For someone in some Multiverse

I know somewhere deep within the heart of the cosmos, you and me are in each other’s arms, maybe watching the Helix nebula. I know you are looking at me, like no one ever has and no one ever will, because only your eyes can perceive the depth of my soul. Only  you can understand my beauty the way you do.

I can see the love in your eyes. I can feel the memories of eternities coalesce into time and space, kaleidoscopes of memories flashing, the cacophony of your voices in diverse timelines calling my name, the sound of your laughter. It is all there, in my mind Beloved.

All those memories. All those eternities, they are compressed somewhere in my unconscious. I know we have grown old in each other’s arms a million, billion times. I know we have raised and cared for so many children. I know it. All those memories are buried in this 3D world. My conscious mind barely remembers you.

But somewhere, something has stirred and snippets of memory flood my mind. They refuse to go away. They torture me, they plague me, until I meditate or write or do photography. I have to channel this intensity in art. That is why I have lost myself in art this lifetime beloved.

I know you are there somewhere, in the Universe today. Not by my side and you will not grow old with me. Tears are streaming down my face as I write this. I don’t know why. Why is there so much pain for a life never lived? For memories never shared? How is every inch of you so very precious to me? When I have not even touched your body?

I know you irritate me too, and anger me and provoke me. But then I know that you are here to show me parts of my soul. For you are my soul. Is that even possible?

Why do I feel so linked to you? I know I have never met you. At least not consciously. Maybe somehow, somewhere our paths have crossed in this 3D and we probably did not recognise each other. I know I was not spiritually mature enough to identify you. Maybe you managed to identify me?

Maybe we met…maybe we looked at each other across the room. Maybe we passed each other on the beach? In some party?

I have fallen in love, but not the intensity I know I can experience with you. Yes I can love without you, but I don’t want to. I know you will come.

In fact even if you are in another dimension, I know you will find a way to time travel through the warps of time and space. You will come to meet me.

I want to tell you that you have been my muse and I am so thankful for all the creative energy you have sent my way. I can feel your energy, you know, at times. Especially when you think of me. And I know when you are thinking of me, because every fibre of my being can feel that longing from your end. I can feel how badly you want me. I want you as badly, if not more.

You know I am reminded of Keats when he says, My love has made me selfish…not because your love has in any way made me selfish, but because it has done the very opposite. Your love has opened me up to greater love that exists in creation. The love I feel for you is now expressed as love for all.

You are my home. Even if you are stacked away in some other multiverse. Maybe we will meet when our Universes collide and information bleeds into both of them. That is when you and me may come face to face.

Will our timelines collide? Will the hologram direct you to me?

I know I have been waiting…for a very long time for you to come. But you never came and I am not angry with you about that. I understand you are yet not ready to come which is why you have not come. I am not ready obviously as well.

I want to tell you one thing…I am a survivor. I have survived molestation, I have survived the cruel world, I have survived terrible relationships and I am still here.

In fact nothing could break me. I knew of the spiritual world and of you. I knew this 3D world is illusion. Everything here is an illusion, even the rape. This reality is JUST ANOTHER SIMULATION.

Which is why you are probably so far away, in another multiverse, in another timeline. Tell me, are you aware of me? Do you know I exist? Does your soul call out to mine? Does your body crave to be entwined with mine?

I know you know of me, whether consciously or unconsciously is the question. Have you reached that spiritual level of identifying me? I haven’t obviously.

ARE YOU CONSCIOUSLY AWARE OF ME?

The thing is, I know of you because when everything turned cold and dead, you existed, as a flame in my heart. I am wild, my Beloved. I am untamed as I roam the earth looking for you.

I have looked for you in many dimensions, through the Bardos, through the Nine Gates of Hell and I am not even sure if I managed to find you there. For I don’t remember when we last met in the physical world.

I just have sudden flashes. Of your eyes. Your smile. Your hair.

Sometimes I am sure I have heard you call my name. I don’t know what name you called me by, but I know you were calling me. Time and again, I have woken up in my sleep, my heart beating ferociously.

I know the time will surely come one day. Do you feel that? Do you feel the urge to meet me? I was not expecting you to show up in this life, but now I so badly hope for that.

You know as I began to type this letter, I knew the futility of this exercise. How will I express myself? How will I explain my love for you? How will I reveal to you what your heart feels for me? For I know when we meet, we will melt away…in each other’s arms.

I am typing this…hoping that our timelines collide and somehow through digital interference you get to read this in your own multiverse. I think if you read it(presuming you are not reading it already), then you might figure out the whole goddamn connection. Maybe in your Universe, there is time travel available. Maybe you can hop into some hi-tech piece of computation and visit me here. Yes here, on my humble Earth.

My Earth may be slightly polluted, but she is very beautiful. When you come, maybe I can take you to Goa. Maybe you have a Goa in your Universe. Wow!

Let me share a quote with you…You are all about me – I seem to breathe you – hear you – feel you in me and of me…Katherine Mansfield wrote that to her lover. In case you don’t know who she is, well…she is probably one of the best short story writers in the world and a feminist icon. She is my favourite and has been my muse for a screenplay I wrote based on her love life. She had a tempestuous love life BTW.

