Who is Ganesha?


The whole idea of writing this piece came to me yesterday after someone from the US consulted with me. She had never heard of Ganesha, but when she heard ELEPHANT GOD, she kinda knew who I was referring to. I was explaining to her the INITIATION/START-UP ENERGY of this deity.

It caught me off guard because it is rare to find someone who has no clue of who Ganesha is, especially with the New Age movement. But apparently not…

So there I was explaining an impossible story to someone who had just seen him in a souvenir shop and knew nothing of the fact that GANESHA is a name given to the COSMIC RULE that governs all of existence from the tiniest quark to the largest galaxy cluster!

And my majestic Ganesha is no modern God, he is ancient…and does look weird maybe to people not used to him. But remember if you find him grotesque, then be aware that his stark grotesqueness is to remind you symbolically that NOTHING IS REAL. Appearances are ILLUSORY and TRUTH is never what you think it is.

He has a mouse as a companion which means that he has mastery of fear, indecision, anxiety and uncertainty and also control over beings of the subterranean worlds. His protruding belly does not signify his laziness…lol, no. No amount of plank will do it because IT SHOWS CONTENTMENT.

Historians believe that a prototype of Ganesha was worshipped in prehistoric times outside the Indian subcontinent in such faraway places as Afghanistan, Tibet, Mongolia, China, Java, Iran, Cambodia, Borneo, Japan and Mexico. Images of Ganesha were found in Afghanistan and also in Iran. The image of Ganesha found at Luristan in Iran dates back to 1200 BC to 1000 BC. Many Ganesha type idols were also found in Mexico from excavations and ancient temple ruins.

The story of the birth of Ganesha goes like this..

Shiva and Parvati were totally engrossed in making love for aeons. Then Shiva goes off to meditate. Parvati realise that she is all yucky and filthy. She scrapes the dirt from the skin of her body and creates a little baby boy!!! She leaves the boy guarding the door while she bathes. Now Shiva returns and this baby boy refuses to let him in! Shiva is so pissed off that he slices his head off!! OMG right?

Now Parvati comes out to see what just transpired and tells her man that this is their son. Shiva now has to save him as he sees Parvati breakdown for the boy. So he asks his chelas(helpers) to find him a head. But the head must be from someone who is sleeping with their head to the north. This is why in India it is inauspicious to sleep with your head to the North! You bet! Now these dudes scampered off and returned with the head of an ELEPHANT! WTF, right?

So Shiva then stuck this elephant head on the headless torso and voila Ganesha is born. As I was relating this story, I realised how freaking RIDICULOUS it sounded. I could see the woman’s face! She literally fell off her chair!

Myths my Beloved is never to be taken literally, they are for ELUCIDATION and EXPOSITION…BTW the PURANAS WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE PRINTED, they are ALLEGORICAL TALES, MEMORY CODE SYSTEMS which are revealed to the initiate only if she is ready…so here I am to explain what this means…

The symbol of DEAD SKIN of the Goddess~~what do you think that signifies?

A RESIDUE, a REMNANT, a REMAINDER of some sort of ATTACHMENT. The Goddess/shakti or the FEMININE PRINCIPLE can sometimes cling onto subtle energies she mothers. In Ganesha, the Goddess found someone to mother. SHIVA is the GREATEST YOGI and he might have sensed this excessive NEED TO MOTHER or an unhealthy attachment to the boy she created. Shakti is volatile and Shiva is SILENCE which is signified by him being under her. She is the ACTIVE PRINCIPLE and he, the PASSIVE.

SHIVA was called here to destroy this whole unhealthy attachment, but a true yogi will not destroy the VIKARA or the residue. That still is energy and SHIVA or the male potency decided to transform this residual energy. Look he could have incinerated Ganesha, right? But he decides to SEVER THE HEAD. The head is the symbol of the EGO, my peeps. As KRISHNA says…The HEAD is the ROOT…And, and, and…he uses a TRIDENT OR TRISHULA! The TRINITY! Sattva, Rajas, Tamas- the three gunas or the THREE NADIS- ida, pingala, sushumna.

