The Vibe now: On Misogyny, Name-calling and my Future Quest across seven seas~~

“From the idea that the self is not given to us, I think there is only one practical consequence: we have to create ourselves as a work of art.” ~~MICHEL FOUCAULT

Mercury conjunct Jupiter, in Scorpio- look what it has made us do? Share pain and grief collectively. PURGE!!! Look at the death and rape culture around you. It is a cult of war and violence, a civilisation brought up on deception, dishonesty, violence, misogyny and apathy. Look at the almost Pavlovian mind control the ruling elites have rooted in our society. Look how conditioned we have become. So desensitised. Our behaviours so self-destructive. Where is all this leading?

The NM in Libra was…mmm…well, not like your conventional Libra energy. It felt dark, deep and a lingering anxiety remains. After the Mercury conjunct the Moon in Scorpio, the next day, I began to finally get a grip over the energy.

The #metoo campaign with its sordid narratives rocked my world. Scenes and shots came back from my past. Fragmented, disjointed memories of pain, hurt and suffocation.

Those hands on me, those disgusting crawling hands all over my body…the memories drove me nuts. Sounds and smells came rushing in while I read stories of rape and abuse from women all over the world. It reminded me of all the times that men have violated my boundaries and it is a large number. Be it in asking me to smile or calling me bossy or calling me a slut because I will not sleep with them, men have used and abused their positions numerous times. But we women are always expected to take everything with a pinch of salt.

I come from a country where there is a particular brand of cinema called Bollywood that has a specialised synchronised dance track which is called ITEM NUMBER, as a beautiful woman in scanty clothes, her dance troop of a bevy of girls(half naked too) behind her perform a sensual dance moving seductively to a male audience that is hooting and cat calling. She is the item. So we sorta know how to take misogyny to levels most people cannot even envisage.

 

You know, I have been called so many  names including Manhater, Feminazi, Female Supremacist, witch, bitch, whore, slut…blah, blah…but nothing matters. I work from my heart and I do not hate. Yes I speak up against injustice, yes, I seek a revolution or an evolution…but not with hatred. Men I do not hate you. Men…I love you!

But maybe it is time to DECONSTRUCT YOUR METACOGNITION/COGNITION and POST COGNITIVE PROCESSES. Maybe it is time to think about how you think. This might actually make you a more effective thinker. But at the same time, it is also time to FEEL. Think about how you feel and why you feel so. Do you even allow yourself the luxury of feeling? Because I know how society ridicules you every-time you show emotions. Be a man and what not. But feeling my love are not a luxury, let me tell you, they are a necessity for healthy functionality in life.

I know some of you hate me. Think long and hard. Why do you hate me? Why? Because I speak the truth? Because I can see the toxic patterns of patriarchy? Because I think and feel and actually speak up, unlike so many of my sisters? It hurts the most when women misunderstand. Because it is high time we women stop enabling patriarchy.

And men…what when tomorrow you have a girl? What then? Sleep peacefully, you have WILD CRUSADERS out there and the tide will turn. Let us be that change.

You cannot label me. Every single time you start to think that you have me all figured out, I promise to surprise you. You know why you cannot label me? Because humans cannot be labelled. No matter how appropriate the label might be, the labelling by itself is redundant. I will dress the way I want to, because I do not dress for your gaze. Yes, I want you to look at me and appreciate me, but my reality does not revolve around how much you fancy me. I want you to want me, but with respect and dignity. I want you to see me for what I am…a multidimensional being of light who is having a human experience. She is a woman who is free, wild and adventurous and I like looking at life through her lens.

But I am not her…this is not some WOKE BS. This is in fact the very truth of the fabric of this reality. I am not ME, not this body, not this pussy and not this orgasm. Hahahaha! I am in constant flux, forever shifting and I already exist in the many versions in the many multiverses. But I am also here, typing this so you can read.

Absolutely overwhelming? Do not let fear engulf you. You are an astronaut of the mind, aren’t you? Or else why are you reading this?

Just because a woman wears make up and skimpy clothes does not make her a slut. Her mini skirt is not an invite for your lust. My red lipstick does not mean I am saying yes to you. Understand that. And that is what I am here to show you. Women cannot be put away in tiny little labels. So stop calling me a whore, slut, manhater or whatever the fuck your toxic mind can think of. Jupiter has deployed his archetypal lens and activated my third house of communication which happens to be Scorpio. So the intensity and the truths will come out. Look how the brave women are speaking up and toppling the status quo.

Today, the Scorpionic Moon trines Neptune and the dreamscape opens up for me and oh, I am bleeding since the NM in Libra. You know how my psychic energy swells every time I menstruate and it is usually during this time I have my most profound visions and epiphanies or aha moments. Menstrual blood is very potent for magick and can be used in multiple ways. In fact sex during this time can most certainly be magickal, for both involved. It takes on a primal oeuvre.

Back to the splintered visions. There are fragmented, chaotic dreams…dreams of the snowy Himalayas, dreams of cymbals clashing, dreams of the pale red dot of a Sun…I can smell the incense, I can hear the chanting, I can feel the vibe, it is electric with spiritual energy.

Scorpio season is all about digging up the metaphorical/metaphysical dirt and really getting down and dirty to investigate, so I will share with you an experience I had a few months ago. Let me know what you think of them.

So this monk from Tibet, Lhasa writes to me. He tells me that he has known me for many lives and in the last incarnation we worked and studies together in Tibet, in Gyanganj.

In fact, I had told him in that reality to come and find me in the 3D world through some Youtube videos I have made in 2011 or so. He told me that I have asked him to remind me of the mark in my chest. Look I have no mark on my chest, but I wanted to get a wolf tattoo done there. But for now, there is nothing.

He told me to meditate on this and get back to him. I regret not taking this whole thing seriously and in fact I did try to sit in meditation, but my baby was all over me and the cats had to be fed, so I could not really tap into any vision.

I did not respect the monk or even pay attention. I called him brother and he told me that monks are no one’s brothers. They are just monks and that I am a Nun from the snowy slopes of Tibet.

I am aware of my connection to Tibet and the signs and synchronicity that I am experiencing have increased significantly over the last few years. I know Tibet has been my home during numerous incarnations and I have meditated and studied there. The Himalayas are my home and I know this.

And then there are memories of the kalachakra initiation. Let me tell you one thing, my greatest desire in life right now is receiving the Kalachakra transmissions from the Dalai Lama. This particular Dalai Lama has been my teacher in many incarnations and it is time we meet.

There is so much spiritual telepathy between us that I am actually shocked that we have not met yet. I dream of the Dalai Lama with a strange persistence. I have never dreamt of one person so much. He is always there, in my dreams. Everything becomes silent when he smiles at me and calls me to his arms. Everything becomes silent and just the way it is meant to be.

I hope to travel across seven seas soon and go to one place which has been calling me for very many years. I can feel myself there too and I think a wild adventure awaits me. Actually this Libra NM journaling was much about that. It felt good to finally decide that I want to go there. Now let’s see if the Universe responds.

 

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The Plan~~A Novel by Tinaheals

 

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Rajani and the twins moved from their gigantic ancestral home to a modest apartment,

He continued working, but had lost interest. Only two clients remained with him, the rest hired his son who now also usurped his office. So with a very modest salary he began to educate and care for his granddaughters. He became father and mother, friend and teacher; he became their anchor in the stormy sea of life.

It would be time for weekly nail cutting, ear cleaning, hair oiling sessions; amidst squeals and protests, he would pacify them singing, shohe na, shohe na, kande poranooo with dramatic eye movements and wild gestures, especially when they tried to tell him to stop, that had them rolling on the floor laughing.

