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“You can only meet someone as deeply as you have met yourself”
This is the very truth. No matter how much you crave your twinflame/soulmate you will meet them(if you do in 3d) with the same depth that you have met your very own soul. The twinflame journey starts with touching base with your soul.
I told you a strange story of a twinflame experience in my viral article(click link above) and now I want to give you an update…below you can read parts of the letter the woman experiencing this twinflame connection writes…
It has been almost a year since I deleted and blocked him on social media. And till date, not a word from him…I had decided that he is a coward and will never speak up, so I did my best to immerse myself in life and continue to exist without thinking of him. Which was inevitably impossible. His face and name kept swimming up in my consciousness. Why? Why the fuck am I so into this one person? Someone I have never met? Someone’s voice I have not heard? And I mean, he is not like some Adonis. But then why? Why him? Why can I not forget his existence? It irked me endlessly, until I had the PLR and hypnosis session with you.
That session took me back to timelines…places and situations I cannot even imagine. Through the great wars of antiquity, through the fertile plains of Sumeria/Mesopotamia and Egypt. I saw us together through numerous timelines. It was not easy to express. You know exactly how long I wept after I came back…
But then lucid dreams started to come rapidly. They arrived randomly and I woke up with him in bed. Our children were playing outside. I even know their names. I spend time with him in our home and all we did was make love and I heard him tell me that I was everything for him. He said he missed me, tremendously when I was out, travelling for work.
I couldn’t stop wondering if I had arrived here, then who was at home with my husband and child? What happened to my body staring at the computer, in lucid dreams?
I dared not reveal anything to spoil that day and what can I say, he took me all over his city and we had the best day ever. I went to sleep with him and I was worried that I might never see him again. But I did not wake up back in my reality, I still remained in his world. In some alternate universe.
There he was making breakfast and my kids walked in. I cannot forget their faces. They looked so familiar. But I knew I had never seen them before. Then as left to take them to playschool, I passed out watching a program on TV in his language. And strangely, I knew the language. Then I blacked out and I found myself in front of my computer. My body soaked in sweat, my computer had crashed. Someone was ringing my doorbell frantically. I ran to open the door, my legs could barely carry me and saw my husband had come home. He just returned from tennis practice with my baby. I was so shocked and it probably showed on my face. My husband stared at me, long and hard, while I could not find a single word to say. It’s like I had forgotten English. His language and his voice kept intruding my thoughts and I was sure as hell that I was going crazy. He came towards me and checked my temperature which was soaring. He took me straight to bed and forbade any movement while he called the doctor.
The next seven days were a haze. I know I had high temperature and my body was not keeping food down. I was sick, I felt sick. Like I was dying. But then suddenly, I woke up in the alternate Universe. And this time, I was in front of him and he was sick. I sat by his bedside, weeping gently. That night I met his mother. His father was dead. I knew all this information about him and I did not know why and how. His mother was such a wonderful woman and we really bonded. Surprisingly, she noticed a difference and she told me that her son was really lucky to have me. Because no one can love him like me. I think I started howling. We spend sometime cradled in each other’s arms.
He was ill, high temperature and the doctors thought it was some kind of infection. But they did not know for sure. He lay in bed, in front of me. Murmuring in his sleep and I remembered my own sick body back home, in my own universe. Suddenly he opens his eyes and looks at me and tells me that no matter what, I must find him. I was shocked, he’d say that. I asked him what he meant and he said that if he dies, I have to find him. He did not mention other timelines or alternate universes.
It was time to tell him…Listen _, I am not from your Universe. I have no clue how I turned up here. He didn’t look as surprised as I thought he would. He coughed and motioned for me to continue. I told him that in my universe, we have never met. I mean we did, only once or twice. Very briefly and we never spoke. But I could not forget his energy. His soul energy, all these years. I told him how I found him on socialmedia and how I added him and then deleted him. I told him that I’m not even sure, he knows me in this reality. But then maybe he was not sensitive.
But this man in front of me, he was so very sensitive. He was exactly the man I thought he would be. He looked disturbed at the idea of us never knowing each other in my universe and he said he must have been a real idiot to let me go. In my reality that is. In his reality, he met me in the exact same place. The situation was pretty much identical. Except one detail. We had bumped into each other at the bar and in his reality, he started a conversation with me and within the next six months we were together. In his country. And then we were married soon after. In fact, in his world, it had been over twenty years we were together.