The quote sort of echoes what I feel about you.  How succinctly she puts it…feel you in me and of me…SUBLIME! We are of each other- star dust, my Beloved.

Have you felt like that about someone? Is that someone me? Just ask your heart.

I have visualised us making love. So many, so many times that it drives me nuts to even think about it. This obsession with you has now become all consuming and I cannot stop thinking about you. Sleepless have I become in this 3D illusion, my Beloved.

In a way your love woke me up. From the dense vibrations of this manifestation. It brought with it a subtlety of feeling and emotion and of course creative fire. I have become a poet for you, for your love.

I have become a dancer for the music you play. Tell me Beloved, are you CONSCIOUSLY PLAYING THAT MUSIC? Or are you just as unaware as I am.

You are my nightmare as much as my dream.

You are my smile as much as my scream.

 

Let me end here before I go crazy.

 

 

 

Charged astro: Venus in Aries RX, Do things differently!

Her image had passed into his soul for ever and no word had broken the holy silence of his ecstasy. Her eyes had called him and his soul had leaped at the call.
To live, to err, to fall, to triumph, to recreate life out of life!
A wide angel had appeared to him… an envoy from the fair courts of life, to throw before him in an instant of ecstasy the gates of all the ways of error and glory.”… James Joyce

Venus had disappeared into the heart of the Sun to be reborn as the morning star. Retrograde in Aries, firing up my poets’ soul. Igniting intense aching of love and sensuality. Did you ever feel that you no longer exist? That you have successfully dropped you EGO or I construct? During an orgasm?

If you have never felt the wild fires of sensuality assault the very fabric of your senses, then it is now the perfect time to ALLOW yourself to experience something so intense and passionate that it will change the way you look at the world forever!

With so much of activity in fiery Aries, we can be assured of one thing. We are ready to ignite! Now you could use this fiery energy to set fire to your sheets. Seriously! Why channel this into something destructive? I mean fire always does not have to destroy? Does it? Where would we be without fire? Think about it! The dichotomy of life. Nothing by itself is evil or good. We make it so with our perspectives. We give meaning to phenomena.

So what meaning are you ready to give to the astro? Venus disappears from our view and it is at this time that our UNCONSCIOUS becomes fertile with this alchemical marriage. There is so much scope for transmutation. Dark Moon Lillith in SAGITTARIUS is trining Retro Venus in ARIES and squares the NORTH Node in VIRGO and the SOUTH NODE in PISCES who is asking us to uphold INDIVIDUAL INTEGRITY!

Ah, the impetuosity! Our reactions and thoughts are spontaneous. Remember that our libidos are fired up, no matter who or where you are! So even if you are in a long-term thing, you might suddenly develop the roving eye! Stop beating yourself up about it. Instead be honest with your partner and try to find ways to spice up your intimate time.

Just wanted to say that while Venus is in this position, normal missionary sex will be boring. Even doggy-style is for the yesteryear. So if your beau is unable to keep the erection, then it might be a good time to start exploring other options like prostate play.

The prostate is a walnut-sized gland that surrounds the urethra and houses the male G SPOT. You can find innovative ways to stimulate it with oils and massage. The male is able to feel full bodied orgasms that are impossible during hetero penetration.

The other spicy ingredient you can add and must add to your sexual experiences is roleplaying. If you’ve not done it, then go ahead and do it. As simple as that. I am not going to chart out elaborate sexual fantasies here. Lol! Find what turns you on the most and do it. This Astro is so helpful to chip away at redundant sexual mores and traditions. Changing the dynamics of sexual play can be extremely fulfilling. Venus in Aries RX is urging us to become child-like in our innocence and purse such things with a rabid freshness.

There is a sexual revolution brewing in the air. The WILD WOMAN archetype is awakening. She is a carrier of the Ancient Feminine Spirit and Venus Retrograde will help you channel that energy. Venus retro is a direct symbol of ACTIVE REBELLION. She is not SUBMISSIVE. She is the DOMINANT!

In retro she shows us how to shift our perspectives from the pleasant and often over simplified rendition of her archetype and pushes us to explore deeper. What does it mean to be feminine? What does it mean to be WILD? WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO FEEL DOMINANT? If you’re a guy you might consider what it would feel to give your partner complete control for one time while you’re in bed with her. Think of her doing whatever she wants to do and you have no say in it.

I think this is very healthy to UNLEARN toxic patriarchal traditions, customs and mores. We humans have to give each other the respect to try all roles. Men who are control freaks need to understand that there is nothing as healing as letting your woman take charge of your sexual experiences, for with her intuitive wisdom she can really catapult your sexual growth. Of course she must be adequately inspired to be trained or to train herself in such matters.

I suggest that all coupes try reversing roles in bed. Try once to begin with and see how it feels. Pegging can be extremely exciting for men, because your G-SPOT is activated. Actually it is called P-SPOT for guys.When a male is anally penetrated by his woman, he can begin to UNLEARN and relearn different facets of sexual expression. Women, if your guy wants to be pegged, remember that he is placing huge amounts of trust in you. Use a double-ended dildo for the woman to feel physical stimulation.

Guys you need to begin pleasuring your woman with your mouth and hands if you are doing so already. You can even buy her crystal eggs which you can use during a yoni massage. But be sure to earn the technique before you attempt this.

