality. I provide single and couple support and guidance to attract conscious relationships through various practices like mandalas, guided meditations and others. Exploring tantric and modern psychological techniques, my Sacred Sexuality workshop helps you get Prajna or skilful insight and align with sexual empowerment.

“Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it.” –Rabindranath Tagore


My USP is using traditional modalities and merging it with cutting-edge psychological and neuro-linguistic tools, mixing and matching contemporary ideas with primordial ancient practices.
I heal and work from a point of total love and surrender to the Cosmos in all its multiplicity. My approach is simple- Think less, feel more and love most!
“Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add colour to my sunset sky.”
― Rabindranath Tagoredsc_0006


“Perhaps there is a pattern set up in the heavens for one who desires to see it, and having seen it, to find one in himself.” -Plato

I’m not a FORTUNE TELLER, I AM A MYSTICAL PSYCHOLOGIST. I will NOT tickle your neurosis by predicting when you will die, whether you will marry your crush or whether you will get the job. My use of astrology is far deeper. I use the planetary archetypes to explain the human journey. Each planet works through certain types of energies and where it is placed on your chart decides the vibes or energies that will surround you during that time. I will indeptually look at and analyse these archetypes and give you an understanding of what kind of energies you have to deal with. I will work with you on how to address these energies and how to work WITH THESE ENERGIES, NOT AGAINST THEM.

By not taking the predictive approach, I seek to look deeper into your mental and psycho somatic makeup through the eyes of a psychologist, because the sky full of stars gives us such profound insights into humanity that it leaves me speechless.

How can predictive astrology help your soul growth? I am not interested in the mundane future, I am looking at bending your mind to multiple possibilities and the mystery of existence. There are many astrologers out there who do predictive astrology, go to them if you must.

But if you come to me, be prepared to go on a journey of self discovery. My friend, I am going with you on this journey for exploring your mind gives me invaluable insights into my own psyche. Helping you understand yourself better makes me UNDERSTAND MYSELF BETTER.

I invoke your LIGHT BODY with a spiritual approach to divination. When Mars goes direct and steps into Aries like it will do very soon, we must work through the ACTION ORIENTED MASCULINE ARCHETYPE who is all about ACTION and MOVEMENT! When this transit happens and where it falls in your chart will show what archetypes you need to understand. And it reveals what approach we can use. It is deep. AS ABOVE, SO BELOW.

The dance of the planets above are rhythmically enacted below, in the human body and the collective. Your physical body is a UNIVERSE. So I will explore your NEEDS, CORE BELIEFS and how you can work towards SOUL EVOLUTION. How can you tackle the Mercury Retrograde? I will tell you how you can work through it, depending on where it is taking place in your chart.

Every transit, aspect, progression provides opportunities to GROW. Sometimes we get a hold of the RESET BUTTON and we press it. A new vista dawns before us, but sometimes we remain clamped up in self limitations and fail to make use of the energies available.

I try to integrate the planetary archetypes to psychological ones, physical knowledge to metaphysics. I draw from esoteric and occult knowledge of various traditions to understand astrology and to synthesise it for practical usage.


The Primordial Substance had not yet passed out of its precosmic latency into differentiated objectivity, or even become the (to man, so far,) invisible Protyle of Science. But, as the hour strikes and it becomes receptive of the Fohatic impress of the Divine Thought (the Logos, or the male aspect of the Anima Mundi, Alaya) — its heart opens. It differentiates, and the three (Father, Mother, Son) are transformed into four. Herein lies the origin of the double mystery of the Trinity and the immaculate Conception. The first and Fundamental dogma of Occultism is Universal Unity (or Homogeneity) under three aspects. This led to a possible conception of Deity, which as an absolute unity must remain forever incomprehensible to finite intellects. “If thou wouldest believe in the Power which acts within the root of a plant, or imagine the root concealed under the soil, thou hast to think of its stalk or trunk and of its leaves and flowers. Thou canst not imagine that Power independently of these objects. Life can be known only by the Tree of Life. ..HPB

That ONE BE-NESS becomes MUKLTIPLE UNIVERSES and everything inside of them. So we humans, like the orbs above are all part of that UNITARY CONSCIOUSNESS or PARABHRAHM. Then everything is connected. We are made of STAR DUST! Can you grasp how fucking sublime this is! WE ARE THE STARS!

Our journey is to return to this SOURCE CODE! Astrology is a tool for just that.  It makes you aware of the symbiotic synchronicities between planetary positions and movement and how it affects us in this reality. It guides you to YOUR DEEPEST TRUTH! It facilitates an INNER MONOLOGUE! We all need that from time to time!

When you get your chart done by me, I will discuss with you the energies that typify that particular transit and it speaks volumes about yourself and your journey. My intention is to harmonise the above with the below and get you dancing to these energies. Shed your fears, shed your inhibitions…

Yes we make our own destiny but my friend no one can shield you from your KARMA and no karma is not a BITCH!(what a piece of misogynistic meme)! Karma is the ETERNAL FLOW OF CAUSATION. In simple terms, YOU REAP WHAT YOU SOW.

