Themes of Domination and submission~~

BDSM is not about SEX. In its higher vibrations, it has to do with SPIRITUALITY and SOUL EVOLUTION. Do you think this to be blasphemous? Follow my chain of thought and explore more.

Do you know that fear is a potent aphrodisiac?

This is a post that has been pending in the pipeline for quite a while and there is no better time to do this than right now. There is this MOON QUINCUNX MARS aspect that is happening in the skies today and with this particular energy, there is a repressed vibe of S&M if you ask me. It could also lead to AUTOSADISM, a term coined to reflect the pain and humiliation inflicted on oneself.

Yes there are all kinds of people and all different kinds of things rock their respective boats. But why the necessity to speak about BDSM, the generally accepted term for “sexual sadism within the context of mutual consent”…

I have explored the aspect of domination and submission both, although I am a natural Dominant. And women DOMINANTS do not usually speak out, unless they are pro-dommes, but, I think it is now time to openly discuss FLR or FEMALE LED RELATIONSHIPS and FEMDOM, which means FEMALE DOMINATION.

BDSM is a collaborative, spiritual and creative exchange between the TOP and the bottom. It is sublime!

And, and, and, there is not much resource for women who want to explore DOMINATION…But now, things are going to change…

Yet, I do agree, there is a sweet sense of surrender when you expose your vulnerable self to someone to do whatever they want with. It is a dangerous proposition, but if a SACRED SPACE can be created for the couple’s mutual adventurous sides to come out and play, then there is a possibility of great catharsis during a BDSM encounter.

I will stand by my thesis that BDSM, which is consensual, may actually lead to ALTERED STATES OF CONSCIOUSNESS. It can be as potent as Acid or MDMA.

One study, published in May 2013, actually found that practitioners of BDSM were better off than the general population in some ways, including having secure relationships and lower anxiety. You know why? Because the relationship between a DOMINANT and a sub is open and honest, even if the sub has contacted her for a pro session.

The two words incorporated into this compound, “sadism” and “masochism”, were originally derived from the names of two authors. The term “Sadism” has its origin in the name of the Marquis de Sade (1740–1814), who not only practiced sexual sadism, but also wrote novels about these practices, of which the best known is Justine. “Masochism” is named after Leopold von Sacher-Masoch, who wrote novels expressing his masochistic fantasies. ~~WIKI

PAIN and PLEASURE are two binaries and often times this infliction of pain is brought about by the emotional needs of the masochist. The Dominant likes to play along and mentor, because through the possibility of the threat of violence, the submissive can and may succeed in expressing psychological purging. And the DOMINANT feels the intensity too. It is a dance of ADRENALINE for the TOP.

The pain that comes with sadomasochistic sex may cause the brain to shunt blood flow away from this region, causing a subjectively altered state of consciousness — and the appeal of SM, Ambler said. “Part of the reason these SM activities may be so extreme, at some level, is that they’re particularly effective at causing the brain to change its distribution of blood flow,” he said. ~~huffingtonpost

In fact after a session of SHIBARI, you will begin to feel light, stress free and in control. There is something about lying suspended, all tied up. SHIBARI is a very powerful spiritual tool and there is so much to be had if you land up as a SHIBARI CANVAS in the hands of a true artist!

In Japanese, “Shibari” simply means “to tie”. The contemporary meaning of Shibari describes an ancient Japanese artistic form of rope bondage. In the late 1800′s and early 1900′s a new form of erotic Hojo-justu evolved, called Kinbaku, the art of erotic bondage. Today, particularly in the west, the art of erotic bondage is typically called Shibari, which is an art of erotic spirituality, not a martial art. ~~artofcontemporaryshibari

VANILLA SEX does not appeal to a huge segment of society and I can stand testimony to that. There are numerous men and women who have explored or will explore BDSM in some form or the other if the chance comes along.

VIOLENCE and the thought of it also creates a sort of attachment, not the Stockholm Syndrome types, but a more psychological dependence on the DOMINANT for knowing when to take the whip out and when to make the sub lick her shoes. All these acts are at the core psychological cues asking the submissive to surrender.

The sub wants nothing more than being able to surrender, because at the sound of the crack of the whip, all his troubles vanish away. The DOMINANT is as heavily attached to the play as the sub if not more so. Because a DOMINANT knows no surrender and is always in control which can be quite demanding. Because sometimes we all like to go with the flow.

There are subtle emotional cues the DOMINANT must always look for, because it is the DOMINANT here who is the MEDICINE or the WITCH DOCTOR. I have worked with many women who have wanted to explore their dominant side. I have worked with many men who have felt so ashamed at their submissive side that they have come to me broken, sexually and psychologically. It takes time to build such people from ground zero, so it is my suggestion that we understand and explore it. If we have a partner who is into BDSM play, then we should be open enough to explore any extremity that might be needed.

I am not saying that if you are a submissive, then you have to become a dominant just to please your man. All I am saying is, that men love it when women TAKE CONTROL in bed. You can guide him, ride him, delay him or gratify him. It is in your hands.

And no, if a person is a dominant, then it does not mean they are a sexual deviant or a sexual predator or even sexually aggressive. Remember a rape is not S&M, because RAPE is never about sexual gratification. RAPE IS ABOUT POWER. P-O-W-E-R!!!

A Dominant is in fact like your MENTOR, if you are a sub and the responsibility of a mentor is quite heavy if you ask me. Much heavier than just letting things happen to you. Some Dominant use a safe word, some don’t. But at the end of the day, BDSM is never about physical harm. Keeping sub/slave tendencies repressed will only create havoc with your life and finances. So why not explore this path with your partner or find a mentor.

There is nothing wrong if a man wants to be submissive in bed. In fact, some of the most POWERFUL MEN in history have been subs in bed. They are so sick and tired of making all the decisions, that now they want to surrender their whole being to the Dominant.

Many people have asked me to discuss BDSM’S ASTROLOGY. What makes a DOMINANT? What makes a submissive? And it is time to understand that practitioners of BDSM are not sociopaths or psychopaths and are not clinically unwell.

Even though FREUD seemed to suggest otherwise.

In 1905, Sigmund Freud described sadism and masochism in his Drei Abhandlungen zur Sexualtheorie (“Three papers on Sexual Theory”) as stemming from aberrant psychological development from early childhood.~~WIKI

BDSM activists have been toiling tirelessly to remove this misconception.

Have you seen the film Quills? Starring Geoffrey Rush, Kate Winslet, and Michael Caine? That depicts the life of the man whose name coined the word SADISM.

How delightful are the pleasures of the imagination! In those delectable moments, the whole world is ours; not a single creature resists us, we devastate the world, we repopulate it with new objects which, in turn, we immolate. The means to every crime is ours, and we employ them all, we multiply the horror a hundredfold. —Marquis de Sade, Les prospérités du vice

In a patriarchal world, we are used to men taking the leadership role and we see women generally as subservient to the men around. The idea of women being sadists were not accepted by FREUD and his colleagues. Men were the DOMINANT, they thought. And how wrong are they? Femdom is a slap in the face of FRUED.

Both Krafft-Ebing and Freud assumed that sadism in men resulted from the distortion of the aggressive component of the male sexual instinct. Masochism in men, however, was seen as a more significant aberration, contrary to the nature of male sexuality. Freud doubted that masochism in men was ever a primary tendency, and speculated that it may exist only as a transformation of sadism. Sadomasochism in women received comparatively little discussion, as it was believed that it occurred primarily in men. Both also assumed that masochism was so inherent to female sexuality that it would be difficult to distinguish as a separate inclination. ~~WIKI

Since SADO-MASOCHISM is such a difficult topic to tackle, let me explain some astrological aspects that might illuminate it further.

Look for challenging aspects between PLUTO and MARS. The NN does also play into it. In fact the FIXED SIGNS, the CROSS of LEO, TAURUS, AQUARIUS and SCORPIO are into hegemony and powerplay in some sorts during sex.

SATURN in the fifth may cause one to be a cold sadist and PLUTO in there might mean that dirty politics is operative in the dynamics. If there is a CONJUNCTION of these planets, then there could be a very strong DOMINANT there.

AQUARIUS ASCENDANT and MOONS are heavily into BDSM, they are mostly switches as they like to experience the full spectrum. A URANUS strong chart would also indicate sexual experimentation.

SATURN placements would mean a father figure fixation. It might make you attracted to older men. I have my SATURN in LEO in the 12th and older men with wisdom definitely interest me. It is the SATURNIAN WISDOM that turns me on. SATURN could also be a CRONE and you might find yourself pulled to older, wiser women who will dominate you.

MOON OPPOSITE PLUTO could also point to sexual power dynamics, like CHARLES MANSON, the cult leader. This can make you FANATICAL and INTOLERANT, energies a DOMINANT can use well in bed.

MARS in ARIES, 8th house brings the DOMINA into full functionality and then the cherry on top is an OPPOSITION to the NN and PLUTO which are conjunct. Yay baby!

What makes the DOMINANT tick? What excites me about a man who can surrender to me? Yes, sometimes I like being cruel to my lover, but why?

I feel powerful? I am in charge? My way or the high way? All of this actually. Because even though a woman is the receptive energy, she is also the CREATRIX, the SHAKTI that creates everything.

