Twinflame Love~~ <3

HDF

Not a moment longer can I wait,

It’s already so late.

Will you not say what is burning your lips?

Will you not reveal your heart?

It’s tearing me apart.

How long will you let silence envelope your being?

This 3D world is all about ageing and dying.

How long will your torture continue?

Is there no other avenue?

For expressing your love?

Yes, it is you my Beloved,

If you do not know it so.

It is you for whom my body burns,

My mind imagines and my soul reincarnates.

Dissolve this dualism.

Return to me, my Beloved.

Not a moment longer can I wait.

You are the ONENESS of existence,

You are the separation of sky and water,

You are the rhythm of the pulsating stars,

Vortexes do you create with your breath.

Universes reside in your pores my Beloved.

In every way you are what I created.

In the canvas of my mind.

Like a tornado did you come into my life.

Ripping away every shard of sanity.

Insane have I become.

For you, for your love and for union.

Every stab of pain that I have ever felt.

It was you my beloved.

For how would I know you,

If I did not know pain.

You are my first rays of the Sun,

You are the pale kiss of the Moon,

You are the dream of a perfect imperfection!

Where is the peace that I long for?

Where is the Silence I seek?

The quest of looking for you,

Through aeons of time and space.

Is there no grace?

Tired am I.

 

Enter into me and reside there now my Beloved.

I know I have found God.

No more residing in the eye of insanity.

That time when we kissed.

Those tears kept flowing through our eyes.

They flooded our souls.

Uncontrollable were the emotions.

In the mind’s oceans.

This birth I have looked for you,

and in the life before,

And I will keep looking even after.

Thirsty and hungry am I now my Beloved.

Our love story will remain hidden,

In the secret scrolls of humanity.

Let us circle around the sacred tree.

In silent ceremony of our union.

Humanity is not ready to love like this.

Not yet.

My Beloved, all this is just a dream.

Wake up now and come to me.

The rain flows from the sky and tears from my eyes.

For this cycle of birth I have waited.

Waited for your embrace.

Every single day I sit in worship.

I look into the eyes of Shiva and all I see,

Are your eyes dancing back.

I sit atop the mountain

The wind shoves me to the floor,

Like it is you.

My body tingles and my heart sings.

It scares me to think that we might be simulations.

A forgotten project in some far away World.

My Beloved, you and me might not exist in reality.

It’s as if I feel a panic attack.

But no, says an inner voice.

Everything is as real or as unreal,

As experiences.

Reality is experience.

It exists cause we view it.

We have subscribed to this show.

Whether we like it or not.

But it’s not too late to unsubscribe.

We can create our own story.

I don’t care if you are real or unreal.

For what is real?

You might be as unreal as the Universe itself.

But does that make my  love any less real?

This is our time to play together.

For soon our worlds will collide.

Our energy fields fused in one.

Do you feel it like I do?

 

 

 

 

The Song of Remembrance~ Twinflame Awakening

Is it immortality I seek?

I dare not make such demands.

For what if I have to be without you?

There is no meaning in the meaninglessness of life.

Without you.

You ignite the fire of my soul.

And wild passions in my body.

Life itself is a mockery.

A moment equals to numerous lifetimes.

Have you forgotten everything?

All those smiles and tears.

Those tears in smiles and those smiles in tears.

In all those Universes and dimensions?

Do you not remember how my tears flow every time I kiss you?

Do you not feel my pain?

All those lives we lived.

In each other’s embrace.

You have forgotten every single thing.

From every single lifetime.

And I am cursed with remembrance.

It is my curse to burn in the fires of anguish.

To yearn to be one with you.

Here I am Beloved.

To sing about those days.

I will find you, you will see.

Life moves on.

Do you remember the last time you died in my arms?

For it has happened many, many times.

Watching life leave you, my beloved.

I have died a million deaths.

But what is life?

What is death?

Energy never dies.

It is indestructible.

Do you at least remember the times I died in your arms?

Do you feel any of that intensity?

We return time and again.