Slowly but surely, the trio began to put the past behind them and move on. The girls taught him to laugh again, to live again; life had given him a second chance to bring up his two girls again, he just wished Sita could experience this life with him.
He took them to Benaras, BodhGaya, Hrishikesh and Haridwar; they went to so many places in their country, even remote ones where tourists don’t usually set foot.
They’d be lost in the world of Hanuman as he destroyed Lanka, they’d be crying as Ravana abducted Sita, they’d be deeply moved when Karna would be going to battle against Arjuna knowing he’d lose, they’d be fuming with anger when Duryodhana insulted Panchali and time would fly as dadu would read to them the Ramayana, the Mahabharata, the Bhagvadgita and other sacred texts. The way he could tell the story, the simplicity, yet, the profundity in them, deeply touched the girls. Even while imparting knowledge from the Upanishads, he tried to make it as palatable as possible for the children, tell me how do you explain Tat Tvam Asi to seven year olds, yet not only did he try, it’d be fair to say, he succeeded too.

He could see his daughter Mita in the girls, different attributes of her visible in each girl.

He loved Nina’s poetry, she had rawness to her emotions, something primordial to the way she described reality even in that young age; surely poetry was to be her meditation and so it was.

The chotto ektakar shingara and the radhaballi,

Breathing furiously.

Inhabiting my Sundays, my frenemies.

She’d written this haiku, barely aged seven and it made him laugh. She’d captured something of Kolkata in those lines; she’d grabbed a slice of their times together as they strolled down Sarat Bose Road on sultry lazy Sundays.

It’s absolutely true that nowhere except Kolkata do you get that tiny shingara or samosa for one rupee, it has peas in it and the Bongs cannot have enough of it. And what of the Radhabollobi? Try it, you’ll see. You may get acidity, but it’ll be worth it, vouches every Bengali.

Rajani loved these girls like he had loved their mother, but being a very enlightened soul he treated them all alike, even Arunava, but at times he was left wondering as to where he went wrong with that one. But Mita was his pet; he had a special soft corner in his heart for his eldest.

None had his spiritual depth except Mita and this bonded them immensely, every time he saw her, his heart wanted to embrace her. Khuku, he called her, his little girl and she was so much like him.

“Aye khuku aye…” he would play this song in the gramophone and Hemanta’s voice would flood the house.

She had his striking peaches and cream skin and almond shaped eyes like the goddess Durga, with abundant tresses swimming down to her knees and an hour-glass body which was as ageless as Time itself and looked like some Kumartuli’s sculptor was sculpting Maa Durga from clay. Shakkhat Maa Durga, people would comment.

Yes, she was breathtaking! Her intellect was sharp; she was thoughtful, critically questioning and deeply analytical. Many an afternoon was spent in discussing literature, philosophy, poetry and the scriptures of all religions. Her father enjoyed immensely the display of perspicacity while she explained some particular issue, idea or philosophy, her face shining red with passion and emotion. What radiance! Then she fell in love with Shubho at Scottish Church English honours class.
It was an exam. John Osborne’s play, “Look Back in Anger”, was the monster in question and 100 marks were at stake. Mita had not studied this play and her paper sat blank. She spotted Shubho in front scribbling away with immense concentration. She poked him a few times. He looked back and couldn’t take his eyes off her. In a state of suspended bliss, he handed her the paper. She took it with a squeal of laughter which thrilled him to the bone, and began to rewrite it in her words.
Now let’s fast forward, SHUBHO and MITA are married in Kartik purnima, the full moon beckoned a life of abundance and plenitude for them.

As Mita adorns Shubho’s neck with the baramala and the shubhodristi happens where they gaze into each other’s eyes, it’s like a dejavu. The breeze outside caresses his hair while he stands there looking at her, she’s carried on a piri by her brothers, uncles and cousins and her eyes are between two paan leaves and in that moment they both knew that no matter what life would bring it would be worth nothing without the other.

Mita gets pregnant which turns out to be pretty complicated with twins sharing the same amniotic sac and placenta, throughout the seven and a half months, she’s under strict supervision and spends much of her time reading, writing and talking to her daughters. During the course of her seven month pregnancy she almost dies twice and the lives of the twins are threatened, but she manages to trick fate into submission.

These girls, they had to see the sky wearing the bright blue cloak of a spring day, they had to experience the rain on their faces, caressing sometimes or slapping away, soft some days and as pokey as thorns on others. They had to see the cheetah run, they had to eat tangra macher jhol, oh, life in its complexity and multitudes had to be experienced by them, she thought.
Karma my dear friends had other plans. Mita and Shubho die tragically young, leaving behind only Rajani to take care of the twins. Their disappearance happened in Kedarnath temple during an annual pilgrimage they always undertook.
Rajani had to don the parent costume once again, this time for Nina and Zeenia and he was determined to play the role to perfection this time. As perfect as it could be! So now to get back to the story. Dadu is what Nina calls Rajani, the Bengali appellation for grandfather.
As she sits in front of this dead body, she thinks of her dadu. He would know what to do; he always knew what to do. Such were Nina’s thoughts. Delusion arises from anger, Dadu told her one day as she was furious with Joida, the Oriya driver who had not given her a minute to stand and chat with her friends after her Rabindra-sangeet class at Dakshini, to top it off he had the gall to speak rudely in front of them.

The dominoes fell,

The words like torrents

It was inevitable.

She’d written this haiku she remembered for the occasion.

Joida loved her as his own daughter and that was the excuse for the harsh treatment. She had almost wanted to slap Joida. But Dadu intervened. “Little one your mind is bewildered by delusion. You think that Joi is being pushy, but actually he is just trying to protect you. See, you lost your reasoning as your mind was bewildered…and one falls down, when reasoning is destroyed.” Dadu fell on the floor dramatically.
That made Nina smile even in her malaise as she sat in limbo, with dried blood on her hands. She deliberated with the thought of saying, “Out, damned spot,” but then decided against it. The dead body just lay there. Her hallucinations where he wakes up as some terrible ZOMBIE in a B-Grade film and chews her down bone by bone is funny, she observes. I can have funny thoughts, even in this scenario.
Then she notices that there were many parts of her, or no, there are many Nina’s inside of her, ambiguous and confused, each thinking that random thought while observing the others and then she notices that there is a Nina who’s also observing, but she has no thought as the others did, no opinion. She just watches. Not for the first time Nina could distinctly hear the separate voices- how diverge, how contradictory, how ironic were they, but this time there was a force to them that was lacking in the past. She tries to swallow, but her tongue sticks to her insides, parched and dry, it desperately needs some water.
The young housekeeping attendant is right outside Nina’s room and would have turned away, but a trickle of blood manages to seep outside. The attendant examines it carefully, and then thinks of what to do. Should he go and inform his supervisor? No he decides against it and taking a master key from his supply trolley, he puts it in the key hole and turns it.

The scene which greets his eyes chills him to the bone and a blood curdling scream escapes his lips shattering the quiet of the early morn. He looks ridiculous, scared out of his wits, barely coherent in his thoughts, he looked like a two year old who had seen a ghost in a Paranormal series on telly.
It’s Nina who surprises me. She didn’t even bat an eyelid at the shrill shriek. She just sits there, stares at her abyss. What did she see?? The abyss staring back??

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Shiva

Shiva, you are in me and I in You.

There is no separation my Beloved.

For if you do not exist, then how do I?

And if I don’t Observe, then how do you Play?

Who is this Shiva and who the Observer/Pilgrim?

Shiva, exhausted I wait for atonement!

Is there possibility of me merging in your third eye?

The fire of my Union with you smoulders in me.

Do not ridicule me for I am unworthy!

Do not keep me waiting forever!

My being is distraught without you.

No calm, no serenity, no peace.

The dark of the night is my companion.

As I wait for you to arrive today.

I waited yesterday and day before.

I waited through aeons and eternities.

I waited for you only to know…

You were never gone.

You were right beside me my Shiva.