Listening to him talk, it was clear why I could not forget his face. Why I kept remembering him in my reality, although I did not know him. But obviously, this him, in his reality is indeed my soulmate or maybe my twinflame. And we have made a life together. But he did say, that from a few years, he was having marital problems with his version of me. It looks like they are drifting apart. This surprised me as that is exactly when I had found him on social media in my universe.
Spending time with him that night, watching him sick and feeling his sickness, like an empath, I shifted between hope and despair. This emotional chaos is raising only more questions and there are never any answers…I am glad I told him about my confusion, about how I coped all those years without him and how I felt lost and helpless every time I saw him on social media. There is so much to tell him, but no words…
When I held him and kissed him, I understood what you told me. That the twinflame experience is not always about being together and creating a life. It is about so much more. It is a subtle connection, like quantum entanglement that cannot be explained by punitive human language. This is true psychic connection and it saddens me that only I feel it. Not him.
Watching us both together, as the observer this time, I felt the most indescribable and amazing feeling. A feeling of unconditional love and deep fulfillment. And we did not even have any sexual experience. We just slept together, in each other’s arms. He knew it could be the last night we have together and it was painfully making itself aware in my psyche. This is it, this is why I crave to be with him in my reality, without even knowing him. It is because of this life we have and have had through time. But, but….that life is falling apart in his universe and in mine, we have never met. I spend time going through the pictures of our life together and they remain embedded in my mind forever.
Returning back to my universe was ugly. My body felt like I was about to die. I could not take the fever burning my soul…and there was emptiness and pain, physical, mental and spiritual. It felt like my heart has been ripped off. Death is better than this pain. I felt so ashamed at the love my husband had for me. I was his great love story and here I am, chasing after a ghost. Guilt, shame and hopelessness were my companions till I gradually got my health back. And my sanity or so I think.
I made a conscious effort to erase him from my soul. It was difficult, but not really because I never had any connection with him. In 3d. We never touched or kissed or anything. Forget about his universe. I still remember the names of our children and hope that he made peace with his wife. Me, in his reality. But sometimes, his words ring out…So what if I have forgotten…you find me…drop me a message.
I scoffed at him then…like are you serious? You are fucking married and you don’t even know me. He scoffed back and told me that its not possible, he does not know me. After I added him and then deleted him. He said that he knew himself and he surely would be excited to see my posts. I told him that I knew nothing about anything about him and he held my hand, touched it to his heart and told me…everything is here, all my love for you…right here. This heart beats for you…
I remember laughing at him. But I made it clear that I am not ever getting in touch. Like never. But my friend, the one who was there with me when I met him in Goa, suddenly added him. Yes she knows about these PLR sessions and she is convinced that he was interested in me back then. In that bar and in the party afterwards, he was looking at me. I was initially mad at her for adding him. Like wtf. Why? But she wouldn’t listen. And she says she will talk to him one day about me. I told her if that happens, I am blocking her. But her wicked smile tells me she might tell him. She also says that from the time I deleted him, he’s hardly posted. Like nothing about anything. Like he has gone silent. I told her to stay away from his profile. And she told, try to stop me bitch…
I have no intention of telling him…I know this can only be felt and if he felt anything, he would get in touch. The other day, randomly, a facebook friend of mine tells me that she saw me marrying a white guy. And she has no idea about this man or anything. So that shocks me. These twinflame energies are being picked up by so many close to me.
Well, in his universe, he is definitely not a coward, so his silence in this one can only mean one thing…he is not sensitive to the energy flow. I do hope to share this post Tina after you publish it, maybe he is secretly following me through a different account. Maybe reading this will jog his memory. That is all I can expect.
That is all Tina…thank you studying my case…
Your story excites me like none other, because here we have a story of twinflames who have never met. One looks to be awakened and the other asleep. Or maybe not. During my meditations, I have felt that man’s feelings for you and even the tarot told you what you needed to know. This is a connection of numerous past lives. One you cannot ignore.
My work with twinflames is so important…why?
It’s because the earth needs these powerful bursts of twinflame love at this time. As more twinflames awaken and recognize their work in 3d, the better they will be able to contribute to the coming of the next race. Race is not about color or anything. This is the next level of humanity. Humanity 6.0. Yes you heard that right.
_ I believe every single word you say, you know why? Because twinflame energies are not to be understood logically. You cannot look at it with the analytical thought processes. It goes beyond…one needs to experience this kind of pull. This magnetic pull towards one person that defies logic and practical wisdom. This energy is tthat of Shiva/Shakti, it is of Padma Sambhava and Yeshe Tsogyal, it is of Yesua and Mary Magdalene. It is eternal. It is the interplay between the divine feminine and masculine polarities. It is all a play. It is all a simulation. And not…it is nothing and everything.