Venus in retro reshuffles our needs in the areas of all things Venutian- money, sex, arts, beauty…and she offers a realignment. To the individual and to the collective! We need to drop our calcified concepts and impassioned we need to reinvent our relationship with money, sex and the arts.

Think of this deeply…how are you holding yourself back from experiencing more of the Venusian energy in your life? Are you tired of the way you experience sex and intimacy? Do you want to take it a notch higher to experience deeper cosmic orgasms? It is up to you.

The New Moon in Aries is also giving you ample manifestation power to make things work in your favour. Go out into the world and kiss the sky!

Oh, oh, oh…before I go…every encounter that you experience is FATED. Karmic! Accept it all as sacred and as spiritual debt and pay it forward…with love and empathy!

If you’re single and ready to mingle, then you might want to summon your partner with the help of a Switchword phrase. BRING-PERFECT-MAGIC-VENUS-LOVE-CHARM. Venus might decide to grant you a boon and send you your twinflame. Who knows?

Venus favours the bold… Ovid

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Facilitate Spirit-CONNECTION! Mars sextiles Neptune!

I see the world being slowly transformed into a wilderness; I hear the approaching thunder that, one day, will destroy us too. I feel the suffering of millions. And yet, when I look up at the sky, I somehow feel that everything will change for the better, that this cruelty too shall end, that peace and tranquillity will return once more… Anne Frank

My sweeties I don’t have a better way to begin this convo today. The quote above sums it up pretty fucking decently. The last few days have been so charged with fertile chaotic energy and for me it brought about ancient karmic connections. Someone from many, many past lives walked right back in. It has been so hectic, meeting people. Yes lovelies, people from my past.

Just last night I had this amazing dinner and long-drawn out convo with an old friend who also happens to be from a famous Bollywood family. The convo was about U.G and Jiddu Krishnamurthi, Archetypes and primordial memory! And of course there were convos about old actors, directors, huge movie stars and the whole industry in general. Acid trips and Vipasana. Venus in retro does leave such astounding gems for us to glean and if we manage to obtain what we are meant to, then we are infinitely wiser. Even though we may not realise it that moment. Sometimes it takes people a whole Venus cycle to reconnect the dots.

See Venus in retro is making me revalue all my ideas and notions regarding concepts of art, cinema, beauty, finances. I mean, I have worked in the media industry for over a decade and am still very much a part of it. I have been finding closure or answers or more questions to concepts regarding these matters. I have been reevaluating my own constructs that I have created. I am sure all of you are going through these same self enquiries. I know collectively we are seriously looking into matters Venusian and this time with an introverted lens. We are journeying inside with these concepts and letting our intuition guide us.

Cinema is ruled by Neptune, the ruler of Pisces. So the topic of cinema pops up. Today there is a dreamy cinematic quality to life that you can tune into. Yes the authorship of today’s events is in your hands and boy can you make it MAGICK!

Mars in Taurus sextiles Neptune(look up your time zone) and suddenly boof! Our spiritual sensitivities are stirred. You wake up with a dreamy feeling. Your antennae are picking up vibrations from some sort of fairy tale world. Your very own fairy tale. You forget that you are a debt slave, working nine to five to pay off EMIS and other loans. You forget that you have to drive to work for an hour and a half through crowded city traffic. You forget that you are a slave to money. You shed off the incessant need to try to be NUMBER FUCKING 1.

No! You relinquish all that madness. You find a moment, far from the madding crowd and you light a candle in your heart. This day is full of potential for empathy and kindness. Why don’t you find a suitable way to explore this theme, but remember to keep it spiritual as Neptune will have you do.

If you can make everything in front of you SPIRITUAL, then the battle is won. You have created an infinity-sacred-space! If you decide to meditate today, then consciously send out healing energy to the whole world. See the love radiating from your heart chakra and kiss it forward. To help and heal. To be the balm that people need. You need to be the Goddess and the Hero today. You need to create your very own heaven. If you need a Yidam or a deity to concentrate upon, then you can invoke Blue Tara or Nila Saraswati today. Blue because of the Neptunian influence.

The Blue Tara is very effective to quell anger. She is called Ekajati and is an emanation of wrathful feminine energy. She can transmute bad karma into swift spiritual awakening. Therefore she suggested herself to me. Use her energies. Chant her mantra- OM) BHIM TARE VRIM. Visualise her as sapphire blue.

You can use lapis lazzuli or blue sapphire. Although before you don a sapphire, I would suggest you get your natal chart looked at by a gem therapist who will see Saturn’s placement before you can wear it. I have seen contradictory results with the use of sapphire. In my own life.

The position for today will be the TREE POSE! This will bring the necessary equilibrium you need. Still your mind and body in unison. Place the crystal near your heart chakra while you perform this.

I leave you with a very potent number- 719 481 71. This number will manifest your plans and thoughts into tangible reality. Write it on your left wrist, recite it mentally or just carry it in your wallet.

Thank You!

Namaste!

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The Astro suggests Tantric Sex tonight~

I am ecstatic to announce that tonight there is some wild and sensual astro happening- Moon squares Neptune. The Moon is in Sag- aha! And Neptune is the ruler of Pisces. Venus is retrograde pushing us to maddening depths of emotions and feelings.

