Lucid Dream: Twinflames and Mary Magdalene~~

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Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity. ~~ W. B. YEATS

Fragmented pieces swim in the seas of my consciousness. A cacophony of sounds. A kaleidoscope of lights. The moment is crackling with suspense as I know I am about to enter into one of the most prophetic visions I have ever had.

Chiron is retrograde in 29 degrees of Pisces which is my SEVENTH HOUSE. My Moon is here too and “Chiron can be thought of as a boat allowing us to cross the deep ocean providing navigation, direction and a safe passage to being who we are meant to be.” says Erin Frances, an eminent astrologer. Chiron is taking me for these astral journeys. Chiron is making me the wounded healer I am meant to be. Welcome to my LUCID ASTRAL VISION.

A tangled tapestry of sights and sounds.

EXT. WIDE MEADOW. TWILIGHT

A dripping sound, like a leaking tap.  A female voice hums a lullaby. The sound of flapping wings is heard.

Then: A raw and primal, jagged and out of breath panting is heard.

FADE IN:

Tina, a girl of around nine years old is sprawled in the ground.

A HUMMINGBIRD flutters right in front of her.

She stares at it, steadies her breath and then reaches out to touch it.

The HUMMINGBIRD floats close. It approaches the girl and positions itself right in front of her eyes.

She stares at the bird’s pupils.

C.U of her pupils. They dilate.

She lets out a primal scram and touches her nose. A red line of blood runs down.

Slow Motion: The blood trickles to her knees and she looks down.

The HUMMINGBIRD flutters its wings and takes off.

Tina stares at it. Something coils in her stomach.

She begins to run towards the HUMMINGBIRD that is now seen as a dot in the distance.

THUD. Tina falls through the proverbial rabbit hole.

Silhouettes of humans, beasts and hybrids dance in the shadows. Fear gripping her insides, she tries to look down.

She feels sick. The blood has now dried up.

The cacophony of voices swim into her consciousness from time to time.

VOICE 1: There she goes. Look there. Look at her.

VOICE 2: It’s all over. What now? Kaput!

Horrid laughter fills her ears, she falls to the floor, dishevelled and enervated.

 

Suddenly she can hear it. The flapping of the hummingbird. CLOSE ON HER EYES- she looks up with hope.

FADE TO BLACK:

That is how the vision began. I wrote it as a screenplay to give it that visual feel. To start you off with pictures. Can you visualise the little girl Tina around 9?

Let’s move on with the vision. This happened to me in broad daylight. Not while I was meditating. Not while I was dreaming, but while I was writing in front of my computer. The screen just began to fade to black and I could hear static noise. My psychic energy must have been at an all time high, because I had just started bleeding and it was the Capricorn FM next to dear Pluto. And of course I am going through some interesting alignments and aspects in my own life, astrologically speaking.

This has happened to me before. My visions come to me in wave patterns, totally non linear. I blank out and then return. I write about many such visions in my novel, THE PLAN which should be published soon. I have given them the garb of fiction, but they are in fact reality. Sometimes I can hear a piercing sound after these visions. I used to get headaches before, but now with my spiritual practices, I have managed to heal myself from all that left over psychic debris.

The Hummingbird has been visiting me since very long. In my dreams and in my visions. I never realised their connection to Mezoamerican civilisation when I was about twelve.

Now as you can see at the beginning of the lucid astral experience, I felt absolutely paranoid. I felt scared, fearful and abandoned. I felt like a helpless child of nine. But somewhere deep down that hummingbird gave me hope.

It was like a flicker of abject inspiration. My muse of last hours. It’s complicated to describe the way I felt. The Hummingbird flies off into the distance.

My phone rings. I go to answer it, but suddenly a video call comes through. Only this is no ordinary video call. It’s like a hologram popping out from my phone and standing right in front of me. This figure is straight from some computer game and she has a lower body, but three faces. Three distinct faces. They someone reminded me of the Morrigan, the triple Celtic Goddess. Though at that time I thought they were the three hags from Macbeth. I was frantic and out of breath.

There was a track playing in the background. I did not know for the life of me what language it was in. It sounded like it was played through a gramophone. My grandfather had one of those things and I was obsessed with it during my childhood.

The hologram of the Morrigan began to disintegrate. Like fragmented digital bits of information. Do you know I have seen the fragmentation of reality, MATRIX style, even before the film was made. I was very young when I first started to see reality breaking away into digital bits. Made sense to me with the computer revolution. My vision made sense. I had glimpsed into the matrix.

After this the SCREEN goes DARK. FADE TO BLACK:

Suddenly I am in Goa, by the beach, in a place called Small Vagator. I sit on the sands drawing a MANDALA in the sand awkwardly. The wind keeps slapping away my design, but I persist. No matter how hard I try, I am not being able to even draw a circle that will stay in the wind. Nothing stays. IMPERMANENCE. What a way to learn it?