On this Earth,

For the vow of love.

Do you not remember your multiple lives?

Nirvana eludes us my beloved.

Because all we want is each other.

And we are willing to be born again and again.

I have wanted you and you me,

For eternity.

We have loved and been together through unending time.

How many more times will we incarnate?

To carry on with this vicious cycle?

To just love each other?

This vibration pulls us here.

To be born in flesh.

As man and woman.

To touch each other and make love.

In Mesopotemia.

In Egypt.

In the Indus Valley.

In Babylon.

I have always been looking for you.

And you for me.

Do you remember?

How we were separated in the Tower of Babylon?

When we began to speak different languages?

Did you understand the language of my eyes?

For words mean nothing.

My beloved, I look for you in the stars above.

In the myths, legends and fairytales of mankind.

In the eternal love stories of humanity.

That first initiation.

On the banks of the Ganges.

The Buddha initiated us.

We were both together my beloved.

As we embraced the eternal Dharma.

That sunrise in Bodhgaya.

That mantra still rings in my ears.

Have you forgotten it?

Us, side by side, holding hands.

Surrendering to the Universe.

Your shaven head.

Your teary eyes.

I know those eyes.

Do all these memories not reside in you?

I remember it all, my beloved.

Our revolution and love.

You and me.

Through space and time.

Wash away the debris from your heart.

Feel our deep connection.

That nothing can erase.

I remind you my love,

You will keep coming back and so will I.

Till we do not join in sacred union.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Wolf Goddess~~

What a sight you are!

A true Goddess of your own creation.

The holy red gushes down your legs.

You stand naked, bare breasted.

The defiance in your eyes.

The slight smile on your lips.

They magnetic sway of your hips.

They ridicule you and laugh at you.

Your raw power scares them.

You know how to CONNECT.

You know how to join together.

You are a natural leader.

And that scares them.

They call you a sinner.

Never will you be a saint.

Even if you have fed the last morsel to them.

They have burnt you over and over.

But from those ashes have you arisen…

Again and again.

With different names.

In different countries and cultures.

The guilt they have bred in us,

Is not to be found in you.

The palpable fear is also absent.

For you seek no validation from them.

You don’t care to play by their rules.

Holiness in every ounce of your blood.

Every Goddess of every culture,

They reside in your body.

You are holy, the Creatrix!

You are not afraid of pleasure.

You know what to do with pain.

You are here to liberate other sisters.

You are not looking for personal gain.

Never have you controlled the urges,

That women have been taught to do.

Instead you have transmuted them into alchemy.

You have transformed them into divine inspiration.

You have ignited the fires of passion.

And made magic with the man you held.

For a God he was when you made love to him.

You are his Goddess.

You are  our Goddess.

Your mission is to tell the others.

To activate the powers of the Womb.

This FEM-FORCE will steer us into a new awareness.

Let them worship the sacred blood of your menstruation.

For that is the only atonement from their end.

To have defiled and demonised the sacred life force of the menstrual blood.

They say you are a whore.

What does it matter if you are Madonna or a whore?

They have raped, pillaged and tortured,

The mother, maiden and the crone.

No one is safe.

They will find the Wild Ones.

Silenced they must be.

But how can they be shut for life?

In their voices is the fem-force of life and death.

We will be told we are evil.

We will be told our magick is for the devil.

The Devil is but Lucifer, the bringer of Truth.

The apple is the process of initiation.

It is you, yes you as Eve,

Who initiated Adam.

It is you Sita, who burned Rama’s sins,

In the fire of your sacrifice.

Wild Woman you will make us eat time and again,

From that sweet apple of knowledge and passion.

Run like a She-wolf and howl at the moon.

You are the Matriarch, the very crux of civilisation.

Tonight under the Full Moon, you will rub the damp earth on your body.

And make love to the Earth.

She is as wild as you are.

Soul lovers through infinities.

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Image by Alexandra Banti

 

Twinflame Reverie

Where did you go?

I finally let my control go!