Look for Lilith placements in your chart. I have some hardcore Lilith and Mars conversations happening in my natal chart.

Think of ERIS…Eris is the goddess of discord and rivalry.

Greek myth tells that, upon exclusion from a wedding, Eris threw into the midst of its revellers an apple marked ‘for the fairest’. An argument ensued between the goddesses Athena, Hera and Aphrodite as to its intended recipient, the settling of which eventually led to the Trojan War

Pitting the goddesses Athena, Hera and Aphrodite against each other in competition for the title of ‘fairest’, she exposed the diminished feminine, divorced from its sovereignty and subordinated to the power of the masculine gaze. Now she returns power to us all, inviting us to embrace the light and dark feminine and all shades in-between: the Venusian delights of sensuality, the cyclical intuition of our lunar nature and the viscerality of Eridian challenge of all that perpetuates patriarchal mores of gendered worth. ~~foreverunlimited

Women are not objects created for the male gaze.

Femdom kinda reverses that fulcrum. BE LIKE ERIS. Who cares who is fairer? Who cares about what men think and how we need to alter ourselves to fit into the norm of what is attractive. Life is not just a heteronormative exposition.

TANTRICS are all subs and slaves to the women. Because in tantra, it is only a woman who is superior to men as she is a direct symbol of the Goddess.

The sub suffers and a Dominant enjoys that SUFFERING.

Understand one thing, that both the DOMME and the sub are exploring their UNCONSCIOUS MIND as they embark on the play. The SADIST may draw inspiration from their UNCONSCIOUS to punish the sub. It could be jealousy, possessiveness or sexual marking. It could even piss the DOMINANT off if the sub sexually turns her on. After all, he does what she says.

The sub is an object. SUBHUMAN and a Dominant need not handle any bullshit from him. It is her choice to do as she pleases. Sex loses its meaning in the traditional way, but here a new sexual narrative takes shape. A new foray into sexual mores and desires. The world is ready for it.

The DOMINANT wants trophies, not lovers. In most cases, DOMINANTS feel scared to posit deep meaning in their sexual acts. But meaning already always exists, doesn’t it. The play time develops a new relationship dynamics. This scapegoating more times than not, alleviates the trauma of women who have undergone sexual abuse. In fact, it is a deep healing process to take back that control in your sexual life. But again, it must be BALANCED, not just rampant physical harm.

The submissives usually have hard NEPTUNE aspects with their MOONS and ASCENDANTS. MARS and NEPTUNE can create a nebulous haze around needs and desires. I have seen subs lost in rape fantasies because of Neptune and MARS, sometimes Pluto. Pisces as 8th house too.

“I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.”
― Anaïs Nin

I will discuss Anaïs Nin’s astrology in more detail when I do the submissive women part. This is what a lot of women want, but some women want the male to be submissive and it is quite common. Women are exceptionally good Dominants, like Geisha’s so many of them helping their clients explore in the sanctity of the sacred space they create.

ALGOL is another FIXED STAR to look at as it focuses on PLUTONIC ALL-CONSUMING OBSESSION. Anger and rage can devour you, although the DOMINANT is never really angry. It is like an actor playing a role.

In astrology, ERIS and LILITH are both Dominas. In tantric myths, it is KALI, the one true feminist who never thought twice of standing on the chest of her man to make a point.

I am not some feminazi spouting hatred and causing more divisions and fractures in the collective psyche. I am just asking you to be like KALI. Take charge of your life, take charge of your pleasure and show your man what to do and what you like. Make him submit and he will love you for it. I know my lovers have loved it when I have taken charge. Try it and it is different every time.

There is much more coming up in themes of Domination and submission, many more nuances to discuss to bring to light the holistic aspect of this BDSM playtime. I have seen the efficacy and now I am here to unveil the potential of truly dominating a man or truly submitting and surrendering to him. What do you like? What does he like? Understand your sexual needs and desires.

JUPITER in SCORPIO is blessing ya…

Email me if you want to learn to awaken your DOMINANT side~~

I do workshops with women from all over the world.

I do lecture about the subject,, so email me if you want me to speak on it.

tina@tinaheals.com

IMAGE COPYRIGHT ~~Australian mixed media artist Garth Knight reveals overtly what we already know: bondage is beautiful. His project, The Enchanted Forest, elevates rope bondage to a new level —CHECK HIS WORK OUT~~

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Notes on #PussyTalks: Sluts and Whores~~

Wow thank you all for the letters and the notes, the memes and the pictures; they made my day just that much brighter. I had retreated into a very deep place, something to do with my natal Pluto, Mars and Venus aspects from where I might never fully return. Astrological work will be coming up shortly as well as more on Sacred sexuality.

Jupiter in Scorpio brought about a wonderful surprise, remember it is on the third house from Ascendant. The house of communication and the energy is Scorpionic with Jupiter amplifying all those attributes. I spoke to a group of empowered Escorts and sex workers who know and love their work. They also love their clients(well most of them).

You might not know, but I have been interacting with escorts, Johns, Dominas, Tops, Bottoms, Crossdressers and many others from the sex industry for very many years. Collecting data and looking through a Uranian filter on such SCORPIONIC ISSUES.

Something about the way women’s sexuality presented itself in society did not do much for my identity as a sexual being. In fact, I told that virginity was something to be saved for your husband. Fuck yes, I remember it. Fuck, everything to do with sex was such a stigma. All the time.

Obviously bad girls like me do not listen and we do what we need to do to experience life in all its awesomeness. How can you leave out sexuality which is at the very crux of human civilisation?

It made no sense that it was so hush-hush. It made no sense why my BFS got so jealous if other men(including their brothers and their best friends) looked at me or spoke to me with excitement. They behaved like I was their possession and it pissed my rebellious spirit off to no end.

In fact, it happened to me recently. I lost an old friend because her husband could not contain his excitement at meeting me! And this is one woman who should have known that I will never be into her man. Even if he was my type. It hurt me tremendously and is a wound I have been carrying for a few months. There I spoke of it…

Such is the place from which Pussy Talks was conceived. I had to discover for myself that I was not alone. I was not the only woman who CRAVED TO CONNECT. I was not the only woman who wanted it uninhibited, raw, deep and fiery.

I knew there were others.

That is when I learnt of the Virgin/Whore archetypes. That is what society has reduced us to. Either we are good little virgins(wives, mothers, sisters) or we are whores(free minded bitches). I may be a wife, but my husband knows very well and loves the fact that he does not own me. I am as free as he is.

I saw girls gossiping amongst themselves every-time someone lost her virginity. There were always the most psychotic, obsessive, desperate-to-accomplish types who held on to their hymens.

It was strange the way they held on to their virginity as a commodity with which they could in some way leverage a better deal.

Not for me. Hahahahahaha! Some even went for hymen transplantation. Such is the saga of human sexuality today.

Working through the sacred slut archetype yesterday with the ladies MADE ME SO EXCITED that I made up my mind to write this post. Every woman has the right to feel this orgasmic bliss that rocks her whole being. It is as much your birthright as it is mine.

Most times, men will not give it to you, so you must learn to give it to yourself till you find the ONE you can merge in sacred union with. Trust me there is someone who will make love to you and stick all the broken parts back together. Dreamy shit…hahahaha!

Anyway girls, your virginity is not a commodity and the first time you make love, keep in mind that even if the person is not your Mr. Right, even then, be PRESENT in the moment. In the NOW. Be there. Smell him, feel him, feel the whole scenario and just experience it. Do not feel upset if it is not what you had in mind. Embrace the reality while knowing that the fantasy might happen, someday.

There is nothing as disturbing as losing your virginity while drunk or drugged. In fact, if you decide to lose your virginity, make sure, you and your beau abstain from alcohol, especially if you are doing YONI PUJA or tantra meditation sex. Remember, this is not Neo-Tantra, so my ideas may differ from what is being sold in the West as Tantra.

I know that to activate your sexual energy, you have to connect with your pussy. It has to be done. My work with women focuses on activating the GODDESS FORM INSIDE EACH OF THEM and the YONI or the PUSSY becomes a direct symbol of the GODDESS.

The ladies I spoke with were working with sexual energy and if they work with the GODDESS FORM, they might find more magick in the work they do. The men will also respond to this energy flux. This might result in lots of kundalini activity.

Although they were pretty adjusted on the surface, yet, some of them failed to really tap into their INNER SACRED SLUT/WHORE and sex work can become healing work if you just understand how to work with the energy and it all begins with INTENT.

Most girl were telling me that they find no time to meditate or do anything spiritual at which I told them and showed them how putting on your daily make up can become a meditation.

They were thrilled I can tell you that.

As Jupiter moves through Scorpio, society will be confronted with FEMALE SEXUALITY like never before.

Believe me, wild sister, man wanted monogamy. You did not. He decided to control you while you were pregnant and had to depend on him. And look now, what has changed. Women’s reproductive rights are a joke.

Women are way more sexual than men and the Courtesans and Sacred Whore of yore knew this. They were SLUTS because unlike the wives they did not belong to any man, but chose to mate with whomever she liked.