The Monks actually do draw the MANDALAS with sand and then they destroy them after the ritual and meditation. Yes, even in complex initiation ceremonies like the KALACHAKRA TANTRA.

My conscious mind may be learning patience and perseverance by this apparently futile task of painting a mandala in the sand. If the wind doesn’t blow it away, the water will wash it off. Kind of like our lives. No matter how hard we try to hold onto things, they just slip away. The harder we try, the more frustrated we get. NOTHING REMAINS!

Reminds me of this poem of Tagore~~ Nothing lasts forever. Click the link to enjoy~

I look at the Goa seas. They look sunny and happy. But deep down I know there is a dark undertone there. In a second, the skies change. The sea roars and the waves dance ominously. But I sit there. I don’t know why? There is a sense of surrender with this task. Surrender to the force of the Earth who is my mother, my mentor and my guide.

Take me, I whisper. Take me. But no. It is not my time. The Hummingbird is back. Flapping its wings. A rebirth?

Looking up the hummingbird and Mayan connection I found  Huitzilopochtli, the  deity of war, sun, human sacrifice and the patron of the city of Tenochtitlan!

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Huitzilopochtli

According to this legend, he was the smallest son of four—his parents being the creator couple Tonacatecutli and Tonacacihuatl while his brothers were Quetzalcoatl and the 2 Tezcatlipocas. His mother and father instructed both him and Quetzalcoatl to bring order to the world. And so, together they made fire, the first male and female humans, created the Earth, and made a sun. ~~WIKI

This archetypal myth resonates with me on such a deep level. It is the story of DOUBLE TWINFLAMES. Do you see it? The first pair of male, female. The creation myth!

He is a fire God, associated with the Sun(SOLAR DEITY) and I am also burning with this fire energy, so it made sense. My ruler is also the Sun! War? I am still exploring my connection to Mesoamerica by using a method called EVOLUTIONARY ASTROLOGY where you study the NODES OF THE MOON, the 12TH HOUSE, the 8TH HOUSE, SATURN, RETROGRADE PLANETS and INTERCEPTED PLANETS, SIGNS and HOUSES.

My NN is in Virgo and SN in Pisces. My 12th house is jampacked- Mercury, the Sun at 0 degrees, Saturn at 26 degrees in Leo! And I have a bunch of retrograde planets in my natal chart. Our bodies hold much of the old programming and it is the job of this 12th house to DESTROY those patterns once and for all. Losses and deaths! 12th house, the house which makes one a philosopher!

Another origin story tells of a fierce goddess, Coatlicue, being impregnated as she was sweeping by a ball of feathers on Mount Coatepec. Her other children, who were already fully grown, were the four hundred male Centzonuitznaua and the female deity Coyolxauhqui. These children, angered by the manner by which their mother became impregnated, conspired to kill her. Huitzilopochtli burst forth from his mother’s womb in full armor and fully grown. He attacked his older brothers and sister, defending his mother by beheading his sister and casting her body from the mountain top. He also chased after his brothers, who fled from him and became scattered all over the sky. ~~WIKI

The above story is so rich with symbolism and so pertinent to our times. Why can’t we all be like Huitzilopochtli? Why can’t we all protect the Earth? Isn’t she all our mother? Is that what the Hummingbird was telling me? To join in with my Twinflame and help the ascension process of our beloved Gaia.

The vision gets really complex now as I stand up to receive the HUMMINGBIRD in my hand. She lands perfectly and stares right at me. This time my heart fills with love and there is no fear. Yes the storm looms large. I am scared, but nope, I am not giving into fear or panic. nu-uh!

The Hummingbird kisses my fingers and takes off. The feeling is ethereal! The rain comes crashing down in a silvery sheet. The sound is deafening. I am soaking wet as I run to take shelter in the shack, but there is no one there. It is dark and nothing can be seen. There was a voice telling me, “You weren’t you, you were Tina…”

WTF? I am that person. I am Tina. Or am I? Who am I? Confusion was building inside.

The voice kept asking me, “So you believe? You believe?”

I wanted to scream. YES I BELIEVE. But believe what? I wanted to believe every single thing- life, death, sorrow, pleasure and pain. There is only believe in every fibre of my being!

Suddenly the rain quietened. I walk out to the beach, a wet mess. Not a person in sight. I have never seen that particular beach to look that empty. Not a soul in sight. I sat down as the Sun began to set.

Far away in the distance, I see this cloaked figure. Who is that out in the sea?

For a moment, I felt fear as the candle I light is blown away by the wind, and then a sudden warmth envelops me. The figure floats towards me. It is Mary Magdalene herself. She is the very feminine energy I dote on, my Beloved, my SPIRIT GUIDE. Today I sensed she wanted to be called Magdalene. Not anything else.