Lost and bewildered in this illusory reality,

I hunt tireless for Truth.

Truth? What truth? The truth of existence?

But what is that concept?

Trust is not a concept, it is a state of being.

For if everything else fails,

It will guide me back to you.

For Truth is You.

The banlingam glistens in my hands,

As I twirl it in my hands, I can see the deep space.

The Universe and its galaxies visible.

I know that you can never be confined in a stone,

Or be depicted in an anthropomorphic form.

I know human words can never be adequate enough to express You.

For how can a word encompass all EXPERIENCE?

How can we describe everything that is and is not?

Everything that can be and has ever been?

Stuck in this human body, frustration and disappointments become key elements.

This body feels heavy Shiva and the pain of the world bogs me down.

But…

In a moment things can change!

Great awareness seeps into my consciousness.

Awareness that You and I are ONE.

Awareness that everything living and non living is ONE.

Your narrative is this Manvantara Shiva,

Express yourself through your creations.

Us, animals, plants, galaxies, nebula and everything.

Shiva, you are the dance of death.

Shiva you are Krishna’s flute.

Shiva you are a true feminist and lover.

You are Kali’s active principle bringing existence into being through sacred sex.

Dualistic minds chatter, depression, anxiety and banter.

Shiva you still this disturbance.

Shiva you throw caution to the winds and dance.

Dance the tandav…

A saga of self expression and torment.

A saga of doing away with the old and let the new take shape.

Shiva you are the voice of revolution and the axe of oppression.

Shiva you are WHOLE and so am I.

I am whole…to love, to HEAL.

With your love, I feel charged.

My whole being vibrates as if I have ingested some psychedelic substance.

But it is your energy that brings me to this ecstatic awareness.

Of love and union. Of bliss and surrender.

You are the breath in me and I sense you the most by my breathing.

You caress me and soothe the pain away.

Karmic baggage that I have been carrying.

Scared to let go Shiva. But I lay them down at your feet.

You are the atonement. You are the punishment.

There is no end to this love and no answer to existence

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Solar Flare Activity

NOAA forecasters estimate a 40% chance of polar geomagnetic storms on Jan. 28th when a stream of fast-moving solar wind is expected to hit Earth’s magnetic field. Arctic sky watchers should be alert for auroras this weekend…SPACE WEATHER

The Sun is a conscious BEING! It is possible to harness the power of the Sun, not in the limited sense Scientists understand. But in a more profound manner. Yogis have been known to harness the INFINITE POWER of the Sun. In fact, in Tibet, in a spiritual place called Gyanganj, there are yogis and occultists who know how to create things harnessing the solar rays.

They know the way to manifest through their MIND-POWER or ICCHASHAKTI and they create whatever they wish to, by projecting solar rays through some type of lens onto normal cotton. Yes true alchemy. But then these yogis of Gyanganj are very high level adepts and have learnt the secrets of space and time.

SOLAR SCIENCE or SURYAVIGYAN is taught to aspiring neophytes. Paramhamsa Vishuddhanada, one of the highest adepts had spoken about this Scientific discipline. The lens is made of CRYSTAL!! We know crystals are ALIVE!

In fact, number 1 of the 7 Hermetic Laws is this: Hermetic Law of Mind; all is mind & everything is energy. That’s the very point I’m trying to drive home here. I feel that studying crystals along with their geometry is the key to understanding the science of the cosmos! Of EVERYTHING! …HIBISCUS MOON

Both Eastern and Western Metaphysics have pointed to the fact that everything is ENERGY which reminds me of Tesla’s iconic quote. “If you want to understand the Universe, think in terms of ENERGY, FREQUENCY, VIBRATION! And what do we know of ENERGY?

In physics, energy is a property whose form can be converted, and whose quantity is transferred by work or heating, thus constituting a capacity limit on work or heat. In Newtonian physics, there is a universal law of conservation of energy which says that energy can be neither created nor be destroyed; however, it can change from one form to another.WIKIPEDIA

So energy is ever transforming! Scientists have proven that CONSCIOUSNESS migrates to another dimension/universe after DEATH! So there is no annihilation of consciousness. It is a FOREVER CONTINUITY!

Therefor it makes perfect sense to call a QUARTZ CRYSTAL, a living breathing being. These lenses they use for Solar Alchemy is CRYSTAL! It is made in Tibet, in esoteric hermitages. These lenses differ greatly in size and shape. I have read that such lenses are not available anywhere else.

The Great White Brotherhood and its many offshoots are the only ones who work with these lenses. Yes it should be wielded by a Yogi for its proper usage, but by itself it is also magical. So a common person can use these lenses, but who knows what they will create? Their MIND is chaotic and cannot muster such amounts of ICCHASHAKTI or occult willpower.

It could potentially be dangerous if a war mongering culture got a hold of these crystals. For if they are pointed at the right trajectory at the Sun, they can be as powerful as a mini Sun! So Tesla’s DEATH RAY could have been based on such tech. But ancient Tibetan, Nepalese and Indian yogis are very capable of using these lenses. Their MIND POWER can create UNIVERSES!

I am translating these bits from a Bengali book called Vishuddhabani and in it there are numerous writings from different disciples who have written about Gyanganj, about Paramhamsa Vishuddhananda and Solar Science.

Swami Vishud­dhanandji (d. 1937)(sometimes spelled: Vishud­dhananda, Vishud­hanan­daa; aka: Gandha Baba, Perfume Saint), well-known for his super­nat­ural pow­ers and said to be an adept associated with the mys­te­ri­ous Gyan­ganj (Jnana­ganj) hermitage somewhere in Tibet —a secret place of great masters — demonstrated this 11cef160933a4f0f49ee22a39b8d0c1epractice in Varanasi and proved that it is not a myth…SWAMI RAMA

My grandfather was his disciple and spent much time with him. My father has a lot of his stories that he keeps feeding me from time to time. My grandfather has witnessed his Guru transform flowers into precious gemstones!

These Beings harness these SOLAR FLARES, sometimes even cause them. To create, to distribute, to balance! Who knows? Who can tell? These things are so out there that it becomes difficult to tag and label them, put them away in a neat and clean storage area! As if!!!

Getting back to Tesla, he knew that the Sun could provide enough energy to power the whole of Earth. He wanted to give humans free tech, electricity and what fucking not! But nope! Lovely humans like J.P.Morgan would make sure Edison gets to be in HIS-STORY! Enough already with the free shit.

Seriously, we don’t need to work and be wage slaves. We need not worry about survival as ABUNDANCE is our true nature, like the SUN. But we are not tapping into our full potential, like we are trying to do with the Sun.

These flares herald great activity flux, up in the heavens and below, on Earth. This comes often as a jolt of energy which could turn violent. Mars is also making his foray into Aries. The lower vibrations of this transit can be quarrels, fights, disagreements, violence, bloodshed. This solar flare could really heat things up and the new moon is the next day!

A NEW MOON in AQUARIUS! Reset our COMMUNITY LIFE!

Let me know whether you feel the Solar pulse or not? Are you connected to the rhythm of the Sun? My heart beats in sync with the Sun, being both my Sun and Ascendant. Even my Vedic Lagna is SIMHA or the LEO/LION. So I am very, very, very entangled with the Sun and feel his movements very strongly. Do you?