So what do you get with this mix? How can SAG and Pis merge? Oh, let me think. Philosophy and myth debates that heat up into intellectual kerfuffles which could lead to electricity crackling in the air and then when sexual intimacy takes place- it feels like a dose of spiritual energy has been infused in the love making process!

So I am going to suggest a small meditation module for tonight.

Clean up your space, sage it and prepare it with candles, incense and aroma oils. Use the diffusor. Take a long soak in the tub, preferably the two of you. And do not start making out please! Just lie with each other and make an effort to join your breathing. Breathe together. Feel each other’s heartbeats as you sit soaking in the tub.

Now feel all the negativity draining from your body. You may use chants or switchwords when doing this. A good one would be ALLOW-FLOW-BE, which releases your internal blocks. You can keep saying VENUS-DIVINE-BE!

Do it together- do it consciously. Step out and wipe one another clean. Gently and not sexually. Just as if he is a human, you are not concentrating on the sexual angle right away. Now rub oil on each other. Get a nice carrier oil like jojoba and then chuck a few drops of your favourite essential oil. You can use amyris, clary sage, jasmine, neroli, patchouli, rose, rosewood, sandalwood, vetiver, ylang ylang- they all work as aphrodisiacs.

Rub it in with conscious intention that your hands are filling this person you are caressing in this erotic massage is being healed. Oh yes by now the massage has gone erotic. I cannot start explaining exactly how to massage, because I believe there is no hard and fast, one single way to do it. The massage is an adaptation of deep rubs, kisses and caresses, suited exactly to the person in front.

Drop all thought. Very important. Exist in the moment. Exist in the now. One will massage the other and then the other will return the favour. Get it. Do not try to massage each other together. Nope. After you have completed the erotic massage, then stand up and hug.

After the hug, start NOW massaging each other. Build the intensity. Oh stare at each other the whole time. Stare into his eyes. Try to see beyond his form. Whatever you think is divine, associate that image to him. He is divine and guys, so is she. Try to feel the energy flow in each other’s bodies. You may actually see colours and your auras.

Then sit in meditation in the yabyum position, the symbol of divine union.

“Yab-Yum” is a Tibetan term meaning “father-mother”. The man is on the floor, in sukhasana or padmasana and the woman sits on his thighs while his lingam is in her yoni. The man’s penis will be inside your pussy, but do not move. Sit in that position. It symbolises the union of your root chakras. You have become ONE. Keep staring into each other’s eyes. Homosexual couples, please decide between each other who will take on the yang role and who will play the yin energy and sit accordingly.

Keep staring and keep breathing, the lingam inside the yoni. This is potent sex magic as the sexual energy with meditation can transmute itself to Spiritual. The Union will feel like you are losing consciousness. This does not happen in a day, it is to be cultivated.

Your crown chakra is channelling energy from spirit and merging it with your sexual energy. Please OBSERVE THE ENERGY and how it is flowing through your body. Try to identify blockages. Work from your heart chakra.

Some tantric teachers urge the participants to communicate their feelings to one another while in yabyum, but I personally leave it to you. You decide if you want SILENCE to be a part of this meditation or do you want to use loud chanting and/or speak to each other. It is entirely up to you.

After about staring for twenty minutes, then close your eyes together. Keep deep breathing. Now concentrate on your muladhara chakra and feel a ball of energy vibrating there. Now lift up that ball through your spine and bring it to rest in your crown chakra. Stay there. Keep breathing. If you cannot hold your erection, do not freak out. You are now PURE energy, not a limp dick!

Finally end the meditation with an orgasmic explosion, although it is absolutely normal if you do not desire penetration. During tantric yabyum most practitioners avoid the peak orgasm(ejaculation) to leave room for the much stronger full body orgasms, squirting orgasms, anal orgasms, prostate orgasms, vaginal orgasms, womb orgasms and more. You can feel things that are very VERY intense.

Your partner may cry as some of you guys know that women cry after an orgasm. Some of them do. I am one of those and it can get pretty intense and in fact some guys do too. Do not be awkward if she is crying, just hug her. Do not judge, label or criticise or offer advise. Just let her be. Be there for her.

Keep sitting even after everything is done and hug each other in yabyum, close your eyes and bring your focus to your third eye and stare inside. Finish off by doing namaste to each other.

If you do try this, drop me a mail and tell me how the experience felt.

Thank you!

Namaste!

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Seductive Scorpio Moon:Open up to feelings!

“Holding the hand of your woman or man, why not sit silently? Why not close your eyes and feel? Feel the presence of the other, enter into the presence of the other, let the other’s presence enter into you; vibrate together, sway together; if suddenly a great energy possesses you, dance together – and you will reach to such orgasmic peaks of joy as you have never known before. Those orgasmic peaks have nothing to do with sex, in fact they have much to do with silence. And if you can also manage to become meditative in your sex life, if you can be silent while making love, in a kind of dance, you will be surprised. You have a built-in process to take you to the farthest shore.” …Osho

Sexual desires and longing are peaking in many individuals. I have been unable to update my blog at the sudden influx of people who wanted to consult me for my Sacred Sexuality Meditation Modules. And this feeling is not just about feeling horny or salacious. This deep ache that you feel down there will not be satiated with mindless unconscious sex. No!