I must mention here that patriarchy has labelled Magdalene as a WHORE, because she was not like your common woman who wanted to just be a wife, mother and homemaker. Not that there is anything wrong with wanting any of that. It’s just that some women do not necessarily seek out that role. Like me. I never thought I would be someone’s wife, because marriage is a failed institution to me and the role of a stay at home wife never appealed to me. Motherhood is fantastic, but domesticity is not he be all and end all of my existence. And it never will be. I am forever a WANDERER, an Artist, a dreamer. Some women need to run wild and free. They cannot be chained and society should not try to.

Mary Magdalene is the WILD FEMININE ENERGY that is not meant to be a normal woman. Although she was a TANTRIC HIGH PRIESTESS they called her a prostitute. She was the wealth of the world, but they vilified her and degraded her sacredness to the point where she is forgotten in the world today. She is not one of the original disciples. No. She is a MASTER in her own right and taught Yeshua tantra. She is his yin, his balance. The mystic they called Jesus is her twinflame. On his name they started one of the most bloodiest religions in the world. That is what patriarchy has done for us. Taken sacred teachings from the feminine womb of wisdom and have corrupted and bastardised it to suit their own needs and agendas.

It was Mary Magdalene who initiated me in accepting myself as a sexual being. I fought long and hard against it. At a point I was having sex just to feel nothing. The act of being with someone became an addiction. A reason to stay away from feeling too deeply. Sex was never this magical and open, like so many women out there who hide their sexual feelings. 30% women regularly orgasm and an appalling number fake it. What else can they do? Expressing ourselves sexually would mean that we would be labelled and judged. Slut, bitch, whore etc. I do not care, but most women do, as they continue faking orgasms thinking sex is just a chore. Most women have sex to please their guys, without realising how much good sex would please them. The woman’s body is a pleasure trove. She has endless desires and a much stronger libido than men. Although she has been made to forget it. NEWSFLASH~~ LADIES, PLEASE STOP FAKING ORGASMS. You are spoiling the men. Show then what you like and how its done. Guide them.

Mary Magdalene showed me that not only is it okay to accept my sexual feelings, but to celebrate them, explore them. In fact, opening up to the sexual alchemy without guilt or shame has brought me closer to spirituality. I feel awakened in all ways, more than I have ever been. I feel creatively charged and connected to my twinflame. Ready to accept him inside of me. Makes me hot! I am in the process of making many life changing shifts and hopefully soon I will be in Goa able to connect to his energy. I know that is where I will meet him.

Doing away with old values, patterns can be hard, but it is worth the try. To live more authentically. When we face our inner demons, although sexuality is not a demon, but has been made into one by the fucking bourgeoisie. Societal hypocrisy is what gets me.

Mary Magdalene gave me a few messages for you and she has promised to help all of you heal your sexual wounds. She will also help you come to terms with your sexual desires.

CHANNELLED MESSAGES~~ Jotting them down randomly.

  1. You can never experience twinflame love unless you love yourself.
  2. Twinflame love is NOT ABOUT ROMANCE.
  3. There is a strong sense of purpose.
  4. There is a desire to heal people and the Earth and support the 5D ASCENSION PROCESS taking place.
  5. Strengthen this new LIGHTWORKER ENERGY GRID.
  6. Healing ancestral and familial wounds. Twinflames often incarnate with an imbalance in their early childhood so they can work through these issues and solve the. Although I come from a stable home, my life has been rocked by some hardcore events in my early childhood. I am working everyday to heal these scars. They are deep, but they will heal.
  7. Twinflames, when they are done, will teach all of HUMANITY new things, ideas and concepts about RELATIONSHIPS. They are not jealous in the conventional sense.
  8. Usually a twinflame relationship is female led. Like Shakti is on Shiva’s chest because she is the PRINCIPLE CREATIVE FORCE, similarly the partner with developed yin energy must lead the relationship with compassion and intuition.
  9. All twinflames must go through a stage of SEPARATION. Yes as hard as that sounds, it happens a lot.
  10. Let your INNER CHILD out to play. Heal yourself.
  11. Express all your emotions. Never keep them bottled up. Cry, laugh, chuckle, sing, dance…
  12. Most importantly Mary Magdalene tells me that even if we have not found our TWINFLAME, we must embark on the journey ourselves. In due course he will join.
  13. Although you may be super attracted to your twinflame, this attraction is unlike the usual CONSUME and devour types. Your sexual desires come from a sacred space of love and not of fear and possession.
  14. Twinflames are independent and in their power when they finally join in union.
  15. Lastly, meeting your twinflame will be like the SECOND COMING OF CHRIST. Through sexual energy fusion, you can experience the COMING OF CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS. The most beautiful sexual alchemy.

