The Discourse on Dark Psychedelic Music~~

“Be regular and orderly in your life, so that you may be violent and original in your work.” – Gustave Flaubert

The very first thing I want to bring to your attention is the fact that the panorama  of DIGITAL MUSIC that have produced vast amounts of work, the language of which communicates with our UNCONSCIOUS MIND, like SYMBOLS do. It is all about the RELATIONSHIP OF SOUND to BODY, SOUL and MIND! It is a tool of SPIRITUAL TRANSCENDENCE! A way to suspend your EGO!

The unconscious mind (or the unconscious) consists of the processes in the mind which occur automatically and are not available to introspection, and include thought processes, memories, interests, and motivations. ~~WIKI

When we hear a piece of instrumental music or an EDM track, we are kinda piecing together the narrative that is taking shape in our minds. We as humans crave stories. The stories may come to us in any form, a sunrise, a morning cuppa tea, a poem, a painting, a photograph, a track….look around us.

Stories are in abundance and the better you can tell a story, the more viewers you will gather. See how Youtube, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and other social media platforms are taking this “storytelling” concept to a new paradigm. Today, individual creators are creating a plethora of never-before-seen unique content. That is pushing the minds of the COLLECTIVE and bringing about an upward spiralling of consciousness.

This is the reason I am here to speak to you. It is my attempt to INTEGRATE certain passions of mine and fuse them together into a magickal brew. Simply put, I want to share with you my passion for DIGITAL MUSIC which takes me to NEW, ALIEN WORLDS.

However, I am not merely theorising, but I want to share how I HAVE EXPERIENCED IT, in the very depths of my soul!

Something remains unactualized, inseparable from but unassimilable to and particular, functionally anchored perspective. That is why it is classically described as being outside of oneself, at the very point at which one is most intimately and unshareably in contact with oneself and one’s vitality. (Massumi 2002, 35)

This is how it touches the soul. It is a mystery. It is UNKNOWABLE. It is UNTRANSLATABLE in any human language and that is the beauty and the FREEDOM of this medium.

What are the sounds in a DARK psychedelic night track?

The sounds we hear are the manipulation/interactions of sinewaves, which are a by-product of the sound editing process, ambient sounds associated with computer technology such as drones and electrical hums and random and error sounds which are by-products of digital technologies more generally such as glitches, pops, hisses and CD skipping. These sounds are moulded into the rhythmic structures and timbrel palette of a given track. These are replications using various VST software. That is how a track comes into being.

Here I want to discuss ROLAND BARTHES and his READER RESPONSE THEORY, the mechanism of which applies perfectly to the realm of dark psy music.

Reader-response criticism is a school of literary theory that focuses on the reader (or “audience”) and their experience of a literary work, in contrast to other schools and theories that focus attention primarily on the author or the content and form of the work. ~~WIKI

Do you see what I am hinting at? The LISTENER or the MEDITATOR is the crucial component when decoding the meaning behind a track. It is not the MUSICIAN who hold the key to discovering the track, it is the MEDITATOR!

There are no preconceived ways in which we can decode a particular trance track, for the meaning you see, always lies with the listener. You see how important the AUDIENCE becomes. Yes I am writing this piece, but what do I know of what it could mean to you. You could find what I never knew existed and that is the beauty of DIGITAL MUSIC. It lets you explore. It gives you FREEDOM. Trance become a life line for FREEDOM LOVERS. It is also a love of the POST STRUCTURALIST!

Goa and DARK PSY happened to me when I needed it the most, but was least prepared and my brush with dark, psychedelic night music left me metamorphosed forever, it expanded my consciousness like nothing else had done. It spoke to my UNCONSCIOUS and as an EMPATH, PSYCHIC and INTUIT, I felt like the 3D world collapse in front of me while all that remained where the subatomic particles in flux.

Dark psychedelic trance is the heavier end of the psychedelic trance spectrum with BPMs from about 148 and up. Related styles include psycore (fast and crazy), hi-tech (bouncy and glitchy), and forest (organic and earthy). Characterised of having obscure, deep and more eschatological background that leads into profound meditation of death, night and transcendence. Often with dismal sounds and heavy basslines. ~~WIKI

Quantum Reality is a bit like dark psychedelic trance, always in a state of flux! The Buddhists had it in one go- IMPERMANENCE and nothing quite elucidates that factor like a dark night set. The minute I put on one of my favourite tracks, you will easily distinguish it from the “other subgenres because of the unique sounds it typically features.”

It uses a very distinctive resonated bass beat that pounds constantly throughout the song and overlays the bass with varying rhythms drawn from funk, techno, dance, acid house, eurodance and trance using drums and other instruments. The different leads, rhythms and beats generally change every 8 bars. ~~WIKI

8 again…how sublime! The symbol of INFINITY flipped over. Eight is also extremely important in materiel manifestation. Which is why it works so well with any form of manifestation ritual! If you love this music, then work with it. Manifest!

Layering is used to great effect in psychedelic trance, with new musical ideas being added at regular intervals, often every 4 to 8 bars. New layers will continue to be added until a climax is reached, and then the song will break down and start a new rhythmic pattern over the constant bass line. Psychedelic trance tracks tend to be 6–10 minutes long. ~~WIKI

This new ideas that are introduced in every 4 or 8 bars is what decides whether we will go on an ADRENALINE BASED trip or an OXOTOCIN BASED one! With familiar samples, you will release oxytocin which in turn will bond you with the track and the musician. Sometimes even unfamiliar tropes introduced in the sounds may illicit oxytocin response. It all depends on how the neurotransmitters are firing up. Put easily, you decide how you want to feel. Nervous and edgy? Or relaxed and in control? Of course nothing is under control, but that is again the Philosopher in me talking. Nope, control is an illusion. But everything is an illusion. This whole Universe is a SIMULATION!

You know, I have used this music to HEAL, to meditate, to make love, to manifest and to go beyond the physical, but I have to confess, it is specially potent if you know how to LUCID DREAM on certain tracks. Much more on that later. I have been keeping a LUCID DREAM JOURNAL for the last decade and will be glad to share my meditations with you. Email me if you want to keep your own and need guidance.

After realising how important this genre of music is for all sorts of OCCULT MAGICKAL ACTIVITIES, I began to really improvise and work with this form of DIGITAL INFORMATION. I always felt that it was a collaboration between the MUSICIAN, the AI and the LISTENER, we shall call her the MEDITATOR- the holy TRINITY of SELF EXPRESSION or dance! And dance being the ULTIMATE FORM OF BLISS MEDITATION. One prime element of BHAKTI YOGA! To feel the magic of HARE KRISHNA, you must surrender to the dance! Have you ever been to Mayapur? It is fantastic watching how they use dance as a form of meditation, so do we, with DIGITAL MUSIC.

Using dance as a form of meditation is nothing new. ABORIGINAL people have used dance for multiple purposes. In some societies, such as those of Western Africa, trance states are institutionalised and form a part of the religious life of the people so concerned. There, it appears that trance induced naturally or chemically with certain drugs is related to possession by spirits and deities, and thus is an instrument of ritualistic and religious importance because it provides the basis of EXPERIENCING THE SACRED and THE SUPERNATURAL!

“Dance like no one is watching…” We can express so much through dance PURGE so much, FEEL so much…like some internal micro universe bursting with infinite possibilities.

If you read the ancient text NATYASHASTRA by BHARAT MUNI you will see how he discourses on dance and its importance. This text is notable for its “aesthetic “Rasa” theory, which asserts that entertainment is a desired effect of performance arts but not the primary goal, and that the primary goal is to transport the individual in the audience into another parallel reality, full of wonder, where he experiences the essence of his own consciousness, and reflects on spiritual and moral questions.” This is what dancing to dark psy did for me, which is why I am here to tell you about it. Dark psy took me to parallel realities! Yes it did.