We need to accept this fact that the mind level cannot grasp this soul connection. Basically this experience is like nothing you have ever felt before or will again. If you do feel this again, then you have to reevaluate what you felt the first time. If it keeps happening to someone, then they have surely not met their twinflame.
Your story is believable, because after all these years you have felt this for a man you have never met. This case is rather exceptional in my opinion and you have managed to collapse timelines and you have made contact with your twin. And hope you do so again.
So what do you think? Is this possible? Were her visits just hallucinations? Or some coping mechanism? Do you have such a story…tell me…
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What the soul has been seeking for eternity,
I think I finally found that,
In your eyes and in your heartbeats,
Finally the soul is at rest,
Emotions and feelings for a new love
Awakens in the depth of my being,
I live again..
A new me,
A new life…
I now know what has caused the flitting of my heart,
Drowning in the ocean of my tears,
I finally found home when you lifted me up,
In your arms and we looked towards a new life.
Who are you?
Are you the rhymes of a poet?
Are you the song of a songstress?
Are you the early morning dew?
An essence that pleasures the soul,
Finally I stood eye to eye,
And it felt like the cosmic gypsy had found her home…
For she never belonged anywhere else,
But with you in your arms.
After all these years the spring of my existence
Has blossomed again,
I feel like a teenager, full of laughs and giggles..
When you play with my hair,
Finally the wayward half-sunken ship of my life
Has found an anchor.
An anchor that stops me from being swayed away
By currents of despair and agony,
He came as the Sun of my solar system
The numbness melted away
His warmth radiated in my soul
His voice a balm to my aching heart
Finally the cosmic gypsy found her home…
Her elusive home…
In the Universe of our creation.
Why does it pain me when you get hurt?
Why do my eyes water when you feel sad?
Why do I need to stare into your eyes always..
What will happen to me when the dream ends
And I wake up?
Will you still be here.
Like right now.
In my arms…
Will you be home when I return?
The heart can hope.
The mind doubts it.
But you tell me that you are my home…
You tell me the cosmic gypsy has found her home…
Yes there will be fun and entertainment while we peruse through the 78 cards of the mystical tradition of Tarot.
There will be one on one guidance and much help to start you off on your journey with the tarot.
Written and video material also included.
Listen, O Devi, I will speak concisely of the essence of yoga. The body resembles a tree, with the root above and the branches below. In the macrocosm there are tirthas (bathing places) which also exist in the body. The macrocosm is like the microcosm. – Todala Tantra, II
What do you think these words stand for? Do they incite fear or abhorrence in you? If they do, then you’re seriously misguided AF!
They are pagan based ideologies that try to grasp the interplay of the divine masculine and divine feminine energies that are at the crux of creation.
Whether you call them Shiva/Shakti or by any other name, it does not matter. Whenever you try to understand how this binary plays out, you are in fact a witch or a tantrika. And every treatise that tries to explain this “game” or lila as is called in Sanskrit is known as Tantra.
You might have heard of the FOUR VEDAS that were given to humanity by Brahma, the Godhead who created this Universe. Brahma has four faces and each of the Vedas, Rig, Sama, Yagur, Atharva are said to have emanated from each of those four faces.
Brahma is a part of the holy trinity of Sanatan Dharma, the other two “Gods” being Vishnu and Shiva. The word Brahma comes from the root BRH which means “to expand, grow, fructify”. It is said Brahma expands, much like the EXPANDING UNIVERSE because this very universe is woven out of his own substance.
What do you think is the meaning of Brahma? If you study Western occultism, then you might know of the MANIFESTED LOGOS. This LOGOS is the whole Universe.
In Christology, the Logos (Greek: Λόγος, lit. ”Word”, “Discourse”, or “Reason”) is a name or title of Jesus Christ, seen as the pre-existent second person of the Trinity. The concept derives from John 1:1, which in the Douay–Rheims, King James, New International, and other versions of the Bible, reads: In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God…~~Wiki
Interestingly, in Sanskrit, we say VAKYA BRAHMA. That translates to, the WORD is GOD. Do you see how this is panning out?
