Kali, Kali, Kali

“DARKNESS ALONE FILLED THE BOUNDLESS ALL, FOR FATHER, MOTHER AND SON WERE ONCE MORE ONE, AND THE SON HAD NOT AWAKENED YET FOR THE NEW WHEEL, AND HIS PILGRIMAGE THEREON.” ~~HPB

KALI MANTRA FOR INVOCATION~~

Sarvamaṅgalamāṅgalyē śivē sarvārthasādhikē . śaraṇyē tryambakē gauri nārāyaṇi namō’stu tē. Oṃ jayantī mangala kālī bhadrakālī kapālinī . durgā ksamā śivā dhātrī svāhā svadhā namō’stu‍tē

The DARK GODDESS has been the anchor of my soul in the turbulent seas of samsara. My support system, my provocateur, my muse, my melancholia…I could go on forever, for she or that energy exists in everything, everyone and every experience.

Sometimes, tears stream down my face and I think that WHEN IS ENOUGH ENOUGH! Is there any end to my avaricious wants, desires and needs? After going through so much, so much pain, am I still not done wanting more? Everything dies. Everything vanishes. Everything fades away. Confronted with my own mortality, thoughts cease to function with the same effectiveness.

Kali, listen to me, and stop this torture. Put an end to this 3D illusion, you DARKNESS. And please, by DARK, I DO NOT MEAN EVIL!

HPB discusses DARKNESS “…in the sense of the Unmanifested and the Unknown as the opposite pole to manifestation, and that which falls under the possibility of speculation. … it is not Darkness as absence of Light, but as one incomprehensible primordial Principle, which, being Absoluteness itself, has for our intellectual perceptions neither form, colour, substantiality, nor anything that could be expressed by words.”

Even the BIBLE states, “darkness surrounds the pavilion” of God!

Absolute Light and Absolute Darkness are interchangeable terms, as are Absolute Consciousness and Absolute Unconsciousness. Duality is the very harmonics of this resonance!

Kali’s bosom is my place of retreat and I can feel her embrace as I look at the dark night around me. The night envelops me in her arms and it is none other than my DARK ONE. How can I love the FORCE OF TIME? That random abstract principle? I cannot. I can only think of her as Kali.

Being Bengali, you grow up with a healthy dose of everything Kali. And there I discovered some of the most precious gems in the form of verses written by a Mystical Poet in Bengal. His name was Rajanikanto. Those verses echoed every single thought of my six year old brain. I used to know them by heart at that age.

How could a child grasp, to some extent this LARGENESS OF EMOTION. This gorgeousity of devotional fervour! I mean how? I don’t know. Even today I am perplexed. All I remember is locking myself in the room, listening to the cassette tapes again and again, sobbing my eyes out. It was like every word pricked my consciousness to remind me of WHO I AM.

Who am I? Who is Kali? What is this world? Why are we here?

See I bifurcate again. I was talking about those mystical verses. In one of them, the poet has written…

No one on Earth loves.

In fact, this Earth does not know how to love.

Take me away, to where there is only LOVE.

My heart craves for such a place…

Got me evaluating at a very young age. What does LOVE mean in the 3D realm of duality?

Seriously guys…what the fuck does love mean?

What does it mean to you? What does it mean to your family?

Who do you extend that love to?

The answers to these questions fester like putrid stuff in the quagmire of my mind. There is no resolution for there is no love. LOVE IS LOST.

Kali has taught me how to LOVE. By making sure that I break my conscious paradigm again and again, she has made sure that I AM LEFT WITH NO OPTION TO LOVE.

To be a child of Kāli, Rāmprasād asserts, is to be denied of earthly delights and pleasures. Kāli is said to refrain from giving that which is expected, I quote from Wiki, but trust me I know exactly what this means.

After making sure that nothing goes the way I want, Kali made me see that DESIRE IS INDEED THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL. Does that mean that I have no desires? I still do, the stupid 3D being that I am. Everyday is a lesson learnt. Life is not what I want it to be, because life is just the way it is meant to be.

Didn’t Lao Tsu try to drill this ACCEPTANCE part of existence into our collective consciousness? He failed. Human know nothing about acceptance. And I speak of myself…can I truly JUST BE? Think about it. A state of JUST BEING does not equate to a state of NON BEING.

Of course I will initiate karma in this world as my desires push me to, but then I have to accept that there will be DISAPPOINTMENTS and Kali showed me how to grow from that disappointment. All this pain, resentment and anger inside me, she, the COSMIC MOTHER soothed away. Like only mothers can. Who will stand up for this?

The father can never calm the baby the way a mother can. After all, it is her physiology that creates the child. The father is the seed. The MILKY WAY is a mother BTW. Yes she is feminine.

The Milky Way (feminine) and Andromeda (masculine) are simply a galactic expression of this principal. ~~http://moonbirdblog.com

They are the SHIVA/SHAKTI as galaxies. Whoa! Something to ponder about.

Yet, why is there rampant patriarchy ruling the Earth when indeed, she is feminine, just like her mother, the Milky Way. That is the imbalance.

Kali is the unrestrained, most secretive feminine principle that carries withing it eternal mysteries of fertility, magic, death, birth and regeneration! And that POWER is external as well as internal. Do not believe me? Everyone has an internal Kali. It is true.

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In those mystical verses, the Poet sings…

Everything happens because you will it so,

You are the Will of the Universe, Oh Tara,

You execute whatever needs to be executed through me.

And the foolish think, it is my feat!

It is your INTERNAL KALI, that PRIMEVAL, CATACLYSMIC, SUPREME POWER that does what you need to do. Your karma or actions all arise from a deep spiritual unconscious that is manifested in 3D from the etheric fields as they SOLIDIFY.

Yes SPIRITUAL UNIVERSES solidify and become dense. That is when Universal forces of SHIVA/KALI come to play. And it is these forces that play through everything. The ETERNAL TWINFLAMES creating Universes to experience, grow, love, hurt, cry and die. Shiva/Shakti as mere mortals. As you and me.

This age is in dire need of Kali’s benevolence…OF HER DARK FORM.