My interest here is to help you learn and assimilate these life lessons. Life gives you thesis and antithesis, I will give you SYNTHESIS!

No, no…do not force me to tell you if she is the one, or whether you should start a legal case, but I will tell you whether the planets are supporting that kind of endeavour. You know what I have seen every fucking single time while working on a chart- you cannot escape the nature of the transit. No matter how hard you try. Run as fast as you can, but if the planets above want you to learn something, you have to learn it. And all your lessons are BASED ON YOUR KARMA! Life is mysterious when it imparts a lesson and when you study the sky full of stars, you can know what lessons are on their way.

The “Son” of the immaculate Celestial Virgin (or the undifferentiated cosmic protyle, Matter in its infinitude) is born again on Earth as the Son of the terrestrial Eve — our mother Earth, and becomes Humanity as a total — past, present, and future — for Jehovah or Jod-he-vau-he is androgyne, or both male and female. Above, the Son is the whole Kosmos; below, he is Mankind. The triad or triangle becomes Tetraktis, the Sacred Pythagorean number, the perfect Square, and a 6-faced cube on Earth. The Macroprosopus (the Great Face) is now Microprosopus (the lesser face); or, as the Kabalists have it, the “Ancient of Days,” descending on Adam Kadmon whom he uses as his vehicle to manifest through, gets transformed into Tetragrammaton. It is now in the “Lap of Maya,” the Great Illusion, and between itself and the Reality has the Astral Light, the great Deceiver of man’s limited senses, unless Knowledge through Paramarthasatya comes to the rescue…HPB

The other day, I did a chart for a Pisces Moon, Aquarius Sun and Leo Ascendant!! So this person wanted to know her bad days and good days, whether this guys she likes is the one, whether her dad will leave everything to her brother, yada, yada, yada…What did I do? I hugged her and explained that if I tll her the bad day or whether this guy will cheat on her, then I BECOME A PART OF HER PROBLEM. For I don’t solve anything, but FEED HER FEARS. This can reinforce negativity and make her dependant on such mundane predictions.

But I am a solution, not the problem, which is why I use the PSYCHOLOGICAL APPROACH to astrology as these are the models that TRANSFORM and CREATE.

So remember, I will NOT FEED YOUR FEARS and go under the blanket when a fearful transit makes an appearance. I will hold your hands and FACE IT WITH YOU. I will let you bring FREE WILL in the dynamics.

Sartre claims that not only is there FREE WILL, but we are CONDEMNED TO IT, which ultimately places all responsibility in his hands not only for his life, but everyone else’s life also.

The choice is yours…will you look up at the sky and know that you are here for a greater purpose and no matter what comes your way, you are ready for it…in fact you will embrace it. You will DANCE to it. Dance to the DIVINE PLAY that is being orchestrated by the ONE CONSCIOUSNESS.

“Those who have knowledge, don’t predict. Those who predict, don’t have knowledge.”Lao Tzu


Venus Retrograde 2017

Venus is a very interesting planet. It is perhaps the most closely connected with the earth in a number of ways; and it has been said that wherever Venus goes, there goes the earth also, and vice versa. As phrased in The Secret Doctrine (II,30-1):Venus is the most occult, powerful, and mysterious of all the planets; the one whose influence upon, and relation to the Earth is most prominent. . . According to the Occult Doctrine, this planet is our Earth’s primary, and its spiritual prototype. . . .“Every sin committed on Earth is felt by Usanas-Sukra. The Guru of the Daityas is the Guardian Spirit of the Earth and Men. Every change on Sukra is felt on, and reflected by, the Earth.”…HPB

The Planet Venus has been given many names throughout history. It has been called the evening and the morning star, the dawn star, Eosphorus, Hesperus and Lucifer. It is the planet closest to Earth and has been called Earth’s sister planet, even her twin. It is easily seen in the sky in the evening and morning and is the brightest “star” in the heavens. It was second only to the sun and the moon in significance by the reckoning of many ancient cultures.

Sumerian hymn to Innana addressing the planet Venus: ‘To her who appears in the sky, to her who appears in the sky, I want to address my greeting, to the hierodule who appears in the sky, I want to address my greeting, to the great queen of heaven, Inanna, I want to address my greeting, to her who fills the sky with her pure blaze, to the luminous one, to Inanna, as bright as the sun, to the great queen of heaven.”

“Venus is the power that we invoke in spring, in the garden, when things begin growing. And we call the evening star Venus.” Ursula K. Le Guin

In Roman mythology, Venus was the goddess of love, sex, beauty, and fertility. She was the Roman counterpart to the Greek Aphrodite. However, Roman Venus had many abilities beyond the Greek Aphrodite; she was a goddess of victory, fertility, and even prostitution. In Chinese astrology, Venus is associated with the element metal (or gold), which is unyielding, strong and persistent. In Indian astrology, Venus is known as Shukra and represents wealth, pleasure and reproduction.