Brahma — the symbol of the Universe. In esoteric parlance, Brahma is Father-Mother-Son, or Spirit, Soul and Body at once; each personage being symbolical of an attribute, and each attribute or quality being a graduated efflux of Divine Breath in its cyclic differentiation, involutionary and evolutionary. In the cosmicophysical sense, it is the Universe, the planetary chain and the earth; in the purely spiritual, the Unknown Deity, Planetary Spirit, and Man — the Son of the two, the creature of Spirit and Matter, and a manifestation of them in his periodical appearances on Earth during the “wheels,” or the Manvantaras. ~~HPB
So Brahma gave us the FOUR VEDAS.
But it is Shiva who gave us the TANTRAS and why is that?
The Tantras are known to contain the practical application of how the Vedas work. Therefore, we may conclude that the TANTRA in essence is like the fifth Veda. Tantras were given to humanity, “to gain liberation through expansion in all spheres of existence…”
The Vedas definitely have their importance, but in this Kaliyuga (NOTHING TO DO WITH GODDESS KALI), Tantra actually holds way more importance and is the best tool for enlightenment or self actualization.
Kali Yuga (Sanskrit: कलियुग, translit. kaliyuga, lit. ‘age of Kali’) is the last of the four stages (or ages or yugas) the world goes through as part of a ‘cycle of yugas’ (i.e. Mahayuga) described in the Sanskrit scriptures. The “Kali” of Kali Yuga means “strife”, “discord”, “quarrel” or “contention”. ~~Wiki
Tantra has two paths- Left and right.
Oh BTW, do you know who started the use of the term LEFT HAND PATH in the West. One of my spiritual teachers and a great tantric called Blavatsky. She was a Vamachari tantric and she brought this path in focus to her Western students! She has been a guiding force in my life…she is always with me, guiding me and helping me to realize my mission in the 3d realm. And as some say, she never intended the use of left hand magick to have negative connotations. Her words and h er work were misconstrued.
It is generally held that those who participate in the rituals of Five Ms belong to the category of Vāmācāra.” ~~N. N. Bhattacharyya
What are these FIVE Ms, you ask?
The five M’s are
These five Ms have a deep symbology. While immersed in tantra, you will slowly move away from crude enjoyments because they will mean nothing.
If one is too addicted to these things, when they do it consciously, they will move away from them…slowly but surely…
The right path is linear. Like a straight line. It consists of rituals, worship and such.
The left path, which is sometimes considered dark or black magic is non linear. However, there is nothing dark or negative about the left path. In fact, this path, although not suited for all, can bring one to moksha and gyana, enlightenment and wisdom earlier than the right path.
The left hand path is not EVIL…please study before you say this…please…the left is the IDA or the CHANDRA NADI…
“In Buddhist tantra, the right hand symbolises the male aspect of compassion or skilful means, and the left hand represents the female aspect of wisdom or emptiness.” ~~Robert Beér’s Encyclopedia of Tibetan Symbols and Motifs
But the left path is not easy…it is difficult and the sadhaka or the tantric/witch must be of Vira swabhav(nature), which translates to BRAVE CONSTITUTION. Because the left path opens up unknown chapters of reality. It shows us things that can scare or frighten the weak or the coward and can sway them from their spiritual path. Therefore, before you begin to delve into tantra, it is important to know which path to follow.
I have always been a Vamachari or a follower of the left hand path…
Since most humans are now full of greed and cowardice, there is such fear of the left path or witchcraft which is frickin’ baseless. Why be scared if you understand that everything exists in everything and everything is nothing. SO much so for semantics.
In representations of the Buddha image, the right hand often makes an active mudra of skillful means—the earth-touching, protection, fearlessness, wish-granting or teaching mudra; while the left hand often remains in the passive mudra of meditative equipoise, resting in the lap and symbolizing meditation on emptiness or wisdom.” ~~Robert Beér
The left hand path is the path of Sunyata or the Great Void or the Goddess…so special as I write about this during navaratri…
The tantras are divided into two parts- AGAMA and NIGAMA. In the Agamas, we see worship taking the center stage, but in Nigama, we see the preponderance of Science. Of course, not the materialistic Science of today, but metaphysical and spiritual science.
However, in this era, which is considered to be Kaliyuga, the practise of Agama shastra is probably the best way to seek enlightenment. It is the quickest and the easiest path. Forget the Vedas, the Smrutis and the Puranas for now. This is the time to understand tantra.
Tantra is about delicate balance, so when you learn to ace this energy, you find that you are perpetually in a state of bliss. No matter what happens, your samadhi cannot be disturbed.
Shiva tells us that if we learn the tantric mantras and how to activate the chi in them, then we have created internal alchemy. We become the alchemists.
The basis of tantra is Shiva/Shakti and Shiva is Shakti as Shakti is Shiva. Nothing is Everything and Everything is Nothing…can you sense how sublime this reality can be? It’s just magick!