Where did you disappear?

I know not.

For my memories have dissolved.

They have dissipated from my mind.

Like clouds in the bright blue sky.

The resonance is an initiation.

To a new birth.

The ray will return to the Source.

The rain will melt into the sea.

Where did your form vanish?

Your solid 3D physical body.

It is like you never existed!

I am aware of your origin.

You are of 5D light- activate it.

That memory of us in union.

Like the frozen Tundra of my mind.

That memory of oneness.

Nothing can take that away.

You were buried in the womb.

My companion as you held my hand.

There through the Great Void we journeyed.

Falling down to 3D denseness.

Where our physical forms took shape.

I touched you and you touched me.

So different were we.

As we touched each other.

Beloved we have been lovers.

Forever in the darkness.

But our love is not of flesh and blood.

So how can we hold each other?

How can we join in passionate copulation?

How can our hearts bleed?

The ray has solidified into form.

I has divided and is now you and me.

We are individuals.

We are One Ray.

Our love has now felt itself take shape.

Our love has loved in a new way.

It has fallen in love with itself.

Can love fall in love with itself?

Can spirit fall to matter?

Can Ardhanarishwara become male female polarities?

For are you not my Twinflame?

For are you not light consciousness?

You and me in 5D.

Have we not birthed a new love story?

Where we feel every emotion.

Where every feeling is intensified.

Have we not experienced something.

We never could.

As we slumbered in the Great Voidness.

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Aries New Moon~27/28th March 2017: Burn baby burn!

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“She’s mad, but she’s magic. There’s no lie in her fire.” ~ Charles Bukowski

The fire that is madness and magic, the fire of creativity in us, the fire of our desires burn bright with SEVEN planets in fire signs. Yes people! The astro is on fire! Sizzling, raw and primal…a certain madness and mayhem lurks in the air!

Oh, oh- the New Moon in Aries is conjunct Venus retrograde and that means that set intentions related to MONEY and LOVE. Of course this will have much to do with planetary positions in your natal chart, but I would say that these two motifs will play out heavily in the collective consciousness.

So I was talking all madness and mayhem, love the alliteration! But then what else do you expect of Aries energy? And so many freaking planets crowding the dance floor. There is a track in my mind. Set the world on fire…David Bowie. I cannot stop thinking of him since the dream I had with him in there. I think we were standing under a canopy of stars, staring at infinity! My dream time is full of such anecdotes and meetings, conversations and eye contact. Fuck it drove me nuts before I learnt how to understand it and accept it. I cannot say control it, for I cannot control any psychic or dreamscape visions.

It’s obviously masculine- this energy, which is why Bowie even came up in my mind. Have to check his astro for more clues. But let me not divert off and leave this piece unwritten. Something about me and not finishing up…hardcore wounds there. But I’m working on it.

Aries- what of them? They are the pioneers and trailblazers of the zodiac! Aries is the HEAD and is associated with BIRTH! But, but, but…there is a certain obstinacy and stubbornness about this sign that can lead to much problems.

A lot of people who consult with me are complaining of head related issues and please be careful yourself as well. There could be headaches and other head related issues that could crop up. I have successfully used numbers, switchwords and Energy Circles to combat headaches. Write 160 HZ AND 53 on your left arm and E=15 at the base of the nape of your neck with a blue pen. Works brilliantly. Feel the blue colour of the pen enter your bloodstream and instantly spread a coolness. You can call upon the Medicine Buddha in case you have some severe health complications.

I would like to suggest BHRAMARI PRANAYAMA to all of you. Please start the practice and you will see how this will help you deal with the fiery stress that could become too hot to handle. I had described how to practice the asana, but it is just making the article bigger than it needs to be, so please google it and watch videos to get a hang of it.

Now if possible, do this pranayama in the woods. I can tell you that you will feel like a new person after this. Just focus on the OM that you are humming is directly oscillating to the AUM of the Universe. To simplify it, just know that your sound is intrinsically connected to the hum of the Universe!