A hole in the sun’s atmosphere is directly facing Earth, and it is spewing a stream of solar wind in our direction. This is a “coronal hole” (CH)–a region in the sun’s atmosphere where the magnetic field opens up and allows solar wind to escape. The emerging stream of gas should reach Earth on Jan. 27th or 28th and influence our planet for 2 to 3 days. ..SPACE WEATHER

What do you think is this STREAM OF SOLAR WIND??? This is pure SOLAR ENERGY coming at us at high speeds. The AURORAS will surely sizzle! What are the yogis and occultists of Gyanganj doing with all this SOLAR ENERGY? Are they harnessing it? When will we truly realise the SUN’S full potential? Hopefully soon…

Venus Retrograde 2017

Venus is a very interesting planet. It is perhaps the most closely connected with the earth in a number of ways; and it has been said that wherever Venus goes, there goes the earth also, and vice versa. As phrased in The Secret Doctrine (II,30-1):Venus is the most occult, powerful, and mysterious of all the planets; the one whose influence upon, and relation to the Earth is most prominent. . . According to the Occult Doctrine, this planet is our Earth’s primary, and its spiritual prototype. . . .“Every sin committed on Earth is felt by Usanas-Sukra. The Guru of the Daityas is the Guardian Spirit of the Earth and Men. Every change on Sukra is felt on, and reflected by, the Earth.”…HPB

The Planet Venus has been given many names throughout history. It has been called the evening and the morning star, the dawn star, Eosphorus, Hesperus and Lucifer. It is the planet closest to Earth and has been called Earth’s sister planet, even her twin. It is easily seen in the sky in the evening and morning and is the brightest “star” in the heavens. It was second only to the sun and the moon in significance by the reckoning of many ancient cultures.

Sumerian hymn to Innana addressing the planet Venus: ‘To her who appears in the sky, to her who appears in the sky, I want to address my greeting, to the hierodule who appears in the sky, I want to address my greeting, to the great queen of heaven, Inanna, I want to address my greeting, to her who fills the sky with her pure blaze, to the luminous one, to Inanna, as bright as the sun, to the great queen of heaven.”

“Venus is the power that we invoke in spring, in the garden, when things begin growing. And we call the evening star Venus.” Ursula K. Le Guin

In Roman mythology, Venus was the goddess of love, sex, beauty, and fertility. She was the Roman counterpart to the Greek Aphrodite. However, Roman Venus had many abilities beyond the Greek Aphrodite; she was a goddess of victory, fertility, and even prostitution. In Chinese astrology, Venus is associated with the element metal (or gold), which is unyielding, strong and persistent. In Indian astrology, Venus is known as Shukra and represents wealth, pleasure and reproduction.

Venus is such a close connection, it is actually the second brightest object in the sky and is symbolic of tempestuous passions she could stir up in the heart’s of the Gods. I have my Venus in Virgo. However, my attention to for “little details” is appalling. Virgo freakishness of combing through every fucking thing with a tiny comb. No. I don’t do that.

I am here to discuss Venus, invoke her powers of HARMONY, BEAUTY, BALANCE and discuss her journey in 2017. I will discuss how we can awaken Venutian energies with stones, meditation and switch words. Identification, love, empathy are keywords of this energy. Friday is Venus’ day.

What is Venus Retrograde? Occasionally, Venus appears to be moving backwards in the sky. “Appears” is the key word here, because, technically speaking, no planet actually moves backwards in their orbits around the Sun. In fact, they don’t even slow down. Retrograde-station-direct cycles are essentially illusions that result from our point of view from Earth, simply because the Earth is also orbiting the Sun at a different speed than the other planets. Venus is Retrograde approximately 40-43 days every 18 months. CAFE ASTROLOGY

Venus retrograde 2017 lasts from March 5 to April 15 and spans 13º Aries to 26º Pisces. What a mix- Aries and Pisces! A volatile combo if the MALE and FEMALE!!!

Now while gazing at this chart, I was stunned to see how sexually energised this station is! Celestial orbs and our human bodies dosed on hormones are going all out on this passionate sexcapade. Uranus and Eris will be triggered by Jupiter in diplomatic Libra.

A stellium is formed and its fiery as it takes place in Aries. Venus is separated from her lover and she likes it not. The last ten days are the most active with these energies. Aries/Libra is activated. Venus is about to embrace Mars but then she retreats back into Pisces. Mysterious, occult Pisces.

What is this retrograde going to teach us collectively?

I feel there will be a certain female figure who will come into prominence. There could be a sex-related scandal as Venus metamorphoses from evening to morning star.

Things heat up as Venus moves closer to the Sun and with her transformation from evening to morning star. But will the Sun devour Venus in the process? 25th could be a day you can get creative solutions to lingering problems.

Venus does have a lot to face in her quest till she becomes Lucifer or the morning star.

Lucifer means lightbringer, from the Latin lux “light” and ferre “to bear or bring.” The word Lucifer is found in only one place in the Bible — Isaiah 14:12 — but only in the King James and related versions: “How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! . . .”  In other translations we find: “O shining star of the dawn!” (Moffatt) or “O morning-star, son of the dawn!” (Hebrew Bible). The King James Version is based on the Vulgate, the Latin translation of Jerome. Jerome translated the Hebrew helel (bright or brilliant one) as “lucifer,” which was a reasonable Latin equivalent. And yet it is this lucifer, the bright one or lightbearer, that came to be understood by so many as the name for Satan, Lord of Darkness…HPB

But before either the Old or New Testament, Venus was known as the “Morning Star.”  Plato, who is thought to have been born in 428 b.c.e. and therefore predates the New Testament and some of the rewrites of the Old Testament, wrote in his work called Timaeus:
Time, then, and the heaven came into being at the same instant in order that, having been created together, if ever there was to be a dissolution of them, they might be dissolved together. It was framed after the pattern of the eternal nature, that it might resemble this as far as was possible; for the pattern exists from eternity, and the created heaven has been, and is, and will be, in all time. Such was the mind and thought of God in the creation of time. The sun and moon and five other stars, which are called the planets, were created by him in order to distinguish and preserve the numbers of time; and when he had made their several bodies, he placed them in the orbits in which the circle of the other was revolving — in seven orbits seven stars. First, there was the moon in the orbit nearest the earth, and next the sun, in the second orbit above the earth; then came the morning star and the star sacred to Hermes, moving in orbits which have an equal swiftness with the sun, but in an opposite direction; and this is the reason why the sun and Hermes and Lucifer overtake and are overtaken by each other.

Plato clearly here is speaking of Lucifer as being the actual planet Venus, with Hermes as being the planet Mercury, “moving in orbits which have an equal swiftness with the Sun.”  It appears that the misogyny of the early Solar cults and the later Roman church might have had a part to play in linking the feminine Venus with Satan.

When Venus is in retrograde, one may be attracted to unattainable love. There may be covert rompings and juicy sexcapades. Be aware!

Venus will be squaring Saturn. This day will be very difficult to express ourselves. Express our loves.

Pisces decan 3 can make indulgent Venus debauched enough already, but now she is in her Lucifer phase AND square Saturn. This will bring out Venus’s dark, treacherous side, the Babylonian goddess of war Ishtar!! Here ‘sex’ and ‘conflict’ will be addressed one way or another. It could be through the catharsis of creative art or it can be through falling into the trap of seduction and indolence. Pisces tends to be a quite courtly sign, swooning and romantic but not with a particularly high libido….Darkstar Astrology

To end this dance and period of romantic and aesthetic introspection, Venus goes direct on Apr 14th.

I know lot of astrologers recommend not to have a love affair or buy luxury goods during Venus retro, but I personally think, it is entirely upto your intuition. Some of my projects have been birthed in Mars and Merc retro. Venus retro is also remarkable if you can channel this deeply feminine energy.

Venus is the harmonising influence of the Fifth Ray, which serves to blend and fuse opposites into greater creative wholes. Venus always gives the potential for greater evolution, development, and abundance of spiritual potential to any planet that she touches. Naturally, when such contact is by a difficult aspect, these benefits may be a bit harder to achieve, but the potential for victory is there…ALICE BAILLEY, ESOTERIC ASTROLOGY

There will be TEMPTATION! Venus is virginal in the first phase of retrogradation. Resist the urge to get back with an ex you don’t need. Sexual pull may tug at your heart, but again, use your powers of judgement.