“THE SEVEN SONS WERE NOT YET BORN FROM THE WEB OF LIGHT. DARKNESS ALONE WAS FATHER-MOTHER, SVABHAVAT; AND SVABHAVAT WAS IN DARKNESS.” ~~HPB

Do not be fearful of her wrathful emanation! Nobody understands Kali.

There is so much DISTORTION in her myths, so much SENSATIONAL YELLOW JOURNALISM done on her person(sounds familiar? Like any other woman),, that her story is lost to the world of patriarchy.

People are fearful of her. Even today, in India, I have had people see her image on the wall and comment how it is DANGEROUS to keep an image of her at home. I mean is every single Bengali household doing it wrong? Kali, whether she is worshipped or whether she hangs as a feminist symbol, can be seen pretty much in every house in Calcutta.

She is a part of our History. She is our guide. She is our mother. She is our consciousness.

Kali is ALL-CONQUERING! So whatever it is that you want to win over, there is no better YIDAM or meditation deity than her. So invoke her if you need to work with this SEVERANCE energy.

Kali is not a Vedic Goddess. She is a tantric Goddess and she is MAHAMAYA, the manifested reality. She stands on KALA, or ETERNAL TIME and become SPACE.

Space is dark, Kali is dark.

Kālī is the feminine form of kālam (“black, dark coloured”). Kālī also shares the meaning of “time” or “the fullness of time” with the masculine noun “kāla”—and by extension, time as “changing aspect of nature that bring things to life or death.” Other names include Kālarātri(“the black night”), and Kālikā (“the black one”).

The homonymous kāla, “appointed time”, which depending on context can mean “death”, is distinct from kāla “black”, but became associated through popular etymology. ~~WIKI

Tantra texts call KALI, KALASHAKTI, the REASON OF CAUSATION!

There is no stop to this play, this eternal play that is going on between the masculine and the feminine. They stop not for a moment. For if they stopped their exchange of energy, everything ceases to be. Nothing remains.

This HOLOGRAM, stacked UNIVERSES, Daughter Universes…everything manifests because of SHIVA/SHAKTI. Call them what you like! They are the binary!

The Kalikula (family of Kali) form of Shaktism is most dominant in Nepal, northern and eastern India, and is most widely prevalent in West Bengal, Assam, Bihar and Odisha, as well as parts of Maharashtra, Bangladesh and some parts of Kerala. Kalikula lineages focus upon the Devi as the source of wisdom (vidya) and liberation (moksha). They generally stand “in opposition to the brahmanic tradition,” which they view as “overly conservative and denying the experiential part of religion.” ~~WIKI

Kali is the principle deity. So you see, how she has been up in arms against the patriarchal Vedic religion which even denied women the right to become priests.

My Ancestors have a special connection to Kali other than just being from Bengal. My grandmother comes from a family which were the main Brahmin Priests and caregivers of Kali and her temple in Calcutta. They were Haldars and there is a street named after my ancestor. Everyone knows the HALDARS even today and our connection to the place is also no secret.

My grandmother’s grandmother used to take a dip in the Ganges first thing in the morning(crack of dawn) and open the temple with the aarthi. I have so many stories from my grandmother that I wish to share. Stuff she heard from her grandmother. And then of course what bonded us was the love we shared for Kali. It stretched across generations and mitochondrial DNA. So standing before you, a Priestess of the hoary past…:)

I will continue my saga of love for my DARK ONE and I suggest to you that if you have not researched her, then please do. See for yourself, if the DARK ONE speaks to you and let me know.

I will speak of Bamakhyapa, Ramnath Aghori, Paramhamsa Vishuddhananda and of course Sarada ma, Vivekananda and much more…but for now I leave you with a profound thought from the Sage Ramakrishna…

Kali is none other than Brahman. That which is called Brahman is really Kali. She is the Primal Energy. When that Energy remains inactive, I call It Brahman, and when It creates, preserves, or destroys, I call It Shakti or Kali. What you call Brahman I call Kali. Brahman and Kali are not different. They are like fire and its power to burn: if one thinks of fire one must think of its power to burn. If one recognises Kali one must also recognise Brahman; again, if one recognises Brahman one must recognise Kali. Brahman and Its Power are identical. It is Brahman whom I address as Shakti or Kali.

 

 

 

The Wolf Goddess~~

What a sight you are!

A true Goddess of your own creation.

The holy red gushes down your legs.

You stand naked, bare breasted.

The defiance in your eyes.

The slight smile on your lips.

They magnetic sway of your hips.

They ridicule you and laugh at you.

Your raw power scares them.

You know how to CONNECT.

You know how to join together.

You are a natural leader.

And that scares them.

They call you a sinner.

Never will you be a saint.

Even if you have fed the last morsel to them.

They have burnt you over and over.

But from those ashes have you arisen…

Again and again.

With different names.

In different countries and cultures.

The guilt they have bred in us,

Is not to be found in you.

The palpable fear is also absent.

For you seek no validation from them.

You don’t care to play by their rules.

Holiness in every ounce of your blood.

Every Goddess of every culture,

They reside in your body.

You are holy, the Creatrix!

You are not afraid of pleasure.

You know what to do with pain.

You are here to liberate other sisters.

You are not looking for personal gain.

Never have you controlled the urges,

That women have been taught to do.

Instead you have transmuted them into alchemy.

You have transformed them into divine inspiration.

You have ignited the fires of passion.

And made magic with the man you held.

For a God he was when you made love to him.

You are his Goddess.

You are  our Goddess.

Your mission is to tell the others.

To activate the powers of the Womb.

This FEM-FORCE will steer us into a new awareness.

Let them worship the sacred blood of your menstruation.

For that is the only atonement from their end.

To have defiled and demonised the sacred life force of the menstrual blood.

They say you are a whore.

What does it matter if you are Madonna or a whore?

They have raped, pillaged and tortured,

The mother, maiden and the crone.

No one is safe.

They will find the Wild Ones.

Silenced they must be.

But how can they be shut for life?

In their voices is the fem-force of life and death.

We will be told we are evil.