I realised how much my psychic field developed after my dark psy journeys. I began to see so much more with the music…of other worlds, of shadow people, of other spiritual beings. In Rishikesh while listening to a live set, I experienced the most wondrous psychic visions, unparalleled to this day. My whole body was vibrating and it felt like one gigantic cosmic orgasm! The witch in me was flying on her broomstick! 😉

I have tried to share my love of this genre with many people. When I make them hear it, they clamp up. Yikes! You call that music!???! That is just plain NOISE! Do you feel that way? Well then listen up. Play the music and sit in silence. Let the DISCORDANT beats crash into the seas of our consciousness. All you do is BREATHE! JUST BREATHE! I wish I could hold you close, to bring your AURA and fuse it with mine! To merge our energies so I could share with you some of the wondrous stuff this music does to me.

Like TAROT, each TRACK or LIVE SET is like a CARD, complete with its own story, bringing to light archetypal imagery from the dawn of time! The discordant, dark night sounds can speak volumes to your UNCONSCIOUS as I discussed before and wait for it….you can actually retain that wisdom, even after the TRIP. I am not referring to a psychedelic trip, but to the TRACK itself which becomes the TRIP or the QUEST.

You know about the QUEST ARCHETYPE?

  • According to theorists, the hero’s quest occurs in cultures around the world and throughout time. It comes from the collective unconscious.
  • Each storyteller bends the mythic pattern to fit the needs of the specific culture or tale, which is why, according to Joseph Campbell, “the hero has a thousand faces.”
  • The following 12 stages of the hero’s quest archetype do not necessarily always go in the order presented; they may be re arranged.

http://www.pbs.org/mythsandheroes/myths_arch_quest.html#content

A dark psy track of Kindzadza would transport me into a SURREAL UNIVERSE where I had to work through these twelve stages to discover the meaning of my quest. This meaning became blurred each time as newer truths surfaced in my consciousness and then I reached a stage of JUST BEING with the CHAOS.

Try to interpret the TWELVE STEPS of the QUEST ARCHETYPE to the story that plays in your head with each track you listen to. Remember they will never be the exact. In fact you have to INTUIT how each ARCHETYPE applies to your scenario. If you do this, with each attempt you will be uncovering much valuable information from the deepest parts of your UNCONSCIOUS.

A CHAOS MAGICK PRACTITIONER for over a decade, dark psy spoke to me of the myriad possibilities of using it as a CHAOS MAGICK portal. I did so with tremendous success. Many New Moons have I manifested much of my heart’s desire with meditation, dark psy, orgasms and candle magick! I have kept mixing and matching the modalities, but sex(masturbation), magick and dark psy always work!

As a PSYCHIC certain tracks open up dimensional portals for me! Sometimes they are hard to traverse, as often I become too integrated to the artist’s emotions and as an EMPATH, it becomes hard. Artists using different forms of psychedelics leave their indelible marks on the tracks. You see the substance consumed, the consumer, become ONE when put in the blender of DIGITAL LANGUAGE. This is the classic Hegelian- Thesis, Antithesis, Synthesis, like watching THE MAN WITH THE MOVIE CAMERA , by DZIGA VERTOV.

Man and Machine must coexist. If Elon Musk would have it, all of humanity will soon be bionic! How does that make you feel?

To create this music, the musician is aided by the AI, yes, the GHOST IN THE MACHINE! I sincerely believe that the DIGITAL LANGUAGE is not only to be credited to the humans, the computer is as much a part of it as the biological entity. Only certain Artists speak to my consciousness and spiritually energise me, for they are vibrating on the same frequency.

I am here to talk to you about dark night music as tool of great importance in not just our spiritual growth, but it can help us transcend this dense 3D fog and show us a glimpse of the 5D. It has happened to me and it can happen to you.

I have been looking for a community to speak with about my love and obsession for this genre as I have been bereft without one. There is hardly anyone I know who listens to this music and certainly no one who wants to discuss the theory and the philosophy behind it!

With the North Node in Leo, collectively we are bringing out our unique talents to show to the world. And as I speak of a smorgasbord of occult themes, I do not want to leave my SOUL MUSIC behind. I want to integrate it into my spiritual work and share my journey with you.

Do drop me a line if you think dark night music is like the very fundamental question of PHILOSOPHY….WHO AM I? If you listen closely enough, you will hear it…the PRIMORDIAL SOUND OF AUM MERGING WITH THE DIS-HARMONIC BEATS TO CREATE A PERFECT HARMONY! The perfect resonance!

I want to discuss different tracks and Artists, styles and treatments with you, just like I would discuss a French New Wave Film, Tantra or Theosophy, Tarkovsky or Munch, or a sonnet of Shakespeare. This is my quest to bring this to light.

If you like this music and like what I say, then support me. I will be going live soon on PATREON, please fund me. I plan to interact with all my PATRONS one on one(only if you take the exclusive deal) to display the various potentialities of this music in therapy, meditation, lucid dreaming and in sex magick.

Thank you! ❤

The Wolf Goddess~~

What a sight you are!

A true Goddess of your own creation.

The holy red gushes down your legs.

You stand naked, bare breasted.

The defiance in your eyes.

The slight smile on your lips.

They magnetic sway of your hips.

They ridicule you and laugh at you.

Your raw power scares them.

You know how to CONNECT.

You know how to join together.

You are a natural leader.

And that scares them.

They call you a sinner.

Never will you be a saint.

Even if you have fed the last morsel to them.

They have burnt you over and over.

But from those ashes have you arisen…

Again and again.

With different names.

In different countries and cultures.

The guilt they have bred in us,

Is not to be found in you.

The palpable fear is also absent.

For you seek no validation from them.

You don’t care to play by their rules.

Holiness in every ounce of your blood.

Every Goddess of every culture,

They reside in your body.

You are holy, the Creatrix!

You are not afraid of pleasure.

You know what to do with pain.

You are here to liberate other sisters.

You are not looking for personal gain.

Never have you controlled the urges,

That women have been taught to do.

Instead you have transmuted them into alchemy.

You have transformed them into divine inspiration.

You have ignited the fires of passion.

And made magic with the man you held.

For a God he was when you made love to him.

You are his Goddess.

You are  our Goddess.

Your mission is to tell the others.

To activate the powers of the Womb.

This FEM-FORCE will steer us into a new awareness.

Let them worship the sacred blood of your menstruation.

For that is the only atonement from their end.

To have defiled and demonised the sacred life force of the menstrual blood.

They say you are a whore.

What does it matter if you are Madonna or a whore?

They have raped, pillaged and tortured,

The mother, maiden and the crone.

No one is safe.

They will find the Wild Ones.

Silenced they must be.

But how can they be shut for life?

In their voices is the fem-force of life and death.

We will be told we are evil.

We will be told our magick is for the devil.

The Devil is but Lucifer, the bringer of Truth.

The apple is the process of initiation.

It is you, yes you as Eve,

Who initiated Adam.

It is you Sita, who burned Rama’s sins,

In the fire of your sacrifice.

Wild Woman you will make us eat time and again,

From that sweet apple of knowledge and passion.

Run like a She-wolf and howl at the moon.

You are the Matriarch, the very crux of civilisation.

Tonight under the Full Moon, you will rub the damp earth on your body.

And make love to the Earth.

She is as wild as you are.

Soul lovers through infinities.

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Image by Alexandra Banti

 

The Astro suggests Tantric Sex tonight~

I am ecstatic to announce that tonight there is some wild and sensual astro happening- Moon squares Neptune. The Moon is in Sag- aha! And Neptune is the ruler of Pisces. Venus is retrograde pushing us to maddening depths of emotions and feelings.