Venus is such a close connection, it is actually the second brightest object in the sky and is symbolic of tempestuous passions she could stir up in the heart’s of the Gods. I have my Venus in Virgo. However, my attention to for “little details” is appalling. Virgo freakishness of combing through every fucking thing with a tiny comb. No. I don’t do that.

I am here to discuss Venus, invoke her powers of HARMONY, BEAUTY, BALANCE and discuss her journey in 2017. I will discuss how we can awaken Venutian energies with stones, meditation and switch words. Identification, love, empathy are keywords of this energy. Friday is Venus’ day.

What is Venus Retrograde? Occasionally, Venus appears to be moving backwards in the sky. “Appears” is the key word here, because, technically speaking, no planet actually moves backwards in their orbits around the Sun. In fact, they don’t even slow down. Retrograde-station-direct cycles are essentially illusions that result from our point of view from Earth, simply because the Earth is also orbiting the Sun at a different speed than the other planets. Venus is Retrograde approximately 40-43 days every 18 months. CAFE ASTROLOGY

Venus retrograde 2017 lasts from March 5 to April 15 and spans 13º Aries to 26º Pisces. What a mix- Aries and Pisces! A volatile combo if the MALE and FEMALE!!!

Now while gazing at this chart, I was stunned to see how sexually energised this station is! Celestial orbs and our human bodies dosed on hormones are going all out on this passionate sexcapade. Uranus and Eris will be triggered by Jupiter in diplomatic Libra.

A stellium is formed and its fiery as it takes place in Aries. Venus is separated from her lover and she likes it not. The last ten days are the most active with these energies. Aries/Libra is activated. Venus is about to embrace Mars but then she retreats back into Pisces. Mysterious, occult Pisces.

What is this retrograde going to teach us collectively?

I feel there will be a certain female figure who will come into prominence. There could be a sex-related scandal as Venus metamorphoses from evening to morning star.

Things heat up as Venus moves closer to the Sun and with her transformation from evening to morning star. But will the Sun devour Venus in the process? 25th could be a day you can get creative solutions to lingering problems.

Venus does have a lot to face in her quest till she becomes Lucifer or the morning star.

Lucifer means lightbringer, from the Latin lux “light” and ferre “to bear or bring.” The word Lucifer is found in only one place in the Bible — Isaiah 14:12 — but only in the King James and related versions: “How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! . . .”  In other translations we find: “O shining star of the dawn!” (Moffatt) or “O morning-star, son of the dawn!” (Hebrew Bible). The King James Version is based on the Vulgate, the Latin translation of Jerome. Jerome translated the Hebrew helel (bright or brilliant one) as “lucifer,” which was a reasonable Latin equivalent. And yet it is this lucifer, the bright one or lightbearer, that came to be understood by so many as the name for Satan, Lord of Darkness…HPB

But before either the Old or New Testament, Venus was known as the “Morning Star.”  Plato, who is thought to have been born in 428 b.c.e. and therefore predates the New Testament and some of the rewrites of the Old Testament, wrote in his work called Timaeus:
Time, then, and the heaven came into being at the same instant in order that, having been created together, if ever there was to be a dissolution of them, they might be dissolved together. It was framed after the pattern of the eternal nature, that it might resemble this as far as was possible; for the pattern exists from eternity, and the created heaven has been, and is, and will be, in all time. Such was the mind and thought of God in the creation of time. The sun and moon and five other stars, which are called the planets, were created by him in order to distinguish and preserve the numbers of time; and when he had made their several bodies, he placed them in the orbits in which the circle of the other was revolving — in seven orbits seven stars. First, there was the moon in the orbit nearest the earth, and next the sun, in the second orbit above the earth; then came the morning star and the star sacred to Hermes, moving in orbits which have an equal swiftness with the sun, but in an opposite direction; and this is the reason why the sun and Hermes and Lucifer overtake and are overtaken by each other.

Plato clearly here is speaking of Lucifer as being the actual planet Venus, with Hermes as being the planet Mercury, “moving in orbits which have an equal swiftness with the Sun.”  It appears that the misogyny of the early Solar cults and the later Roman church might have had a part to play in linking the feminine Venus with Satan.

When Venus is in retrograde, one may be attracted to unattainable love. There may be covert rompings and juicy sexcapades. Be aware!

Venus will be squaring Saturn. This day will be very difficult to express ourselves. Express our loves.

Pisces decan 3 can make indulgent Venus debauched enough already, but now she is in her Lucifer phase AND square Saturn. This will bring out Venus’s dark, treacherous side, the Babylonian goddess of war Ishtar!! Here ‘sex’ and ‘conflict’ will be addressed one way or another. It could be through the catharsis of creative art or it can be through falling into the trap of seduction and indolence. Pisces tends to be a quite courtly sign, swooning and romantic but not with a particularly high libido….Darkstar Astrology

To end this dance and period of romantic and aesthetic introspection, Venus goes direct on Apr 14th.

I know lot of astrologers recommend not to have a love affair or buy luxury goods during Venus retro, but I personally think, it is entirely upto your intuition. Some of my projects have been birthed in Mars and Merc retro. Venus retro is also remarkable if you can channel this deeply feminine energy.