I am waiting to hear your twinflame story~~

 

tina@tinaheals.com

http://www.tinaheals.com

Image copyright Gianluca

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Twinflame Musings~~

These lovely words keep ringing in my ears, from King Solomon’s The Song of Songs: “My beloved spake, and said unto me, ‘Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away. For, lo! the winter is past, the rain is over and gone. The flowers appear on the earth; the time of the singing of birds is come.’ ”

 

Fragments of lives lived swim through my consciousness as the eclipse season approaches. The North Node is firing up my individual sense of SELF and is connecting me super strongly to my Twinflame. The North Node and South Node are in Leo/Aquarius polarity. Strangely, my partner is Aquarius Sun and I am Leo Sun. If you are either, then this alignment will bring into focus your EXS, CURRENT PARTNER, POTENTIAL PARTNERS(TWINFLAMES), FOES, GROUPS, FRIENDS and TEAMS. The last time the NN was in Leo was back in 1999, one of the most pivotal moments of my life. For the first time, I claimed my Leonine self and broke off a horrible and abusive relationship with a narcissist. I began to author my life, left my city, moved alone to Bombay and began to live alone. And I feel that my twinflame portal is opening. It’s complicated

With each meditation on twinflames, I have had some really intense flashbacks and with Chiron, Neptune going retro my dreamtime is jampacked and I’m lovin’ it. I have felt, touched, sensed that person in ways that cannot be described by mere words. I have felt his energy so strongly that it took me awhile to return to this reality. This 3D timeline. And some other people have also felt this intensity while meditating with me on FB at 11.11. If you want to connect with your twin, then join us whenever you want at 11.11 pm IST. You can do it in your timezone too.

Space and Time does not exist and Carlyle echoes this truth that they are the “deepest of all illusory appearances.” Everything is an illusion, then what of love? What of the Twinflame concept? This Full Moon may be in practical and steadfast Capricorn, but there is so much SCORPIONIC energy in the air that it is  making me feel all sorts of raw and primal. My whole being is heightened and there is a deep sense of yearning- for union. Deep, sexual union of the mystical kind.

Plato’s allegory of the cave rings true to this concept. You know how 3D relationships are so painful and we think that that is love. But it is not. It is like those shadows that Plato’s cavemen saw and the Twinflame relationship is like the blinding light that hit them when they finally turned and looked at the light. Yes sure the twinflame revelation will be painful, but you will finally look towards the light. Is that not worth it?

You see your consciousness is not confined to this space/time continuum, but you are not accessing all the portals. With your present state of awareness, you see less than 1% of the elecromagnetic spectrum. There is so much happening right under your nose, but you are blissfully unaware. Only during meditation can you access those energies.

Sometimes being unaware aka ignorant is bliss. You settle into the life in front of you, isolate yourself from your authentic needs and desires and bury your nose in the pussy of consumerism and materialism. There is nothing beyond the five senses yes?

What is in front of you, you believe to be real. If you can touch someone, feel someone, kiss someone, then you know they are here, they are real. But what if you have felt someone with equal intensity, except not in the 3D physical world, but in the realms of 5D consciousness.

Reincarnating through aeons of space/time, you have lived as so many beings. You have been everything that there is to be and finally you have donned the role of a human. The Universe is one of infinite number of multiverses stacked on top of one another. There is no end, there is no beginning. It is cyclical.

The GODHEAD or the ULTIMATE TRANSCENDENTAL REALITY is impersonal and is the source code from which the matrix comes into being. Esoteric wisdom says that we are the breaths of the GODHEAD, we come into being with the EXHALATION and we return to deep sleep in the CREATOR with the INHALATION.

Duality seems to be the CRUX of this manifested Universe and that is reflected in the world through multiple rules and patterns that the Universe displays. This duality is the very fundamental basis for the Twinflame theory. When we separate from a homogeneous WHOLE into TWO, we experience the Universe.

Male/Female polarities make this reality visible. Your yearning for sexual union is nothing but a yearning to crawl back into the original state of innocence when there was no separation. What is sex? Male/female polarities coming together- the lingam and the yoni, each created for the other, unite in friction which brings forth the seed of life.

You know this yearning for sex and love finally becomes mysticism and spirituality if you know how to channel these energies to their highest vibrations. When you truly experience love(not fall in love), then you are infused with a DIVINE FERVOUR.

Have you noticed how new lovers do not need to eat, sleep or do anything as long as they are with each other. But this wears off for most of us and we are left with disappointments after the honey-moon phase. What happens? The whole structure of family is disintegrating. Love, dating, relationships are severely challenged. Ask a Twinflame coach, she will tell you.

What then is the necessity of a concept like twinflames? Isn’t that supposed to create more havoc with our lives. Everything has its good and bad, its positive and negative side. I already spoke of duality which is all pervasive. Hence nothing is irredeemably evil or good.