So what do you get with this mix? How can SAG and Pis merge? Oh, let me think. Philosophy and myth debates that heat up into intellectual kerfuffles which could lead to electricity crackling in the air and then when sexual intimacy takes place- it feels like a dose of spiritual energy has been infused in the love making process!

So I am going to suggest a small meditation module for tonight.

Clean up your space, sage it and prepare it with candles, incense and aroma oils. Use the diffusor. Take a long soak in the tub, preferably the two of you. And do not start making out please! Just lie with each other and make an effort to join your breathing. Breathe together. Feel each other’s heartbeats as you sit soaking in the tub.

Now feel all the negativity draining from your body. You may use chants or switchwords when doing this. A good one would be ALLOW-FLOW-BE, which releases your internal blocks. You can keep saying VENUS-DIVINE-BE!

Do it together- do it consciously. Step out and wipe one another clean. Gently and not sexually. Just as if he is a human, you are not concentrating on the sexual angle right away. Now rub oil on each other. Get a nice carrier oil like jojoba and then chuck a few drops of your favourite essential oil. You can use amyris, clary sage, jasmine, neroli, patchouli, rose, rosewood, sandalwood, vetiver, ylang ylang- they all work as aphrodisiacs.

Rub it in with conscious intention that your hands are filling this person you are caressing in this erotic massage is being healed. Oh yes by now the massage has gone erotic. I cannot start explaining exactly how to massage, because I believe there is no hard and fast, one single way to do it. The massage is an adaptation of deep rubs, kisses and caresses, suited exactly to the person in front.

Drop all thought. Very important. Exist in the moment. Exist in the now. One will massage the other and then the other will return the favour. Get it. Do not try to massage each other together. Nope. After you have completed the erotic massage, then stand up and hug.

After the hug, start NOW massaging each other. Build the intensity. Oh stare at each other the whole time. Stare into his eyes. Try to see beyond his form. Whatever you think is divine, associate that image to him. He is divine and guys, so is she. Try to feel the energy flow in each other’s bodies. You may actually see colours and your auras.

Then sit in meditation in the yabyum position, the symbol of divine union.

“Yab-Yum” is a Tibetan term meaning “father-mother”. The man is on the floor, in sukhasana or padmasana and the woman sits on his thighs while his lingam is in her yoni. The man’s penis will be inside your pussy, but do not move. Sit in that position. It symbolises the union of your root chakras. You have become ONE. Keep staring into each other’s eyes. Homosexual couples, please decide between each other who will take on the yang role and who will play the yin energy and sit accordingly.

Keep staring and keep breathing, the lingam inside the yoni. This is potent sex magic as the sexual energy with meditation can transmute itself to Spiritual. The Union will feel like you are losing consciousness. This does not happen in a day, it is to be cultivated.

Your crown chakra is channelling energy from spirit and merging it with your sexual energy. Please OBSERVE THE ENERGY and how it is flowing through your body. Try to identify blockages. Work from your heart chakra.

Some tantric teachers urge the participants to communicate their feelings to one another while in yabyum, but I personally leave it to you. You decide if you want SILENCE to be a part of this meditation or do you want to use loud chanting and/or speak to each other. It is entirely up to you.

After about staring for twenty minutes, then close your eyes together. Keep deep breathing. Now concentrate on your muladhara chakra and feel a ball of energy vibrating there. Now lift up that ball through your spine and bring it to rest in your crown chakra. Stay there. Keep breathing. If you cannot hold your erection, do not freak out. You are now PURE energy, not a limp dick!

Finally end the meditation with an orgasmic explosion, although it is absolutely normal if you do not desire penetration. During tantric yabyum most practitioners avoid the peak orgasm(ejaculation) to leave room for the much stronger full body orgasms, squirting orgasms, anal orgasms, prostate orgasms, vaginal orgasms, womb orgasms and more. You can feel things that are very VERY intense.

Your partner may cry as some of you guys know that women cry after an orgasm. Some of them do. I am one of those and it can get pretty intense and in fact some guys do too. Do not be awkward if she is crying, just hug her. Do not judge, label or criticise or offer advise. Just let her be. Be there for her.

Keep sitting even after everything is done and hug each other in yabyum, close your eyes and bring your focus to your third eye and stare inside. Finish off by doing namaste to each other.

If you do try this, drop me a mail and tell me how the experience felt.

Thank you!

Namaste!

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Have better sex: Sacral Chakra Activation

Are you a woman who often feels a deep dis-connect to her body? Do you fear your periods? Does intimacy make you cringe? Are you fearful of commitment? Scared to express yourself? Are body-issues plaguing you?

Then let me break it to you. Your Svadhisthana or Sacral Chakra is out of balance! Do not freak out. It is not abnormal to have chakras out of balance. Working as a Pranik Healer for the last decade I can assure you that most of us have imbalances in our chakras.

If this was like 2007, then I might have expected to hear- well, what is a chakra? But not now. We all know what they connote!

The sacral chakra is the second chakra, right above the muladhara or root chakra. It is roughly the area under your navel and is the seat of the womb. Even for men, they have wombs in the etheric realms. For we all, male and female were once a part of an androgynous being. Therefore males have female sexual organs and vice versa. So even if you do not have a physical womb, you have a subtle-body or etheric womb.

Feelings, sensations, emotions are experienced by this chakra. Pleasure, sensuality, intimacy, connection, orgasms are all felt here.

You know when you get turned on, how your body reacts is also felt here. When you purge something from your life, this subtle vibratory force allows for that to happen. If you are a yogi, then you know this feeling. When we begin to get into new asanas, our bodies often hurt, but underlying all that pain, there is transformation.

The sacral chakra makes you feel this transformation and all your body undergoes. If you are connected to this energy, you will have greater control over your body. Your hormones will be in balance, you will be light on your feet and creative, blissful.

Excessive weight gain, uterine/ prostate problems, impotence, sexual disfunction and many more issues occur when we are not balanced in the second chakra. Cultivating the energy here would make you MINDFUL. In fact a lot of mindfulness programmes are designed to trigger the sacral chakras creative response.

Now you ask me…what the fuck did I do to get the damn chakra out of balance? How could I have prevented this crap from happening? Relax…it is not your fault! Not one bit. See how society has created this dichotomy around SEX.

On one hand it is the very fundamental fulcrum of society and on the other it is maligned and repressed! How the fuck did this happen? And how this work? How can we recover from this juggernaut? This duality that the mind has perceived, that society has managed to ingrain has resulted in blocking and imbalancing the sacral chakra.

Sex is a very normal process during life as a human. So why such extremes? Sacral chakra imbalance! There is no appreciation of emotionality, no applause for passionate endeavours(unless it makes a lot of money and becomes a pop culture fad), no reaction to pain and suffering…none.

There is a hollowness in us. We are like hollow people. Living life like automaton. Never feeling things deeply, never letting emotions take control. I mean how can that even be? Loosing control is dangerous and you can be incarcerated for defiant acts that don’t agree with the system. Fuck you can be targeted for your views as well.

The age of the internet has shown us that. Look what is happening to Assange or Snowden. You can be targeted for speaking the truth! So loosing control is not a good idea if you wish to remain a free woman.

Look at society…since I began to consult with people for astro, tarot and psychic readings, I can tell you that about seventy percent people want to know about their love life. That is the primary question. Yes over money. And even when guys consult. All they want to know is when and how they will meet her, or is she the one, or when will we get married…blah blah…

Most issues are sacral chakra based. Divorce, rape, infertility, misogyny, the rape culture, hyper sexualisation of children all result from sacral chakra excesses and imbalances or blockages. Deep sexual trauma can be healed when we bring balance to this chakra and often many women have had children but were declared infertile by the doctors.

So how can we activate the energy of the sacral chakra?