However, if you wish to channel in Venus’ attraction, I could suggest a SWITCHWORD very effective during this retro time. This will make you appear irresistible to members of the opposite sex. VENUS-HOLE-CURVE-BRING-AMAZING-PRAISE-PERFECT-HOLIDAY-GIVE-TAKE. Chant this mantra constantly and watch MAGICK happen!

In medicine Venus is associated with the lumbar region, the veins, parathyroids, throat and kidneys. During the retro scene, it is best to take care of afflictions resulting from these internal organs. Meditation and yoga which addresses such issues will be beneficial like Paripurna Navasana(Boat pose), Baddha Konasana(bound angle pose), Bhujangasana and others. If you want a detailed list of asanas that will work for you, ping meVenus Giclee on Canvas by artist Michael Parkes

ROSE QUARTZ MEDITATION will be extremely helpful. You could wear it as a pendant or do a ritual with it. Even Jade, emerald, turquoise are helpful and in certain cases where grounding is required, go for Tourmaline. Make sure they are energised.

In the Jewish Cabbala, Venus is the seventh sphere: Victory or Netzach. This forms part of the lowest triad of spheres, together with Hôd (Mercury) and Yesôd (the Moon). Dion Fortune called this the astral triad, the domain of magic where the power of Netzach is shaped by Hôd and manifested in Yesôd. Situated at the base of the pillar of action, Netzach manifests the creative power in emotion and instinct, and all human creativity, both sexual and imaginative The latter includes the arts, and also the god-forms of polytheism, created by man in his own image, yet nevertheless reflecting something of the nature of the universe. Both desire and imagination are to some extent superficial. The term glamour originally meant a magic illusion cast upon something, and the victory of Netzach involves triumphing over the glamour of its outer manifestations to reach that which they symbolise. An ancient text calls Netzach the Hidden Intelligence, “because its brilliant outpouring is received by those spiritual virtues which are seen, in the ecstasy of faith, only by the initiated”.

Animals associated with Venus include the sparrow, dove and swan, so if you’re looking at ANIMAL SHAMANISM and channelling, then you can call upon them to solve your issues.

SPARROW TOTEM: In addition to inspiring us to love ourselves, the sparrow spirit guide also symbolises other joyful and caring qualities, such as creativity, community, friendliness, and the importance of simplicity.

The Greek goddess of love, Aphrodite (Venus in Roman mythology) is often depicted holding a dove in her hand or surrounded by a flock of white doves. Aphrodite’s seven daughters were called a “flock of doves”. Kamadeva, the Hindu god of love is known to ride a dove. The Dove is also a SYMBOL OF PURITY. This totem could help you channel some of that pristine purity.

The Swan is also a symbol of PURE SPIRIT. In India, it is of utmost value and Paramahamsa (परमाहंस), also spelled paramahansa or paramhansa, is a Sanskrit religio-theological title of honour applied to Hindu spiritual teachers who are regarded as having attained enlightenment. The title literally means “supreme swan,” and symbolises spiritual discrimination. You can call upon the totem of the swan to give you healing and spiritual transformation.

Working with colours during this time is also amazing- green, sky blue, rose, white…wear and use these. If you want a more detailed and tailored meditation, contact me. Use incense of course- cherry, vanilla, almond, apricot, sandalwood.

Venus is farther along in the number of rounds run through in this solar manvantara than the earth, and therefore is more advanced in this sense; but the planetary spirit of earth is nevertheless spiritually more advanced because older in number of cosmic manvantaras…HPB

INTRODUCTION ON CHANNELLING ISHTAR

Bigger than the mountains am I,

The Empress of the gods am I

The Queen of heaven am I

The earth’s mistress am I.

(translation of an old Babylonian text)

This is a special channelling session for I am summoning Ishtar as I do my Ishta Devi. I am integrating Ishtar’s energy into the Dasamahavidya. Kali, Tara, Shodoshi, Bhubaneshwari, Bhairavi, Chinnamasta, Dhumavati, Balaga, Matangi, Kamala, the ten energies of the Mulaprakriti.

The solitary ray dropping into the mother deep may be taken as meaning Divine Thought or Intelligence, impregnating chaos. This, however, occurs on the plane of metaphysical abstraction, or rather the plane whereon that which we call a metaphysical abstraction is a reality. The Virgin-egg being in one sense abstract Egg-ness, or the power of becoming developed through fecundation, is eternal and for ever the same. And just as the fecundation of an egg takes place before it is dropped; so the non-eternal periodical germ which becomes later in symbolism the mundane egg, contains in itself, when it emerges from the said symbol, “the promise and potency” of all the Universe. Though the idea per se is, of course, an abstraction, a symbolical mode of expression, it is a symbol truly, as it suggests the idea of infinity as an endless circle. It brings before the mind’s eye the picture of Kosmos emerging from and in boundless space, a Universe as shoreless in magnitude if not as endless in its objective manifestation…HPB

The Cosmic Yoni is the concretisation of these Mahavidyas. My tantric diksha took place a few years ago as I was given my mantras by my tantric guru. Great man who helped shape my spiritual journey along with a few other SPIRITUAL GUIDES I have like MAHAVATAR BABAJI and the sages of GYANGANJ.

I am calling upon Ishtar, today through the Kali yantra. I have solar motifs. Crystals, incense and the works.

Let me begin by telling you about my attraction to Ishtar. The books of Zachariah Sitchin popped into my hands before I hit my teens. Those theories fascinated me and got me looking into most of the truther stuff of the later years. Ishtar was introduced to me.

My tireless, never-ending research began…and as I delved more into her, I felt like I was being pulled into whirlpool of energy. Something familiar. Something known and loved. Her affiliation to the animal kingdom and her being who she is and what she stands for makes me want to know her. The wisdom in her COSMIC YONI!! And I totally believed Ishtar/Innana to be one of the aliens who created and ruled over humanity.

Okay I was troubled about the fact that we humans needed to be ruled over and that they created hybrids who would be the masters of the human populace, the veil was lifted and I smelled colonialism and its toxicity all over again. But that did not keep me from Ishtar. In fact my interest in her got deeper.

By the time I was completing my college, I had written a play on Ishtar with mixed media. I was thinking AR/VR prototypes then! Funny how the cosmic MIND imprints you with ideas, thoughts, suggestions…

This play was called THE JOURNEY OF ISHTAR and it charted her descent into the Netherworld. Her journey through the netherworld became an allegory for my life. I began to see patterns unfold. Of the same pain and shame Ishtar went through. Her nakedness became a metaphor for the ABSTRACT DARK SPACE or ULTIMATE REALITY I was calling out to Ishtar, the light bringer. The fact that her reign was not characterised by that of a consort attracted me. DUMUZI, her man literally lost his life and penis after she fixed with death’s gaze…hahahaha! What’s with men and their cocks?4585746524_328x443

All through HIS-STORY we see women little more than objects or trophies. But it is her and her kin like Hatshepsut, Cleopatra that we have seen the Queen portrayed as something more than just a mannequin.

Yet while I watch the show CROWN on Netflix, I cannot help by see how Elizabeth has always been a puppet. Yes they do try to show her coming up against the system as a feminine role model, yet, I do not see her as such a role model. In fact, she appears as an ENABLER OF PATRIARCHY. So not much to talk about there.

My Lady abandoned heaven and earth to descend to the underworld.
Inanna abandoned heaven and earth to descend to the underworld.
She abandoned her office of holy priestess to descend to the underworld….

This is what her slave writes about Ishtar and this descent to the UNDERWORLD has been a sort of lingering trope in my life. Saturn in the Eighth house. Yes a macabre obsession with DEATH  and REBIRTH. Complete bad-ass Pluto energy which makes me go to the proverbial UNDERWORLD repeatedly to seek myself.