“Esoteric philosophy admits neither good nor evil per se, as existing independently in nature” ~~HPB

The Twinflame concept is interwoven in the fabric of our psyche. This all-consuming, intense and electrifying love, love which poets have written about, musicians have composed unbelievable melodies for…we all crave it. Yet, it eludes us, most of us. But some will pursue it till the last breath. Kinda dramatic right? Leo energy. Ha!

Most of us are willing to be ignorant that such love exists, for we do not want to get off our asses and do all the hard work. Ignorance is bliss. You do not meet your Twinflame in most incarnations. Nope! That is enough to deter most. But let me tell you, most relationships nowadays is addictive. But your connection to your twinflame is not addictive, it is all about CONNECTION. Such deep connection that it will reconnect you to the Earth, to all life and to the Cosmos at large. Yes that is the power of love.

Even though it might be for a person, if you are successful at holding onto that frequency for long, then you will be emancipated from this 3D space/time continuum. You are a conduit for much highers forces. Life in 3D is messy, but it is this mess that you have to straighten. It is your mess and it is my mess. It is a collective mess.

I am a persona non grata in certain circles due to my research and teachings on twinflames. People have blatantly tried to tell me that my search is futile. I am wasting my time. They have tried to hint that maybe I am not happy with my relationship.

There is only one thing I can say to those haters. I am a messenger of love and love will always be my subject of study. I will scrutinise and study all meanings, definitions, experiences that love has to offer. It is my KARMIC POTENTIALITY which has given me this IMPULSE to explore this theme and share it with the world and everyone in my life supports me a 100%. There!

I had been aware of this twinflame energy since I can remember. This intense yearning for this type of love has given me artistic and creative energy, it helped me integrate dance, magick and ecstatic orgasms in my artwork. And being psychic I have seen and felt things I cannot describe.

Let me share with you a vision I had recently. For a while I have been dreaming about lighthouses. I don’t know where this particular lighthouse stands, but I can tell you it is one of the most breathtaking locales your eyes can ever see. It’s like a painting. There is a storm raging and I am opposite the lighthouse, staring at the blinking light. There is a din and a boat seems to be swaying in the turbulence. My heart is in my mouth as I wait for the safe anchoring of that boat. I run down the steep slopes. Tumbling down the treacherous path, I cut myself and rip my clothes, blood gushing down my arms. Suddenly there is blood gushing out of my vagina. My heart beats with intensity as I touch that blood. Whoosh, whoosh! Suddenly there is a wave. Ginormous it is. A tsunami. Almost. My heart skips a beat as the wave comes crashing down and suddenly someone holds me tightly and I can sense his breathing. I close my eyes as his hands carress my skin and breasts. The panic has left me. The wave is about to hit us, and I am sure it is the end. I know it is him. The one I have been searching, but I have not seen his face or glimpsed into his eyes. How will I recognise him? Fuck that now, the huge wave will hit me any moment and I am so turned on. But it does not. I open my eyes and realise that someone I am in cave. The whole cave looks like a Garden of Eden. Yes I am naked and no my Adam is not there. The scene begins to disintegrate. I begin to howl which morphed into a cacophony, playing through multiple dimensions. No, I want to see him. Out of nowhere a tune begins to play. I remember that tune. It was all so real. No it is because it is happening somewhere. I do not know where. Somewhere.

Do you want to know more about your love story? Your twinflame journey?

Look at Leo which is the 5th house. What planets are there?

Where is your Sun? Where is Venus? If you are a man, look for your Venus Mars placements that will tell you what kind of a woman you desire. For example, Venus in Leo guys desire a glamour queen. Venus in Aquarius desires something unconventional. If you are a woman, check for both your Venus and Mars placements. Your Mars placement will tell you what kind of a guy you prefer and your Venus will tell you what type of a lover you are. Then check your Libra. What planets are there, what house is it? You may also look at Taurus and the second house to some degree. I have a HIGHLY ACTIVE LEO section, although my 5th house is Capricorn and there are no planets there. Leo is my 12th house, so love has this poignant overture of loss and pain. It has always been that way.

There is much to write and will take it up soon…

Are you interested to meet your TWINFLAME? Are you in one such relationship?

tina@tinaheals.com

http://www.tinaheals.com

 

 

 

 

Libra Full Moon~10th April 2017: Love takes Time!

There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness…Friedrich Nietzsche

Who can refute the fact that there is both madness and reason in love? And no one echoes this sentiment that a Libra Full Moon which is all about BALANCE! Welcome to the party lovely people, things just got slightly easier with Libra, the crowd pleaser and the emphasis is on RELATIONSHIPS!

This is a super social Full Moon, so expect to hang out with friends and random people. Yes the whole Jupiter RX in Libra has a lot to do with finding foreign people and things interesting.