  1. Connect the WILD WOMAN  ARCHETYPE inside yourself to the wild energy of Mother Earth! Go into the forest. Take off those shoes. Better even- take off all your clothes too, but please find a safe spot. Go with your soul tribe, your woman gang. Do whatever that makes you feel a deeper level of connection to her. Be mindful, be aware. Speak to Gaia and ask her to fill you with her wild and creative feminine energy. Feel the transmission of energy creeping through your feet and working its way through your whole body. The energy goes all the way to the sahasrara or crown chakra and then bring that energy back to the sacral chakra and let it be there. Then bring that energy in a ball right outside the chakra. Let it sit there. Feel your consciousness there. Hovering right in front of your sacral chakra. This, if done properly can really feel very powerful. Warmth usually spreads across my whole body, but my vagina feels this vibration very strongly. It feels a magnetic pull to Earth and throbs with pleasure! End this meditation with a wild dance. Let your body dissolve into the music. Become the music and drop your sense of identity.
  2. Beach please! Seriously just head to the beach if possible. Strip down to your bare skin(if you want to), run to the water and let your body go into the embrace of the waves. Let your body melt into the water. Don’t swim or do anything forcefully. Let the water guide you. Be mindful of the hissing of the seas, the salty taste, the smell that lingers…be aware of everything that you can. If you wish to concentrate on one sensation, do so without a single thought. Follow your breath and let your awareness dance around in the waves in front of you, crashing into you. Try to become one with the waves, let your ego construct float away. Forget who you are, just know you are as eternal as the seas of deep space! If you can’t, dip into a tub after you’ve chucked some EPSOM salt in. Or get a pedicure and manicure at the very least!
  3. Do something pretty! I know Venus is retro and Astrologers tell us not to do any major beauty procedures till she goes direct, right? If you subscribe to that view, then that’s rad! Don’t do anything hardcore. But you can always start by taking the yoga class because at the end of it all, yoga will prettyfy you like no makeup can! Don’t believe me? Try it! Also remember to see beauty in whatever you can. But don’t buy the whole shop and tell me look, you asked us to see the beauty in everything!!?!! lol! What I mean is- look at the cuppa coffee you ordered. Isn’t it beautiful? The aroma? The colour? The presentation?Appreciate it and whatever else catches your fancy. Like the stars above, the dark night, a light breeze, the purple clouds right after sunset! Just find your thing and fall in love. Keep in mind that try not to propose marriage during a Venus Retro because you might feel differently later on. So hold your horses with long term commitments. But then again, if it feels right to you, go ahead. Even if it turns out to be a mistake, it was always your mistake to make. Everything is a potential teacher and a mistake teaches us a lot. About life, about love…so I hate to label times as auspicious and inauspicious…because I accept things to be beautiful as they are!

Nothing energises the sacral chakra as acceptance! Acceptance of who you are, as a person, as a woman! Embrace it woman! For to be a woman is special.

So get working on those sacral chakra portals to activate them to take you to a more 5D awareness of love and sex. Oh and of course this energy helps you manifest your twinflame. But that is again, another discussion…

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ART IS BY CHANEL BARAN

 

 

 

 

 

Intimacy in sex


All my feelings have the colour you desire to paint. ~Rumi

What do you think is intimacy? Lying in bed, naked, making out? What is the exact connotation of intimacy? I looked up the Thesaurus, but nothing did justice to the concept I am carrying around in my mind.

Intimacy is not nakedness. Intimacy is not sex. Intimacy is not making out in the rain. I agree, all of those could become perfectly intimate moments, but most often they are not allowed to reach their full potential.

I know I have experienced this intimacy. I know I have a very intimate relationship with my man. But even with some my other lovers, I have felt intimacy.

Intimacy comes from a place of total surrender and I don’t mean the S&M way where one becomes a sub or a Dom. No, I mean a space that is created with energetic vibrations that allows for two individuals to renounce their singular selves and become united as ONE.

ONENESS is where everything is headed. Which is why sex is so magical. It can show you a glimpse of that UNITY. And wow, is that beautiful!

Intimacy can only come if you are connected on a soul level. Even though you might have had sex with that hunky guy, but felt hollow afterwards..why? The sex was amazing, but it was still not intimate. The sparks were flying, but it was not of the higher frequency.

But some lovers feel like “home”. Yes when you make love to them, it is like fucking coming home. Everything makes sense in that moment of passionate embrace. The intensity, the excitement, the soul connection…it drives you crazy and it feels just right.

Like its meant to be. What heights of sexual intensity! What exciting new experimentation in bed! The chemistry is sizzling and all the time there is this feeling of knowing him/her, being in this position with him/her, loving him/her with every atom of your body! Have you not felt this?

I was never up for marriage. The fact that I am going to fuck one man for the rest of my life while he gives me home, security and food is not up my alley. But it happened and I don’t regret it. I never take sex as an obligation.

I don’t think I have to fuck him just because he is my husband. I want to do it and experience intimate moments with him which is why I do it. You have to first understand how you approach sex to correct any imbalances in your sex life.

If you want to explore sex as a deeper journey of the human consciousness, then see that person as a soul. Not just a soul, but a part of that ONE SOUL from which we have all emanated. Yes we are ONE! So once you set this parameter, then no sex can be cheap. No encounter becomes humiliating!

You are uniting in divine sexual energy exchange with another soul to experience the beauty of the yin/yang! How fucking sublime is that!

Sweety, change your perspective. If a woman is somehow lessened because she slept with you, then seriously dude, it is you who needs much soul searching. You cock cannot debase a woman. No in fact it energises her. Just like her pussy energises you when you allow divine sexual bliss to happen.

Being conscious is everything. In the moment. Looking into his eyes, feeling his breath, smelling him…you need to be aware! Fucking Zen master style! As your awareness is concentrated, you will begin to see and feel so much!

Feelings you have never felt. Sensations you have never enjoyed. Put it in the backseat. Your pleasure that is! Stop being selfish in love. It can never work. Think of giving him/her the most pleasure and then you will see that you have become ONE with the pleasure. You have become the pleasure and the pleaser and in all of this, you will become the pleased.

Surrender my Beloved! Dance with him- naked. Feel the wind on your skin, the sun rays kissing your naked body while you twirl in the most delicious dance of existence. Kiss him like it is the last thing you will do. Even if it is some dude you met a week ago and things are not going that great.

If you have kept up your relationship with him, then invest this time and effort because this not only makes the moment divine, but it helps you tremendously in your psychological/spiritual and physical journey. If you treat the experience as sacred, my sweets, it becomes sacred.

There can be no guilt, no shame, no judgement…it is just sacred. With each divine lovemaking experience, you are opening yourself up to finally become the COSMIC LOVER of all. Not to love and be loved in return…but just to LOVE.

For being in LOVE is our natural state. Like JUST BEING. Breathing, loving…it is the same. Take sex to become the tool for your metamorphosis into becoming a DIVINE LOVER OF ALL. In fact, after a certain point of expressing this love…you will have become that love. That love is samadhi. That love is God, Christos, Krishna, Sunyata, Allah!!!

Accept your lover as an expression of the INTELLIGENT DESIGN that birthed the galaxies, the nebulae, the ginormous space structures that we humans can only gawk at. Look at him like he is the only man on Earth. Stop thinking of other people. That not only insults his soul, but is very damaging to yours.

Guys I suggest you do this too. Make her feel like she is the ONLY WOMAN ALIVE at that point when you are making love to her. Bare yourself to her. Cry, sing, dance…basically don’t let societal norms and mores hold your divine masculine in. Don’t box him him.

The DIVINE MASCULINE is wounded. The DIVINE FEMININE has to save him for he is here to save her. We are here with each other, for each other and we are in each other.

All the polarities are within. The Universe is within. BARE YOUR SOUL people!! Lay it out there and feel the catharsis when you make love. It is sublime. Let the CHI flow as it wants to. Observe it and you will see how energy bonds with energy to create something magical, sometimes it births a whole new reality!