We will be told our magick is for the devil.

The Devil is but Lucifer, the bringer of Truth.

The apple is the process of initiation.

It is you, yes you as Eve,

Who initiated Adam.

It is you Sita, who burned Rama’s sins,

In the fire of your sacrifice.

Wild Woman you will make us eat time and again,

From that sweet apple of knowledge and passion.

Run like a She-wolf and howl at the moon.

You are the Matriarch, the very crux of civilisation.

Tonight under the Full Moon, you will rub the damp earth on your body.

And make love to the Earth.

She is as wild as you are.

Soul lovers through infinities.

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Yin-Yang

This is the green meadow,

Where I have stained my lips with dew,

With precious morning dew.

This is the sacred space,

Where the blades of grass long,

I have grown.

This is my sanctuary where I dance naked,

Under the twinkling stars.

No one to shame me.

No one to defame me.

Just me in my nakedness,

In my solitude.

Combing my long, long hair.

That has all the experiences

Stored in each strand.

Suffering and misery, blessings and happiness.

I light a candle in your name.

And I drop the hot wax on my body.

That day I bled on this grass.

All alone.

That day I dropped the wax on my breasts.

Bereft and broken.

That salt I sprinkled.

Because they were watching.

They were talking.

Of my sacred blood.

They were making disgusted faces.

And I could smell their lust burning.

There was nothing for me to hide.

For wild women cannot be shamed.

Wild Women will bleed unto the Earth.

Because it is their sacred duty to.

Whether you call her a witch or a mother.

The Wild Woman will not be shamed.

Her blood will draw him to her.

As wild as she is- an expression of yang.

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Virgo, the Wild One

She is misunderstood to be weak.

Forget not, she is the carrier of the torch of humanity!

To be coy and unsure…the Virgin!

But a Warrior is she! So unique in her ferocity!

So benevolent in her love!

Carrying the torch of enlightenment!

The wise and wild woman,

Unique and rare, Raw and sensual,

The freedom loving feminine.

An awakened lover and mother,

A medicine woman,

A Moon howler!

A symbol of the hoary feminine spirit!

The Mother is she,

The Maiden and the Crone,

A wild one, unrestrained with her feelings,

In love with her dreams,

She is the daughter of Gaia,

Connected to the Vulva of the Earth.

Courage in her breasts,

Resilience in her mind,

Determination to make better this dystopia.

She celebrates the woman.

Sacred is her touch,

Untamable is her spirit,

The High Priestess in the temples of the Goddesses,

Restoring our emotional health.

Showing us our soul’s journey,

Is her commitment.

She has walked on the face of the Earth,

For eternities.

In charge of the task of reconnecting humanity,

To her sacred bosom.

She dances with the wind,

She is awakened to life’s intricate mysteries.

You can see her supple youthfulness,

In dialogue with the Divine.

She creates fertility in the barren soils of our souls.

The Kundalini spirals through her spine,

To converse with the Great Cosmos.

Fluid are her movements, so alluring.

Lithe and sinewy are her limbs.

She is every man’s fantasy.

She is the Virgin!

A naive girl she is not.

For she is a wild one unto herself.

Awakened to her full potential.

Feeling the pulsations of life in her Yoni.

The Cosmic codes dance in her eyes,

As do colours unknown.

Her hair open and her body stark naked,

She has shed away all the illusions.

And is now ready for the Tandav!

See the radiance of her third eye!

Unashamed is she,

For being Feminine.

Unafraid is she of any injustice.

For she shines forth in her power.

She is not here to please you.

She is not here for your entertainment.

She is the lover of Earth.

She is here to make love to the wounds that you have given her.

She is here to heal the soul of Gaia.

She is here to become ONE with Gaia

She knows where she came from…

She knows of the Great Void!

Listen she says not she is your Savior!

She is committed to her mission.

All she says is,

Do not suppress the Goddess-consciousness within.

Let her speak to you.

She will show you the wounds the feminine carries.

She will show you how utterly you have destroyed her.

Are you ready to face her?

She is an alchemy,

Of spirit, mind and body.

Awaken the Sacred Whore, awaken Virgo!

 

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Have better sex: Sacral Chakra Activation

Are you a woman who often feels a deep dis-connect to her body? Do you fear your periods? Does intimacy make you cringe? Are you fearful of commitment? Scared to express yourself? Are body-issues plaguing you?

Then let me break it to you. Your Svadhisthana or Sacral Chakra is out of balance! Do not freak out. It is not abnormal to have chakras out of balance. Working as a Pranik Healer for the last decade I can assure you that most of us have imbalances in our chakras.

If this was like 2007, then I might have expected to hear- well, what is a chakra? But not now. We all know what they connote!

The sacral chakra is the second chakra, right above the muladhara or root chakra. It is roughly the area under your navel and is the seat of the womb. Even for men, they have wombs in the etheric realms. For we all, male and female were once a part of an androgynous being. Therefore males have female sexual organs and vice versa. So even if you do not have a physical womb, you have a subtle-body or etheric womb.

Feelings, sensations, emotions are experienced by this chakra. Pleasure, sensuality, intimacy, connection, orgasms are all felt here.

You know when you get turned on, how your body reacts is also felt here. When you purge something from your life, this subtle vibratory force allows for that to happen. If you are a yogi, then you know this feeling. When we begin to get into new asanas, our bodies often hurt, but underlying all that pain, there is transformation.

The sacral chakra makes you feel this transformation and all your body undergoes. If you are connected to this energy, you will have greater control over your body. Your hormones will be in balance, you will be light on your feet and creative, blissful.

Excessive weight gain, uterine/ prostate problems, impotence, sexual disfunction and many more issues occur when we are not balanced in the second chakra. Cultivating the energy here would make you MINDFUL. In fact a lot of mindfulness programmes are designed to trigger the sacral chakras creative response.

Now you ask me…what the fuck did I do to get the damn chakra out of balance? How could I have prevented this crap from happening? Relax…it is not your fault! Not one bit. See how society has created this dichotomy around SEX.