There is so much Aries energy in the air with five planets in this fire sign! Mercury, Venus, Uranus, the Sun and Moon are all here for this astral alignment. Let us run through the Aries archetype! This sign represents the EMPEROR card in the Tarot! The Patriarch!

Usually the Emperor represents a powerful and exemplary leader who is responsible for the welfare of the masses. The Emperor is no demagogue; in fact he is the benevolent father and if you internalise this archetype, then look to acknowledge your potential of mastery. Try to understand where you play the Emperor role and in whose life? I think here the Emperor is telling us to take OWNERSHIP of our own existence! Enough is enough! There is no messiah coming. We are the creators of our lives. Yes that is big responsibility, but it is also an inevitability. If there is any problem you need to address, look within to find answers at this time. Depend on you and it will work out. YOU ARE THE RULER, THE RULED AND THE RULING! Then where is the separation? Integrate this inner sovereignty in your meditation and the rest will fall into place.

Another thing which can be really beneficial to people who seek to use this fire energy would be to perform a HAVAN. Look up the link I have provided below to understand what this is and then figure out how you can simplify it to suit your needs. Neo pagans will have an idea. If you are confused, then contact me.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homa_(ritual)

Very effective are FIRE BURST MEDITATIONS, especially for people with physical pain or deep emotional trauma. Focus on the part which is painful. Bring full awareness there, continue deep breathwork and then light a ball inside your body, on the pain. Feel a small flame of light burning where you have the pain. For a wider area, visualise a larger flare. But remember to notice that this internal fire has a bluish tinge and does not feel hot. It feels warm, but NOT HOT! Feel these flames setting fire to the pain. Watch the pain burn away to ashes. Watch it with your internal eye. Then after the pain has been burnt away, thank the flame and the Universe and remember to thank the pain! Yes that pain taught you so much. That pain is your karmic friend. So please thank that pain with sincerity. If you want to know more about how to practice this meditation, email me. It is very effective with chronic pain and psychological ailments. You can even do this for someone else. You can use FULL-IMMUNITY-BE-INFINITY after the visualisation is over and you have burnt all the pain with your mind.

If this Aries New Moon is getting you angry or resentful, because you’re trying so hard to be NUMBER 1, then you can chant- BE-QUIET-SHUT-UP, or write it with blue pen on your left wrist. 55 65 569 is also very effective to control anger. Write this on your body or write it in a piece of paper and carry it in your wallet. Aries energy is very assertive and make sure you do not get caught in the lower vibrations. Things can get nasty. But one thing is sure- we will have a lot more energy. You can channelise it and make it work for you in multiple things- at work, with your spouse and in bed. Yes you can effectively use this energy to set fire to your sheets. Lol! Just don’t channel the selfishness and I’m Khaleesi, the-mother-of-fucking-dragons attitude! Don’t unleash your dragons on us…pretty please!

Now let us talk about the ADVENTURE that is coming our way! Fuck, I love a good adventure! There is a certain exciting escapade coming our way and it packs a heavy punch- sensually and financially. Since the retrogradation always connotes the internal journey, I would say we will be looking at questions like what money means to us? How we spend it? What are our inherent, deep rooted opinions about money, etc, etc. Also questions about love will surface…what does love mean to us? How do we quantify love? Do we even understand love? As a collective? As individuals?

If you are distressed and lonely, I would suggest visit animal shelters and think of fostering and then maybe adopting. Bringing in a furry companion might be the start you need and with all the Aries newness you could reinvent yourself. You could go Vegan, you could decide to concentrate on the NOW and let go of fears…everything is on the table!

Saturn(Maturity, growth, restriction, responsibility) is in Sag(Passion, wanderlust, ! Fire again! What do we poor mortals do with so much fire? Depending on where this is falling on your chart, you might be facing disappointments and learning hardcore Saturnian lessons. I have worked with many people and their Saturn issues- Sade Sati or Saturn return and one thing I can tell you that what Saturn wants you to learn, you will learn…no matter what! Come hell or high water.