This obsessive fantasy about facing death head on and surviving is a very Plutonian energy that I challenge and of course Saturn beaming my EIGHTH.

Anyway, Ishtar/Innana took me through this psychological journey of archetypes many times. Through the play, through channelled poetry, through meditation…I have invoked Innana.

Today I call upon Ishtar through the Kali Yantra. Is that possible?

I know of her animal shamanism. She channelled animal spirits. Protected the animal world. She also shows us the power they have. Yes this stuff is dangerous, but hey what is not “dangerous”? We have to investigate to get at the crux of the matter.

I know Ishtar’s energies are active in me. My love of animals, facing death and devastation during my tenure as an animal activist with AWA. I still work with street animals. Regularly visit shelters and sanctuaries. And of course I have my own family of rescues.

The Lion! I am a Leo Sun and Ascendant. Vedic Kundli says my Lagna is Simha or LION! And I have four planets in Leo! Including my Mercury. So there all that fifth house related stuff gets a full energetic makeover. Ishtar is associated with SHAMASH, the SOLAR GOD. The Sun is the ruler of LEO!

I am not much of a ritualist. I perform a lot of rituals mentally, like my Shiva Puja and a few homas. Yes I do mental homas. Manas puja. You can try it too. Watch a homa on Youtube. For me its very easy as my Guru in Calcutta does Dasamahavidya homas, Mahamrityunjaya homas, kala sarpa dasa homas in our ashram.

Being blessed, I have performed several important homas there like Chinnamasta, Dhumavati and Kalabhairav and Bagala homa. So I have them in my mind, the whole scene, the mantras, the collective chanting it, the warmth from the flames coming alive by my Guru pouring sacred ghee in it, the smell of incense, the bhakti of the hundreds gathered. It is mystical. The faith. The belief. All of it. And then on all that my Guru’s voice reciting the mantra….I have all of it, in my mind. It’s there stored away in my MIND PALACE.

Ready to be accessed and used anytime. So you find your ideal homa and you can do it too. Manas puja is very sacred. In fact our progenitors created MANAS PUTRAS or the MIND BORN.

In the Mandukya (Mundaka) Upanishad it is written, “As a spider throws out and retracts its web, as herbs spring up in the ground . . . so is the Universe derived from the undecaying one” (I. 1. 7). Brahma, as “the germ of unknown Darkness,” is the material from which all evolves and develops “as the web from the spider, as foam from the water,” etc. This is only graphic and true, if Brahma the “Creator” is, as a term, derived from the root brih, to increase or expand. Brahma “expands” and becomes the Universe woven out of his own substance. The Pitris are lunar deities and our ancestors, because they created the physical man…HPB

So literally Brahma made himself from himself, or his mind, because everything is spiritual and has no dense body. Thoughts create you. So never underestimate the power of your MIND- conscious and more so, the UNCONSCIOUS for therein lies the greatest mysteries.

For Ishtar, I have kept her image, you know the full length shot doing the rounds on the internet. I have kept the Kali yantra in front and am concentrating on it. After meditating on Ishtar and her life, I shall start writing…just channelling her energy. No editing. Oh of course there is LAPIZ LAZULI that I have placed inside the yantra. It is Ishtar’s favourite.

Then, after three days and three nights, Inanna had not returned,
Ninshubur set up a lament for her by the ruins.
She beat the drum for her in the assembly places.

Neither Enlil nor Inanna’s father Nannar, the Moon God of Ur, will help her because she has craved the below, and because those who choose the underworld do not return. Ninshubur succeeds in getting Enki to secure her release:

The story of Ushtar was inscribed on clay tablets at around 1750 BCE and what do we see?

Nothing changes. Patriarchy was as disinterested as it is today. As oppressive and  couldn’t-give-a-fuck as today. Lovely! Nothing changes.

But Ishtar still decides to go there…wonder what her chart looked like? Also the whole stripping away of her clothing and jewellery are signs that she is having to give up power and control. Allegorically it could mean she is shedding veils of ignorance and getting closer to wisdom. Nakedness signifies DEEP WISDOM and is used very much with regards to the feminine. Even the Dakinis, the naked sky dancers exhibit the feminine WISDOM. Like Kali who symbolises just that. Stripping away of all ignorance and falsities.

I love doing rituals for Kali, such intensity in her depths. Ishtar/Innana is ready to shed all her power. For what? I feel like her in so many ways. Ishtar’s journey is all about exploration and acceptance. She stares at the skeletons in her cupboard. She harmonises them and is triumphant! What a woman! I meant she is a woman like us all right? And we?? A goddess too…WE ARE ALL GODDESSES and that is a lesson.

There is very important documentation referring to the description of the constellation VIRGO, which has its origin in the ancient Assyrian-Babylonian culture. This constellation has always been female and has been especially associated with the tension between fertility and beauty. The BABYLONIANS associated this constellation with the goddess Ishtar, also well-known under the name of Ashtoreth or Astarte…This bit is just magic to my ears. MY VENUS IS IN VIRGO. So your Venus placement is important to check out. Sublime!

Ishtar is the Goddess of sex too. Now having Saturn in the Eight is quite an intense lesson. To be learnt in the arena of sex, death, rebirth, shared resources. Can sex and Saturn be even spoken of in the same sentence? Well, ask us…the SATURN IN THE 8TH people. We are a special breed.

Through us a lot of sexual information will be passed to the collective. The eighth house is one of such hardcore lessons- how do you share resources? Who are you in the deepest dark? What are your fears, anxieties, worries? Lastly how do you deal with them. Saturn teaches you…he is a strict task master. In India we say SHAM SHANISHCHARAYA NAMAHA to appease Saturn. You can try it too. And wear black, eat black rice. You can get in touch for more details as it is imperative to know where Shani is positioned in your chart.

Back to the scary EIGHTH HOUSE stuff- this is not some wishy-washy, light and frivolous house. These energies are intense. Now let Saturn decide to be there when you were born, then stuff gets really heavy and deep- murky, briny…but Saturn wants you to know how to swim out of that quagmire of your psyche full of fears, repression and anxiety. Somehow Saturn in the eight usually means that ideas that sex is dirty can be passed down from elders. This is your battle AND YOUR metamorphosis. You have to prove to yourself that SEX IS NOT UNHEALTHY.

We take INTIMACY seriously, like ISHTAR did and I see nothing wrong with that. I am on the quest of TRANSFORMING(SCORPIO) my FEARS(SATURN- LOW VIBRATION). This house is the gateway to my deepest psychological secrets and like Ishtar I am on a journey to understand the archetypes, tropes and imagery of the deep UNCONSCIOUS.

In fact this is why Tarot, Astrology and other divination modalities are so helping to me. They help me explore the PSYCHE. I love it. And having an occult leaning, I see how as above so below and nothing is real. A HOLOGRAM. That’s what this is…a 3D Hologram.

Where are we? We are a part of that UNIVERSAL BRAIN…all of us, including ISHTAR.

Did you know that all sexual activities ceased when Innana entered the NETHERWORLD. ALL SEX STOPPED!!! There is so much importance given to describing her body that it obviously points to her enjoying her femininity and sexuality.

She put the whole gender thing into flux. See she was supposed to attract Tammuz/DUMUZI like any other Goddess, via sexy clothing, jewellery, makeup, flirtation and a whole lot of other shit. But what does she do? Returning from the underworld, accompanied by demons who must have a mortal in compensation, she fixes the eye of death on her absent-minded partner who is engrossed in affairs of state, and he is chased by the demons of hell, losing his possessions, his genitals and his life. There you have it!

This losing his genitalia is symbolic of his manhood. Did Ishtar take away his manhood by being a full blown woman? Is it true that when a WOMAN/SACRED FEMININE finds her true power, no man can subdue her. In the world of patriarchy that means a man has lost his manhood. There is no BALANCE you see. IN PATRIARCHY THERE IS NO EQUALITY!