The changeless, absolute and pure consciousness is Shiva, while the natural tendency of Shiva towards the outward manifestation of the five divine activities is Shakti. So, even though Shiva is Shakti, and Shakti is Shiva, and even though both are merely aspects of the same reality called Paramasiva, still, these concepts of Shiva-hood and Shakti-hood are counted as the first two tattvas. These two tattvas are at the plane of absolute purity and perfect unity. ~~B. N. Pandit, Specific Principles of Kashmir Shaivism (3rd ed., 2008), p. 73.”
In the Vedas, this Shakti is Gayatri and Gayatri is Adhyashakti or the Primordial Mother.
Shiva has said in the Brihadnila Tantra to his consort or Shakti Parvati, that if one understands the fundamental crux of the tantra, then they will never be wanting for anything. And in war, during storms and tsunamis and other natural disasters, Shakti’s mantras will alleviate their suffering. Even during paranormal haunting.
This text Brihad Nila tantra is the secret of all secrets and even just having the text is like having the Goddess Laxmi reside in your place. This path is not one of renunciation. It is a path that brings you all kinds of success.
In fact, with the understanding of the text, the esoteric parts, one will become a miracle worker. A magician.
I will be writing at length about Brihad Nila tantra and much more…join me…
“Sivtatva’ and ‘Saktitatva’ (Lord Shiva and Holy Mother Kali) – Father’s semen in mother’s womb, both combined. Next I am born – ‘Sadasiva’ which means a continuous hilarity within my body. Next comes ‘Iswartatwa’ – Man becomes God and he is so made (One is All); ‘Sadvidyatatva’ – All these I am – All is One – I am all these, which is in action. What is that? Suppose in the spiritual world whatever will reveal within the brain will be flashed among the human race and by such phenomenon the world will get real benefit.” ~~
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The wings of my butterfly shaped soul
Flutter mercilessly in vain
The sound of the death knell
The poignancy of the everlasting pain
Sweet surrender and an ending it longs
Like a moth to the flame
There is no denying this
There is no shame
Death is my poison
Suicide my orgasm
My whole body spasms
With the touch of your eyes
Do not believe these lies
Oh sweet death
I want your embrace
There is just the sublime fall from grace
Oh death…Oh death…
Death from this eternity in waiting
Waiting in the soulless purgatory
This disastrous love story
Is the sweet poison I crave
Life has fucked me hard
But I cannot discard
The thought of you
Are you standing before me?
I ask myself…
Did you leave?
Were you ever here?
Or were you in my mind?
In your eyes my soul I find
Did I wait forever?
Is this all an atrocious mistake?
When everything is at stake
Could I not have been more clever
To know this game makes us a loser
Has it already been that long
But I remember that song
An eternity has passed
I will not go out without a blast
Like the brilliance of a deadly quasar
This is the need of the hour
But you still remain inside of me
Like a soul wrenching ache
Don’t you see?
It’s not just my heart you break
When you deny and you’re filled with hesitation
You are the ghost of my creation
The sound of my incantations
Even in utter darkness
You shine like a trillion Suns
Why such aloofness?
I come undone
You are the tears that trickle down my cheeks
Am I too meek
To keep mourning the loss of inevitability
You are the constricted breath
Chocking me, strangling me
You are my asphyxiation
A wild desperation
You are my incarceration
My goddamn damnation
You are my sweet torment
Why are you so hellbent?
On destroying the sacredness
Of what we might have had
You are my bitter pleasure
And my absolute treasure
The robber of my soul
Be sure to play this role
To eternal oscillation
Of our existences
They become nothingness
As the void of emptiness
Dances around us
Through vast intergalactic distances
You are my dazzling sunshine
Deliver the sign to tell me you are here
As my psychedelic Jesus
You are my raging tempest
You are my perpetual melancholia
You are my abject paranoia
You are my tempest that blows asunder
You are my broken heart
Scattered into a million smithereens
You are my hallucination
You are my desperation
You are my absolution
You are my dream
You are my nightmare
You are all my memories
You are my wonderland
You are my matrix
You are my Sun and the Moon
You are my storm
As you rage inside of me
I have revolted against myself for you
Are you waiting for me?
Hear me call out to you
As Juliet to Romeo
As the poison turned her blue and cold
Much has been told
And now I am fed up
What will it be?
A cup of coffee or suicide?
I know I have laughed hysterically as I have cried
And now it’s time for the final goodbye.
More and more come pouring out…