No man controlled her, not with money, not with sex and not with children.

She was free to explore her sexuality and in most cases made it a spiritual practice. Women have this inherent wisdom and trust me, talking to sex workers from all over, I can tell you that they are some of the wisest and experienced women, especially if she has successfully drawn on the COURTESAN archetype.

For the Courtesan was a truly accomplished Artist and MUSE, sometimes of really powerful men. She was a Philosopher, a musician, a singer, a confidant, a seductress and even a top in bed and she played all these roles to perfection.

Why are wives sacred of the Courtesan? Like some women are scared of sexually empowered women? These women are your witches, your bitches and your bossy bosses. Don’t you just hate them? Hahahahahaha!

The wife fears the courtesan because the courtesan does not need any man. But the wife does. Remember she is a wife and her whole identity is wrapped around that little concept.

The Courtesan is free from this. She is sexually free, in most cases(if she is smart, lol) then she decides and chooses her lovers and they in turn provide for her. Yes the Courtesan is seen as a FREE and available woman and in most cases vilified, but it was not so in ancient times and it is also imperative to end the stigma behind sex work and prostitutes. They are girls, like you and me.

Escorts and sex workers have to understand SACRED SEXUALITY, because they work with kundalini energy at the very base level and if they manage to rise up in vibration as a collective, then imagine what could happen. Our society could change.

Being in love with somebody and cohabiting with someday- two totally disparate concepts. How can you love someone if you know them intimately? The courtesan provides the allure, the mysterious. Whereas the wife is an open book that the husband mostly ignores because he has read every page. So instead of going through the painful process of reinventing yourself over and over again(spending tons and tons on the way you look and getting stressed AF), wouldn’t it be better if we redefined feminine sexuality.

It is so very important for women as a collective to come together and scream out that- WE RECLAIM OUR SEXUALITY, our reproductive rights…We will decide as well how sex and sexual imagery will be portrayed in media and in society.

Look at the images in front of you…hacked and quartered limbs of women selling you products. The breast will sell you everything, but when it pops out to feed an infant- ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE. While breastfeeding my toddler the other day at the airport, I was stunned at how many men stared at my breast, forgetting the fact that they were once babes suckling on their moms.

Look sexual imagery is created for the MALE GAZE. There are no spaces for women to express their sexual preferences, desires, fantasies and the rest. Fuck that, there is really no avenue for women to be sexually empowered. Look around you, wherever you go…the violence on women is apparent and evident.

You cannot hide from it now.

Working through SACRED SEXUALITY and all the archetypes in our consciousness must be a top priority, not just for sex workers, but for all women and men out there.

Men are being fed a garbage diet of misogynistic porn and soon to come, robot sex. Think hard. How will a man handle the idiosyncrasies of a real woman. So men, tune into your sacral chakra. It has a lot of wisdom.

Men are not from Mars and women are not from Venus, although they are the cosmic archetypes of masculine and feminine. Both men and women are from Earth and it is time to join together.

A woman is way more sexual than a man. Believe me and please note that the walls of the vagina do not get stretched or loose with sex. In fact the pussy is full of elasticity, the muscles and tissues can expand and contract easily and return to how it used to be.

I have heard so many women bring this up as a lack of interest in the men that I feel like shouting it out from the roofs tops. Google it bitches…check it out. You can start the Kegels later on now.

There is so much bullshit propaganda around female sexuality thatt it has perverted human sexual expression and its freedom. Society never makes women’s sexuality a priority. It is a filter through which a male can masturbate and enjoy. Watch the lesbian porns out there and you will know of what I speak. You already do.

The clothes we are meant to wear. They are so freaking uncomfortable, some of them, yet they serve the purpose of the male gaze. Look at the bikini, it is an elaborate subterfuge to get women exposed so men can stare at them while sitting with their wives. Making the wife insecure and getting her hating on the younger girl. See how it is a vicious cycle. The wife hates the sexually free woman, even though they both stand oppressed in the hands of patriarchy.

Little girls are falling under the trap of hyper sexualisation and that is creating a more perverted scenario where they find it hard to fit in and adhere to set norms of beauty because they are unrealistic.

If women became sexual beings and decided to take matters in their own hands, then things could change. Women can bring about a change in the way society perceives and separates us.

Maybe there can be BALANCE if men and women contribute to the sexual repertoire. It will benefit us as a culture.

Ladies reading this, you need to reclaim the INNER WHORE and trust on your vagina. You have to begin a relationship with it and start to love it. Like your womb.

You can only bring pleasure to your husband if you learn to pleasure yourself and take sex as an artform. If you tap into the COURTESAN archetype, you will see how it shifts your whole energy signature and sexually awakened tigresses are beacons of hope for the rest of the females because we have been so repressed and controlled in that department that we have lost our voices to speak of sexual pleasure. Or wait, people might call you a SLUT/WHORE.

So what?

 

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tina@tinaheals.com

Lucid Dream: Twinflames and Mary Magdalene~~

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Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity. ~~ W. B. YEATS

Fragmented pieces swim in the seas of my consciousness. A cacophony of sounds. A kaleidoscope of lights. The moment is crackling with suspense as I know I am about to enter into one of the most prophetic visions I have ever had.

Chiron is retrograde in 29 degrees of Pisces which is my SEVENTH HOUSE. My Moon is here too and “Chiron can be thought of as a boat allowing us to cross the deep ocean providing navigation, direction and a safe passage to being who we are meant to be.” says Erin Frances, an eminent astrologer. Chiron is taking me for these astral journeys. Chiron is making me the wounded healer I am meant to be. Welcome to my LUCID ASTRAL VISION.

A tangled tapestry of sights and sounds.

EXT. WIDE MEADOW. TWILIGHT

A dripping sound, like a leaking tap.  A female voice hums a lullaby. The sound of flapping wings is heard.

Then: A raw and primal, jagged and out of breath panting is heard.

FADE IN:

Tina, a girl of around nine years old is sprawled in the ground.

A HUMMINGBIRD flutters right in front of her.

She stares at it, steadies her breath and then reaches out to touch it.

The HUMMINGBIRD floats close. It approaches the girl and positions itself right in front of her eyes.

She stares at the bird’s pupils.

C.U of her pupils. They dilate.

She lets out a primal scram and touches her nose. A red line of blood runs down.

Slow Motion: The blood trickles to her knees and she looks down.

The HUMMINGBIRD flutters its wings and takes off.

Tina stares at it. Something coils in her stomach.

She begins to run towards the HUMMINGBIRD that is now seen as a dot in the distance.

THUD. Tina falls through the proverbial rabbit hole.

Silhouettes of humans, beasts and hybrids dance in the shadows. Fear gripping her insides, she tries to look down.

She feels sick. The blood has now dried up.

The cacophony of voices swim into her consciousness from time to time.

VOICE 1: There she goes. Look there. Look at her.

VOICE 2: It’s all over. What now? Kaput!

Horrid laughter fills her ears, she falls to the floor, dishevelled and enervated.

 

Suddenly she can hear it. The flapping of the hummingbird. CLOSE ON HER EYES- she looks up with hope.

FADE TO BLACK:

That is how the vision began. I wrote it as a screenplay to give it that visual feel. To start you off with pictures. Can you visualise the little girl Tina around 9?

Let’s move on with the vision. This happened to me in broad daylight. Not while I was meditating. Not while I was dreaming, but while I was writing in front of my computer. The screen just began to fade to black and I could hear static noise. My psychic energy must have been at an all time high, because I had just started bleeding and it was the Capricorn FM next to dear Pluto. And of course I am going through some interesting alignments and aspects in my own life, astrologically speaking.

This has happened to me before. My visions come to me in wave patterns, totally non linear. I blank out and then return. I write about many such visions in my novel, THE PLAN which should be published soon. I have given them the garb of fiction, but they are in fact reality. Sometimes I can hear a piercing sound after these visions. I used to get headaches before, but now with my spiritual practices, I have managed to heal myself from all that left over psychic debris.

The Hummingbird has been visiting me since very long. In my dreams and in my visions. I never realised their connection to Mezoamerican civilisation when I was about twelve.

Now as you can see at the beginning of the lucid astral experience, I felt absolutely paranoid. I felt scared, fearful and abandoned. I felt like a helpless child of nine. But somewhere deep down that hummingbird gave me hope.

It was like a flicker of abject inspiration. My muse of last hours. It’s complicated to describe the way I felt. The Hummingbird flies off into the distance.

My phone rings. I go to answer it, but suddenly a video call comes through. Only this is no ordinary video call. It’s like a hologram popping out from my phone and standing right in front of me. This figure is straight from some computer game and she has a lower body, but three faces. Three distinct faces. They someone reminded me of the Morrigan, the triple Celtic Goddess. Though at that time I thought they were the three hags from Macbeth. I was frantic and out of breath.

There was a track playing in the background. I did not know for the life of me what language it was in. It sounded like it was played through a gramophone. My grandfather had one of those things and I was obsessed with it during my childhood.

The hologram of the Morrigan began to disintegrate. Like fragmented digital bits of information. Do you know I have seen the fragmentation of reality, MATRIX style, even before the film was made. I was very young when I first started to see reality breaking away into digital bits. Made sense to me with the computer revolution. My vision made sense. I had glimpsed into the matrix.