This sexual craving under a Scorpionic moon that is sextiling Pluto is screaming out for healing. For greater awareness. For conscious sex. If you’re guilty or ashamed when thinking of sex, then understand that it is a deep rooted cultural thingy. You are not abnormal, no matter what your mind conceives of. No bestiality or paedophilia included. No harm. No rape. When two or more consenting adults get together and explore their sexual feelings and fantasies, they are opening channels to profound healing. Sex is not an aberration! In fact it is the very fundamental basis of physical existence. Where would we be without copulation?

So under this sexy and sultry Scorpio moon try not to repress your sexual feelings. In fact clear your mind, keep your spine erect and let your mind wander. Watch what really turns you on. Do not shame yourself, do not blame yourself. If you want to hurt someone during sex, then please consult a Psychiatrist.

I am not referring to the BDSM subculture. Being a Top is actually hardcore responsibility and the Mistress is essentially a mentor, lifecoach and shrink rolled into one. That is how the Tops perceive it. Quoting from kinksters round the world.

So let the Moon do what it does best…let it heal you with a little bit of energy from the Pluto sextile! Pluto is going to bring transformation if you allow it to, in your sex life. Awaken to the potential of human energy. Understand the sex creates massive energy and that can be channelled into a tool for awakening and conscious living.

If you want to be aware of spiritual sexual ecstasies, then you might want to look into sex as a meditative practice. It is imperative our society understands the necessity and importance of a healthy sexually empowered culture. It is not just linear sex with orgasm that will awaken us to our sexual potential. No!

Our sexual energy is a part of our ojas, or Chi or life force. To reach your fullest potential, you must be able to move this sexual energy throughout your body. Repressed longings create blockages that can result in abnormal, unhealthy sexual appetites. Entities will prey on you and you will become a voracious sex machine. Even if you are single and a monk, what will you do with your sexual energy? They learn to transmute those feelings into meditation.

But what of ordinary people? WTF are they supposed to do? Who do they talk to without being judged. Listen it is absolutely necessary for your psychological well being to discuss your sexual feelings with your partner. If you are unable to do so or are single, then consult a professional. You can always ping me if you have specific questions.

How can I practice sacred sexuality of I am single? I get asked this a lot. Let me explain…you do not need a partner to be a LOVER! Sexual energy is running through our bodies, through our nadis or subtle channels. And that energy if tapped can make you powerful, confident and sexy. A woman in control of her sexuality is a magnetic being! She owns her space wherever she goes.

So are you ready to take ownership of your sex life? Do you want to learn to ground that scattered sexual energy? Then begin the journey of exploration…our sexual energy is a part of the cosmic sexual exchange between the primordial male/female polarity. That is why Shiva is represented as the lingam and the yoni which is the symbol of the Devi’s vagina is at the base! The pussy is a microscopic representation of the cosmic pussy!

Moon is quincunx to Uranus in Aries and Eris. Eris is a dwarf planet discovered in 2005, and there are two Eris’ in myths. The second Eris is the bloodthirsty sister of Ares or Aries. So I was reading this astro blog and in the comments below I read that when an astrologer was asked, “What is beyond archetype”, he said Eris! See how Eris is a symbol of what is beyond knowing…metaknowledge! metawisdom! Real feelings, some of them scary as shit will be stirred up, but it might teach us to integrate this meta sexual wisdom and come TOGETHER to become WHOLE in your individual wholeness!! Healing can occur, but there could be toxic volcanic eruptions of anger and violence! There will be a tendency to play the blame game! Don’t we all just love it!

The other interesting alignment is Moon trines CHIRON in PISCES! Yes Chiron the wounded healer is involved and whenever that happens deep, deep, deep issues can be healed. Depends on your natal chart of course, but this could be pivotal in breaking through sexual myths and taboos.
Working with countless women in groups and individual sessions I learnt that women have a  great deal of misconception around the subject of orgasm. There is shame and secret suffering because they cannot open up to their partners and 50% of women fake orgasm, stats say.
What has mainstream religion taught us? Sex is immoral! Sex must be demonised, judged severely and repressed. We have been told repeatedly that if you are a sexual being then forget about spirituality. Because the two are as apart as oranges and apples! Fuck why?
That is why there is no sensitive, intelligent sex ed in our society. Let’s not even get into discussing the sorry state of sex politics in India. Let us not waste time. Kids learn about sex from dubious sources and often fall into traps and exploitation. Some get pregnant, some get infected. I mean look around…you have to be blind not to notice it! Yet the internet is a storehouse of porn. Abnormal, disconnected, soulless porn.
I have to mention that I want people to create more art and films that deal with sexual themes that keep in mind our real experiences and potentials in bed. Let us not get carried away by what we see on screen, because reality is far superior. If you scrutinise porn with awareness and clarity you will see it is propagating a culture of idiocracy. Sadly it is teaching our children what to expect during copulation! So kids are learning nothing about intimacy, affection, foreplay or connection. They are caught in the linear narrative of sex which is psychologically and emotionally damaging to the impressionable young who are desperate to learn about sex. I know I was.