April’s Full Moon, the Full Pink April’s Full Moon, the Full Pink Moon, heralds the appearance of the moss pink, or wild ground phlox—one of the first spring flowers. It is also known as the Sprouting Grass Moon, the Egg Moon, and the Fish Moon…THE FARMER’S ALMANAC

So what are you ready to experience under this Pink Moon. I can tell you, it will be intense, in a sort of balanced way. Yes there will be an urgency, yes there will be an inner hunger to connect and make love, but this energy is Libran, therefore pretty balanced. An interesting observation I made. Every time I see a pink aura on someone, that person is usually hankering for a love interest. It may even mean that relationships are central to her world, romantic ones and pink aura is quite common.

During this spectacular Pink Moon, two planets will be going retrograde. Venus RX in Pisces and Mercury RX in Taurus. See how Venusian the whole experience will be! Both Libra and Taurus are ruled by Venus. And she is raising emotional Tsunamis in Pisces.

How can you deal with turbulent emotions? I would suggest- do something for the planet…do something for Earth. You ask, how can I do that? Well, go Vegan for starters. You would have done a lot. Feed people. Feed children. Help refugees. Help the differently abled. Volunteer to teach. Trust me, once you have initiated this action, you will feel much better. No matter what tragedy has befallen you.

You are not your tragedy. You are sentient life, entangled with all of creation. Breathing, pulsating, throbbing, vibrating like one gigantic organism. This Full Moon energy can make you feel like you are in a RELATIONSHIP with the Earth. In fact, make it a relationship with reality. Everything in it. Can you imagine that? Huns that is the truth. We are all interconnected, we are all part of the WHOLE.

We are dealing with Venusian energy on steroids. So love and finances are the main components, but think of the wide array of shit that falls in these brackets. Love and Money! Sex is intertwined with both these and so are all aspects sensual. Even Art is all about love and passion, developing an idea, getting funds to execute it and then making money. Tada. It is like the snake eating its own tail. Money and love- the most volatile combination!

Venus to me is how we process and experience pleasure and leisure- two vital aspects of human evolution. Without these we would not have gotten  very far. Sentiments, values and things we hold dear are all Venus’ influence. Also we realise greater truths through art and culture.

Just be mindful that COMMUNICATION can be very challenging during this Merc retro. I have already begun to feel it. I had this great talk over the phone with a potential funder and then when I met him face to face, it fell flat. The whole scenery felt so plastic. As if all things Venusian have been drained from it.

Venus rules attraction. How sexy you appear and how you get attracted. With a favourable Venus placement in your natal chart, you may be very desirable to the opposite sex and you will also be attracted to people and things. A magnetic pull will be felt with beauty.

She is RX in Pisces. Please read my two articles detailing this transit.

https://mywritestuffblog.wordpress.com/2017/01/23/venus-retrograde-2017/

https://mywritestuffblog.wordpress.com/2017/04/02/venus-rx-into-pisces-finding-meaning-or-philosophical-suicide/

With this retrograde and where it is places in our charts we will have to deal with financial obligations and relationships. With Saturn going retrograde on the 6th of April, this could point to legal cases that might drain your finances. Just be aware of this.

The Moon and Jupiter will be conjunct during this Full Moon. This could signify emotional outbursts, tantrums, drama and other public displays of emotions. Tap into higher thought frequency this day as remember that when Jupiter touches those thoughts they WILL BE EXPANDED. Just make a conscious effort to think of things with self love.

I will not say- BE POSITIVE. Because being fake positive takes away from living. Really living means we should embrace dualistic feelings and that leads to a healthy, well balanced psyche. Just like a developed Libra has. So get that sage, get that gratitude journal and begin the seemingly insurmountable task of cleansing all those troubled emotions.

Think of the film- The Vow. An accident, during their honeymoon. Paige has a serious head injury and is in a coma. She wakes up but does not recognise him and now begins his journey of reconnecting and he wins her back in the end. Very inspiring. Very Libran, putting her before him…all her needs, because he felt he had let her down. He did more than enough to make it up.

I wish we all could do that…put somebody else’s needs before our own. But we can’t. We’re too selfish, caught in our own mundane realities. It is just us, us, us. These energies coming from from the cosmos is asking us otherwise. Imploring us to consider that there are other sides to the story.

Look I began April in a rather chaotic manner. I had so much hope and then I faced some disappointments. I had to restructure my work ideas and improvise constantly, so I’m guessing it might have been complicated for you as well. Do you feel like you’re being pulled in multiple directions? I felt so, till I reminded myself that April will be a month of constant flux. Four planets are changing signs! Saturn, Mercury, Venus, Pluto and they are in shadow periods, about to go retro or coming out of shadow zones.