After this the SCREEN goes DARK. FADE TO BLACK:

Suddenly I am in Goa, by the beach, in a place called Small Vagator. I sit on the sands drawing a MANDALA in the sand awkwardly. The wind keeps slapping away my design, but I persist. No matter how hard I try, I am not being able to even draw a circle that will stay in the wind. Nothing stays. IMPERMANENCE. What a way to learn it?

The Monks actually do draw the MANDALAS with sand and then they destroy them after the ritual and meditation. Yes, even in complex initiation ceremonies like the KALACHAKRA TANTRA.

My conscious mind may be learning patience and perseverance by this apparently futile task of painting a mandala in the sand. If the wind doesn’t blow it away, the water will wash it off. Kind of like our lives. No matter how hard we try to hold onto things, they just slip away. The harder we try, the more frustrated we get. NOTHING REMAINS!

Reminds me of this poem of Tagore~~ Nothing lasts forever. Click the link to enjoy~

I look at the Goa seas. They look sunny and happy. But deep down I know there is a dark undertone there. In a second, the skies change. The sea roars and the waves dance ominously. But I sit there. I don’t know why? There is a sense of surrender with this task. Surrender to the force of the Earth who is my mother, my mentor and my guide.

Take me, I whisper. Take me. But no. It is not my time. The Hummingbird is back. Flapping its wings. A rebirth?

Looking up the hummingbird and Mayan connection I found  Huitzilopochtli, the  deity of war, sun, human sacrifice and the patron of the city of Tenochtitlan!

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Huitzilopochtli

According to this legend, he was the smallest son of four—his parents being the creator couple Tonacatecutli and Tonacacihuatl while his brothers were Quetzalcoatl and the 2 Tezcatlipocas. His mother and father instructed both him and Quetzalcoatl to bring order to the world. And so, together they made fire, the first male and female humans, created the Earth, and made a sun. ~~WIKI

This archetypal myth resonates with me on such a deep level. It is the story of DOUBLE TWINFLAMES. Do you see it? The first pair of male, female. The creation myth!

He is a fire God, associated with the Sun(SOLAR DEITY) and I am also burning with this fire energy, so it made sense. My ruler is also the Sun! War? I am still exploring my connection to Mesoamerica by using a method called EVOLUTIONARY ASTROLOGY where you study the NODES OF THE MOON, the 12TH HOUSE, the 8TH HOUSE, SATURN, RETROGRADE PLANETS and INTERCEPTED PLANETS, SIGNS and HOUSES.

My NN is in Virgo and SN in Pisces. My 12th house is jampacked- Mercury, the Sun at 0 degrees, Saturn at 26 degrees in Leo! And I have a bunch of retrograde planets in my natal chart. Our bodies hold much of the old programming and it is the job of this 12th house to DESTROY those patterns once and for all. Losses and deaths! 12th house, the house which makes one a philosopher!

Another origin story tells of a fierce goddess, Coatlicue, being impregnated as she was sweeping by a ball of feathers on Mount Coatepec. Her other children, who were already fully grown, were the four hundred male Centzonuitznaua and the female deity Coyolxauhqui. These children, angered by the manner by which their mother became impregnated, conspired to kill her. Huitzilopochtli burst forth from his mother’s womb in full armor and fully grown. He attacked his older brothers and sister, defending his mother by beheading his sister and casting her body from the mountain top. He also chased after his brothers, who fled from him and became scattered all over the sky. ~~WIKI

The above story is so rich with symbolism and so pertinent to our times. Why can’t we all be like Huitzilopochtli? Why can’t we all protect the Earth? Isn’t she all our mother? Is that what the Hummingbird was telling me? To join in with my Twinflame and help the ascension process of our beloved Gaia.

The vision gets really complex now as I stand up to receive the HUMMINGBIRD in my hand. She lands perfectly and stares right at me. This time my heart fills with love and there is no fear. Yes the storm looms large. I am scared, but nope, I am not giving into fear or panic. nu-uh!

The Hummingbird kisses my fingers and takes off. The feeling is ethereal! The rain comes crashing down in a silvery sheet. The sound is deafening. I am soaking wet as I run to take shelter in the shack, but there is no one there. It is dark and nothing can be seen. There was a voice telling me, “You weren’t you, you were Tina…”

WTF? I am that person. I am Tina. Or am I? Who am I? Confusion was building inside.

The voice kept asking me, “So you believe? You believe?”

I wanted to scream. YES I BELIEVE. But believe what? I wanted to believe every single thing- life, death, sorrow, pleasure and pain. There is only believe in every fibre of my being!

Suddenly the rain quietened. I walk out to the beach, a wet mess. Not a person in sight. I have never seen that particular beach to look that empty. Not a soul in sight. I sat down as the Sun began to set.

Far away in the distance, I see this cloaked figure. Who is that out in the sea?

For a moment, I felt fear as the candle I light is blown away by the wind, and then a sudden warmth envelops me. The figure floats towards me. It is Mary Magdalene herself. She is the very feminine energy I dote on, my Beloved, my SPIRIT GUIDE. Today I sensed she wanted to be called Magdalene. Not anything else.

I must mention here that patriarchy has labelled Magdalene as a WHORE, because she was not like your common woman who wanted to just be a wife, mother and homemaker. Not that there is anything wrong with wanting any of that. It’s just that some women do not necessarily seek out that role. Like me. I never thought I would be someone’s wife, because marriage is a failed institution to me and the role of a stay at home wife never appealed to me. Motherhood is fantastic, but domesticity is not he be all and end all of my existence. And it never will be. I am forever a WANDERER, an Artist, a dreamer. Some women need to run wild and free. They cannot be chained and society should not try to.

Mary Magdalene is the WILD FEMININE ENERGY that is not meant to be a normal woman. Although she was a TANTRIC HIGH PRIESTESS they called her a prostitute. She was the wealth of the world, but they vilified her and degraded her sacredness to the point where she is forgotten in the world today. She is not one of the original disciples. No. She is a MASTER in her own right and taught Yeshua tantra. She is his yin, his balance. The mystic they called Jesus is her twinflame. On his name they started one of the most bloodiest religions in the world. That is what patriarchy has done for us. Taken sacred teachings from the feminine womb of wisdom and have corrupted and bastardised it to suit their own needs and agendas.

It was Mary Magdalene who initiated me in accepting myself as a sexual being. I fought long and hard against it. At a point I was having sex just to feel nothing. The act of being with someone became an addiction. A reason to stay away from feeling too deeply. Sex was never this magical and open, like so many women out there who hide their sexual feelings. 30% women regularly orgasm and an appalling number fake it. What else can they do? Expressing ourselves sexually would mean that we would be labelled and judged. Slut, bitch, whore etc. I do not care, but most women do, as they continue faking orgasms thinking sex is just a chore. Most women have sex to please their guys, without realising how much good sex would please them. The woman’s body is a pleasure trove. She has endless desires and a much stronger libido than men. Although she has been made to forget it. NEWSFLASH~~ LADIES, PLEASE STOP FAKING ORGASMS. You are spoiling the men. Show then what you like and how its done. Guide them.

Mary Magdalene showed me that not only is it okay to accept my sexual feelings, but to celebrate them, explore them. In fact, opening up to the sexual alchemy without guilt or shame has brought me closer to spirituality. I feel awakened in all ways, more than I have ever been. I feel creatively charged and connected to my twinflame. Ready to accept him inside of me. Makes me hot! I am in the process of making many life changing shifts and hopefully soon I will be in Goa able to connect to his energy. I know that is where I will meet him.

Doing away with old values, patterns can be hard, but it is worth the try. To live more authentically. When we face our inner demons, although sexuality is not a demon, but has been made into one by the fucking bourgeoisie. Societal hypocrisy is what gets me.

Mary Magdalene gave me a few messages for you and she has promised to help all of you heal your sexual wounds. She will also help you come to terms with your sexual desires.

CHANNELLED MESSAGES~~ Jotting them down randomly.

  1. You can never experience twinflame love unless you love yourself.
  2. Twinflame love is NOT ABOUT ROMANCE.
  3. There is a strong sense of purpose.
  4. There is a desire to heal people and the Earth and support the 5D ASCENSION PROCESS taking place.
  5. Strengthen this new LIGHTWORKER ENERGY GRID.
  6. Healing ancestral and familial wounds. Twinflames often incarnate with an imbalance in their early childhood so they can work through these issues and solve the. Although I come from a stable home, my life has been rocked by some hardcore events in my early childhood. I am working everyday to heal these scars. They are deep, but they will heal.
  7. Twinflames, when they are done, will teach all of HUMANITY new things, ideas and concepts about RELATIONSHIPS. They are not jealous in the conventional sense.
  8. Usually a twinflame relationship is female led. Like Shakti is on Shiva’s chest because she is the PRINCIPLE CREATIVE FORCE, similarly the partner with developed yin energy must lead the relationship with compassion and intuition.
  9. All twinflames must go through a stage of SEPARATION. Yes as hard as that sounds, it happens a lot.
  10. Let your INNER CHILD out to play. Heal yourself.
  11. Express all your emotions. Never keep them bottled up. Cry, laugh, chuckle, sing, dance…
  12. Most importantly Mary Magdalene tells me that even if we have not found our TWINFLAME, we must embark on the journey ourselves. In due course he will join.
  13. Although you may be super attracted to your twinflame, this attraction is unlike the usual CONSUME and devour types. Your sexual desires come from a sacred space of love and not of fear and possession.
  14. Twinflames are independent and in their power when they finally join in union.
  15. Lastly, meeting your twinflame will be like the SECOND COMING OF CHRIST. Through sexual energy fusion, you can experience the COMING OF CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS. The most beautiful sexual alchemy.