Guṇa depending on the context means ‘string, thread or strand’, or ‘virtue, merit, excellence’, or ‘quality, peculiarity, attribute, property’. These three gunas are called: sattva (goodness, constructive, harmonious), rajas (passion, active, confused), and tamas (darkness, destructive, chaotic)..~wiki

If you take this ALLEGORY as a purely INTERNAL STORY, as in what is going on inside, then you will see how the DESIRES that convoluted our minds and form unhealthy attachments can only be severed by the TRIDENT or the admixture of the THREE GUNAS. We have to understand each QUALITY to transcend it.

The internal feminine/masculine polarities CANNOT be whirlpool of chaos, they have to be in harmony, which is why the internal SHIVA will HAVE TO RESURRECT GANESHA. Ganesha without the ANIMALISTIC ID or ego.

The internal SHIVA is logical and the internal PARVATI is emotional, just like a mommie. But to be an individual who vibrates in a high frequency, we have to be in touch with Shiva as much as Parvati. They must be in SACRED UNION, in yabyum!

This dirt with which she created him is MAYA, in its most superficial level and here the EGO or ID is all powerful. I have said that Ganesha is the muladhara chakra and he refuses Shiva the yogi a meeting with Parvati who is PURE KUNDALINI SHAKTI. If you do not master the MULADHARA you will never reach SAHASRARA. The TRIDENT here also signifies the IDA, PINGALA and SUSHUMNA, the three nadis of LAYA YOGA and in Vedantic parlance, the three gunas.

Shiva destroys the ego(SEVERS THE HEAD) and replaces it wisdom, allowing the union of Shakti/Shiva to take place. And presto, you have yourself enlightenment!

And now you ask me? WTF is up with the whole ELEPHANT thing?

My peeps, in ancient scriptures of Sanatan Dharma we associate the elephant with AWARENESS, MINDFULNESS, MEMORY, PATIENCE which Science has corroborated. elephants actually are super intelligent.

This easily explains why Ganesha must be invoked before praying to any deity. This SUPREME INTELLIGENCE that Ganesha has will be the GUIDING FORCE for any spiritual activity.

I read about this Scientist from Lebanon who used sonic mapping that caught the vibrational frequencies of the brain and what he found blew the world away! After these images were assimilated and studies, he discovered that the MEDULLA which is the doorway to the brain looks like GANESHA!! Are you freaking out?

He presented the enlarged image to the world which showed two big ears, a trunk and tusks. Now you see the symbolism and how correct the ancients were. Ganesha is the doorkeeper and if you invoke this youthful, playful masculine energy, then he will let SPIRITUAL WISDOM seep into your consciousness.

Ganesha my Beloved is the GRID KEEPER of your consciousness and is called VIGNA VINAYAK, remover of obstacles. But remember, these obstacles are in your mind.

Reminds me of the EIGHT OF SWORDS in Tarot.

Shivaites believe that Ganesha sits in the MULADHARA CHAKRA located at the base of the spinal cord and is responsible for spiralling our consciousness into higher dimensions. Seated in the muladhara chakra he acts as the gateway to the higher chakras and higher planes of consciousness.

According to Sakti Tantra, there are as many Ganeshas in the creation as there the letters of the alphabet. This suggests that this Ganesha energy exists in various planes, worlds and dimensions as the headboy of the ganas or groups of entities(gridworkers, energyworkers, lightworkers, all celestial beings) to guide them and lead them towards Siva/Shakti, the primordial ARDHANARISHWARA.

Ganesha is usually worshipped alone in the Vedic way, but we tantrics pray to him with his Shakti and call him Vallabha. The female aspect of Ganesha is also called Vinayaki, Surpakarni and Lambamekhala.

Today is a great day to INITIATE yourself with GANPATI INVOCATION into SPIRITUAL PRACTICES.





Spring Equinox: The Astrological New Year begins

“What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun.” – Solomon

Can we agree with dear Solomon? You see there is nothing new. Not you, not me, not our ideas and thoughts, not the sunshine or the Moon light, the galaxies, the nebulae…nothing is new. Not even the hurt buried deep within or the smile that could light up a million galaxies!

Everything is cyclical and follows a patter. It is a fractal in an infinite arrangement of fractal realities. This New Year begins now. For us in Bengal it is actually the 14th of April when we celebrate our new years.

Spring is here…Boshonto eshe geche…

Spring scatters the petals of flowers
that are not for the fruits of the future,
but for the moment’s whim.