Therefore nothing will feel solid. Again the ground has been pulled from under our feet and it might feel like drowning. I suggest stop struggling. Firstly calm your breath and still your mind. Then learn to flow. Flow with the momentum of the Universe. It is guiding you. Don’t be afraid to rework that proposal as many times as is needed. Hard work and determination will be rewarded. But keep that burning desire in check. Remember Buddha’s wise words- Desire is the root of all evil. Your rewards may take time…in matters of love and money.

The Mars/Pluto trine will give you focus to continue on your path even though the retro energy may make you feel like giving up. Please ask for help if you want to abandon someone or some project. You might regret it. Use SWITCHWORDS~~REACH-GUIDE-POINT if you are caught making a difficult decision. It will guide you. If you have trouble sleeping write 94 on your left wrist.

There is also a square in play- Saturn in Sag squares Venus conjunct Chiron in Pisces. Healing energies are available to do inner work. No matter how raw your bleeding heart feels, let the blue healing light numb the pain. Let the blue light from Sangye Menla’s(Medicine Buddha’s) heart cool that suffering. Let it all go. Saturn, Venus and Chiron are asking us to look for deeper meaning.

What is meaning you ask? Without going into the Semantics and Foundational theory of meaning, I will tell you one thing simply. Nothing has any meaning, you give it meaning. Like the Observer’s paradox. The wave becomes a particle, a fixed point in space and time because you observe it.

I recently read about this study that curiosity actually leads us to have more meaning in life. So does compassion, empathy. The possibilities are endless. We can do anything with this. It is up to us to find meaning. We need to dive into the seas of samsara and bring out our very own pearl.

This Pink Moon as the Iroquois people named it is about tenderness, birth and new beginnings. When my baby was born, she was pale pink and each time I have assisted in animal birth, I have seen that irrespective of species all babies are born pink! Incredible! But so are the baby buds on trees- they are pink and then with photosynthesis and the release of chlorophyll they turn green.

I am going to give you a very special meditation module- called the Pink Meditation or the Yoni Meditation. The vagina is pink and the tongue that pleasures it is also pink. The Japanese associate the pink Cherry Blossom with a vagina.

Create your scared space. Visualise a pink vagina. You might be closed eyed or you could use a rose quartz crystal to symbolise it. If you can worship the real thing, then nothing like it, but, but, but…the essential prerequisite will be to DELETE all preconceived concepts like shame, guilt from your mind. There is nothing shameful about the Yoni. She is sacred. You are worshipping SHAKTI in her rawest form.

Sage the image or the crystal. You can even mentally “sage”. The intention is to purify the energy and to bring forth positive vibrations. You can use touch or mental touch to connect with the vagina. If you are going to touch it, then make sure you have spend a good amount of time just GAZING at it and admiring it. Offer the Yoni pink items this Pink Full Moon. You can offer pink Champagne, candy, sweets, incense, flowers and other items to her…the Vagina!

Then visit different parts of it, loving it, worshipping it. All the while sending love to the cosmic yoni or mother-matrix, the portal to life. The Sacred Tao gives the Vagina many monikers- “the golden lotus”, “the gates of paradise” and “precious pearl” and “sacred treasure”. You can think of special names too.

Feel no lust. Remember that lust is negative vibration. You will feel attraction but bring that sentiment to adoration. Like you are worshipping the vagina of a Goddess. Then pay homage to each part of the vagina, the clitoris, the vulva, etc. Just surrender to the Cosmic Vagina through a symbol or a human form or a mental form. Don’t forget to contemplate SHAKTI or the SACRED FEMININE.  Thought forms are just as powerful and conclude by breathing deeply and chanting AUM. The Yoni Puja as described in Tantric texts is highly intricate and esoteric. But adapt this ancient act and breathe modernity into it. Adapt it and benefit from this wisdom.

Love has the same relationship to the soul as breathing has to the body – Osho

You can email me for more info on this…

tina@tinaheals.com

http://www.tinaheals.com

Artwork by Mira Nedyalkova

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Saturn squares Chiron: Soul Dance!

“We are healed of a suffering only by experiencing it to the full.”
― Marcel Proust

I can vouch for that. With every break I allowed the light to enter. I allowed the pain to cease. I managed to grow and evolve, every single time my heart has been broken. Being an Empath, I am anyways swimming in the seas of heartbreak(animal agriculture, famine, child abuse…too many atrocities to face in this dystopian world), but this Saturn in Sag getting anointed as the Wise ONE with Cosmic Downloads from the very heart of our Galactic Centre has left me dealing with a lot of the emotions that had broken my heart. But today I tell you, I embrace all those emotions that refuse to give up my company. They will not let me forget the angst, the pain, the desolation…but hey, wait!!! It is those very emotions that have healed me and continue doing so.

I can’t tell you  how KARMIC and fated this Saturn transit feels for me. Saturn and Chiron are talking since 2016 and three vital connects have to happen- the first one was in Dec 28th 2016 and the second one is today, the 30th of Apr 2017 and the last one will be in Nov 2 , 2017.