Innana challenged that concept and I think that is super cool. And of course, she is the GODDESS OF HEALING….So she is an archetypal energy I seek to invoke. She never minced her words. Surely not a diplomat. We see this when she speaks to the Gatekeeper of the Netherworld. She is deciding to go where no one is permitted, yet, she speaks with so much authority. I mean that could be misconstrued as a bad thing, but it may not be so.

Patriarchy has oppressed us women for so long, that some of us have become inherently REBELLIOUS. Turning Camus on his head- if patriarchy is ABSURD, then how do we react to it? With rebellion of course. Now more than even we need to collect all the broken female hearts and make them into ART.

Which of your lovers have you loved forever? Which of your Little Shepherds has continued to please you? Come, let me name your lovers for you! … (col. 2:) … for TAMMUZ, the lover of your youth. Year after year you set up a wailing for him. You loved the mauve-colored `shepherd bird’: but you seized him and broke his wing …. So you would love me in my turn, and, as with them, set my fate….” This is from the epic of Gilgamesh. Here we see how Gilgamesh is actually afraid of Ishtar’s advances for he FEARS THE INTENSITY OF HER LOVE. He is worried that ISHTAR will emasculate him and erase his name from History.

This trope is also common in the patriarchal discourse…a woman’s love! DANGEROUS. FICKLE. “Young men’s love then lies not truly in their hearts, but in their eyes.”  This quote by Shakespeare elucidates the MALE GAZE perfectly well. Has it changed? Men will love with their eyes. So girls look good. It’s not in their hearts. Men are of course heartless jerks(sarcasm, I know the EVOLVED MAN archetype very well).

Maya Angelou rings true to my mind…A wise woman wishes to be no one’s enemy; a wise woman refuses to be anyone’s victim. Will be bringing to you channelled writings…later on in the day if possible…

 

Some more on Gyanganj

People automatically presume that the word Ganj is derived from Arabic or Farsi, but it is not so . Ganj is Sanskrit. When we discuss Gyanganj we must keep in mind that it far too ancient for us to know its exact History which has been covered by the sands of time. If we manage to brush away the layers of sand, we begin to realise that it is ancient and the name Gyanganj is fairly recent.

Many of Shri Shri Baba’s scholarly devotees spend much time in the Benaras University Library but came up with no known references to the name. But what is so surprising in that fact? Gyanganj is a Sanskrit name and the Tibetans may refer to it as something else.

Let’s look at some sacred tirtha sthanas in Tibet-Manas-sarovar, Ravan Hrid or Rakshash tal, or Kailash; these places have their Tibetan names. Tso Mavang or Tso Mafang is what Manas-sarovar’s referred to, Ravan Hrid is Langak Tso, Gaurikunda is Thuki Jing Boo and Swayambhu himself is called Dem Chhok.

So it is safe to presume that Gyanganj has its very own Tibetan name by which it is popular in that area. In this day of Google mapping, it is probably possible to locate the physical or geographic Gyanganj, but only if we know its Tibetan name. The masters know it but it is not known by the masses.

My grandfather Shri Anath Nath Mukerji had told my father that none of the disciples that he knew had ever questioned Baba Vishuddhananda regarding the Tibetan name of Gyanganj. Maybe Mahamahopadhyay Gopinath Kaviraj had known but he had not made others privy to that information. There are still numerous manuscripts which lie in Benaras, some in Sanskrit, some in Bengali, written by the scholar, gathering dust, waiting for seeking eyes to study and translate them. Maybe this information lies hidden behind clouds of dust somewhere in Varanasi. Who knows?

My father has no knowledge about this. He was told that in all probability Gyanganj has no permanent, physical existence. It has a spiritual morphological field, but on certain occasions, it manifests into the physical for karmic reasons. After the job is done, the physical Gyanganj decimates and it exists only in the etheric and causal worlds.

Let me tell you a story about Col Olcott and Madame Blavatsky. The anecdote I am about to narrate can be found in OLD DAIRY LEAVES, Olcott’s autobiographical work.

Olcott witnessed something extraordinary in Bombay. It was the first time they arrived in the city on the shores of the Arabiaan Sea. One afternoon Madame and he hired a carriage and went to for some important work that she had to look into. They left the crow’s nest and travelled quite a distance and then Olcott was asked to wait as she entered into a picturesque garden. It looked like an ashram. Some gardeners were working in the garden; seeing her delay, Olcott accosted them to enquire after her. They continued working without responding to him, presumably as they did not understand his language. There was nothing much he could do at this point, so he waited. Eventually Madame returned and presented Col Olcott with a garland of heavenly flowers, saying that the head of the ashram gave it to him. When questioned about that place, Madame Blavatsky did not seem keen to elaborate and remained tight-lipped. This mysterious behaviour aroused a certain curiosity in the Colonel.

The next afternoon, Col Olcott decided to investigate about that mysterious place and as luck would have it, he found the same carriage that had taken them there. The driver seemed to remember exactly where they had gone and took the Col. After travelling for approximately the same amount of time; the driver stopped the carriage at a certain spot by the beach. Lo and behold!  To the utter amazement of Col Olcott, there was no beautiful garden there, in fact there was nothing!!!! Olcott began questioning the driver who was sure that this was the exact point where they had come yesterday. But what of the garden, asked Olcott. What garden, for years we have known this place exactly as you see it!! There was never any garden or ashram here!!! The Colonel was simply flabbergasted!

Here we have to understand that this ashram and the garden did not really have any physical existence, it appeared from the etheric field DUE TO Blavatsky’s icchashakti and was made visible to the Col. Yes every substance, thing, person, animal- everything has a physical, etheric and causal existence; all things have these three bodies that vibrate at different frequencies and are as real as one another!!!

What is “real” anyway? The things we call real, like all matter we can observe, is made of atoms which themselves are made of 99.999999% SPACE.

If the atom is the size of a of a sports stadium, then the nucleus is the size of a fly in the center and the electrons are tiny tiny gnats circling the stadium.

We are vastly made of and bathing in an infinite field of energy that we call “empty” space even though we have found that space is not empty at all, it is filled with energy vibrating at incredibly high frequency: the quantum foam, the aether, the plenum, vacuum fluctuations, the zero point field, in an infinite holofractographic universe.

“If you want to find the secrets of the universe, think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration.”
― Nikola Tesla

That beauteous garden, that asram definitely did exist in the physical or sthula realm, but we can safely say that its location was not in Bombay, by the Arabian sea shore. It exists, say in Tibet and was made visible in Bombay, so taking these two places and their interim point and the space that lies in between were reduced to a singularity and it appeared in Bombay just because Master Koothumi had wanted to meet Blavatsky at that very point, so again it became visible due to the Master’s kriyashakti.

So this Ashram that Olcott saw was indeed in the sthula realm and so was the garland which was gifted to him. They existed with solid physical attributes. So this kriya of reducing space to nothingness and travelling through great distances in a moment is not unheard of, we have many instances of that.

In fact Ram Thakur, a maha-mahayogi had said that not only can they travel faster than lighting, they can appear in numerous places at the very same time due to kriyashakti.

Most of the times when Shri Shri Baba spoke of Gyanganj, the descriptions were mostly of the sthula version, but think not that these stories were anything short of extraordinary!

Gyanganj is far more awesome than your imagination’s painted picture! We can never grasp its sublime divine beauty as nothing on Earth can quite compare to it. Words fail to describe it; senses, tainted by vices can never hope to experience it. Only through kriya and sadhana can one hope to get an understanding of it.

I have people asking me online that do I know the location of Gyanganj? How can one get there?

Seriously people, do you think it is so easy to get the address of the sidhyashram, it is so easy to just get there???