Joy freed from the bond of earth’s slumber
rushes into numberless leaves,
and dances in the air for a day….Tagore

The beauty of pastoral Bengal inspired many a poet, painter and philosopher. There is a sense of the newness coming in to our lives, our hearts, our souls…we feel enlivened. The bird sings of a new tomorrow, even though we may have lived that tomorrow a million times. Does it  make sense?

There is a certain element of nostalgia that is playing in my mind. That eclipse energy burst into my life as a supernovae and changed my reality completely. I knew it was the year of transformation for me. So many of my planets are in Virgo, my Moon in Pisces.

The way I look and feel changed(I managed to lose all my baby weight), the believe system that I was operating from got crushed. Believe me, it showed me that everything is inside. There is no need to hanker for spiritual growth or material progress. It will all happen in its time.

The Spring Equinox brings in a pile of fresh energy. And before I go into philosophy about the astro and give you modules to work with during this time, let me discuss the planetary alignment.

  • The ruler of the Equinox, Mars, is in Taurus
  • Sun is at the mid-point between Venus and Chiron
  • Moon exactly conjuncts Saturn at27° in Sagittarius and both conjunct the Galactic Center
  • Jupiter square Pluto
  • Jupiter opposite Uranus…What does all this mean?

I see that this is definitely going to be a huge maturing influence for us collectively. It is finally time to grow the fuck up. No more adhering to your redundant belief systems. As that meme states, If your religion requires you to kill someone, start with yourself.

That may be slightly severe. But it is important to understand the message behind this. So many wars, so much destruction, little children being bombed; animals cut, hacked, eaten. Look around us. There is no dearth of violence, is there? We are getting caught in a dense 3D awareness.

This emotional maturity that the Moon and Saturn conjunction gives is phenomenal. We know Saturn(KARMA/authority) will teach the Moon(emotions) a few things about handling the dance of existence with higher awareness. And they are conjuncting the Galactic Centre!

Saturn is conjunct the Galactic Center within a 2 degree orb of exactness between mid February and early June of 2017. Saturn turns retrograde on April 6, 2017 at 27 degrees and 47 minutes of Sagittarius while conjunct within less than a degree to the Galactic Center. This conjunction of Saturn to the Galactic center repeats after Saturn turns direct between November 6 and December 13, 2017.

This alignment is very karmic and the galactic energies are going to shed light on how humanity will survive and thrive on this planet. How will mankind adapt? Watch with bated breath as individual and collective karmic dramas play out. We are all characters in this drama of life! And soon our part will be over. But will everyone remember our performance? Or will we just fade out? Or worse…will be be known as the bad actor!

The Jup, Ura, Chi and Plu square will push us to drop the societal conditioning that is toxic and is harming our soul evolution. We will begin to question wars, famine, drone bombing and other such atrocities. Most of us will not be okay with the status quo. Yet we will function from a place of Saturnian maturity.

Sham Shanischaraya namaha will help you invoke Saturn’s positive aspects. Chant this in 108 mala japas whenever you can. Black tourmaline is a very good grounder and work with it if possible.

When we as a collective and as individual refuse to swallow the crap they give us, we will be able to shine a light on our true self. That is so important in these turbulent times. People please wake up!!! Gaia needs you. Mother Earth needs you. So for the sake of everything you hold sacred, join in this resistance to uphold human values and dignity. Let us preserve the Earth for our children. For the Native Americans were correct when they said…we do not inherit the Earth from our ancestors, we borrow it from our progeny!

Now what is the Spring Equinox all about? A time of celebration! New life is stirring beneath the ground. The Worm Full Moon happened a few days ago and we are still feeling the lunar vibe and chaotic energies. Please visit my article on the Virgo Full Moon for greater clarity.

Fear not for death, as life is happening. It is difficult to put into words but we feel it. Life is awakening. Run away into the forest and hug a tree. It is the perfect time. Install the hydroponic drip system you had thought of and grow your own food. Grow micro greens. Involve yourself with the soil. Organise a community dance around the bonfire.

In fact just hold a bit of the soil in your hands and close your eyes. Feel the cool energy in your hand. Feel it spread all through your body and mix with your consciousness. You will be aware of how Gaia’s spirit has mingled with yours. And if you keep up the breathwork, you will see that you have become one with that spirit. This is a very powerful short model. I call it, “Hold Gaia”. Hold a part of her in your hands. Oh and did you know that all your body parts are present in the palm of your hands! The soil is merging with every part of your physical body, your mental and supra consciousness as well.