I am waiting to hear your twinflame story~~

 

tina@tinaheals.com

http://www.tinaheals.com

Image copyright Gianluca

Twinflames and Starstuff~~

You may say that all love is descended from the stars. Because, in a way, parts of us have “descended” from the stars. According to astronomers, our atoms and the atoms of our universe were created from stars that exploded. The remaining matter from the stars created our world–leaving us to be made of the same matter as the stars…Neil deGrasse Tyson

Yes people, we are star stuff, contemplating star stuff, says Carl Sagan. You, me, your lovers, my lovers, we are all made up of the same things. AS ABOVE, SO BELOW!

The nitrogen in our DNA, the calcium in our teeth, the iron in our blood, the carbon in our apple pies were made in the interiors of collapsing stars. We are made of starstuff.” ~~Carl Sagan

Is that not magical! I remember that no matter what happened to me and no matter how upset I was, whenever I looked up at the sky full of stars, I experienced a sense of magick! Mundane life lost its meaning and the incessant chatter and jargon of this 3D world ceased. I could sense the 5D world breathing, like a ginormous hologram!

The stars twinkled above and in my heart while I wrote under the dark skies, while I sang uninhibited and danced naked! Yes that is what they do to me, they make me lose sanity. That is not a problem.

For sanity is just adhering to societal rules and conventions. I never did that. Too much of an iconoclast! But the stars spoke of love. A love so intense that it feels like the slow dance of two black holes, consuming each other! Yes blackholes do consume each other!

I am someone who is looking for love. Real Love. Ridiculous… inconvenient… consuming.. “can’t live without each other” love. — Carrie Bradshaw -SATC

How many of you think of love like this? How many of you want to feel the rapture and ecstasy, the pain and pleasure of love? I know a lot of you want to, but is it so easy? We all know that it is not. The dating scene is beyond fucked up and each of us are left hollow as we try to find love and deep connection in our lives.

Which is why I want to begin my one of a kind dating portal. It will be inclusive to couples of all orientation. It will even have a Fetish community. There will be a special Twinflame page where people who are serious about finding their Twinflame, can open profiles.

We know that EVERYTHING IS ENERGY. Thought and intention can bring waves to fixed points so they form matter. You can literally “download” your Twinflame. Come on now my sweets, activate that mind(GEMINI).

The Age of Aquarius is bringing forth revolutionary new innovative thoughts and ideas on how we can change ourselves and the whole paradigm. It is happening now. Some of us are becoming more aware of the 3D Matrix and we are consciously working to demolish it and lift the veil.

The veil of Isis is a metaphor and allegorical artistic motif in which nature is personified as the goddess Isis covered by a veil, representing the inaccessibility of nature’s secrets.  ~~WIKI

The feminine form clad by the VEIL. What does it remind you of? The hijab?

Yes dear friends, even in India, women covered their faces. As if echoing this great esoteric tenet. The greatest cosmic secrets are within the feminine form and her face, especially her eyes. Yes all women are the very embodiment of this Shakti energy.

That is why Kali is naked. For she is the GREAT COSMIC FORCE OF CREATION and there is no veil to shield her. She does not need to keep the feminine powers contained, for she is  the ULTIMATE TRUTH, the SOURCE CODE, the blackness, the GREAT COSMIC DEEP!

The “Parting of the Veil”, “Piercing of the Veil”, “Rending of the Veil” or “Lifting of the Veil” refers, in the Western mystery tradition and contemporary witchcraft, to opening the “veil” of matter, thus gaining entry to a state of spiritual awareness in which the mysteries of nature are revealed. ~~WIKI

Stay with me….so on the premise that everything is energy….think of this…

You can conjure up energy with your MIND and this can bring to you the energies you want to manifest. For example if you want a Twinflame and join up this site, INTENDING to find that particular frequency, then yes, there is a VERY GOOD chance you might.

If you want to just answer booty calls, then do so by all means. It is your choice and you are manifesting what you wished for. Always be mindful of what you wish for, yes, it can come true!

All I am trying to say is that the world needs a LOVE REVOLUTION! Say what? People need to CONNECT! Do you agree that we are light beings composed of sacred kisses, intimate touches, sweet whispers and a heart full of love. Love is a frequency!

All I am trying to expound on over here that you know the resonance of your Twinflame! Even if you haven’t met them. Some Energy-Workers like myself have been born with an obsession to uncovering the deeper truths behind LOVE, SEX, DEATH and REBIRTH!

And I am obsessed with these themes and have been since I can remember. I have a love for the macabre and a very keep interest in serial killers and the like. I think it is Pluto in the second making an aspect to Uranus in the 8th in my natal chart.

This Pluto in the second is also the reason I decided to take up healing as one of my primary focuses in life. And then Uranus in Scorpio in the 8th will make one obsess over the occult and sexual motifs. You see I like to explore the very depths of our existence as a Philosopher and Mystic!

“The fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars, but in ourselves…” Shakespeare

The stars above guide us as we are miniature versions of them. Yes we are.

“As above, so below, as within, so without, as the universe, so the soul…”  Hermes Trismegistus

The first kiss between Twinflames is a topic a lot of you want to know about and again this info I give is the result of speaking to hundreds of couples in relationships, divorced, dating and even from singles all over the World. That is just the research part of it, the other ways I have gathered Twinflame info is through meditation, NLP exercises, discussing with my Guru and other mystics.

Another extremely potent way of dissolving your EGO and connecting to your Twinflame is through shamanic plant wisdom and other psychedelics. Yes a huge psychedelic revival is on its way and the big boys of the Silicon Valley are heading this movement by micro dosing and using other psychotropics to be one-up on the AI. Psychedelics is one way to evolve and integrate AI within our paradigm of understanding. In fact articles are saying that they give humans an edge over the robots. Yay to that! Psychonaughts have been screaming this from the roof tops for many years.

Under the guidance of a healer and meditation expert, you can try to dissolve this EGO self and try to enter a meditative state to sense the resonance of your Twinflame. Look if you are already committed, then please do so with your own discretion. Do not hurt your partner with the Twinflame obsession. It might be useful to enter into self questioning as to why you are looking for your Twinflame?

Okay I will tell you something. All the Twinflame couples I have worked with, have known, all their lives that they were looking for someone. Even while being with other people, they did not stop feeling this way. Now this feeling is not the usual shallow boredom that attacks so many relationships. Yes boredom is the main culprit! And if you are looking for your Twinflame because you are BORED, then please forget it. You are NOT READY!

Only if you have given your heart over and over in love and been hurt, and you still want to find that person because you are convinced that they EXIST, then you might be coming closer. Maybe you are already physically close! This is unlikely though, unless your pineal gland is completely calcified.

Usually if you are in the physical vicinity of your Twinflame, your energy will be in TOTAL FLUX. Heart beating like crazy, head reeling, weird feeling in our bellies…yes you will feel all of it. Unless you are spiritually empowered. Because then with meditation you have strengthened your individual morphic resonance which will better connect you to your Twinflame frequency!

If you are single, then the world is your oyster and tune right into the right frequency. DO NOT GIVE UP! No, perseverance is the key to such endeavours. Never forget that!

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”
― Lao Tzu

That is the kind of vibe you get with your Twinflame. This does not stop your relationship from being TEMPESTUOUS! A lot of such relationships are intense and very sexually charged.

Back to that first Twinflame kiss ~~ If you experience it, you will never forget it.

http://positivemed.com/2015/10/14/7-types-of-kisses-from-around-the-world-you-and-your-partner-should-try/

Let me give you a few pointers…and I have created a meditation where you can “kiss” your Twinflame’s etheric body. Contact me for more on that.

  • Sense of FULL EXPOSURE. Nothing remains hidden. Every story, every teardrop is exposed as your lips touch.
  • Sense of coming home
  • sense of kissing a part of yourself
  • sense of a long, long connection
  • sense of many past lives

You get it. But please do not confuse every inebriated kiss for a Twinflame type. Meditate and activate your psychic energy. Everyone can do.

While Venus moves into Taurus, her own sign, our love lives are going to become very earthy and sensual. Kinda like this…

Twinflames and Sacred Union~~

 

You’ll never find me. For I have been with you, from the beginning of me.” ~~Rumi

Spirit (or Consciousness) and Matter are, however, to be regarded, not as independent realities, but as the two facets or aspects of the Absolute (Parabrahm), which constitute the basis of conditioned Being whether subjective or objective.” The Secret Doctrine, Vol.I:15. ~~HPB

They are the FIRST COSMIC TWINFLAMES~~ SPIRIT & MATTER!