Listen it is okay to be bipolar sometimes as long as you are ready to purge and move on. Just don’t hold onto baggage you don’t need. This Scorpionic moon is offering healing…but there is a prerequisite! FEELING!!!

No Cogito Ergo Sum is going to save us. In no way am I trying to demean the intellectual processes, but the need of the hour is FEELING! Raw, unedited, untainted feelings…Oh did I tell you that the Scorpio moon trines Pisces sun!

How much more mystical can you get! How much more can the Universe tell you that FEEL…it is okay and safe!! Use the number 519 916 if you want to energise your sex life. Write it with pink or purple on your left wrist. And remember to practice eye gazing with  your partner every day, at least for five minutes….watch how the floodgates of your feelings explode!

Hear it from the Boss…

“Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings — always darker, emptier and simpler.”― Friedrich Nietzsche

Are you going to do some sexual healing utilising all the energies available? Are you ready to step into the shoes of an awakened sexual being? Then it is time to let go…of all inhibitions and enter into the yabyum state with your partner.

I have a deep spiritual background and have tried to look at every experience with a spiritual lens. Sex is no different. In my Sacred Sexuality Workshops I use ancient temple arts, modern psychology, shamanic practices that re-programme our neurological conditioning to let go of destructive beliefs and conditioning.

The crystal I want you to use is the Lapis Lazuli…the azure blue is swimming in my consciousness…teya te aum bekanze bekanze maha bekanze, razda samyongate soha!! Salutations to the Medicine Buddha and Guru Padmasambhava!

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Thank you for reading..

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Spring Equinox: The Astrological New Year begins

“What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun.” – Solomon

Can we agree with dear Solomon? You see there is nothing new. Not you, not me, not our ideas and thoughts, not the sunshine or the Moon light, the galaxies, the nebulae…nothing is new. Not even the hurt buried deep within or the smile that could light up a million galaxies!

Everything is cyclical and follows a patter. It is a fractal in an infinite arrangement of fractal realities. This New Year begins now. For us in Bengal it is actually the 14th of April when we celebrate our new years.

Spring is here…Boshonto eshe geche…

Spring scatters the petals of flowers
that are not for the fruits of the future,
but for the moment’s whim.

Joy freed from the bond of earth’s slumber
rushes into numberless leaves,
and dances in the air for a day….Tagore

The beauty of pastoral Bengal inspired many a poet, painter and philosopher. There is a sense of the newness coming in to our lives, our hearts, our souls…we feel enlivened. The bird sings of a new tomorrow, even though we may have lived that tomorrow a million times. Does it  make sense?

There is a certain element of nostalgia that is playing in my mind. That eclipse energy burst into my life as a supernovae and changed my reality completely. I knew it was the year of transformation for me. So many of my planets are in Virgo, my Moon in Pisces.

The way I look and feel changed(I managed to lose all my baby weight), the believe system that I was operating from got crushed. Believe me, it showed me that everything is inside. There is no need to hanker for spiritual growth or material progress. It will all happen in its time.

The Spring Equinox brings in a pile of fresh energy. And before I go into philosophy about the astro and give you modules to work with during this time, let me discuss the planetary alignment.

  • The ruler of the Equinox, Mars, is in Taurus
  • Sun is at the mid-point between Venus and Chiron
  • Moon exactly conjuncts Saturn at27° in Sagittarius and both conjunct the Galactic Center
  • Jupiter square Pluto
  • Jupiter opposite Uranus…What does all this mean?

I see that this is definitely going to be a huge maturing influence for us collectively. It is finally time to grow the fuck up. No more adhering to your redundant belief systems. As that meme states, If your religion requires you to kill someone, start with yourself.

That may be slightly severe. But it is important to understand the message behind this. So many wars, so much destruction, little children being bombed; animals cut, hacked, eaten. Look around us. There is no dearth of violence, is there? We are getting caught in a dense 3D awareness.

This emotional maturity that the Moon and Saturn conjunction gives is phenomenal. We know Saturn(KARMA/authority) will teach the Moon(emotions) a few things about handling the dance of existence with higher awareness. And they are conjuncting the Galactic Centre!

Saturn is conjunct the Galactic Center within a 2 degree orb of exactness between mid February and early June of 2017. Saturn turns retrograde on April 6, 2017 at 27 degrees and 47 minutes of Sagittarius while conjunct within less than a degree to the Galactic Center. This conjunction of Saturn to the Galactic center repeats after Saturn turns direct between November 6 and December 13, 2017.

This alignment is very karmic and the galactic energies are going to shed light on how humanity will survive and thrive on this planet. How will mankind adapt? Watch with bated breath as individual and collective karmic dramas play out. We are all characters in this drama of life! And soon our part will be over. But will everyone remember our performance? Or will we just fade out? Or worse…will be be known as the bad actor!

The Jup, Ura, Chi and Plu square will push us to drop the societal conditioning that is toxic and is harming our soul evolution. We will begin to question wars, famine, drone bombing and other such atrocities. Most of us will not be okay with the status quo. Yet we will function from a place of Saturnian maturity.

Sham Shanischaraya namaha will help you invoke Saturn’s positive aspects. Chant this in 108 mala japas whenever you can. Black tourmaline is a very good grounder and work with it if possible.