Venus is the harmonising influence of the Fifth Ray, which serves to blend and fuse opposites into greater creative wholes. Venus always gives the potential for greater evolution, development, and abundance of spiritual potential to any planet that she touches. Naturally, when such contact is by a difficult aspect, these benefits may be a bit harder to achieve, but the potential for victory is there…ALICE BAILLEY, ESOTERIC ASTROLOGY

There will be TEMPTATION! Venus is virginal in the first phase of retrogradation. Resist the urge to get back with an ex you don’t need. Sexual pull may tug at your heart, but again, use your powers of judgement.

However, if you wish to channel in Venus’ attraction, I could suggest a SWITCHWORD very effective during this retro time. This will make you appear irresistible to members of the opposite sex. VENUS-HOLE-CURVE-BRING-AMAZING-PRAISE-PERFECT-HOLIDAY-GIVE-TAKE. Chant this mantra constantly and watch MAGICK happen!

In medicine Venus is associated with the lumbar region, the veins, parathyroids, throat and kidneys. During the retro scene, it is best to take care of afflictions resulting from these internal organs. Meditation and yoga which addresses such issues will be beneficial like Paripurna Navasana(Boat pose), Baddha Konasana(bound angle pose), Bhujangasana and others. If you want a detailed list of asanas that will work for you, ping meVenus Giclee on Canvas by artist Michael Parkes

ROSE QUARTZ MEDITATION will be extremely helpful. You could wear it as a pendant or do a ritual with it. Even Jade, emerald, turquoise are helpful and in certain cases where grounding is required, go for Tourmaline. Make sure they are energised.

In the Jewish Cabbala, Venus is the seventh sphere: Victory or Netzach. This forms part of the lowest triad of spheres, together with Hôd (Mercury) and Yesôd (the Moon). Dion Fortune called this the astral triad, the domain of magic where the power of Netzach is shaped by Hôd and manifested in Yesôd. Situated at the base of the pillar of action, Netzach manifests the creative power in emotion and instinct, and all human creativity, both sexual and imaginative The latter includes the arts, and also the god-forms of polytheism, created by man in his own image, yet nevertheless reflecting something of the nature of the universe. Both desire and imagination are to some extent superficial. The term glamour originally meant a magic illusion cast upon something, and the victory of Netzach involves triumphing over the glamour of its outer manifestations to reach that which they symbolise. An ancient text calls Netzach the Hidden Intelligence, “because its brilliant outpouring is received by those spiritual virtues which are seen, in the ecstasy of faith, only by the initiated”.

Animals associated with Venus include the sparrow, dove and swan, so if you’re looking at ANIMAL SHAMANISM and channelling, then you can call upon them to solve your issues.

SPARROW TOTEM: In addition to inspiring us to love ourselves, the sparrow spirit guide also symbolises other joyful and caring qualities, such as creativity, community, friendliness, and the importance of simplicity.

The Greek goddess of love, Aphrodite (Venus in Roman mythology) is often depicted holding a dove in her hand or surrounded by a flock of white doves. Aphrodite’s seven daughters were called a “flock of doves”. Kamadeva, the Hindu god of love is known to ride a dove. The Dove is also a SYMBOL OF PURITY. This totem could help you channel some of that pristine purity.

The Swan is also a symbol of PURE SPIRIT. In India, it is of utmost value and Paramahamsa (परमाहंस), also spelled paramahansa or paramhansa, is a Sanskrit religio-theological title of honour applied to Hindu spiritual teachers who are regarded as having attained enlightenment. The title literally means “supreme swan,” and symbolises spiritual discrimination. You can call upon the totem of the swan to give you healing and spiritual transformation.

Working with colours during this time is also amazing- green, sky blue, rose, white…wear and use these. If you want a more detailed and tailored meditation, contact me. Use incense of course- cherry, vanilla, almond, apricot, sandalwood.

Venus is farther along in the number of rounds run through in this solar manvantara than the earth, and therefore is more advanced in this sense; but the planetary spirit of earth is nevertheless spiritually more advanced because older in number of cosmic manvantaras…HPB



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There are infinite worlds out there, nothing is inanimate in our universe, oops sorry, the multiverse.

You are there too. In the many-worlds that exist, all the possible outcomes of a quantum interaction are realized. You know all that you see around you, the world, the stars, your family, your lover, the Universe; it’s not just a Universe, but a multiverse, actually infinite multiverses floating around in the quantum foam!

Think about all the fiction you’ve read, it’s all real and is happening right as you read these lines. Gregor Samsa is metamorphosing right now into that giant insect, Muersault is attending his mother’s funeral after which he will engage in sex and then kill the Arab, humans do things without a purpose and war is its reaction, the underground man is rambling with bitterness in the underground. It’s all there and it’s happening right now.

Amazing stuff right?

Ghosts are memories of things that have never happened…but then what has happened and what has not? What is real and what is not?

 The physical space that you inhabit, is that real? You can feel it, smell it, touch it, so it must be real, right? But how do you quantify its reality?