Spirit falls into matter, the waves become particles or fixed point and give us the experience of reality. But is anything real? Are you real? Am I real? Are Twinflames real? Is karma real?

I hate the way the word KARMA is used now-a-days. Karma is a bitch, so and so. No my dear friends, karma is not the pejorative word you understand it to be. Karma is the algorithm in the INTELLIGENT DESIGN to bring forth equilibrium and unity through ACTION/REACTION or CAUSE/EFFECT.

It is this very KARMA that creates the FIRST SEPARATION of the Twinflames. Yes they are SHIVA/SHAKTI polarities, but due to karmic frequencies, they have to finish off their respective worldly karmas to reunite in the SACRED UNION.

This is the TWINFLAME energy in its simplest rendition. SACRED UNION of binaries! When polarities merge into one another and TWO BECOME ONE! In every sense of the word.

What I sense we are holding on to right now in our collective consciousness is a SENSE OF ABANDONMENT! Somewhere deep down we all feel it. Yes, at the very bottom of our being, at the very pit of our stomachs…we all feel it, in some way. This feeling of being LEFT OUT, ABANDONED.

When I was young, my brother David and I were farmed off to foster homes, and I spent time in orphanages. My father abandoned us. Here’s the most important person in my life, and I never met him. ~~Wayne Dyer

Not all our abandonment stories are so severe, but you get the gist. Do you think that this sense of deep abandonment that we experience is due to the separation from our twinflames? Is that possible? An idea I have been toying with.

So the other day after doing a special Twinflame meditation with a small group of people, I suddenly began to feel sick. No reason. Just felt like I was dying and even though I had eaten a small salad at lunch, I kept throwing up. Non stop, for what seemed like hours.

And after that I convinced my partner to take me to the beach nearby, so I could just smell the salty waters and hears the roars of the waves. He did not even argue, but took me. I had some deep revelations during that meditation.

I sensed how many relationships were purely formed out of toxic neediness and the fear of being ALONE. People if you are lonely when alone, then you need to love yourself first before you can begin to ponder on your Twinflame. Remember that.

Sweety you don’t need a quick fix! This is not instant fucking coffee! No love can “fix” some problem. Only you can solve that problem. Love can give you strength, yes immeasurable strength, but it will not be the quick fix you so desire it to be.

Working with couples I have seen so much of friction, unsavoury sentiments, distrust, rampant disrespect, that sometimes I just sit and cry. Cry for the futility of humanity! I cry when I think of how we choose to spend our time bickering and hating when we should be loving and giving.

No matter how freakishly corny that sounds, we are made for lovin’! Yeah baby, some good old lovin’! So how did we, little coochie-coo love bugs become so desensitised? What happened? Where did we go wrong?

You see, this sense of NOT FEELING GOOD ENOUGH is what is killing us as a society. I keep screaming to couples- YES YOU GUYS…IT IS TIME! YOU ARE READY! YOU ARE READY TO BE LOVED! THE TIME IS HERE!

The problem here is that people have formed relationships, marriages, yes, with babies on just physical attraction. LUST! And that is destroying the very fabric of our lives!

The most important part of the Twinflame ideology is WHOLENESS and not in some sense that you are half and you become whole if you find that person. See this is a very small part of it. This merging of a male/female into ONE signifies a greater union. This joint consciousness becomes ONE with everything in the Universe. This is the WHOLENESS I am talking about.

“A thousand half-loves must be forsaken to take one whole heart home.” ~~Rumi

Your Twinflame is this ONE WHOLE HEART HOME! Sublime!

When you find your Twinflame, you link up to the whole circuitry of the Universe. For you see when your male/female binaries are assimilated INSIDE and OUTSIDE, you can then start to feel CONNECTED to it all. The ginormous brain that is the MAHAT or the CONSCIOUS MIND joins together in SACRED UNION.

You have to invest every bit of yourself in whichever relationship you are in. If you can’t then walk away. If you feel that you are with someone because of addictive codependency, then please it is time to cut the chord.

For until you do not severe all these unhealthy scenarios, you will never truly connect to your own authentic self. Without which, you can never connect with your Twinflame.

“I once had a thousand desires. But in my one desire to know you—all else melted away.” ~~Rumi

Each Twinflame must work through karmas of multiple incarnations or metempsychosis as HPB calls it. Human beings have to forge ahead in the world and create karma and then figure out ways to work through all of this karma. Why? For the spiritual evolution of all humanities of every cycle.

The pivotal doctrine of the Esoteric philosophy admits no privileges or special gifts in man, save those won by his own Ego through personal effort and merit throughout a long series of metempsychoses and reincarnations.” H.P. Blavatsky, The Secret Doctrine, Vol. I, p. 17.

There is nothing like SELF LOVE, I stress again. This SACRED UNION/YIN/YANG must be balances and WHOLE within. If we can bring peace to our separatist and troubled mind, then we can find a way to love and explore ourselves.

Once the sacred marriage takes place, I can tell you it is DIVINE. That night, after so many hours of vomiting and losing consciousness, I began to see such stark visions. And it felt so orgasmic. This alchemy that was taking place within was making my physical body go bonkers.

Some people call these ASCENSION symptoms.

Deep within me that day I knew that SHIVA/SHAKTI were in yabyum and everything in the Universe seemed just right! Synchronicity!

“WE ALREADY HAVE everything we need. There is no need for self-improvement. All these trips that we lay on ourselves—the heavy-duty fearing that we’re bad and hoping that we’re good, the identities that we so dearly cling to, the rage, the jealousy and the addictions of all kinds—never touch our basic wealth. They are like clouds that temporarily block the sun. But all the time our warmth and brilliance are right here. This is who we really are. We are one blink of an eye away from being fully awake.” ~ Pema Chödrön, Start Where You Are: A Guide to Compassionate Living

I invoke the DASAMAHAVIDYA or NINE FORMS OF THE GODDESS ENERGY to connect me to my yoni, and eventually to the COSMIC YONI or vagina! The Goddess energy is waking up. Women need to be less obsessed about becoming Queens and Princesses. It is now the time to be the GODDESS!

Nothing less for you my dear ladies! And once you become the very embodiment of Shakti, then you will shine a light to the Shiva of your soul. Once you are the Goddess you need to be, your Twinflame will also rise in vibration.

There is a word in Sanskrit- ARDHANGINI. It refers to the yin polarity and it usually refers to being the other half of the yang polarity. Kind of like the ARDHANARISHWARA I had discussed. Except this word is very commonly used. Wives are called ardhangini and we believe that she shares all her husbands karma. Yes, good and bad.

And she can influence his spiritual growth. By raising her vibration, she can raise his! How the Universe is always giving us females so much extra responsibility! 😉

What is matter but waves hitting each other at certain frequencies! Whether you know it or not, your Twinflame vibrates on the same frequency. He or she may be on a different level of spiritual growth, but the vibration of these TWIN SOULS cannot be lost to the Universe.

Think about it! They have to hold the same frequency or some resonance of it to reconnect back when the time is right. Both parties of course have to work through all the karmic bullshit.

You know this intense sexual desire you feel, it is just a strong yearning to return to source code! To return to innocence! If you are resisting change, it might be a good idea to sage your space and invite the Goddess to burn away all that bigotry and hatred inside.

Just feel her power work through you and if you are a man, you might be able to get a glimpse of your Twinflame during one such meditation and if you are a girl, then you might connect on a deeper level to your masculine.

Feel this energy deep within and know that you are connected at a SOUL LEVEL.

When making love, explore the soul of the other person, not just their bodies. Some of us are so blinded by materialism and the illusion that is the hologram, that we will fail to see our Twinflame if they came and slapped us. I have seen it happen.

The Twinflame Quest must be undertaken with FULL AWARENESS!

This recent Twinflame meditation that I went through made me realise one thing! That my Twinflame will reveal to me parts of me that no one else can and in so many profound ways.

I sensed so many incarnations, so many stories, so many experiences and then I felt him. He made me want to be me. Can I explain it any better? I don’t know. Words always fail me when I have to define my meditation.

The thing is that your Twinflame will make you see yourself and in such intimate ways that he/she will awaken a deep sense of love, wonder and awe in you. The feelings and emotions extended through time and space!

I was vibrating with such intensity!!!

I leave you with this gorgeous montage and soundtrack from Aronofsky’s The Fountain ~~ composed by the supremely talented Clint Mansell.

Explore the Sacred Whore Archetype ~~

“Previously, when I began to write this tale, I set out by saying that Mlle. Claude was a whore. She is a whore, of course, and I’m not trying to deny it, but what I say now is–if Mlle. Claude is a whore then what name shall I find for the other women I know?”
― Henry Miller

That is how patriarchy has been degrading and controlling sexually empowered women. Women who know their bodies and are absolutely comfortable with it. They know that a healthy relationship to her pussy, means a healthy relationship to existence.

But if you are a woman and you openly claim to have had sex with more than three guys, then you are a SLUT/WHORE. This my peeps is the toxic invention of the perverted patriarchs who were WORRIED(yes you heard that right) that if their women were not controlled then they will sleep with other men and not play housekeeping.