On one hand it is the very fundamental fulcrum of society and on the other it is maligned and repressed! How the fuck did this happen? And how this work? How can we recover from this juggernaut? This duality that the mind has perceived, that society has managed to ingrain has resulted in blocking and imbalancing the sacral chakra.

Sex is a very normal process during life as a human. So why such extremes? Sacral chakra imbalance! There is no appreciation of emotionality, no applause for passionate endeavours(unless it makes a lot of money and becomes a pop culture fad), no reaction to pain and suffering…none.

There is a hollowness in us. We are like hollow people. Living life like automaton. Never feeling things deeply, never letting emotions take control. I mean how can that even be? Loosing control is dangerous and you can be incarcerated for defiant acts that don’t agree with the system. Fuck you can be targeted for your views as well.

The age of the internet has shown us that. Look what is happening to Assange or Snowden. You can be targeted for speaking the truth! So loosing control is not a good idea if you wish to remain a free woman.

Look at society…since I began to consult with people for astro, tarot and psychic readings, I can tell you that about seventy percent people want to know about their love life. That is the primary question. Yes over money. And even when guys consult. All they want to know is when and how they will meet her, or is she the one, or when will we get married…blah blah…

Most issues are sacral chakra based. Divorce, rape, infertility, misogyny, the rape culture, hyper sexualisation of children all result from sacral chakra excesses and imbalances or blockages. Deep sexual trauma can be healed when we bring balance to this chakra and often many women have had children but were declared infertile by the doctors.

So how can we activate the energy of the sacral chakra?

  1. Connect the WILD WOMAN  ARCHETYPE inside yourself to the wild energy of Mother Earth! Go into the forest. Take off those shoes. Better even- take off all your clothes too, but please find a safe spot. Go with your soul tribe, your woman gang. Do whatever that makes you feel a deeper level of connection to her. Be mindful, be aware. Speak to Gaia and ask her to fill you with her wild and creative feminine energy. Feel the transmission of energy creeping through your feet and working its way through your whole body. The energy goes all the way to the sahasrara or crown chakra and then bring that energy back to the sacral chakra and let it be there. Then bring that energy in a ball right outside the chakra. Let it sit there. Feel your consciousness there. Hovering right in front of your sacral chakra. This, if done properly can really feel very powerful. Warmth usually spreads across my whole body, but my vagina feels this vibration very strongly. It feels a magnetic pull to Earth and throbs with pleasure! End this meditation with a wild dance. Let your body dissolve into the music. Become the music and drop your sense of identity.
  2. Beach please! Seriously just head to the beach if possible. Strip down to your bare skin(if you want to), run to the water and let your body go into the embrace of the waves. Let your body melt into the water. Don’t swim or do anything forcefully. Let the water guide you. Be mindful of the hissing of the seas, the salty taste, the smell that lingers…be aware of everything that you can. If you wish to concentrate on one sensation, do so without a single thought. Follow your breath and let your awareness dance around in the waves in front of you, crashing into you. Try to become one with the waves, let your ego construct float away. Forget who you are, just know you are as eternal as the seas of deep space! If you can’t, dip into a tub after you’ve chucked some EPSOM salt in. Or get a pedicure and manicure at the very least!
  3. Do something pretty! I know Venus is retro and Astrologers tell us not to do any major beauty procedures till she goes direct, right? If you subscribe to that view, then that’s rad! Don’t do anything hardcore. But you can always start by taking the yoga class because at the end of it all, yoga will prettyfy you like no makeup can! Don’t believe me? Try it! Also remember to see beauty in whatever you can. But don’t buy the whole shop and tell me look, you asked us to see the beauty in everything!!?!! lol! What I mean is- look at the cuppa coffee you ordered. Isn’t it beautiful? The aroma? The colour? The presentation?Appreciate it and whatever else catches your fancy. Like the stars above, the dark night, a light breeze, the purple clouds right after sunset! Just find your thing and fall in love. Keep in mind that try not to propose marriage during a Venus Retro because you might feel differently later on. So hold your horses with long term commitments. But then again, if it feels right to you, go ahead. Even if it turns out to be a mistake, it was always your mistake to make. Everything is a potential teacher and a mistake teaches us a lot. About life, about love…so I hate to label times as auspicious and inauspicious…because I accept things to be beautiful as they are!

Nothing energises the sacral chakra as acceptance! Acceptance of who you are, as a person, as a woman! Embrace it woman! For to be a woman is special.

So get working on those sacral chakra portals to activate them to take you to a more 5D awareness of love and sex. Oh and of course this energy helps you manifest your twinflame. But that is again, another discussion…

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Sex is a multidimensional creative and spiritual act!!!

16707304_10155001164674450_3286114529445172152_oThe way in which any given culture treats the vagina — whether with respect or disrespect, caringly or disparagingly — is a metaphor for how women in general in that place and time are treated…NAOMI WOLF

How does our society treat pussy? Hahahahaha…

I am going straight to it. I will talk about the cunt/pussy/vagina. What words come to your mind? Abuse? Belittling? To denote a coward!

To this, I have to quote Betty Davis. Didn’t she say that balls are weak? They are fragile and hurt easily. Compare it to a vag. The vag is equipped to pop out a child for fuck’s sake! That is like some fifty four fractures happening in one go.

Forget the theory! I laboured for seventeen hours, so I know how painful it can get. I had begun to cultivate a friendship with my pussy over the months of my pregnancy. It happened organically.

A conversation started which made me write my book Pussy Talks. Yes I am looking to publish it and share my experiences with the world.

I have been gathering sex stories from men and women for over six years now. It started off as a research project for a script, but became an obsession soon. Exploring people’s sexual memories with them can have a profound effect on the psyche.

It is absurd the way sex is perceived. It is shown to be immoral, only for procreating and blah, blah. In fact, it is in conflict with some of our highest ideals and aspirations.

Why? What is so disgusting or disturbing about sex?

When people talk about the moments they have orgasmed, or the moment they kissed not only the mouths, but the souls too, there is a certain vibration that is created. I am very aware of vibrations, energy and frequencies I pick up. This subject became of great interest to me.