 Nothing happens here which is unnecessary, the great Eastern metaphysics say.

 No jiva ever comes into existence. There exists no cause that can produce it. The supreme truth is that nothing ever is born.”- Gaudapada’s Karika Chapter II Verse 48

This stands as the very basic crux to this text- it’s all an illusion, so one karmically, through kriya and kripa of the mahatmas can change possibilities and thereby altering results, the very fabric of reality.

Spirit falls into matter and becomes these physical bodies which experience
existence, each in their own peculiar way gathering more experience for the conscious evolution of mankind.

Let’s shun absolutism, bad or pure good is purely relative and open to interpretation, everything is so very interrelated, the quantum entanglement.

 What’s a smile without tears? What’s a rainbow without stormy skies? If we know not how to cry, how can we laugh??

 THE PLAN is an allegory told through three divergent points of views in BOOK-I. What happens when TIME tells you a story? Yes TIME, the silent ruler of our lives, the witness to it all, the rise and fall of mighty civilisations, kings and power brokers, death and famine, creation and destruction.

 Nina Ray is our second narrator, the individual who has birthed THE PLAN not out of pleasure, but through extreme pain and suffering that comes about with losing the one you love most.

Dr.V is our final narrator and in the most obvious interpretation stands as the antagonist. He’s not alive anymore as he speaks to us as a ghost inhabiting dark, astral planes of existence, he tells us how and why situations and society creates a sociopathic monster like him, we eventually discover the reason he rapes and brutalizes this young budding starlet who’d come to him for a breast augmentation procedure.

In BOOK-II, there are multiple narration points- Zeenia takes over, we have their mother or ma as they call her describe her emotions for the first time, we have dadu tell us his point of view and of course Time and Dr.V continue on.

MONOZYGOTIC TWINS, Nina and Zeenia Ray, they shared the same placenta and the same amniotic sac, can you imagine that? They are not only identical twins, but the closest DNA structure. However they are like chalk and cheese in all ways.

“As a man soweth, so shall he also reap…it’s the NATURAL LAW, unchanging, eternal and universal…it does not have a beginning and it never ceases to be…” -BHAGAVAD GITA

What is this reality, this Universe, but an endless law of causation? A rape happens which changes all lives involved, which is the reason THE PLAN is birthed.

 ZEENIA RAY, a lesbian, is trying to get a huge break in an A-grade film in the world of Bollywood; she’s already a pretty well known model for print and video. Also seen on the ramp for prestigious shows like Lakme Fashion week, she’s quite popular in the circuit with her wild and party girl image.

Once in a lifetime do such offers pop up, but Zeenia, lean and petite, needs those 36D cups to effectively gyrate her bosoms, dhak-dhak style in those slinky cholis, yes, such matters are of national importance to the public and of course the fillumwalas! So obsessed does she become that she sees humongous breasts wherever she looks, telly, hoardings, films, they’re everywhere, mocking her, shaming her tiny size 30A.

One night she’s at a club in SOBO with her girlfriend, meets a casting director who introduces her to an eminent plastic surgeon Dr.V. Zeenia throwing caution to the winds, calls him for an appointment.

Little did she know that Dr.V, a sociopath had other plans. That night watching them both, she and her girlfriend on the dance floor, he had made a resolve. Zeenia Ray must be shown the correct place of a woman. Yes, he’d lured her in as a mouse with cheese and then brutalized her and discarded her like a used condom.

NINA RAY- a poetess immersed in her world of haikus and poems, words and rhymes, ideas and concepts, beauty and angst, she’s also a post graduation student in Psychology and in whatever time she can spare, she volunteers at a shelter for abused children. She carries on numerous programmes of literacy, health and hygiene and does puppeteering in the “school in a bus”. 

Nina once interested in Rustam Mistry, one of her psychology professors, gave up on that crush after waiting for him to make the move, but when he finally managed to approach her it was too late, she was already deep in love with Frank Stringer, a photographer and documentarian from London.

Frank is here, in Bombay to explore, shoot and discover. He remembers his childhood in Pondicherry, at Auroville, in the ashram where he was born to parents who were disciples of the Mother and followers of Sri Aurobindo, but now cannot link his childhood days in the idyllic Auroville to the sewer infested, insanely populated city of Mumbai.

Crazily noisy, pokey elbows, disgruntled faces and Pan Parag spit and urine adorning public walls, beggars, transvestites in the traffic signals; garbage vomited by the sea, this city is definitely not something one can prepare for, it’s an overload on the senses.

However, there is Nina and he falls in love. There’s an element of mystery in her, yet, she’s so open, caring with the shelter kids, a truly free spirit, he muses. Things move pretty fast between them and in no time, they’re living together in her apartment with her feline companion Muffin whom Nina loves more than she loves anything in the universe.

Zeenia is seeing Melissa, a model as well, but unlike the crazy party girl that she is, Mel has a good head over her shoulders. They’re very much in love and share their Yari Road apartment with a crippled dog Zeenia had rescued as a pup from the garbage dumps of Andheri. Bhola is his name and they love him to bits and pieces.