Men in their toxic possessiveness brought on monogamy. They made us COMMODITIES. We were denigrated from being a human, instead we began to be classed as SOMEONE’S daughter, sister or wife. We became objects to be owned and the painful saga continues…

In this whole mess of controlling women, they created a certain type of monster. Women who were ENABLERS of this unholy, toxic system perpetrated by the patriarchs. Women who burned and stoned other empowered and bold women.

I am working on a book called PUSSY TALKS, yes you heard that right. It is the story of how a vagina begins to speak to the body it is attached with. Through this metaphor of the Pussy talking, I hope to bring to forefront ideas of feminine sexual explorations. Yes there will be loads of info presented with a dose of entertainment. So watch this space for more on my MOTIVATIONAL BOOK ~~ PUSSY TALKS..

Women turned on women. And the rest as they say is History…not HERSTORY of course. For how can she have a story? Can women even think? Sadly even today a lot of chauvinists believe so.

On the topic of ORGASMS ~~ Listen guys, women can have MULTIPLES, yes they can. If you are a woman and you have no clue as to what I am referring to, you need to email me right now. And please tell me you guys experience FULL BODIES ORGASMS! When your orgasm is not concentrated in your genital area, but spreads across your whole being and rocks the very core of it. Yes my peeps, such orgasms exist and they are possible for all women.

Even for a dude, but the process is ummm…through the backdoor! 😉

Your anus is rich with nerve endings and believe you me, all men enjoy some type of anal play, including Analingus and penetration. Strapon play is a huge thing and can help couples work out through loads of psychological issues. Having to shift roles, makes boundaries dissolve fostering better communication and co-operation between couples.

The men have their G SPOT up their anus, so do not think you are gay if you enjoy Anal Play. IT IS NATURAL!

https://www.buzzfeed.com/caseygueren/so-youre-a-straight-guy-who-wants-to-try-butt-stuff?utm_term=.qr3Q7jvWN#.opL9RAmQg

If you can stimulate your man’s prostate, that is enough to bring him to climax and these orgasms are DEEP, full bodied magick! And it is not necessary that he will eject every time with prostate orgasm. Do not panic. In fact the longer men can hold off from ejecting, the better for them. So you see…men too can experience this wonder that the human body has to offer. Remember your butt has no sexual orientation, it just wants to feel all sorts of sensations.

The WHORE is a very ancient archetype. She is the PRIESTESS ARCHETYPE and asks Carl Jung describes her…

The Priestess archetype is perhaps the least known and most misunderstood, especially in the present patriarchal culture, which has rejected women‘s spirituality and individual spiritual expression throughout history.

The Priestess archetype is the inner domain of intuitive awareness and deep insight. It is the portal to  secret or “occult” (that which is hidden) knowledge of the invisible realms.

The Priestess has a magical connection to the unknown and a guide of souls.  A trans-connector, she facilitates between the material and the spiritual. She is the mediator of the psyche.

Patriarchy has mutilated this PRIESTESS and has called her a WHORE, like Mary Magdalene.  Yes my peeps, we are all carrying these MAGDALENE WOUNDS, collectively, all women. Mary Magdalene was not some common prostitute. No she was Yesua’s equal partner. His Bhairavi, in tantric parlance and look what they did to her legacy, but the future will venerate her.

Look what happens to Sita. She is forced to step into the fire to prove her innocence! After what she has been through! This is our story people…these wounds, these burns…

In my psychic visions, I have “seen” myself being burnt. I have read about stonings and have felt that pain in my own body. As an empath, these wounds are really intense and to top it off, I am a woman and a Priestess!

Women like Mary Magdalene were sexual alchemists, witches, sorceresses and muses. Because come to think about it. In this 3D world, the closest one can come to a concept of SAMADHI will be during a full bodied intense orgasm! Yes nothing quite connects us to the GODLY FIELD of PURE BLISS!

The first time I understood transcendence was during once such orgasm and that actually aided me in my spiritual development. Because it got me thinking that this intense ORGASMIC feeling is so wondrous and what if it could be prolonged. What if we could exist in some sort of orgiastic fever! Ah!

It is this quest that got me looking at meditation. Combining sex and meditation can be a tremendous healing tool and many, many couples have benefited from learning simple basic practices of ancient tantra.

So it is important for us, as a collective of men and women to heal these WOUNDS. To reclaim the power of Mary Magdalene. To reclaim the power of Sita. Draupadi and so many women from the past. We need to awaken the sacred whore archetype for complete healing of all humanity.

Without unleashing the full potential of the DIVINE FEMININE, the world will never rise to its next stage of vibration. We are on a spiral upwards.

That feminine spirit is like a WILD UNTAMED FOREST with so many treasures hidden within. There are so many layers to her that most men will never penetrate even the basics.

Most people hate whores as patriarchy has taught them that whores are bad. When in actuality whores are wise women, Prophetesses, Healers, Priestesses. These women were learned and sophisticated. They were full of mystery and intrigue and through their sexual oeuvres, they inspired the masculine.

Courtesans, Geisha and Whores were muses and healers.

The sexually active urban woman is still vilified daily if she is seen in amorous embrace with too many. She is labelled a slut by her group when in fact most of the guys have slept with her. How is a woman debased because your cock entered her? How? How? That just goes to show your cock is the problem, not the woman.

It is imperative for us all to invoke this COURTESAN in us. Why? To explore FEMININITY in all her aspects. All beautiful aspects. And the wife has much to learn from the courtesan. After all, the courtesan(in most cases) controlled the men.

I am in no way suggesting that you need to control your man. In fact the quicker you understand that NOTHING EVER WILL BE UNDER CONTROL, the quicker you will learn to make peace with what’s happening. So think of awakening the COURTESAN to rekindle lost passion or maybe just to show him who the boss is in bed.

I request all women to forgo the missionary. Try new positions. Yes check out the Kamasutra(as corny as that sounds) and figure out what really works for your guy.

The word Prostitute is from the Latin and means Pro-Stituare; To  Stand In on Behalf of.

The sacred whore stood in behalf of the DIVINE YONI or the COSMIC VAGINA. She channels in the power of the MOTHER MATRIX, or MULAPRAKRITI. You see the original WHORE is an ENERGY WORKER and through the act of sex, she alchemically transforms stagnant energy or base metal into GOLD through touch, copulation and other intimate acts. How profound is that!

She is also known as DAKINI in Buddhist terminology.

“In a balanced viewpoint that includes both masculine and feminine perspective, healing is seen not as a technique, but as a process.”
― Jeanne Achterberg, Woman as Healer

All women want WILD SEXUAL ENCOUNTERS. I know this to be true, just by gathering material for my book Pussy Talks(I have spoken to HUNDREDS of women from all over the world). It is about the lost feminine voice speaking through the metaphor of a pussy, the seat of the womb. The book I spoke about. I plan to do workshops as well to reconnect people to the various feminine archetypes to rebirth creativity and abundance.

The healing of these wounds are ever so important for people who have been abused or raped. The trauma can only be overcome by surrendering to the great cosmic force of ORGASM. It is okay if you do not have a partner, just learn how to pleasure yourself and bring yourself to full bodied multiples; then with intention and meditation, you can totally heal. Just remember, SEX IS NOT DIRTY or CHEAP. It is not only an absolutely natural physiological process, it also harbours potentials to be the most potent creative force in the Universe.

“Sivtatva’ and ‘Saktitatva’ (Lord Shiva and Holy Mother Kali) – Father’s semen in mother’s womb, both combined which CREATES the MULTIPLE UNIVERSES. Male and female polarities create matter/space/time!

Women need to shed off sexual inhibitions. Aren’t we tired of being submissive? Ladies, I suggest you fuck your man tonight like a Goddess, like a Priestess, like Mary Magdelena would have fucked Yesua to transform him into what he became.

The most important thing to imbibe about the courtesan archetype will be FREEDOM. Understand what it means for you. As an individual and in a couple dynamics. What does sexual freedom mean to you? I am not suggesting you sleep with numerous guys and claim to be sexually liberated.

That whole gig is as toxic as it can get. By FREEDOM I mean, ask for what you want in bed and do not be afraid to reverse the dynamics. If you are not used to experimenting, then please do so. Why not look at exploring what tickles both your fantasies??

Few pointers on how to proceed

Gaze into his eyes

Keep the look fixed

Role play(not French maid or Japanese school girl for fuck’s sake! Dig deep into your erotic tastes)

Cultivate INTRIGUE(the main tool of the courtesan) For she knows how to get her men coming back for more…

Be present in the NOW

Breathe deeply

Feel each sensation

Use toys

Talk to him(yes talk dirty) Use a script or plain improvise!

Really feel him while you touch, kiss, spank, spit…whatever works…

Let me really look at you- see you for the GODDESS you are…

Intend to HEAL him with your acts. Yes thoughts are ENERGY!

Turn off from all the noise going on in your head and become the WILD WHORE you are meant to be!

Email me for more… tina@tinaheals.com

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What to do if someone is your Twinflame??

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“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.”
― Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets

Yes a lot of us are feeling this intense longing for our Twinflame and why won’t we? I mean this Twinflame is not only just a mirror-soul, but he or she is the very song your soul sings, the very luminescent and magical colours of the rainbow, the acute explosion of a supernova!