The stories I collected from hundreds of people were not just of orgasms and great sex. There were moments of pain, separation, dejection, humiliation. But what was interesting is that sex is actually the very fundamental on which society operates.

Whether we are ready to consciously acknowledge it or not, I don’t know, but sex is a huge part of our lives. Studies show that men think of sex pretty much most of the times and trust me, going by my data, women don’t fall short either.

If not, often times women crave for sex much more, but are ashamed and guilty of admitting it. Yes society has scared us into thinking that if we women think of sex or feel sexual then we are nymphos. Bad, bad, women. Lock them up, grab them by the pussies and burn them at the stake.

If nothing so severe, harm her by maligning her reputation, spread online gossip. Or maybe even throw acid on her face. Fuck knows who these morons are, but they exist.

Watch how we spend so much getting wasted in nightclubs and pubs, talking to strangers whom we may not like, but what is going on in our heads? How do I touch her exposed abs? How do I touch his biceps? We play so many games of coquetry and crap, that it is time, we acted more like grown ups and claimed our sexuality.

During sex, most of us are scared to reveal their inner most self. The vulnerable self. We spend more time trying to hide who we are. Men play into machismo tropes whereas women play into being the role he likes her in the most. I mean in most cases, I have seen this.

Very few women actually have told me that they speak to their guys about their intimate sexual fantasies. I do. I cannot not tell my partner. And he does the same. We are so much stronger for this. Because from day 1, I made it clear to him that this is who I am and I love sex. The rubbing together of organs, the kisses, the penetration, everything leads up to a climactic point where I can just BE and explore all of myself.

Use sex as a grounding mechanism to remind you of how perfect we humans are in our imperfections and ultimately that is what being human means- in all its rich messiness, desires and longings.

Why is PUSSY a derogatory word? Our first step to reclaim our sacred sexuality will be to understand the word PUSSY/VAGINA.

Listen your pussy is not only connected to the brain, but is a part of your soul. Yes it is. It is sacred and it is the very seat of your feminine powers.

Sex in today’s world is just a physiological experience, driven by evolution, some would argue. But while gathering data, I sensed that the most elevating sexual experiences were shared with a like-minded individual who understands what existence means to us and shares our vision and journey. The excitement when two such souls share sexual energy is erotic and filled with creative and spiritual potency.

There is a synergy between the mind-body(brain and pussy), consciousness and the sexual urge or LIBIDO. Yes sex is a biological act, but ask yourself that have you never felt the poetics behind sex? Have you never felt a spiritual ecstasy that drops the EGO-SELF and transforms the two players to ABSOLUTE UNION!

It’s a Science and it is Spirituality! Sex influences every aspect of our being. It can be a cause of stress or a tool to address stress. The question is how do you link biology to BEING!

Once one understands what scientists at the most advanced laboratories and clinics around the world are confirming — that the vagina and the brain are essentially one network, or “one whole system,” as they tend to put it, and that the vagina mediates female confidence, creativity, and sense of transcendence — the answers to many of these seeming mysteries fall into place…Naomi Wolf

Women, your pelvic nerve is a superhighway of info that passes from the base of the spine to the cervix, connecting it to the brain and this “superhighway”is unique for every woman! And very advanced. This is why we women have such different sexual trigger points.

Some like their feet nibbled, some like breast play, some are into heavy kissing and touching, you get the plot. But the guys in comparison, have a way more simpler neural network in their pelvic area. Do you see how this piece of info completely overturns the widely accepted patriarchal sexual norms? Do you see how we women have been duped for centuries into believing that we don’t want sex?

We are now fully convinced that WOMEN DO NOT LIKE SEX. They just “do it” to please men. But friends…the interviews and data that I have been collecting screams bloody murder at this perversion of a biological reality.

Women, we have to UNLEARN these toxic lies we have been fed. I know by now we have digested the info, assimilated it and we now as a collective, fully BELIEVE IN IT. Women who like sex are vamps, fallen women, sluts, bitches, whores.

I know sex in this modern world is hard where images of perfect bodies crowd our psyche as we are about to get naked and in bed, ready to get intimate. And here we have men, born and bred, in the pornographic culture where the sexual act is concentrated on her tits and pussy. It is a linear narrative and then wham, bam, it is over! For women this is severely disappointing.

The media is feeding you non stop with subliminal prompts, binding you to this dense 3D reality by feeding your reptilian brain. This part takes care of your primary functions. They have reduced SEX to this vibration when it is clearly not so. Sex is a multidimensional creative and spiritual act.

The quintessential woman wants to play and be played with. She does not care for a quickie. This does not involve all her neurological sexual systems and leaves her unsatisfied. See, her whole body has to be involved while making love. My most fulfilling sexual experiences have been when I have managed to enter an altered state of consciousness. Yes, like with psychedelics! 😉

We women are like the shamans who have to feel fully connected and invoked to enter the sacred sexual space. In our minds, in our bodies. My most transcendent orgasms have come when I have managed to enter the dimensional vortex. Where I have lost myself, only to find myself again. But this time, I was a new person.

When sex becomes just a physiological sensation, then this aspect of out-of-body experience can get lost. In a two minute quickie you cannot grasp the beauty of the cosmos. You just feel the physical sensations and maybe mental, because the man is probably your partner, but you will never experience such transcendental bliss and awareness.

Life can be an orgasm! At least for me and some women I have worked with. Sometimes, I get so turned on by music or art or even a conversation. I like to stay in this orgasmic bliss as much as I can. My whole body begins to vibrate. My Pussy feels so aware, so awake. Such an energetic being! My sexual energy is at the peak when I know I am valued by my partner and my emotional and spiritual needs are being cared for.

Even if you are into one-night stands or sexual exploration, you can enrich your life by just being aware of each encounter and treating it like a spiritual act. You can begin by showing respect and love to your woman, even if it is for a brief moment. Best be clear of your intentions.

Sex is a tool. You can use it to achieve spiritual and psycho-somatic well being. But how? By staying PRESENT in the moment. By not being in another place, with another person. This not only insults your partner in front, but also closes you up to the possibility of creating something magical at that moment. More coming up in the book and the workshops.