A foreboding troubles Nina, a little girl visits her, from years caked in the dust of memories stored away in the HD of her mind. It’s her sister from when they were both seven. What is she trying to tell her? Why does she cry tears of blood? Why does she continuously ask for help? Why are their identities continually being mixed up?

Then one day, reality as they know it shatters into smithereens.

We start Chapter-1, A MALEFACTION with a gruesome murder, so vicious and personal that it’ll churn any hard-ass crime scene investigator’s stomach. Multiple savage stab wounds, chopped off testicles and a dingy hotel room in SOBO bathed in blood. THE PLAN is laughing; its final validity is ascertained. It exists!

The murderer, a woman in her early twenties sits catatonic over the dead body as billion thoughts flicker in her mind. On closer inspection, one can discover a catharsis in those eyes, no matter how dead they may seem otherwise.

The brute had to be destroyed before he can perpetrate such violence on an innocent again; Mahishashura had to be defeated by the Devi Durga.

Ya devi sarvabhuteshu shakti – rupena samsthita
Namas tasyai, namas tasyai, namas tasyai namo namah….

There is one face, with a white flowing beard that persists in her memory; it’s her dadu, the Bengali appellation for grandfather. Her dear beloved dadu!

Dadu had brought the two sisters up, after their parents had died in the chardham yatra during severe floods and landslides. Dadu was not the typical fast paced, money grabbing, spiritually barren materialist that you see today, he was a man who understood the fundamentals of action, reaction, of the karmic flow of things, imparted the hoary wisdom tradition of Sanatan Dharma to whatever degree he could to the girls. Also a painter and sculptor depicting surrealistic realities, he was a kriya yogi from the mystical lineage of Mahavatar Babaji.

What is kriya yoga?

It’s an ancient scientific tradition based on the practitioner residing in the blissful state of atman through various esoteric practises of pranayama, meditation and mantras which has been revived by Mahavatar Babaji during these times. Lord Krishna had given this science to Arjuna in the times of the Mahabharata, they say Sant Kabira, Guru Nanak, Meera Bai and Jesus were all practitioners of this art.

Dadu’s gurudeva happens to be Bhupendranath Sanyal Mahasaya, a friend and colleague of Rabindranath Tagore, a professor at Vishwabharati, Shantiniketan and the disciple of Lahiri Mahasaya to whom Babaji imparted this secret knowledge.

Dadu is one of the most important characters of THE PLAN, it’s due to his kriya-shakti Dr.V is guided through the dismal astral planes of existence.

Dr.V is unable to perceive his face, sees the outline and the white beard, a radiant emission of bio photons. Dadu shows him the past, their karmic connection, his evolution as different life forms, as different species and finally he meets Mahavatar Babaji. He ages thirty years in a few hours, is transported to the Himalayas and comes face to face with the kriya masters. He discovers the intrinsic holographic nature of reality and is shown different worlds and divergent realities, in the multiverses.

 And then, a whack! Reality swirls and twirls again.

You don’t exist, I don’t exist, this story doesn’t exist, and we’re all as unreal as the Universe itself, Dr.V realises after a myriad of spiritual experiences. He had raped Zeenia as a corrective measure to turn her towards men.

 Lesbianism to him is abhorrent, it’s a perversion and he decides to show her that a woman’s place is by her man, preferably in the kitchen, birthing his children and supporting him. What’s this woman’s lib? What’s this girl on girl? It’s just a subterfuge to get guys to buy porn, but how can it be a way of life? It’ll surely ruin the fabric of the family on which our society stands.

Little do we know that he’s had to deal with quite a bit in his childhood and has experienced one such corrective rape.

The exposition charts out this character’s point of view, his deep rooted misogyny and lesbophobia. We get glimpses of the afterlife embodied in numerous myths across the world through time.

 We travel to the Judgement day of the dead; we experience the dismal astral planes of existence, the inhabitants of such realms are distressed souls with morbid expressions, hollowness, their very being.

 Dr. V begins to explore the dark facets of his psycho-somatic make-up; he takes us through his abused and neglected childhood, he’d seen his father discipline his mother on his fifth birthday. His parents were dead that very day, his father having shot his mother and then committed suicide. But why?

 The only remnant of that painful legacy is he himself, in this world, all alone, burning with hatred and resentment. We see him develop into a sociopath through medical school and later on he decides to become a plastic surgeon, what better way to play GOD?

 He takes us on a journey through his love of bondage, S&M and erotic asphyxiation and other fetishes of a deeply disturbed mind. Materialism is his sole mantra as he worships his swanky wheels’, gold Rolexes, his eight thousand dollar suits and limited edition Mont Blanc pens and other fineries.

 The Preludes, they were his escape, the repeating motifs sometimes stirred in him a deep spiritual yearning, sometimes they strangulated his very being, they awakened in him guilt and anguish, pathos and regret, the music is what kept him at least a bit human.