I mean how can we dis such an important phenomenon that is sweeping across mass-consciousness? Even people who are in relationships are in some way pining for their Twinflames. All I dream about is gazing into his eyes forever! What colour would his eyes be? A mixture? Does it change colour? You can try this too. Gaze into your lover’s eyes. You will feel an intensity, you have never imagined before. If you are intuitive, then you will just know. And if you think you are not intuitive, then please know this that every human being has powers of INTUITION whether they develop it or not is another thing.

It’s simple logic. The very penetration of this dense 3D matrix is possible if you join in SPIRITUAL UNION with your Twinflame. Yes my peeps…it is possible to awaken the latent kundalini energy at the base of your spine.

“Kundalini means, according to Zeena ‘She Who is Hidden,’ and points to the dormant goddess in every human being’s body. While the kundalini force is found in muladharachakra, she hypnotizes humans, like maya herself, and renders them slaves to the illusory. Kundalini can only awaken people if she travels up along the spine.’ ~~ Zeena Schreck, Demons of the Flesh: The Complete Guide to Left Hand Path Sex Magic

If your SACRAL CHAKRA is depleted, it might mean you are facing relationship woes one after the other. It could also mean that the person you are trying to attract has become nothing more than just an idea! To put it plainly, you do not get the people you desire and the people who show interest in you are the ones who really don’t matter to you!

Yes that is the case with a lot of people that are looking to find love or a passionate amorous encounter. Remember never to make sex cheap! Even if it is a one night stand. Please remember that the person you have shared intimate energy with will be now karmically inextricably connected to you! Stupendous stuff, yes?

http://www.collective-evolution.com/2014/03/18/this-study-will-make-you-think-twice-about-who-you-are-getting-into-bed-with/

Always respect the person you are sharing this wondrous moment with and you will only gain from the experience. Sex is your life force.

Cut back to the Twinflame stuff again….

So this yabyum union of the male/female polarities has the potentiality to take us beyond this 3D to 5D. Sex magick is extremely powerful and if practised properly, one can lose physical body awareness. As in the couple truly become ONE CONSCIOUSNESS!

Isn’t that beautiful! Okay this type of bliss can only be achieved whilst practising in certain ways. Sex is one of the most powerful forces in the Universe and we can harness great amounts of energy from it.

‘Sex’ is as important as eating or drinking and we ought to allow the one appetite to be satisfied with as little restraint or false modesty as the other. ~~Marquis de Sade

Yes sex is a physiological function, but then it is so much more…it is magick!

Now imagine having sex with your Twinflame. How good does it feel to be in his arms? How good does it feel to kiss her? How good does it feel to touch and kiss and make love? The whole experience is amazing right? It truly is. This love and Twinflame business has had me loosing sleep for many years now.

Now imagine that SEXUAL LONGING, that intensity multiplied a million, trillion times….no exaggerations. It feels like a million quasars bursting when two Twinflames unite in higher dimensions! This is why this force is so strong and propels some of us to keep looking. Some of us will not give up. Say what?

And sometimes when Twinflames meet, even if for a day, the energy between them is RAW, UNTAMED. It is not the normal polite, go-on-a-date, cordial type of energy. This energy can bring about destruction if you are reckless with it. Do everything at your discretion!

Most of the people suppress this STRONG urge, but certain individuals like me persist. I always knew that there was someone somewhere who was the closest to me. I mean I could never explain this feeling. It was just there. But who is he? Where is he? Tell me in the comments section, have you felt this unknown connection to a stranger before?

Then I uncovered this whole Twinflame thingy! And I never looked back. I immersed myself in research in occult books and libraries trying to discover more. I spoke to holy men, women and mystics to gather data. I began to speak to lovers of all ages.

What is this Twinflame? Does it even exist?

As I met one asshole after the other, I became convinced that finding my connection is not going to be easy. Obviously we have other karmic ties we must severe to unite. My partner does not believe in Twinflames, but he has seen a vision of us melting in each other in the yabyum position; and we were beings of pure light! 😉 I think he is hinting that he is my Twinflame! Is he?

I have not only been doing theoretical and field work, I have also continued to meditate on the phenomenon. I will suggest a few mind exercises at the end. You can sometimes compare two natal charts to figure out if the lovers have past karma and more often than not, these types are twinflame connections.

You know good old Romeo and Juliet. Yes Twinflames my dears. Why do you think that such star crossed lovers feature so prominently in our collective psyche? Why are all the great love stories tragic? Why do we not rave about two people getting married and growing old together. That is like most people, but we still hold such intense, volatile obsession for love stories that bring to us something that transcends the ordinary.

This transcendence of the ordinary, this mystical feeling of butterflies in the stomach when you see someone you really connect with can be quite invigorating. And we humans love it. We love to love. See Satine and Christian…what a love story! One of my favourites. No matter how many times I listen to this, it will never fail to move me beyond words…This film makes me feel all sorts of Twinflame things. Ha! You? When they kiss first? When he woos her? When she dies in his arms? The show must go on…

How many of you are like me? Obsessed with love? Sometimes I think it is a concept I am running after and anyone with flesh and blood will disappoint. Because you see any and every relationship will disappoint, no matter who is involved. IN this 3D world, the world of duality, it is not possible for relationships to be untainted or without baggage.

And definitely not your Twinflame lover! Nope. It will be anything but ordinary, mundane and boring. Your INTUITION will become super charged if somehow you are in your Twinflame’s vicinity. You will begin to feel it right away….just trust yourself, and your heart.

So do you think you have identified your Twinflame? First and foremost, make sure that this person is in fact someone who is so close. Because if you keep running after people thinking they are your Twinflames, then ultimately you will get disheartened. I have seen it happen too many times…

Take it easy if you think you know him or her. Do you know them? Who are they? What kind of person are they? Identify what makes you think they are in fact this person! In most Twinflame scenarios, there will crazy types of synchronicity. Yes and they will be staring in your face. You just have to find it. Are they married? Dating?

If you know him/her, then start to cultivate a friendship. Do not rush into dating. Feel the vibrations. See if your heart is pointing to someone then in most cases, it must be looked at. The heart does not lie. The heart has its own electro-magnetic field which is tied to the heart of the Cosmos. So channel this energy and ask your heart why you think this person is your Twinflame.

Journal your thoughts everyday. Meditate on that person. Go out if possible, but as a friend initially. And do not start blabbing about Twinflames for fuck’s sake. Just get to know each other. Your Twinflame will attract you immensely, even if they do not like the same things. I already told you guys that your Twinflame will not feed your ego.

Okay what happens if you do not know each other. Well then I would seriously ask you to reconsider. Why do you think then he or she is your Twinflame? You say that you feel it, but then if it is something you have felt for a moth, then do not take it too seriously. It can flake off. But if you can identify an instinctual overwhelming inexplicable connection to someone, then it is worth exploring.

if you have thought of someone for many months, may be even years in some cases I have seen, then it is very possible that this person could in fact be pulling at the strings of your heart from previous lives. If you want to get to know this person, then start a convo. See if there is any reciprocity. If not, it is best to back off.

Make it about something general and see if you genuinely connect. If this person does not even know you and you are too scared to make the first move, then let it lie. You can keep observing for signs and in the meanwhile you can set intention for him or her to ping you instead.

Of course it is possible to get someone to ping you. Yes with your mind. Let me tell you how to do this. First identify the person. Clear your mind and meditate. Then visualise that person picking up the phone, opening the messenger and drafting out the message.

Actually visualise what the message will say. See it in your mind and then see him/her press send. Then see it coming to you. Give thanks to the Universe as you open it in your mind. Read it as  you know what it says. Then feel the emotions that you are experiencing after you get this text. What happens to your mind? What happens to your body?

If you feel the need to pleasure yourself, then do so at the end of it. Use a black and red candle at the end and see it burn. Watch parts of your visualisations in the fire as the candle burns. Sit in silence and let the Universe works its magic. You have to do this a few times to impress this on the Akashik field.

All I am saying is that do not rush into identifying every passionate relationship as your Twinflame, so when the real thing pops up, you are left broken and embittered. Keep an open mind, but use your powers of discretion. Follow your heart, but take your brain with you.

As the Age of Aquarius becomes more characteristic, we will see relationships metamorphosing and becoming changed forever. We can see this happening with the rise of polyamory, femdom and other such sexual mores. So if possible, keep an open mind and explore the phenomenon of human sexual relationships in all its aspects, of course without harming anyone.

What if you feel no connection to your Twinflame? Tell you what why don’t you concentrate everyday at a fixed point and just send love and healing to your Twinflame. This will greatly expedite his/her karmic growth and you may meet finally one day.

In fact this is how I began to send love to my Twinflame and believe me today I know that he is as aware of me as I am of him, but I seriously doubt we will meet in this incarnation! Why do I say this? It’s complicated, just like the FB status.

“You are a livingness, a verb. What is arising in you, at this moment, is the great realization.”
― Christopher Zzenn Loren, unSpiritual: A Spiritual Journey

Email me ~~ tina@tinaheals.com

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