I am so restive and on edge. Do you feel like that too? A friend I am working with is constantly hearing a hum. A humming sound that is driving her crazy. I believe she is facing symptoms of ascension. Actually I have been feeling this hum too. In meditation yesterday, I heard AUM. The hum had become AUM before it disappeared. So there are subtle signs everywhere of the transitioning times we are facing.

When it gets too much, please take time off. If meditating is not your thing(IT SHOULD BE NO MATTER WHAT), then BEDITATE! Lying in bed ponder the existential questions. Again no judging. Flow with the Spring. Stay still for creative life to bloom from within you. Study all the great artwork. Watch Tarkovsky. Read Blavatsky. Do something profound! Yes, in bed! 😉

What I am facing is the dichotomy between my dreamtime and the waking space. I am drifting off into visions and seeing things a lot more. My dream journal is filling up and as I traverse through the archetypes that are coming alive in my dreams, I realise how everything is so INTERCONNECTED.

All those faces I see on the streets, they occupy my dreamtime. So many people from other places,other timelines have begun to make contact with the conscious part of my brain. The unconscious is a storehouse of such information, but my conscious mind often does not understand a vision in totality. Much work needs to be done to access and evaluate a certain mind projection.

I want to stay in meditation and in my dreamtime, but Mars in Taurus, Jupiter in Libra squaring Pluto and opposing Uranus is not going to let us shrink away from the human drama playing out in the world. We have to be punched into awareness as we drift of into dreamtime. This week has that quality.

Let us work towards integrating the contradictory energies of Pisces and Aries and of Neptune and Uranus, we can successfully activate the potential for renewal.

We cannot avoid action- March is the month of Mars. Aha! Aries is the host to the planets who are aligning here and channelling some of the anxious, apprehensive and angry energies of Aries. Just be mindful of this and stay away from kerfuffles. Uranus is going to urge us to be freedom loving and to shed the calcified mask or persona to uncover our authentic selves. About time!

Pisces is not weak, she is NOT dangerous. You see when patriarchy came to power, they destroyed the sacred feminine archetypes and turned them to Lilith, Eve(she was the reason Adam ate the fucking apple). Fuck yes. The apple is symbolic of knowledge and the feminine imparts divine knowledge to the masculine. Like mothers, sisters, lovers and wives.

Pisces is behind Aries. She is imparting to him all the sacred wisdom so he can rise to his fullest potential. Pisces is the mother of the seas. Like Yemaya of the Afr0-Caribbean myth. Yemaya is a mother goddess, the goddess of home, fertility, love and family. Like water she represents both change and constancy–bringing forth life, protecting it, and changing it as is necessary. If possible, listen to Deva Premal’s track- Yemaya Assessu on Youtube and escape into the embrace of the mother goddess just like I do…


Thank you very much for reading this…if you want to book a reading by me, please email – tina@tinaheals.com


Virgo, the Wild One

She is misunderstood to be weak.

Forget not, she is the carrier of the torch of humanity!

To be coy and unsure…the Virgin!

But a Warrior is she! So unique in her ferocity!

So benevolent in her love!

Carrying the torch of enlightenment!

The wise and wild woman,

Unique and rare, Raw and sensual,

The freedom loving feminine.

An awakened lover and mother,

A medicine woman,

A Moon howler!

A symbol of the hoary feminine spirit!

The Mother is she,

The Maiden and the Crone,

A wild one, unrestrained with her feelings,

In love with her dreams,

She is the daughter of Gaia,

Connected to the Vulva of the Earth.

Courage in her breasts,

Resilience in her mind,

Determination to make better this dystopia.

She celebrates the woman.

Sacred is her touch,

Untamable is her spirit,

The High Priestess in the temples of the Goddesses,

Restoring our emotional health.

Showing us our soul’s journey,

Is her commitment.

She has walked on the face of the Earth,

For eternities.

In charge of the task of reconnecting humanity,

To her sacred bosom.

She dances with the wind,

She is awakened to life’s intricate mysteries.

You can see her supple youthfulness,

In dialogue with the Divine.

She creates fertility in the barren soils of our souls.

The Kundalini spirals through her spine,

To converse with the Great Cosmos.