 Dr.V liked to dress in drag, losing his identity to become his mother Cherlyn; it was a ploy to interact with her in some way. Often he’d become a little boy and play games with her, often he’d stroke himself down there, dressed as her. He’d cum with such intensity that it’d shock and pleasure him immensely.

 “To err is human, to forgive, divine.”  -POPE

 We’re human so we err, how many of us can forgive?

 To most of us it would appear as absurd, but Dr. V’s saviour is dadu, Zeenia and Nina’s grandfather who having risen to great spiritual heights can now discern the truth and decides to guide this lost soul. And finally, Dr. V realises the futility of the violence he has perpetrated against the girls. There is atonement for him too; he is saved by Zeenia who travels through time to stop him from witnessing that brute act on his fifth birthday which transformed his whole personality and made him the cold sociopath of tomorrow.

 How did she do that, you ask? Do you not know that when spiritual giants like Babaji guide you, nothing is impossible, not even time travel! Besides the human body in itself is a time machine and the possibilities are infinite throughout the multiverses.

 Babaji appears throughout this mystical narrative, as Thoth once when he saves Dr. V on the judgement day, he appears to Nina in the psych ward and his famous words Dera danda uthao are the foretellers of a reality shift.

 There are also appearances of the other kriya masters and Rabindranath Tagore in the narrative, the ghosts of Sartre and Derrida are very strong influences here too. Tagore chides Nina for taking death too seriously, but is that even possible? This death, even though it occurred as deep sleep could not be taken lightly in any world, in any reality. To Nina this death was her own death and no words like serious or frivolous could give it any meaning or definition. Its meaning was too deep to fathom.

 Death has been a very frequent visitor in Nina’s life and it has claimed every single person she really cared for, even her cat Muffin who was like her baby, but nothing could prepare her for what would come as an eventuality.

 Zeenia catatonic, brain-dead in a vegetative state on the hospital bed and then she falls asleep. Did Nina manage to do it? Did she pull the plug as her sister telepathically communicated to her? What was Tagore doing there anyway and telling her of how Amal fell asleep? It took her a few seconds to remember Amal, the protagonist of his most famous play Dakghar!

 Dadu is there, she needs him more than ever. Nina will sacrifice everything for her reality to shift. She deserves to be lying on that bed, dead, with her miserable poetry and cynicism, what sense does it make for Zeenia to be there? She is vibrant and fun, not a morose depressed soul. Zeenia was going to be a star and she, a bloody useless poet! What good is that?

 Babaji watches her sacrifice, which from the petty human scale takes on a much grander cosmic connotation.

 Nina hangs, for nine eternities on the great tree of life, the tree which is our greatest sacrifice. She gives everything of herself, she lets herself be split into two halves, one becomes the earth, the other the sky and she sacrifices herself for creation.

 Nina, the primordial one and Zeenia is the “other” she desired for and not for a moment did she hesitate to perform the ultimate sacrifice.

 What good will her sacrifice do? It saves Zeenia in the parallel reality; the rape does not happen as Nina stabs Dr. V to death before he can perpetrate any violence on her sister.

 But Babaji’s game is not over. Zeenia is now shown the sacrifice that Nina has performed for her in the alternate reality. So what does she do? A tear for a tear, an eye for an eye, a life for a life?

 How does this saga of multiple realities in the many worlds culminate?

 There are alternate realities, different worlds where there are unique versions of you and me; these many worlds exist independently, but crossing over them is not so easy, but Nina manages to do it.

 All possible realities exist, all possible outcomes exist, we may not be aware, but it does; in a different reality Nina may be penning down a story about the writer who’s conceived of THE PLAN. It’s absolutely probable.

 This still is just the top layer of the narrative. THE PLAN is a multilayered, surrealistic piece laden with heavy symbolism from a plethora of myths and legends of the world, an enthralling journey that explores the archetypal mind.

 This narrative is non linear, disjointed and fragmented, it conjures up fantastic surreal geographies and landscapes, climates and creatures, Rabindranath Tagore and the Steppenwolf. Time is not linear. There is nothing new in the thought, peruse the Vedanta and you will realize so; but to us it’s chronological because of our limited consciousness.

We’re unable to realize the Universe in all its intricacies, complexities and beauty. Through kriya yoga or spiritual practices or extra sensory perceptions certain individuals have been able to tap into a reservoir of energy-fields which reveal to her impossible realities and fantastic realms.

TAT TVAM ASI- THOU ART THAT, to elucidate it simply, you create your own reality as you’re the ultimate truth encased in flesh with blood gushing inside. YOU ARE THE UNIVERSE!!!

Parallel worlds, different possibilities, and the very nature of consciousness is explored through Science and metaphysics in this novel which is however steeped in Vedic, Tantric and other esoteric symbology making it smell of the soil of Bengal, Bombay and Khandala, the triadic key locations, as we cut back and forth looking into the lives, art and struggle of the main characters- the two girls, dadu and Dr.V.