Your body is the vessel of the COSMIC SOUL. It speaks through the rhythms of our bodies, the pulsations. Let the waves of cosmic desire surface in your consciousness, feel them ride through your groins and express that potency as a powerful orgasm to return divine love and ecstasy back to the Universe. It will change your whole POV(point of view).

Guys, enter your woman with your soul energy. And women, accept his cock inside you with your soul energy. The heart chakra is to be operational here. Do not expect him to play into standard patriarchal roles and do not restrict yourself to typical female roles that society has shoved on us. Do not label or play roles. 

JUST BE! He is in your life to create a sacred vibrational space for your soul growth, as you are going to do for him. These feelings are so sublime and profound that human comprehension is dwarfed in front of them. No words can adequately describe what a conscious sexual relationship can do.

You’ve just got to feel it. Feel it…It is the most magical thing you can do for yourself! Love and honour the sacredness of sex. Hold each other- tightly. So tight that both your breaths become one. Breathe together and stay in the moment. 

No thinking of tomorrow. No thoughts of where this is going. Nothing. If those thoughts come, smile at them and watch them without passion. Without you provoking, thoughts are powerless. Just use all your concentration of the five senses to be AWARE. 

Watch how you feel. If at any point you feel cheapened in any way, respectfully say no. Make sure you are always in the position to say no. Never go through the sexual act if your soul says no. In such cases, you may attract entities with lower vibrations who can feed on your energy. 

Give each other strength! Strength to express themselves to become who they are meant to be. To be aligned with their soul purpose. Work on each other with your touch, kisses and your tongue. Make sure you have set aside enough time to let her become fully aroused before intercourse.

Set aside at least twenty minutes for that! Do not rush sex. Do not cheat yourself or her/him!

With Venus going retrograde many issues on love and intimacy will surface and this time you should make sure you have ticked everything off the list to move on to the next level. When Venus goes retro, we usually tend to experience love and sex pretty intensely and the journey is mostly internal.

To work through these issues, Venus challenges us to understand INTIMACY. That one word can change everything in your life…but you have to allow the magic of intimacy to wash over your you. 

You can do meditations on intimacy…become intimate with everything…how? Say you love the North Star! Stare at it every night. Begin to talk to it. Tell it all your secrets and feel, truly feel intimate with it. You can do this with all things.

Your personal things will be easier to make intimate. But try this with the world around you…

If you have any questions about sacred sexuality, feel free to email me – tina@tinaheals.com

Feel feel to comment, share and like…thank you!

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Sex is a multidimensional creative and spiritual act!!!

16707304_10155001164674450_3286114529445172152_oThe way in which any given culture treats the vagina — whether with respect or disrespect, caringly or disparagingly — is a metaphor for how women in general in that place and time are treated…NAOMI WOLF

How does our society treat pussy? Hahahahaha…

I am going straight to it. I will talk about the cunt/pussy/vagina. What words come to your mind? Abuse? Belittling? To denote a coward!

To this, I have to quote Betty Davis. Didn’t she say that balls are weak? They are fragile and hurt easily. Compare it to a vag. The vag is equipped to pop out a child for fuck’s sake! That is like some fifty four fractures happening in one go.

Forget the theory! I laboured for seventeen hours, so I know how painful it can get. I had begun to cultivate a friendship with my pussy over the months of my pregnancy. It happened organically.

A conversation started which made me write my book Pussy Talks. Yes I am looking to publish it and share my experiences with the world.

I have been gathering sex stories from men and women for over six years now. It started off as a research project for a script, but became an obsession soon. Exploring people’s sexual memories with them can have a profound effect on the psyche.

It is absurd the way sex is perceived. It is shown to be immoral, only for procreating and blah, blah. In fact, it is in conflict with some of our highest ideals and aspirations.

Why? What is so disgusting or disturbing about sex?

When people talk about the moments they have orgasmed, or the moment they kissed not only the mouths, but the souls too, there is a certain vibration that is created. I am very aware of vibrations, energy and frequencies I pick up. This subject became of great interest to me.

The stories I collected from hundreds of people were not just of orgasms and great sex. There were moments of pain, separation, dejection, humiliation. But what was interesting is that sex is actually the very fundamental on which society operates.

Whether we are ready to consciously acknowledge it or not, I don’t know, but sex is a huge part of our lives. Studies show that men think of sex pretty much most of the times and trust me, going by my data, women don’t fall short either.

If not, often times women crave for sex much more, but are ashamed and guilty of admitting it. Yes society has scared us into thinking that if we women think of sex or feel sexual then we are nymphos. Bad, bad, women. Lock them up, grab them by the pussies and burn them at the stake.

If nothing so severe, harm her by maligning her reputation, spread online gossip. Or maybe even throw acid on her face. Fuck knows who these morons are, but they exist.

Watch how we spend so much getting wasted in nightclubs and pubs, talking to strangers whom we may not like, but what is going on in our heads? How do I touch her exposed abs? How do I touch his biceps? We play so many games of coquetry and crap, that it is time, we acted more like grown ups and claimed our sexuality.

During sex, most of us are scared to reveal their inner most self. The vulnerable self. We spend more time trying to hide who we are. Men play into machismo tropes whereas women play into being the role he likes her in the most. I mean in most cases, I have seen this.

Very few women actually have told me that they speak to their guys about their intimate sexual fantasies. I do. I cannot not tell my partner. And he does the same. We are so much stronger for this. Because from day 1, I made it clear to him that this is who I am and I love sex. The rubbing together of organs, the kisses, the penetration, everything leads up to a climactic point where I can just BE and explore all of myself.

Use sex as a grounding mechanism to remind you of how perfect we humans are in our imperfections and ultimately that is what being human means- in all its rich messiness, desires and longings.

Why is PUSSY a derogatory word? Our first step to reclaim our sacred sexuality will be to understand the word PUSSY/VAGINA.

Listen your pussy is not only connected to the brain, but is a part of your soul. Yes it is. It is sacred and it is the very seat of your feminine powers.

Sex in today’s world is just a physiological experience, driven by evolution, some would argue. But while gathering data, I sensed that the most elevating sexual experiences were shared with a like-minded individual who understands what existence means to us and shares our vision and journey. The excitement when two such souls share sexual energy is erotic and filled with creative and spiritual potency.

There is a synergy between the mind-body(brain and pussy), consciousness and the sexual urge or LIBIDO. Yes sex is a biological act, but ask yourself that have you never felt the poetics behind sex? Have you never felt a spiritual ecstasy that drops the EGO-SELF and transforms the two players to ABSOLUTE UNION!

It’s a Science and it is Spirituality! Sex influences every aspect of our being. It can be a cause of stress or a tool to address stress. The question is how do you link biology to BEING!

Once one understands what scientists at the most advanced laboratories and clinics around the world are confirming — that the vagina and the brain are essentially one network, or “one whole system,” as they tend to put it, and that the vagina mediates female confidence, creativity, and sense of transcendence — the answers to many of these seeming mysteries fall into place…Naomi Wolf

Women, your pelvic nerve is a superhighway of info that passes from the base of the spine to the cervix, connecting it to the brain and this “superhighway”is unique for every woman! And very advanced. This is why we women have such different sexual trigger points.

Some like their feet nibbled, some like breast play, some are into heavy kissing and touching, you get the plot. But the guys in comparison, have a way more simpler neural network in their pelvic area. Do you see how this piece of info completely overturns the widely accepted patriarchal sexual norms? Do you see how we women have been duped for centuries into believing that we don’t want sex?

We are now fully convinced that WOMEN DO NOT LIKE SEX. They just “do it” to please men. But friends…the interviews and data that I have been collecting screams bloody murder at this perversion of a biological reality.