Oh are you aware that Saturn is also about to freaking go retro on us? Yes from 6th April to Aug 26! And this time the FUTURE is ours to plan. Saturn will level the playing field with doses of karma, yes, but there will be solidity in whatever sticks. Ficgure out what is working and stick with it.

My natal chart has Saturn sitting with Mercury in Leo and my mind has always been Leonine! Filled with creative thought and with Saturn sitting there, I faced a lot of issues trying to bring my creative expression to the surface. It took a while, but it happened.

There is a CARDINAL T SQUARE that I have already discussed. Pluto, Uranus and Jupiter are forming it and this brings SEVEN PLANETS IN CARDINAL SIGNS which govern creativity! The Cardinal signs are active, moody, starters but hate finishing up, know how to pick themselves off the floor and continue and are often positioned as leaders.

So if anything, the astro is screaming- ACTION! Get the fuck off your couch and get doing whatever the fuck tickles your imagination! This is not the time for planning…it is the time for action.

I am suggesting a Sanskrit mantra which you could recite to invoke ACTION in your life. You can chant this to create your dream opportunities and manifest your heart’s desire.

Mantra: Shanti Mantra 
Om Saha Naavavatu
Saha Nau Bhunaktu
Saha Veeryam Karavaavahai
Tejasvi Aavadheetamastu Maa Vidvishaavahai Om

 

There are so many other aspects that I would like to talk about, but not in this article…will continue later…

If  you have any questions or thoughts, email me- tina@tinaheals.com

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I leave you with one of my favourite songs from Tagore.

Purify my life
with the purging touch of fire
Purify my life
With your blessings of searing pain
Make it pure like the gold
That passes the test of fire

Take unto you my mortal form
Make it a lamp of your divine abode
Let the flame of my song glow through night and day

The slightest of your touch on the dark frame of night
Let it spark a new star one after another
To illuminate the darkness

Let my vision be cleansed from all darkness
Whither alights my gaze may it see the light
Let my pain be ablaze and rise above despair

*Another version by Anandamayee Majumdar:

Your flaming touch, let it blaze my heart
Purify this life of mine
Clarify this life of mine
Simplify this life of mine
Glorify this life of mine; atoning, as I burn.

Lift my soul, lift my heart, a blazing torch of light
Glowing in the sky with stars that shimmer in the night
Melody, let it sear, forever, as I burn

Impel my layers of dark, let your hands alight

Kindling stars awake, evoking them with light.

May darkness disappear from all my soul and sight
Deluding senses with sanctifying light
Agony, let it sear, forever, as I burn.

Virgo, the Wild One

She is misunderstood to be weak.

Forget not, she is the carrier of the torch of humanity!

To be coy and unsure…the Virgin!

But a Warrior is she! So unique in her ferocity!

So benevolent in her love!

Carrying the torch of enlightenment!

The wise and wild woman,

Unique and rare, Raw and sensual,

The freedom loving feminine.

An awakened lover and mother,

A medicine woman,

A Moon howler!

A symbol of the hoary feminine spirit!

The Mother is she,

The Maiden and the Crone,

A wild one, unrestrained with her feelings,

In love with her dreams,

She is the daughter of Gaia,

Connected to the Vulva of the Earth.

Courage in her breasts,

Resilience in her mind,

Determination to make better this dystopia.

She celebrates the woman.

Sacred is her touch,

Untamable is her spirit,

The High Priestess in the temples of the Goddesses,

Restoring our emotional health.

Showing us our soul’s journey,

Is her commitment.

She has walked on the face of the Earth,

For eternities.

In charge of the task of reconnecting humanity,

To her sacred bosom.

She dances with the wind,

She is awakened to life’s intricate mysteries.

You can see her supple youthfulness,

In dialogue with the Divine.

She creates fertility in the barren soils of our souls.

The Kundalini spirals through her spine,

To converse with the Great Cosmos.

Fluid are her movements, so alluring.

Lithe and sinewy are her limbs.