My suggestion is, change your attitude to sex. No it is not just a physiological function, it is so much more. Do not be scared of it or do not feel guilty if you have sexual desires and thoughts. And even if you are in a relationship, it is perfectly alright to feel attracted to someone else.

The question is…what do you do with that attraction? Sometimes even when we feel sexual chemistry, it could also mean that the person is from our soul group. You know we all have soul groups- 144 souls in one. 12 into 12. But if your attraction hurts your partner, then it is time to start a mature dialogue.

Your partner has also felt similar feelings, but most of us will never accept it. Not even to ourselves. If you truly value the relationship you are in, you will never act on your impulses. But it is important to realise that these feelings exist! Sexual attraction and desire are absolutely NORMAL!

It is natural to have FB crushes and feel horny looking at someone you fancy, because our brains and pussies are inter-connected ladies. If we like someone mentally, we can feel sexual towards them and it may have nothing to do with their six packs.

In this rape culture, women are sexually stressed all the time. Rapes, molestation, cat calls…they go on. Which is why women are so hyper-stressed. Korean researchers have shown that when a female mouse is sexually stressed over time, she not only becomes cantankerous and angry, but her vaginal tissues also start deteriorating. Can you imagine what is happening to u s women in this culture?

Every time we hear a salacious comment, we are inhibiting dopamine receptors from producing this chemical which makes us happy, creative and confident. Every time some presses our boobs in the subway or in local trains, our pussy is actually feeling this as a tremendous painful shock.

We may not understand the implications…but this is what has turned women into enablers of patriarchy. This hurt they have been taking on for ages has resulted in the objectification of the pussy into something ugly, hideous and grotesque.

It is time to change all that. The pussy is beautiful for fuck’s sake. No matter what it looks like or where it is in the maiden, mother or crone stage. It does not fucking matter! The pussy is divine and it is about time we women and men, society as a collective realised and accepted this. What healing can occur!!!

When Donald Trump said, “GRAB THEM BY THE PUSSY”…he hurt all of us collectively. Yes…men and women. For women it is more obvious. Why? Because blood circulation in the pussy constricts when she feels threatened!! So by demeaning the pussy, he sent a direct signal to our brains that we are not safe.

Our bodies are not safe. Our reproductive rights are not ours. We are smaller, so we get less pay…the misogynistic saga continues!

But who is going to change all this? So much hurt, so much pain? If we muster enough compassion for the wounded masculine, we can heal him. With sex, with love, with our feminine powers, our yin energy.

The first step must be to heal ourselves, our pussies and our own wounds. For when this healing occurs, you will look at the world anew. After much study, experimentation, meditation and experience, I have devised a MEDITATION MODULE called the WOMB JOURNEY! This has been very beneficial to loads of women I have shared this with.

If you look around, you see all these relationships. Somehow most appear as shallow, selfish, possessive, jealous, controlling. But how often do you see a well balanced relationship?

A woman who understands that her man has unresolved skeletons in his closet should make it a point to help him address those issues. If you leave them there and don’t speak about everything, then they can become deadly dangerous. If you can get your man to own these emotional issues, they will give him focus, courage and direction.

In fact, a true conversation can change a man’s life. But in most cases, you have to initiate it and of course you both must be open enough to discuss potentially disturbing and personal issues.

In most cases, it is the woman, with her feminine wisdom that must align her man to his spiritual power. This could be a painful process. Even during sex, it is up to you to let your man free. In his mind and in his body and soul, he should feel free. Don’t try to tame your partner’s sexuality!

If you feel like you want to explore some issues but your partner is not willing to, then it is up to you to see what is worth more. However, you must never emotionally blackmail your partner into doing sexual acts they are not comfortable with.

A true sexual experience is all about FREEDOM…such potent freedom that you lose the sense that you are caged in a fleshy body. All the toxic mores and customs, ideas and traditions your man has picked up, can be unlearned.

A man can be shown the true potency of the sacred feminine. This does not mean you “mother” him. For fuck’s sake, a woman who mothers her man, is not acting from her sacred yoni space. This does not mean that you cannot act motherly towards your man. In fact, you should play all the roles when needed.

Just make sure, you don’t get caught in the vicious mothering cycle. It is thankless and will drain your SACRAL CHAKRA. When a woman’s sacral chakra is in balance, she appears magnetic. Sex here can be a conduit for resolving all his unresolved emotional baggage. You can HEAL him. Even if he is a random encounter.

After sex, you can release all his pain and issues to the Universe as it could harm your energy field. Compress them in a tiny box. Go to the ends of the Earth(in your mind) and bury it. The Earth takes all these vibrations of pain and releases them to the 5D awareness as holographic plants. You should visualise this process and see these holograms bloom! The pain has been released!!!

Mother earth has a wild side by responding and reacting in the moment, in the NOW. Discerning is a moment by moment dynamic play…available through being connected to yourself to discern what is true in the moment. But no matter, even if it a drunken sexcapade, you can make it a spiritual experience.

Intent is all that matters. The intent to heal and love with sex.  How can we go wrong there? If intention can change the molecular structure of water, then what do you think it can do to us? How much water are we? 50% to 65%! Yes we humans are mostly water!

So what have you gleaned from this article? Don’t think about it. There is no understanding it like 2+2=4. It is not so simple you see. The thinker is caught in the thinking feedback loop and she is trying to escape the pain. The thinker does not have all the mysteries of existence. The thinker is like Kafka’s gatekeeper.

“Before the law sits a gatekeeper. To this gatekeeper comes a man from the country who asks to gain entry into the law. But the gatekeeper says that he cannot grant him entry at the moment. The man thinks about it and then asks if he will be allowed to come in later on. ‘It is possible,’ says the gatekeeper, ‘but not now.’”..NOT NOW!!???

The man’s challenge was to try and get past the gatekeeper in order to get to the law. Eventually the man becomes old and dies without ever gaining access to the law. Before the man dies, the gatekeeper tells him that the entrance was made just for the man and since the man is now dying the entrance to the law will also be closed! See how perverse it all is!