Saturn is grinding to a halt and is about to go retro on Apr 6th, and with the square in play, he is about to give structure and comprehension to our wounds. The last square of Saturn was with Neptune. That really shifted my POV. The major theme was- REALITY VS DREAMS! I can tell you it made me take a lot of practical actions to realise my dream and slowly but surely I launched Tinaheals, my IP. Dreams started to take tangible shape. But before that Neptune managed to dissolve every single structure I held dear.

Saturn in Sag definitely has a totally different vibe to it. It is more philosophical and is vibing off the Sagi penchant for truth. Saturn in Sag going retrograde will have us uncover a lot of what truth means to us, how we digest it, how we interpret it. Truth will come under a lot of scrutiny when Saturn is in such a placement. You know what we need to remember- that underlying all this ILLUSION, our TRUTH is ONE and the same, in a state of wholeness. But in this material world, our truths differ widely. But deep down we all bleed, we all care about our loved ones, we all dream of a better tomorrow. So OUR TRUTH IS ONE, but how many will see it that way?

I am so fucking sick of the phrase- Time heals all wounds. No time does nothing! Time dies not exist! It is YOU who picks up the pain, it is YOU who keeps scabbing at it, it is again YOU who finally has to decide to let it heal. Time does nothing, which is why PAIN and suffering are carried on to the next incarnations.

Chiron’s involvement is all about making us aware of that pain, showing us how that pain feels in real time and then if we are lucky, Chiron will invoke his shamanic powers and poof! All our pain is gone! Gone are the miseries- finite and infinite.

Chiron is sitting in mystical Pisces which is the sign of the Empath, the Healer. What does that mean? Chiron is learning about how to heal wounds that have arisen from Pisces’ lower vibrations like too much sensitivity and emotions gone haywire. In fact xenophobia and hatred for other cultures can also stem from being too sensitive and uptight about one’s own. This is the time to address this issue. Pisces is also the sign of delusion. So how are we deluding ourselves when it comes to our wounds? Are we keeping them raw and hidden? Are we applying temporary salves to it? Or are we working towards healing it permanently? Samsara is the endless cycle of suffering if one remains UNENLIGHTENED. Suffering ceases with WISDOM and LOVE.

Working with Past Life Astrology and PL Regression therapy, I can tell you that certain transits give us the power and will to once and for all understand the pain we have been running away from. Once you understand the pain, it will go away. That is how I have seen it work…always…once understood and acknowledged from your heart chakra, the PAIN GOES AWAY!

Today’s transit gives us one of those sacred healing portals. Here is a cry to all the healers and the Shamans, the Wise Women and Medicine men, the light workers and Empaths…send out your healing intentions…and it will manifest.

If your wounds are defining the person you have become, then maybe it is time for you to invoke Chiron and Saturn to give you the impetus to heal your life. No matter how spiritually anaesthetised we are as humans, we have the desire and necessity to heal.

That does not mean that your journey is forgotten…it just means that you refuse to allow your wounds to dictate your life. It is over! Take control, for only YOU CAN HEAL YOURSELF. I always tell people who come to me for healing…I tell that that it they who are healing themselves. I do not need to “heal” you, because that blessing is yours. I just create a platform for the healing to occur.

We must talk about what I mean by HEALING…

Healing is a state of WHOLENESS. It is not a divisive or separatist state. It does not adhere to polarities. It just is- WHOLE. We are all a part of that WHOLE and when we divorce ourselves from that WHOLE do we become sick and diseased and only then do we need healing. When healing occurs, at every level we become WHOLE….a part of that INDIVISIBLE REALITY.

An Omnipresent, Eternal, Boundless, and Immutable PRINCIPLE on which all speculation is impossible, since it transcends the power of human conception and could only be dwarfed by any human expression or similitude. It is beyond the range and reach of thought — in the words of Mandukya [Upanishad], “unthinkable and unspeakable.”…HPB

It is imperative to understand that BE-NESS exists before BEING. Sartre tapped into infinite wisdom when he stated…EXISTENCE PRECEDES ESSENCE! Spirit and Matter are both parts of this ONE!

Sit in silence and contemplate what it means to be WHOLE! If you have an Agate, hold it while you meditate. This is the oldest crystal used for healing. Ask Chiron and Saturn to heal you…If you are heavily afflicted by Saturn, then you should wear black on Saturdays, feeds black ravens or crows and eat black rice.

Saturn rules your legs and nervous system and the Yogasana I suggest is Ardha Matsyendrāsana or the Seated Spinal Twist Pose which will aid in the stimulation of your nervous system. You can also look at Shavasana before going to bed. Ask Saturn’s help in all your endeavours.

Email me to find out what this transit means for you…

tina@tinaheals.com

http://www.tinaheals.com

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