Women, we have to UNLEARN these toxic lies we have been fed. I know by now we have digested the info, assimilated it and we now as a collective, fully BELIEVE IN IT. Women who like sex are vamps, fallen women, sluts, bitches, whores.

I know sex in this modern world is hard where images of perfect bodies crowd our psyche as we are about to get naked and in bed, ready to get intimate. And here we have men, born and bred, in the pornographic culture where the sexual act is concentrated on her tits and pussy. It is a linear narrative and then wham, bam, it is over! For women this is severely disappointing.

The media is feeding you non stop with subliminal prompts, binding you to this dense 3D reality by feeding your reptilian brain. This part takes care of your primary functions. They have reduced SEX to this vibration when it is clearly not so. Sex is a multidimensional creative and spiritual act.

The quintessential woman wants to play and be played with. She does not care for a quickie. This does not involve all her neurological sexual systems and leaves her unsatisfied. See, her whole body has to be involved while making love. My most fulfilling sexual experiences have been when I have managed to enter an altered state of consciousness. Yes, like with psychedelics! 😉

We women are like the shamans who have to feel fully connected and invoked to enter the sacred sexual space. In our minds, in our bodies. My most transcendent orgasms have come when I have managed to enter the dimensional vortex. Where I have lost myself, only to find myself again. But this time, I was a new person.

When sex becomes just a physiological sensation, then this aspect of out-of-body experience can get lost. In a two minute quickie you cannot grasp the beauty of the cosmos. You just feel the physical sensations and maybe mental, because the man is probably your partner, but you will never experience such transcendental bliss and awareness.

Life can be an orgasm! At least for me and some women I have worked with. Sometimes, I get so turned on by music or art or even a conversation. I like to stay in this orgasmic bliss as much as I can. My whole body begins to vibrate. My Pussy feels so aware, so awake. Such an energetic being! My sexual energy is at the peak when I know I am valued by my partner and my emotional and spiritual needs are being cared for.

Even if you are into one-night stands or sexual exploration, you can enrich your life by just being aware of each encounter and treating it like a spiritual act. You can begin by showing respect and love to your woman, even if it is for a brief moment. Best be clear of your intentions.

Sex is a tool. You can use it to achieve spiritual and psycho-somatic well being. But how? By staying PRESENT in the moment. By not being in another place, with another person. This not only insults your partner in front, but also closes you up to the possibility of creating something magical at that moment. More coming up in the book and the workshops.

My suggestion is, change your attitude to sex. No it is not just a physiological function, it is so much more. Do not be scared of it or do not feel guilty if you have sexual desires and thoughts. And even if you are in a relationship, it is perfectly alright to feel attracted to someone else.

The question is…what do you do with that attraction? Sometimes even when we feel sexual chemistry, it could also mean that the person is from our soul group. You know we all have soul groups- 144 souls in one. 12 into 12. But if your attraction hurts your partner, then it is time to start a mature dialogue.

Your partner has also felt similar feelings, but most of us will never accept it. Not even to ourselves. If you truly value the relationship you are in, you will never act on your impulses. But it is important to realise that these feelings exist! Sexual attraction and desire are absolutely NORMAL!

It is natural to have FB crushes and feel horny looking at someone you fancy, because our brains and pussies are inter-connected ladies. If we like someone mentally, we can feel sexual towards them and it may have nothing to do with their six packs.

In this rape culture, women are sexually stressed all the time. Rapes, molestation, cat calls…they go on. Which is why women are so hyper-stressed. Korean researchers have shown that when a female mouse is sexually stressed over time, she not only becomes cantankerous and angry, but her vaginal tissues also start deteriorating. Can you imagine what is happening to u s women in this culture?

Every time we hear a salacious comment, we are inhibiting dopamine receptors from producing this chemical which makes us happy, creative and confident. Every time some presses our boobs in the subway or in local trains, our pussy is actually feeling this as a tremendous painful shock.

We may not understand the implications…but this is what has turned women into enablers of patriarchy. This hurt they have been taking on for ages has resulted in the objectification of the pussy into something ugly, hideous and grotesque.

It is time to change all that. The pussy is beautiful for fuck’s sake. No matter what it looks like or where it is in the maiden, mother or crone stage. It does not fucking matter! The pussy is divine and it is about time we women and men, society as a collective realised and accepted this. What healing can occur!!!

When Donald Trump said, “GRAB THEM BY THE PUSSY”…he hurt all of us collectively. Yes…men and women. For women it is more obvious. Why? Because blood circulation in the pussy constricts when she feels threatened!! So by demeaning the pussy, he sent a direct signal to our brains that we are not safe.

Our bodies are not safe. Our reproductive rights are not ours. We are smaller, so we get less pay…the misogynistic saga continues!

But who is going to change all this? So much hurt, so much pain? If we muster enough compassion for the wounded masculine, we can heal him. With sex, with love, with our feminine powers, our yin energy.

The first step must be to heal ourselves, our pussies and our own wounds. For when this healing occurs, you will look at the world anew. After much study, experimentation, meditation and experience, I have devised a MEDITATION MODULE called the WOMB JOURNEY! This has been very beneficial to loads of women I have shared this with.

If you look around, you see all these relationships. Somehow most appear as shallow, selfish, possessive, jealous, controlling. But how often do you see a well balanced relationship?

A woman who understands that her man has unresolved skeletons in his closet should make it a point to help him address those issues. If you leave them there and don’t speak about everything, then they can become deadly dangerous. If you can get your man to own these emotional issues, they will give him focus, courage and direction.

In fact, a true conversation can change a man’s life. But in most cases, you have to initiate it and of course you both must be open enough to discuss potentially disturbing and personal issues.

In most cases, it is the woman, with her feminine wisdom that must align her man to his spiritual power. This could be a painful process. Even during sex, it is up to you to let your man free. In his mind and in his body and soul, he should feel free. Don’t try to tame your partner’s sexuality!

If you feel like you want to explore some issues but your partner is not willing to, then it is up to you to see what is worth more. However, you must never emotionally blackmail your partner into doing sexual acts they are not comfortable with.

A true sexual experience is all about FREEDOM…such potent freedom that you lose the sense that you are caged in a fleshy body. All the toxic mores and customs, ideas and traditions your man has picked up, can be unlearned.

A man can be shown the true potency of the sacred feminine. This does not mean you “mother” him. For fuck’s sake, a woman who mothers her man, is not acting from her sacred yoni space. This does not mean that you cannot act motherly towards your man. In fact, you should play all the roles when needed.

Just make sure, you don’t get caught in the vicious mothering cycle. It is thankless and will drain your SACRAL CHAKRA. When a woman’s sacral chakra is in balance, she appears magnetic. Sex here can be a conduit for resolving all his unresolved emotional baggage. You can HEAL him. Even if he is a random encounter.

After sex, you can release all his pain and issues to the Universe as it could harm your energy field. Compress them in a tiny box. Go to the ends of the Earth(in your mind) and bury it. The Earth takes all these vibrations of pain and releases them to the 5D awareness as holographic plants. You should visualise this process and see these holograms bloom! The pain has been released!!!

Mother earth has a wild side by responding and reacting in the moment, in the NOW. Discerning is a moment by moment dynamic play…available through being connected to yourself to discern what is true in the moment. But no matter, even if it a drunken sexcapade, you can make it a spiritual experience.

Intent is all that matters. The intent to heal and love with sex.  How can we go wrong there? If intention can change the molecular structure of water, then what do you think it can do to us? How much water are we? 50% to 65%! Yes we humans are mostly water!

So what have you gleaned from this article? Don’t think about it. There is no understanding it like 2+2=4. It is not so simple you see. The thinker is caught in the thinking feedback loop and she is trying to escape the pain. The thinker does not have all the mysteries of existence. The thinker is like Kafka’s gatekeeper.