NO IT IS NOT!!! AND NO I HAVE NO CLUE TO ITS GEOGRAPHICAL EXISTENCE!! I am also just a fellow seeker, not some high level sadhaka.

Shri Sai Kaka is a maha-siddha who in this day and age has travelled to Gyanganj. When I contacted him and went to meet him, it was like coming home.

I had tears flowing down my face as if after a long separation I had met someone very close to me. When he called me Amma, I felt the power of the feminine, and of course emotions in me stirred which had remained hitherto buried in my subconscious.

Anyway, Sai Kaka said that forget reaching Gyanganj, you will never hear of the siddhashram in your lifetime if you do not vibrate at a certain frequency. You will never know of the adepts that reside there, the divine work they do, how they guide humanity- yes my friends you will never know.

So you must have kripa of the masters and you must vibrate at a certain frequency which is why you are here, you are reading this and maybe, just maybe one day, you will be blessed by a master and who knows, you could be making your way to Gyanganj.

I certainly hope for that, but then again only hope will not get us there, we must perform our kriya, and in this ghor kalyug we must light the spiritual candle of our heart and perform tapas. Only then can we get there and it is safe to say that I have a long time before I can get there.

Although Sai Kaka told me, Why do you seek a key when there is no door??? Just walk through it, you do not need a normal key, an electronic key, you do not need to break open the door, because- THE DOOR DOES NOT EXIST, IT IS IN YOUR MIND!!! You do not know the kind of kripa you have, you are blessed by Baba Vishudhananda.

I quietly absorbed all this, felt empowered, but my dense understanding, my lack of awareness did not actually comprehend the immense meaning behind these statements.

Well I can only trust and hope that the kripa will slowly but surely clear the fog and I will be able to see the path, the path that leads me to their lotus feet, to Gyanganj.

I know my Grandfather Shri Anath Nath Mukerji is there and I cannot wait to meet him!!! Dadu I hope to see you someday when I am truly worthy, I hope to sit by you, perform my kriya and learn from the masters and spend my life doing what I am truly here for. All the rest of it is just superfluous, a waste of time.

But time must be wasted, I mean I must live, work and learn in samsara, to be able to transcend it. I must play out the role allotted to me to perfection, of course perfection does not exist. I am as I am and I will do what I can to the best of my ability. Kindness and compassion will be my religion, not hurting a soul will be my task, helping, aiding, soothing, comforting my fellow denizens of this planet and/or any other will be my focal point.

Through arts, through creativity, through my writing, through my images I hope to inspire and change lives, maybe not thousands, I am happy with one person at a time. I am happy to know that I can bring a smile, a tear drop, a thought in people’s minds. If even it be an idea, a seed of an idea that can sprout a beautiful plant of actions, which in turn can provide fruits, flowers, shade to a greater number of people.

So here I am sharing thoughts, maybe ranting bit, but in this repertoire I seek to plant something divine in your minds. You may have your own master, you may have your own religion, you may have your own thought processes, but eventually you too will realize that it’s all about awakening; of becoming the Christos. Your kundalini will arise, your chakras will open and your consciousness will be firmly rooted in the divine; it already is, but this time you will be aware, you will know the true potentiality of your own SELF.

Shri Shri Baba had told his disciples that when he was a boy of mere twelve and was taken to Gyanganj, he had travelled from Jalandar into the Himalayas to a place called Goga which was the last point where normal, but scanty transport was available.  After that one had to walk all the way, nothing else is in sight, just snow and huge mountains loom large.

It usually takes a pilgrim about two months to traverse that terrain. In those days no food was available, only puffed rice and curd was given by the few people who lived in those frozen areas.

Snow is everywhere, and one’s feet keeps getting sunken into sludgy cold snow, so one is always wet at the feet. Pilgrims usually travel bare-foot and on the way pick up special slippers to walk on this terrain, they did not wear boots, at least not in those days. My grandfather always travelled everywhere with slippers, I just remembered.

These slippers cost three anas!

Gyanganj at all times is visited by numerous people- there are brahmacharis, sannyasis, yogis who have come for pilgrimages, Paramhamsas who reside there, Bhairavis, Bramhacharinis, and kumaris as well.

Although these people are allowed in, but to stay there is not allowed. You can only be a resident if you are there for a specific purpose.

The two main branches of study are Yoga and Science. Surya vigyan, Chandra vigyan and Vayu vigyan are some of the disciples taught in the area of Science.

So many high level adepts have devoted their lives to Science; numerous instruments and technological advancements are available to them by which they study medicine, they also find cures for incurable diseases. They develop medicine which has saved mankind for centuries.

In fact today we’re jumping joy at the thought of a 3D printer which can print everything, even body parts! But this has already happened in Gyanganj for centuries.

Shri Shri Baba speaks of a leprosy patient who had his limbs recreated in this contraption. Imagine 3D printing existed from when!!!

Amazing stuff, isn’t it???

There is another story of a Marwari gentleman who was Shri Shri Baba’s shishya. He had a sickly young daughter. Due to karmic clearance, this man and his daughter were sent to Gyanganj, where not only did she become well, she also became divinely beautiful, like the Devi Durga!!!

Another fantastic fact which must be told is about the age group of the yogis and yoginis who live there. The Paramhamsas and Bhairavis average age group is in the hundreds, some are 800 years, some 500 years and so on and so forth!!!

What of Bramharishi Mahatapa? Some say he is thousands of years old, no one can definitely know his age!!!

More interestingly, Mahatapababa’s Gurumata, known as Khyapaimai is still alive!!!

She lives in Tibet in a zone called Manohar tirtha and Baba Mahatapa lives close to her. You can imagine how old Khyapaimai is, but she looks like a young virgin of sixteen!!! Her abundant tresses are so plentiful that they cover her whole nubile form, she does not have the need for clothes.

Baba Mahatapa however, has decided to “grow OLD” meaning, he looks very aged, but can still move around. He has a gurubhai who still lives and is probably his age, this mahayogi is a Vaishnav and is called Bhavadev Goswami, who resides somewhere else in Tibet and continues his sadhana.

Baba Mahatapa has numerous disciples who have graduated to being a Paramhamsa. But in all of them, one names shines out like a bright Sun, he is the most powerful and has achieved much success in Yoga and Science, his name is Paramhamsa Bhriguram and he is well over 500 hundred years.

Shri Shri Baba learnt Yogshiksha under Bhriguram Paramhamsa and so he called him Dadagurudeva.

Baba Vishuddhananda learnt the Sciences from Paramhamsa Shyamananda, who was the faculty head of this department and maybe still is!

There is a surreal pathway created by one of the Sciences in Gyanganj which remains illuminated by the moonlight in the deep night; it’s said to be magnificent!!!

There is another name that stands out in these exemplary names and that is of Paramhamsa Abhayananda.  He was seen twice by ordinary mortals, once at Bardhwan and the other time by the banks of Ganges in Calcutta, and at some point someone managed to click an image of him; he looks like swayam jatadhari Maheshwar in Samadhi. That image has been published in some books and ordinary folks like us can just gaze in awe at that mahayogi for we cannot hope to fathom more.

Paramhamsa Nimananda Swami and Paramhamsa Umananda Swami, two other great adepts residing at Gyanganj have also been spotted by many of Baba’s disciples.

It was Shri Nimananda Swami who ages ago had cured Baba Vishuddhananda from the agony inflicted by a bite from a rabid dog. Baba was merely twelve years of age when this happened and two years later Swamiji returned to take Shri Shri Baba to Vindyachal and did so from Dhaka in one night!!! Unbelievable, yes, but true!!!

There is another Paramhamsa from Gyanganj and he has a special History, his name is Gyananda or Kutupananda. He is the master of Madame Blavatsky and is called Koothumi baba. This fact has indeed been verified by Shri Shri Paramhamsa Vishuddhananda.