When we as a collective and as individual refuse to swallow the crap they give us, we will be able to shine a light on our true self. That is so important in these turbulent times. People please wake up!!! Gaia needs you. Mother Earth needs you. So for the sake of everything you hold sacred, join in this resistance to uphold human values and dignity. Let us preserve the Earth for our children. For the Native Americans were correct when they said…we do not inherit the Earth from our ancestors, we borrow it from our progeny!

Now what is the Spring Equinox all about? A time of celebration! New life is stirring beneath the ground. The Worm Full Moon happened a few days ago and we are still feeling the lunar vibe and chaotic energies. Please visit my article on the Virgo Full Moon for greater clarity.

Fear not for death, as life is happening. It is difficult to put into words but we feel it. Life is awakening. Run away into the forest and hug a tree. It is the perfect time. Install the hydroponic drip system you had thought of and grow your own food. Grow micro greens. Involve yourself with the soil. Organise a community dance around the bonfire.

In fact just hold a bit of the soil in your hands and close your eyes. Feel the cool energy in your hand. Feel it spread all through your body and mix with your consciousness. You will be aware of how Gaia’s spirit has mingled with yours. And if you keep up the breathwork, you will see that you have become one with that spirit. This is a very powerful short model. I call it, “Hold Gaia”. Hold a part of her in your hands. Oh and did you know that all your body parts are present in the palm of your hands! The soil is merging with every part of your physical body, your mental and supra consciousness as well.

I am so restive and on edge. Do you feel like that too? A friend I am working with is constantly hearing a hum. A humming sound that is driving her crazy. I believe she is facing symptoms of ascension. Actually I have been feeling this hum too. In meditation yesterday, I heard AUM. The hum had become AUM before it disappeared. So there are subtle signs everywhere of the transitioning times we are facing.

When it gets too much, please take time off. If meditating is not your thing(IT SHOULD BE NO MATTER WHAT), then BEDITATE! Lying in bed ponder the existential questions. Again no judging. Flow with the Spring. Stay still for creative life to bloom from within you. Study all the great artwork. Watch Tarkovsky. Read Blavatsky. Do something profound! Yes, in bed! 😉

What I am facing is the dichotomy between my dreamtime and the waking space. I am drifting off into visions and seeing things a lot more. My dream journal is filling up and as I traverse through the archetypes that are coming alive in my dreams, I realise how everything is so INTERCONNECTED.

All those faces I see on the streets, they occupy my dreamtime. So many people from other places,other timelines have begun to make contact with the conscious part of my brain. The unconscious is a storehouse of such information, but my conscious mind often does not understand a vision in totality. Much work needs to be done to access and evaluate a certain mind projection.

I want to stay in meditation and in my dreamtime, but Mars in Taurus, Jupiter in Libra squaring Pluto and opposing Uranus is not going to let us shrink away from the human drama playing out in the world. We have to be punched into awareness as we drift of into dreamtime. This week has that quality.

Let us work towards integrating the contradictory energies of Pisces and Aries and of Neptune and Uranus, we can successfully activate the potential for renewal.

We cannot avoid action- March is the month of Mars. Aha! Aries is the host to the planets who are aligning here and channelling some of the anxious, apprehensive and angry energies of Aries. Just be mindful of this and stay away from kerfuffles. Uranus is going to urge us to be freedom loving and to shed the calcified mask or persona to uncover our authentic selves. About time!

Pisces is not weak, she is NOT dangerous. You see when patriarchy came to power, they destroyed the sacred feminine archetypes and turned them to Lilith, Eve(she was the reason Adam ate the fucking apple). Fuck yes. The apple is symbolic of knowledge and the feminine imparts divine knowledge to the masculine. Like mothers, sisters, lovers and wives.

Pisces is behind Aries. She is imparting to him all the sacred wisdom so he can rise to his fullest potential. Pisces is the mother of the seas. Like Yemaya of the Afr0-Caribbean myth. Yemaya is a mother goddess, the goddess of home, fertility, love and family. Like water she represents both change and constancy–bringing forth life, protecting it, and changing it as is necessary. If possible, listen to Deva Premal’s track- Yemaya Assessu on Youtube and escape into the embrace of the mother goddess just like I do…

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Thank you very much for reading this…if you want to book a reading by me, please email – tina@tinaheals.com

 

Entropy Vs Harmony: Full Moon in 22 degrees Virgo!

There is a certain ferocity about this Full Moon in Virgo in 22 degrees and before I immerse myself in discussing the astro and philosophy of this intense lunation, let me begin by saying that no matter what you do or what your opinions are, or what values you subscribe to, just remember that the Cosmos is giving you a huge doorway to heal in the most profound way possible.

Heal those deep-seated emotional traumas and issues that keep lingering. That may have been lingering for many past lives. Now is a very potent time to make a connection to those issues. Face them like you would face a happy moment. Catch the emotional wound in the eye, observe them for a brief time and then watch them fade to black. Yes you need to go back to black when it concerns those wounds. Believe me!

What has been your default mode this month? How have you been dealing with the eclipse season. Did you download all the information from the Akashik fields? You know about the cosmic download that has been happening right? Well if you have been reading my blog you know all about it, but for those who have no idea…let me explain one more time.