Thinking will not allow you to enter this space of sacred sexuality. In this space, everything is love…yes ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE!! Love will make us peal off all the layers and create sexual alchemy. From this alchemical process will something magical be born.

With a love that is all encompassing and divine, we can begin to heal and become a society that treats the pussy with respect, symbolising all women are treated too with respect and love.

But what if we did not have sex? Fuck! What then? All I can say is that we would be invulnerable! And what is life without the human vulnerabilities? Where is the ridiculousness of it all? We would definitely not have much in content for our films, soaps and books! And what of all the Buzzfeed relationship gyan? Lots of us would be without work or ambition! Lol!

Sex creates chaos. A chaos that is necessary. As it is from this chaos, that magic happens…

Enough already…Fuck everything else, start loving yourself and your pussy. Touch her, speak with her and become friends. Trust me it works…

More on becoming friends with your pussy…watch this space for the release of my book Pussy Talks and if this topic interests you, contact me, support me, like, share and comment.

Pussy Talks

Venus Retrograde 2017

Venus is a very interesting planet. It is perhaps the most closely connected with the earth in a number of ways; and it has been said that wherever Venus goes, there goes the earth also, and vice versa. As phrased in The Secret Doctrine (II,30-1):Venus is the most occult, powerful, and mysterious of all the planets; the one whose influence upon, and relation to the Earth is most prominent. . . According to the Occult Doctrine, this planet is our Earth’s primary, and its spiritual prototype. . . .“Every sin committed on Earth is felt by Usanas-Sukra. The Guru of the Daityas is the Guardian Spirit of the Earth and Men. Every change on Sukra is felt on, and reflected by, the Earth.”…HPB

The Planet Venus has been given many names throughout history. It has been called the evening and the morning star, the dawn star, Eosphorus, Hesperus and Lucifer. It is the planet closest to Earth and has been called Earth’s sister planet, even her twin. It is easily seen in the sky in the evening and morning and is the brightest “star” in the heavens. It was second only to the sun and the moon in significance by the reckoning of many ancient cultures.

Sumerian hymn to Innana addressing the planet Venus: ‘To her who appears in the sky, to her who appears in the sky, I want to address my greeting, to the hierodule who appears in the sky, I want to address my greeting, to the great queen of heaven, Inanna, I want to address my greeting, to her who fills the sky with her pure blaze, to the luminous one, to Inanna, as bright as the sun, to the great queen of heaven.”

“Venus is the power that we invoke in spring, in the garden, when things begin growing. And we call the evening star Venus.” Ursula K. Le Guin

In Roman mythology, Venus was the goddess of love, sex, beauty, and fertility. She was the Roman counterpart to the Greek Aphrodite. However, Roman Venus had many abilities beyond the Greek Aphrodite; she was a goddess of victory, fertility, and even prostitution. In Chinese astrology, Venus is associated with the element metal (or gold), which is unyielding, strong and persistent. In Indian astrology, Venus is known as Shukra and represents wealth, pleasure and reproduction.

Venus is such a close connection, it is actually the second brightest object in the sky and is symbolic of tempestuous passions she could stir up in the heart’s of the Gods. I have my Venus in Virgo. However, my attention to for “little details” is appalling. Virgo freakishness of combing through every fucking thing with a tiny comb. No. I don’t do that.

I am here to discuss Venus, invoke her powers of HARMONY, BEAUTY, BALANCE and discuss her journey in 2017. I will discuss how we can awaken Venutian energies with stones, meditation and switch words. Identification, love, empathy are keywords of this energy. Friday is Venus’ day.

What is Venus Retrograde? Occasionally, Venus appears to be moving backwards in the sky. “Appears” is the key word here, because, technically speaking, no planet actually moves backwards in their orbits around the Sun. In fact, they don’t even slow down. Retrograde-station-direct cycles are essentially illusions that result from our point of view from Earth, simply because the Earth is also orbiting the Sun at a different speed than the other planets. Venus is Retrograde approximately 40-43 days every 18 months. CAFE ASTROLOGY

Venus retrograde 2017 lasts from March 5 to April 15 and spans 13º Aries to 26º Pisces. What a mix- Aries and Pisces! A volatile combo if the MALE and FEMALE!!!

Now while gazing at this chart, I was stunned to see how sexually energised this station is! Celestial orbs and our human bodies dosed on hormones are going all out on this passionate sexcapade. Uranus and Eris will be triggered by Jupiter in diplomatic Libra.

A stellium is formed and its fiery as it takes place in Aries. Venus is separated from her lover and she likes it not. The last ten days are the most active with these energies. Aries/Libra is activated. Venus is about to embrace Mars but then she retreats back into Pisces. Mysterious, occult Pisces.

What is this retrograde going to teach us collectively?

I feel there will be a certain female figure who will come into prominence. There could be a sex-related scandal as Venus metamorphoses from evening to morning star.

Things heat up as Venus moves closer to the Sun and with her transformation from evening to morning star. But will the Sun devour Venus in the process? 25th could be a day you can get creative solutions to lingering problems.

Venus does have a lot to face in her quest till she becomes Lucifer or the morning star.

Lucifer means lightbringer, from the Latin lux “light” and ferre “to bear or bring.” The word Lucifer is found in only one place in the Bible — Isaiah 14:12 — but only in the King James and related versions: “How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! . . .”  In other translations we find: “O shining star of the dawn!” (Moffatt) or “O morning-star, son of the dawn!” (Hebrew Bible). The King James Version is based on the Vulgate, the Latin translation of Jerome. Jerome translated the Hebrew helel (bright or brilliant one) as “lucifer,” which was a reasonable Latin equivalent. And yet it is this lucifer, the bright one or lightbearer, that came to be understood by so many as the name for Satan, Lord of Darkness…HPB

But before either the Old or New Testament, Venus was known as the “Morning Star.”  Plato, who is thought to have been born in 428 b.c.e. and therefore predates the New Testament and some of the rewrites of the Old Testament, wrote in his work called Timaeus:
Time, then, and the heaven came into being at the same instant in order that, having been created together, if ever there was to be a dissolution of them, they might be dissolved together. It was framed after the pattern of the eternal nature, that it might resemble this as far as was possible; for the pattern exists from eternity, and the created heaven has been, and is, and will be, in all time. Such was the mind and thought of God in the creation of time. The sun and moon and five other stars, which are called the planets, were created by him in order to distinguish and preserve the numbers of time; and when he had made their several bodies, he placed them in the orbits in which the circle of the other was revolving — in seven orbits seven stars. First, there was the moon in the orbit nearest the earth, and next the sun, in the second orbit above the earth; then came the morning star and the star sacred to Hermes, moving in orbits which have an equal swiftness with the sun, but in an opposite direction; and this is the reason why the sun and Hermes and Lucifer overtake and are overtaken by each other.