The culture of this land steeped in ancient tradition is losing its ground to a fast paced globally oriented instant variety; that dichotomy plays a crucial role in this novel. How do we define our Indian/ Bengali roots? It’s also a song of angst at the confusion displayed by the youth about the orient and the occident, the two polarities tugging away at their very core, yet, the heart somewhere deep inside resonates with the rhythm of the roots as it dances away to the ulus, the dhak and the dhol.

There are glimpses of the world of modelling and acting, the unrealistic expectations thrust on these vulnerable girls by the media. The element of temptation is strong and youngsters often succumb to it resulting in disastrous consequences.

The apathy of society, the press, the legal and medical institutions and
their aficionados are all dealt with as is the new obsession with plastic surgery and other body modification techniques.

This novel has a feminist discourse whereby we seek to analyze the position of women in the twenty first century in India. Gender inequality is emphasized, whether she be divine like the Devi Durga or just a mere fictional character like Ophelia in Shakespeare’s Hamlet, in all cases she’s confronted by the sheer oppressive social structure she has to operate within.

 Even Mahishashura laughed at Durga when he saw her, what I have to fight a woman he thought? Her glorious divinity did not even impress itself upon his convoluted mind; he refused to see beyond the fact that she was a woman.

 Nina and Zeenia try to make a break from this matrix of domination, but at every step of the way, they’re faced with the domineering patriarchal society where women are systematically tortured, abused, pressurised and then discarded and it eventually leads to a corrective rape which is the tool of many a domineering society to subjugate free women.

 Isn’t life just great for us women?

Delicate issues like rape and its aftermath, society’s apathy, judgemental people, PTSD and rape trauma syndrome are handled here to throw light on victim shaming, victim ostracisation and how one’s life is ruined after the act; after all she is just “property”.

 Girls are being raped, hung, drowned, there is of course the rape in itself, but how does a man sodomise a child and then insert safety pins and shards of glass bottles in her delicate vagina and how do these miscreants set the victim ablaze after committing such heinous crimes?

 There are gang rapes, public hangings, female foeticide, brutal molestation of children, and rampant abuse of small kids in institutions, slavery and sodomy. What do the dear netas say? Let’s not even go there.

 What else do you expect a girl to do but want to end her life? Suicide it is. So much so for demanding justice!

 This my friends is the society we live in, aren’t you absolutely ecstatic?

No wonder Nina pens these lines, “I feel like I’m in exile, in exile from Time, thrown into this world of ghosts and death and wonder, drifting through unknown seas of confusion, into a world unknown. The exile is from my own self, in an unconscious reality, a dreaded nightmare of new ghoulish phantasmal realities. Exile me out of time, exile me out of space.


How long have I travelled being in exile from the true home? Eternities, now please take me home, take me home.”


Venus sextile Pluto

As a woman I have no country. As a woman my country is the whole world…That’s VIRGINIA WOOLF speaking her brand of truth. Now listen to mine….

There is this energy going around- a need to OPEN UP and EXPRESS! If you know me and my work, then you’re aware of how much I have opened up to you. You see, to me there is no difference between me and you. You, the reader are the ones who suggest meaning to me, the writer and then I, the writer, writes, to tell you the stories.

Don’t be confused. We are two sides of the same coin of life.

I shared an article about a feminist activist who protested topless. The video went viral. Why are so many stories suddenly surfacing of people EXPRESSING THEIR OPINIONS. Lots of deep, dark secrets which lie in the briny deep of our UNCONSCIOUS is surfacing. We will not be able to keep them down.

The words will pour out of us…we will OPEN UP. Venus sextiling Pluto is it. The final dance of TRUTH. Venus is TRUTH, BEAUTY, FREEDOM…LOVE.

Pluto is secrets, conspiracies…whoa! A whole lot more. Plutonian is actually a term. In terms of “personality traits” of a “Plutonian”, they would generally be described as intense, deeply intuitive, perceptive, provocative (for better or worse), and able to see things and situations in ways that many others do not. Negative manifestations can go in any one extreme or another: some can be power-hungry, obsessive, sadistic, manipulative, prone to violence, etc, etc…PLUTONIAN ASTROLOGY

So this Lord of the Netherworld and Venus sextiling will open you up. Nicely. Speak your truth. Shine your light.

I have so much to speak of which is bottling inside of me. Can’t wait to share more of my truth with you…

Oh, oh don’t forget to end the day with intimate, passionate sex. The Moon in watery Scorpio is brimming with sexual possibilities. There could be intense sexcapades if you ALLOW. Let go today…of the pain, the fear, the hurt.

If you are alone, no issues. Learn the art of self pleasure.

So Venus, gorgeous Venus…

Venus is the Goddess of Love. In Astrology, Venus has dual rulership over Libra and Taurus. As a result, Venus represents two main areas of our life: love and money.

“Love and money” is actually a simplistic interpretation of Venus. Venus rules our sentiments, what we value, and the pleasure we take in life. Grace, charm, and beauty are all ruled by Venus. Through Venus, we learn about our tastes, pleasures, artistic inclinations, and what makes us happy…CAFE ASTROLOGY

Love and MONEY…such wide topics. Hehe!

So how is this sextile working out for  you? Have you managed to open up?images-3