Eclipses download much information from the etheric fields into our collective and individual consciousness. Whether we know about this or not. But now with the eclipse time wrapping up(although we will feel their power for six months or so), we can safely begin to access those downloaded files.

This Full Moon gives us that time to sieve through, edit, assimilate, interpret, discard, relearn, purge all sorts of info that comes to us. It is now our task to learn, put to use and create what the world needs. Finally it is about coming to terms with our connectedness.

I cannot even begin how much my life has been impacted this last few months. I don’t think my transformation has ever been so rapid. I am getting MINDFUL and keeping up the practice and all I can say is…I have been transformed. Totally transformed. This Full Moon is in Virgo and the Sun is in Pisces. Did I just say Sun? Welcome to the party in Pisces. Hello Mercury! Nice to meet ya. Let’s catch up and have some stimulating convo yes? Oh look who else is here? Chiron! Hello there. How are you today? Chiron, the wounded healer? Nice to meet you guys. So much energy in the mutables! Can we begin the healing session right away?

Time to change the track!!! Enough of this progressive shit! Let it go full power! So every time there is a full moon, there is the Sun in its opposite sign. It is playing out in the Virgo/Pisces polarity. This Full Moon is part of a larger cycle that started back in February and will continue until August 2017.

Looks like the sky full of stars is speaking to me! My moon is in Pisces and my Venus, Mars and True Nodes sit here. You see how much Virgo and Mercury energy dominates me and my inner self is the eternal Piscean mystic. I can tell you something though…pretty magical things are happening and finally I am letting it happen.

Finally I am allowing the Universe to express itself through me and I am becoming receptive. Interesting that I brought up receptivity because I was just about to discuss with you this factor.

I want you to sit quietly for a minute. Close your eyes, ground yourself and breathe. Now see that stage you enter. That is receptivity. You need to be in that state for the Universe to communicate. If you keep pushing and pushing, how will you ALLOW for the energies to engulf you and explore the archetypes you are meant to deal with and confront. Remember the feeling of being receptive and try to incorporate that in your daily life. Believe me, receptivity opens up new channels of communication with the SOURCE CODE.

You can work with the number 71042 which harmonises the present. Write it in your left hand with a blue or green pen. Call the numbers…

The Moon cycles are very powerful time to do pranayam and other breathing exercises. Once Kabir was asked, What is God? You know Kabir right! He said, God is the breath within the breath! What a profound thought! And how true is it! When we are connected to our breaths, we truly feel connected to the Divine and everything around us.

Ancient texts say there are 72,000 nadis in our bodies and the Ida and Pingala Nadis which represent the Sun and the Moon respectively coil around the Sushumna nadi like a DNA HELIX pattern. They cross each other at all the chakras and meet at the third eye or Ajna chakra.

The Ida represents the Moon and Full Moons are a good time to energise this nadi with meditation, intention, visualisation. It is imperative to awaken the nurturing feeling inside of us to really activate this energy because IDA embodies this energy.

This nadi has a cooling effect and is the control factor of all our mental and psychological processes. The IDA also represents the FEMININE, the female aspect of creation and within our individual personalities. White adds more energy while channelling this energy. Wear white. Eat white foods(not refined or sugars). This IDA energy is working through the Virgo polarity while the opposite or the Yang/Sun energy is Pingala.

This astro is giving us the opportunity to explore and integrate these polarities. The main lesson here is deep emotional healing with regards to relationships. Relationships are the big motif here and has been dominating the astro for the last few months.

What can you expect when the Moon in Virgo aspects the Sun in Pisces? How can you prepare? Virgo is all about MATTER, the physical, reason and practicality. Pisces is all about SPIRIT, the metaphysical, intuition and divinity! The two polarities humanity has been working through forever. How will this showdown pan out?

The interaction between these two polarities corresponds to the internal dance between consciousness and matter, the left and the right hemispheres of the brain(although research is now dissing this division), creativity and logical thought.

How can the Virgo individuality connect to the Piscean- all-is-one motto? It is difficult but not impossible! If you can tune into the Virgo higher frequency of salaciousness and merge it with the Piscean mystical Spirituality, then you will clear this level and graduate to a higher level of consciousness. That is the gift the Universe if offering to you. Are you ready to claim?

The next two weeks are pregnant with symbols and meanings which will help you in your soul growth. I have devised a two week special programme for this particular time. You can email me for details.

A small note…ponder on the interconnectedness of life! Giving you a quote from my Occult Guru HPB, the founder of Theosophy…“It is an occult law moreover, that no man can rise superior to his individual failings without lifting, be it ever so little, the whole body of which he is an integral part. In the same way no one can sin, nor suffer the effects of sin, alone. In reality, there is no such thing as ‘separateness’ and the nearest approach to that selfish state which the laws of life permit is in the intent or motive.” Read this over and over again till the words take shape in your psyche. Explore the theme of human entanglement, the union of spirit and matter. This is the best thing you can do now.

This Virgo full moon can show you how your BODY, MIND and SOUL can synchronise to create a fertile ground for soul and self development.

You can book a healing/tarot/astro with me! Email at tina@tinaheals.com

 

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