Plato clearly here is speaking of Lucifer as being the actual planet Venus, with Hermes as being the planet Mercury, “moving in orbits which have an equal swiftness with the Sun.”  It appears that the misogyny of the early Solar cults and the later Roman church might have had a part to play in linking the feminine Venus with Satan.

When Venus is in retrograde, one may be attracted to unattainable love. There may be covert rompings and juicy sexcapades. Be aware!

Venus will be squaring Saturn. This day will be very difficult to express ourselves. Express our loves.

Pisces decan 3 can make indulgent Venus debauched enough already, but now she is in her Lucifer phase AND square Saturn. This will bring out Venus’s dark, treacherous side, the Babylonian goddess of war Ishtar!! Here ‘sex’ and ‘conflict’ will be addressed one way or another. It could be through the catharsis of creative art or it can be through falling into the trap of seduction and indolence. Pisces tends to be a quite courtly sign, swooning and romantic but not with a particularly high libido….Darkstar Astrology

To end this dance and period of romantic and aesthetic introspection, Venus goes direct on Apr 14th.

I know lot of astrologers recommend not to have a love affair or buy luxury goods during Venus retro, but I personally think, it is entirely upto your intuition. Some of my projects have been birthed in Mars and Merc retro. Venus retro is also remarkable if you can channel this deeply feminine energy.

Venus is the harmonising influence of the Fifth Ray, which serves to blend and fuse opposites into greater creative wholes. Venus always gives the potential for greater evolution, development, and abundance of spiritual potential to any planet that she touches. Naturally, when such contact is by a difficult aspect, these benefits may be a bit harder to achieve, but the potential for victory is there…ALICE BAILLEY, ESOTERIC ASTROLOGY

There will be TEMPTATION! Venus is virginal in the first phase of retrogradation. Resist the urge to get back with an ex you don’t need. Sexual pull may tug at your heart, but again, use your powers of judgement.

However, if you wish to channel in Venus’ attraction, I could suggest a SWITCHWORD very effective during this retro time. This will make you appear irresistible to members of the opposite sex. VENUS-HOLE-CURVE-BRING-AMAZING-PRAISE-PERFECT-HOLIDAY-GIVE-TAKE. Chant this mantra constantly and watch MAGICK happen!

In medicine Venus is associated with the lumbar region, the veins, parathyroids, throat and kidneys. During the retro scene, it is best to take care of afflictions resulting from these internal organs. Meditation and yoga which addresses such issues will be beneficial like Paripurna Navasana(Boat pose), Baddha Konasana(bound angle pose), Bhujangasana and others. If you want a detailed list of asanas that will work for you, ping meVenus Giclee on Canvas by artist Michael Parkes

ROSE QUARTZ MEDITATION will be extremely helpful. You could wear it as a pendant or do a ritual with it. Even Jade, emerald, turquoise are helpful and in certain cases where grounding is required, go for Tourmaline. Make sure they are energised.

In the Jewish Cabbala, Venus is the seventh sphere: Victory or Netzach. This forms part of the lowest triad of spheres, together with Hôd (Mercury) and Yesôd (the Moon). Dion Fortune called this the astral triad, the domain of magic where the power of Netzach is shaped by Hôd and manifested in Yesôd. Situated at the base of the pillar of action, Netzach manifests the creative power in emotion and instinct, and all human creativity, both sexual and imaginative The latter includes the arts, and also the god-forms of polytheism, created by man in his own image, yet nevertheless reflecting something of the nature of the universe. Both desire and imagination are to some extent superficial. The term glamour originally meant a magic illusion cast upon something, and the victory of Netzach involves triumphing over the glamour of its outer manifestations to reach that which they symbolise. An ancient text calls Netzach the Hidden Intelligence, “because its brilliant outpouring is received by those spiritual virtues which are seen, in the ecstasy of faith, only by the initiated”.

Animals associated with Venus include the sparrow, dove and swan, so if you’re looking at ANIMAL SHAMANISM and channelling, then you can call upon them to solve your issues.

SPARROW TOTEM: In addition to inspiring us to love ourselves, the sparrow spirit guide also symbolises other joyful and caring qualities, such as creativity, community, friendliness, and the importance of simplicity.

The Greek goddess of love, Aphrodite (Venus in Roman mythology) is often depicted holding a dove in her hand or surrounded by a flock of white doves. Aphrodite’s seven daughters were called a “flock of doves”. Kamadeva, the Hindu god of love is known to ride a dove. The Dove is also a SYMBOL OF PURITY. This totem could help you channel some of that pristine purity.

The Swan is also a symbol of PURE SPIRIT. In India, it is of utmost value and Paramahamsa (परमाहंस), also spelled paramahansa or paramhansa, is a Sanskrit religio-theological title of honour applied to Hindu spiritual teachers who are regarded as having attained enlightenment. The title literally means “supreme swan,” and symbolises spiritual discrimination. You can call upon the totem of the swan to give you healing and spiritual transformation.

Working with colours during this time is also amazing- green, sky blue, rose, white…wear and use these. If you want a more detailed and tailored meditation, contact me. Use incense of course- cherry, vanilla, almond, apricot, sandalwood.

Venus is farther along in the number of rounds run through in this solar manvantara than the earth, and therefore is more advanced in this sense; but the planetary spirit of earth is nevertheless spiritually more advanced because older in number of cosmic manvantaras…HPB