“Before the law sits a gatekeeper. To this gatekeeper comes a man from the country who asks to gain entry into the law. But the gatekeeper says that he cannot grant him entry at the moment. The man thinks about it and then asks if he will be allowed to come in later on. ‘It is possible,’ says the gatekeeper, ‘but not now.’”..NOT NOW!!???

The man’s challenge was to try and get past the gatekeeper in order to get to the law. Eventually the man becomes old and dies without ever gaining access to the law. Before the man dies, the gatekeeper tells him that the entrance was made just for the man and since the man is now dying the entrance to the law will also be closed! See how perverse it all is!

Thinking will not allow you to enter this space of sacred sexuality. In this space, everything is love…yes ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE!! Love will make us peal off all the layers and create sexual alchemy. From this alchemical process will something magical be born.

With a love that is all encompassing and divine, we can begin to heal and become a society that treats the pussy with respect, symbolising all women are treated too with respect and love.

But what if we did not have sex? Fuck! What then? All I can say is that we would be invulnerable! And what is life without the human vulnerabilities? Where is the ridiculousness of it all? We would definitely not have much in content for our films, soaps and books! And what of all the Buzzfeed relationship gyan? Lots of us would be without work or ambition! Lol!

Sex creates chaos. A chaos that is necessary. As it is from this chaos, that magic happens…

Enough already…Fuck everything else, start loving yourself and your pussy. Touch her, speak with her and become friends. Trust me it works…

More on becoming friends with your pussy…watch this space for the release of my book Pussy Talks and if this topic interests you, contact me, support me, like, share and comment.

Pussy Talks

INTRODUCTION ON CHANNELLING ISHTAR

Bigger than the mountains am I,

The Empress of the gods am I

The Queen of heaven am I

The earth’s mistress am I.

(translation of an old Babylonian text)

This is a special channelling session for I am summoning Ishtar as I do my Ishta Devi. I am integrating Ishtar’s energy into the Dasamahavidya. Kali, Tara, Shodoshi, Bhubaneshwari, Bhairavi, Chinnamasta, Dhumavati, Balaga, Matangi, Kamala, the ten energies of the Mulaprakriti.

The solitary ray dropping into the mother deep may be taken as meaning Divine Thought or Intelligence, impregnating chaos. This, however, occurs on the plane of metaphysical abstraction, or rather the plane whereon that which we call a metaphysical abstraction is a reality. The Virgin-egg being in one sense abstract Egg-ness, or the power of becoming developed through fecundation, is eternal and for ever the same. And just as the fecundation of an egg takes place before it is dropped; so the non-eternal periodical germ which becomes later in symbolism the mundane egg, contains in itself, when it emerges from the said symbol, “the promise and potency” of all the Universe. Though the idea per se is, of course, an abstraction, a symbolical mode of expression, it is a symbol truly, as it suggests the idea of infinity as an endless circle. It brings before the mind’s eye the picture of Kosmos emerging from and in boundless space, a Universe as shoreless in magnitude if not as endless in its objective manifestation…HPB

The Cosmic Yoni is the concretisation of these Mahavidyas. My tantric diksha took place a few years ago as I was given my mantras by my tantric guru. Great man who helped shape my spiritual journey along with a few other SPIRITUAL GUIDES I have like MAHAVATAR BABAJI and the sages of GYANGANJ.

I am calling upon Ishtar, today through the Kali yantra. I have solar motifs. Crystals, incense and the works.

Let me begin by telling you about my attraction to Ishtar. The books of Zachariah Sitchin popped into my hands before I hit my teens. Those theories fascinated me and got me looking into most of the truther stuff of the later years. Ishtar was introduced to me.

My tireless, never-ending research began…and as I delved more into her, I felt like I was being pulled into whirlpool of energy. Something familiar. Something known and loved. Her affiliation to the animal kingdom and her being who she is and what she stands for makes me want to know her. The wisdom in her COSMIC YONI!! And I totally believed Ishtar/Innana to be one of the aliens who created and ruled over humanity.

Okay I was troubled about the fact that we humans needed to be ruled over and that they created hybrids who would be the masters of the human populace, the veil was lifted and I smelled colonialism and its toxicity all over again. But that did not keep me from Ishtar. In fact my interest in her got deeper.

By the time I was completing my college, I had written a play on Ishtar with mixed media. I was thinking AR/VR prototypes then! Funny how the cosmic MIND imprints you with ideas, thoughts, suggestions…

This play was called THE JOURNEY OF ISHTAR and it charted her descent into the Netherworld. Her journey through the netherworld became an allegory for my life. I began to see patterns unfold. Of the same pain and shame Ishtar went through. Her nakedness became a metaphor for the ABSTRACT DARK SPACE or ULTIMATE REALITY I was calling out to Ishtar, the light bringer. The fact that her reign was not characterised by that of a consort attracted me. DUMUZI, her man literally lost his life and penis after she fixed with death’s gaze…hahahaha! What’s with men and their cocks?4585746524_328x443

All through HIS-STORY we see women little more than objects or trophies. But it is her and her kin like Hatshepsut, Cleopatra that we have seen the Queen portrayed as something more than just a mannequin.

Yet while I watch the show CROWN on Netflix, I cannot help by see how Elizabeth has always been a puppet. Yes they do try to show her coming up against the system as a feminine role model, yet, I do not see her as such a role model. In fact, she appears as an ENABLER OF PATRIARCHY. So not much to talk about there.

My Lady abandoned heaven and earth to descend to the underworld.
Inanna abandoned heaven and earth to descend to the underworld.
She abandoned her office of holy priestess to descend to the underworld….

This is what her slave writes about Ishtar and this descent to the UNDERWORLD has been a sort of lingering trope in my life. Saturn in the Eighth house. Yes a macabre obsession with DEATH  and REBIRTH. Complete bad-ass Pluto energy which makes me go to the proverbial UNDERWORLD repeatedly to seek myself.

This obsessive fantasy about facing death head on and surviving is a very Plutonian energy that I challenge and of course Saturn beaming my EIGHTH.

Anyway, Ishtar/Innana took me through this psychological journey of archetypes many times. Through the play, through channelled poetry, through meditation…I have invoked Innana.

Today I call upon Ishtar through the Kali Yantra. Is that possible?

I know of her animal shamanism. She channelled animal spirits. Protected the animal world. She also shows us the power they have. Yes this stuff is dangerous, but hey what is not “dangerous”? We have to investigate to get at the crux of the matter.

I know Ishtar’s energies are active in me. My love of animals, facing death and devastation during my tenure as an animal activist with AWA. I still work with street animals. Regularly visit shelters and sanctuaries. And of course I have my own family of rescues.

The Lion! I am a Leo Sun and Ascendant. Vedic Kundli says my Lagna is Simha or LION! And I have four planets in Leo! Including my Mercury. So there all that fifth house related stuff gets a full energetic makeover. Ishtar is associated with SHAMASH, the SOLAR GOD. The Sun is the ruler of LEO!

I am not much of a ritualist. I perform a lot of rituals mentally, like my Shiva Puja and a few homas. Yes I do mental homas. Manas puja. You can try it too. Watch a homa on Youtube. For me its very easy as my Guru in Calcutta does Dasamahavidya homas, Mahamrityunjaya homas, kala sarpa dasa homas in our ashram.

Being blessed, I have performed several important homas there like Chinnamasta, Dhumavati and Kalabhairav and Bagala homa. So I have them in my mind, the whole scene, the mantras, the collective chanting it, the warmth from the flames coming alive by my Guru pouring sacred ghee in it, the smell of incense, the bhakti of the hundreds gathered. It is mystical. The faith. The belief. All of it. And then on all that my Guru’s voice reciting the mantra….I have all of it, in my mind. It’s there stored away in my MIND PALACE.