She is every man’s fantasy.

She is the Virgin!

A naive girl she is not.

For she is a wild one unto herself.

Awakened to her full potential.

Feeling the pulsations of life in her Yoni.

The Cosmic codes dance in her eyes,

As do colours unknown.

Her hair open and her body stark naked,

She has shed away all the illusions.

And is now ready for the Tandav!

See the radiance of her third eye!

Unashamed is she,

For being Feminine.

Unafraid is she of any injustice.

For she shines forth in her power.

She is not here to please you.

She is not here for your entertainment.

She is the lover of Earth.

She is here to make love to the wounds that you have given her.

She is here to heal the soul of Gaia.

She is here to become ONE with Gaia

She knows where she came from…

She knows of the Great Void!

Listen she says not she is your Savior!

She is committed to her mission.

All she says is,

Do not suppress the Goddess-consciousness within.

Let her speak to you.

She will show you the wounds the feminine carries.

She will show you how utterly you have destroyed her.

Are you ready to face her?

She is an alchemy,

Of spirit, mind and body.

Awaken the Sacred Whore, awaken Virgo!

 

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HER-STORY

That song floating in the air.

As if coming from a parallel Universe.

Eclipsing my consciousness and

Summoning a wide repertoire of emotions,

I am asked to speak of HER-STORY.

Not HIS-STORY, but for once,

HERS….

Those happy moments,

They are gone.

That crippling sadness.

Has disappeared.

The numbness comes and goes.

The rest of the time?

An automaton!

Muted. Ridiculed. Abused.

A woman depicted.

In the world alone.

Silenced by society.

Used and abused by you.

Have you not had enough?

Let her live and be free!

Let her envision life in her terms.

Let her soar like an eagle.

High up in the skies.

Give your progeny a chance.

She is the key to it all.

Don’t you see?

For silencing her,

You silence your mother.

Abusing her,

You abuse your own feminine side.

Integration of your inner polarisations.

Can never happen if you keep her chained.

She is as legitimate as you.

She also breathes oxygen.

She has two eyes.

Just like you.

She hurts when you stone her.

She bleeds when you rape her.

She bears your children.

But you kill the SHE inside.

You have kept killing the girl child.

For generations.

Isn’t she going to carry these wounds?

In her soul?

A life never lived.

Destroyed because she was a SHE.

Left in the dumpster.

Abandoned. Married off as a child.

Rejected as an old woman.

You cheat, you lie.

You malign, you desecrate.

You refuse to give her equal pay.

On grounds she is smaller?

What about the fact that she bore you?

You know you came from a vagina!!

Enough of your abuse.

Enough of your stoning.

Rapes. Assaults. Taunts.

Enough!

She will not stand for it.

She has been the mother,

The lover and the sister.

And the wife,

For too long.

She is ready to shed all those roles.

To be a woman.

A woman before anything.

A woman, an expression of the creative powers,

A woman, engulfing multiple realities,

In her breasts.

A woman she chooses to be.

Above everything else.

Maybe not.

Maybe SHE decides being HUMAN

Is what she wanted all along.

But you have taken that away.

You have taken away being human.

As you have reduced her to legs

And breasts and butt cheeks.

You have perverted the child.

And hyper-sexualised her.

You have fed into the fantasies.

Of the most twisted.

Women- you are scared of.

You want a girl.

To manipulate, use and abuse.

Women- you avoid.

As you fear intimacy.

You want nothing but perverted images.

On hoardings. In newspapers.

While you pretend to be busy.

You are as hollow as the life you live.

Flying high, destroying the Earth.

You don’t know how much you are harming yourself.

You are a product of toxic masculinity.

And you have reduced so many to being your enablers.

You have derided and ridiculed free women.

Women who are intelligent and sexual scare you.

You’d rather ignore the facts,

Of course she is a sexual being.

Of course she has desires and fantasies.

Of course she does.

For she is a woman.

A human being first yes.

But then a woman.

Before she dons any other role.

She now knows.

She is a woman.

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