Ready to be accessed and used anytime. So you find your ideal homa and you can do it too. Manas puja is very sacred. In fact our progenitors created MANAS PUTRAS or the MIND BORN.

In the Mandukya (Mundaka) Upanishad it is written, “As a spider throws out and retracts its web, as herbs spring up in the ground . . . so is the Universe derived from the undecaying one” (I. 1. 7). Brahma, as “the germ of unknown Darkness,” is the material from which all evolves and develops “as the web from the spider, as foam from the water,” etc. This is only graphic and true, if Brahma the “Creator” is, as a term, derived from the root brih, to increase or expand. Brahma “expands” and becomes the Universe woven out of his own substance. The Pitris are lunar deities and our ancestors, because they created the physical man…HPB

So literally Brahma made himself from himself, or his mind, because everything is spiritual and has no dense body. Thoughts create you. So never underestimate the power of your MIND- conscious and more so, the UNCONSCIOUS for therein lies the greatest mysteries.

For Ishtar, I have kept her image, you know the full length shot doing the rounds on the internet. I have kept the Kali yantra in front and am concentrating on it. After meditating on Ishtar and her life, I shall start writing…just channelling her energy. No editing. Oh of course there is LAPIZ LAZULI that I have placed inside the yantra. It is Ishtar’s favourite.

Then, after three days and three nights, Inanna had not returned,
Ninshubur set up a lament for her by the ruins.
She beat the drum for her in the assembly places.

Neither Enlil nor Inanna’s father Nannar, the Moon God of Ur, will help her because she has craved the below, and because those who choose the underworld do not return. Ninshubur succeeds in getting Enki to secure her release:

The story of Ushtar was inscribed on clay tablets at around 1750 BCE and what do we see?

Nothing changes. Patriarchy was as disinterested as it is today. As oppressive and  couldn’t-give-a-fuck as today. Lovely! Nothing changes.

But Ishtar still decides to go there…wonder what her chart looked like? Also the whole stripping away of her clothing and jewellery are signs that she is having to give up power and control. Allegorically it could mean she is shedding veils of ignorance and getting closer to wisdom. Nakedness signifies DEEP WISDOM and is used very much with regards to the feminine. Even the Dakinis, the naked sky dancers exhibit the feminine WISDOM. Like Kali who symbolises just that. Stripping away of all ignorance and falsities.

I love doing rituals for Kali, such intensity in her depths. Ishtar/Innana is ready to shed all her power. For what? I feel like her in so many ways. Ishtar’s journey is all about exploration and acceptance. She stares at the skeletons in her cupboard. She harmonises them and is triumphant! What a woman! I meant she is a woman like us all right? And we?? A goddess too…WE ARE ALL GODDESSES and that is a lesson.

There is very important documentation referring to the description of the constellation VIRGO, which has its origin in the ancient Assyrian-Babylonian culture. This constellation has always been female and has been especially associated with the tension between fertility and beauty. The BABYLONIANS associated this constellation with the goddess Ishtar, also well-known under the name of Ashtoreth or Astarte…This bit is just magic to my ears. MY VENUS IS IN VIRGO. So your Venus placement is important to check out. Sublime!

Ishtar is the Goddess of sex too. Now having Saturn in the Eight is quite an intense lesson. To be learnt in the arena of sex, death, rebirth, shared resources. Can sex and Saturn be even spoken of in the same sentence? Well, ask us…the SATURN IN THE 8TH people. We are a special breed.

Through us a lot of sexual information will be passed to the collective. The eighth house is one of such hardcore lessons- how do you share resources? Who are you in the deepest dark? What are your fears, anxieties, worries? Lastly how do you deal with them. Saturn teaches you…he is a strict task master. In India we say SHAM SHANISHCHARAYA NAMAHA to appease Saturn. You can try it too. And wear black, eat black rice. You can get in touch for more details as it is imperative to know where Shani is positioned in your chart.

Back to the scary EIGHTH HOUSE stuff- this is not some wishy-washy, light and frivolous house. These energies are intense. Now let Saturn decide to be there when you were born, then stuff gets really heavy and deep- murky, briny…but Saturn wants you to know how to swim out of that quagmire of your psyche full of fears, repression and anxiety. Somehow Saturn in the eight usually means that ideas that sex is dirty can be passed down from elders. This is your battle AND YOUR metamorphosis. You have to prove to yourself that SEX IS NOT UNHEALTHY.

We take INTIMACY seriously, like ISHTAR did and I see nothing wrong with that. I am on the quest of TRANSFORMING(SCORPIO) my FEARS(SATURN- LOW VIBRATION). This house is the gateway to my deepest psychological secrets and like Ishtar I am on a journey to understand the archetypes, tropes and imagery of the deep UNCONSCIOUS.

In fact this is why Tarot, Astrology and other divination modalities are so helping to me. They help me explore the PSYCHE. I love it. And having an occult leaning, I see how as above so below and nothing is real. A HOLOGRAM. That’s what this is…a 3D Hologram.

Where are we? We are a part of that UNIVERSAL BRAIN…all of us, including ISHTAR.

Did you know that all sexual activities ceased when Innana entered the NETHERWORLD. ALL SEX STOPPED!!! There is so much importance given to describing her body that it obviously points to her enjoying her femininity and sexuality.

She put the whole gender thing into flux. See she was supposed to attract Tammuz/DUMUZI like any other Goddess, via sexy clothing, jewellery, makeup, flirtation and a whole lot of other shit. But what does she do? Returning from the underworld, accompanied by demons who must have a mortal in compensation, she fixes the eye of death on her absent-minded partner who is engrossed in affairs of state, and he is chased by the demons of hell, losing his possessions, his genitals and his life. There you have it!

This losing his genitalia is symbolic of his manhood. Did Ishtar take away his manhood by being a full blown woman? Is it true that when a WOMAN/SACRED FEMININE finds her true power, no man can subdue her. In the world of patriarchy that means a man has lost his manhood. There is no BALANCE you see. IN PATRIARCHY THERE IS NO EQUALITY!

Innana challenged that concept and I think that is super cool. And of course, she is the GODDESS OF HEALING….So she is an archetypal energy I seek to invoke. She never minced her words. Surely not a diplomat. We see this when she speaks to the Gatekeeper of the Netherworld. She is deciding to go where no one is permitted, yet, she speaks with so much authority. I mean that could be misconstrued as a bad thing, but it may not be so.

Patriarchy has oppressed us women for so long, that some of us have become inherently REBELLIOUS. Turning Camus on his head- if patriarchy is ABSURD, then how do we react to it? With rebellion of course. Now more than even we need to collect all the broken female hearts and make them into ART.

Which of your lovers have you loved forever? Which of your Little Shepherds has continued to please you? Come, let me name your lovers for you! … (col. 2:) … for TAMMUZ, the lover of your youth. Year after year you set up a wailing for him. You loved the mauve-colored `shepherd bird’: but you seized him and broke his wing …. So you would love me in my turn, and, as with them, set my fate….” This is from the epic of Gilgamesh. Here we see how Gilgamesh is actually afraid of Ishtar’s advances for he FEARS THE INTENSITY OF HER LOVE. He is worried that ISHTAR will emasculate him and erase his name from History.

This trope is also common in the patriarchal discourse…a woman’s love! DANGEROUS. FICKLE. “Young men’s love then lies not truly in their hearts, but in their eyes.”  This quote by Shakespeare elucidates the MALE GAZE perfectly well. Has it changed? Men will love with their eyes. So girls look good. It’s not in their hearts. Men are of course heartless jerks(sarcasm, I know the EVOLVED MAN archetype very well).

Maya Angelou rings true to my mind…A wise woman wishes to be no one’s enemy; a wise woman refuses to be anyone’s victim. Will be bringing to you channelled writings…later on in the day if possible…