Fluid are her movements, so alluring.

Lithe and sinewy are her limbs.

She is every man’s fantasy.

She is the Virgin!

A naive girl she is not.

For she is a wild one unto herself.

Awakened to her full potential.

Feeling the pulsations of life in her Yoni.

The Cosmic codes dance in her eyes,

As do colours unknown.

Her hair open and her body stark naked,

She has shed away all the illusions.

And is now ready for the Tandav!

See the radiance of her third eye!

Unashamed is she,

For being Feminine.

Unafraid is she of any injustice.

For she shines forth in her power.

She is not here to please you.

She is not here for your entertainment.

She is the lover of Earth.

She is here to make love to the wounds that you have given her.

She is here to heal the soul of Gaia.

She is here to become ONE with Gaia

She knows where she came from…

She knows of the Great Void!

Listen she says not she is your Savior!

She is committed to her mission.

All she says is,

Do not suppress the Goddess-consciousness within.

Let her speak to you.

She will show you the wounds the feminine carries.

She will show you how utterly you have destroyed her.

Are you ready to face her?

She is an alchemy,

Of spirit, mind and body.

Awaken the Sacred Whore, awaken Virgo!



Strawberry Full Moon in Sagittarius, 17th June 2019: Today You were far away~

As I begin to write about this most striking FM in tropical Sagittarius, Decan 3, I cannot help but discuss the blackhole that has recently been discovered in the center of the Milky Way, in the region where we are having the lunation.

The black hole is located approximately 26,000 light years, or 7.9 Kiloparsecs (kpc), from Earth in a globular cluster called, NGC 6624. A globular cluster is a gravitationally bound swarm of millions of old stars occupying regions that are just a few light years across.

Instantly you understand how powerful this lunation can be and will be for most. Just think of the amount of energy that exists within this blackhole. quoting the specialists, The mass of black hole is so big, it is the equivalent to weight of 7,500 of our suns.

We have just one Sun, who sustains the entire solar system and he is in tropical Gemini standing opposite the Moon who is being bombarded with this photonic energy and is glowing with the power of 7500 versions of himself and what of us? Life on earth is being bombarded too, with this sacred energy. The Sun and Saturn are rulers of Sag Decan 3 which is Leo Triplicity. So there is drama, glamour and narcissism on display. Creativity and illumination too, if you’re wondering. The decans explain why people of the same sign act differently. Since the Sun/Saturn are your rulers here, your actions will be based on the energy of the Sun. Saturn too. There will be unalloyed excitement, boldness, spontaneity and generosity. Sometimes this can hurt you too. You absolutely hate being mocked or joked about. Even criticized. Definitely comfortable in the limelight and if this does not  happen, it can make them irate.

The FM releases and honestly if you ask me, Sag is probably the most flexible and adaptable of all the fire signs and the FM will facilitate some major release and compel you to seek a new direction. Be ready to ump ship. You do not have to sink with what has become redundant and toxic. Maybe your shift will propel a shift towards something grander. Jupiter who rules the lunation is in wide conjunction to the moon in his sign.

But for a moment think…what are blackholes? So mysterious, so surreal.

“It is generally thought that they could be formed by the direct collapse of very massive primordial stars or successive mergers of stellar-mass black holes and runaway collisions in dense young star clusters.”

They contain within them the wisdom of all the cycles of the primordial stars that have carried out their universes and galaxies and solar systems, then finally, the inevitable. Collapse. Matter collapses on itself to hibernate. To create something new.

I feel it in my heart, my soul and in my bones…blackholes spawn whole new universal cycles and they denerate energy more efficiently than the Sun! That makes them super creators and the best part about the blackhole at the center of the Milky Way, actually all blakholes is that they hold matter TOGETHER!

Scientists believe there is be a supermassive black hole at the centre of nearly every galaxy – including our own. These black holes actually anchor galaxies, holding them together in the space.

And Sag is not a sign we associate with anchoring, but maybe there is a deeper side to this mystery. The soul ruler of Sag is the Earth. Yes the only time earth comes into play in EA, it rules the Jupiterian sign of Sag. Sag and its connection to nature definitely supports the anchoring, also a lower vibration Sag can be fanatically anchored to her believe and her believe alone. There can be bigotry and fanaticism if this anchoring is taken to ridiculous levels. Sag also amplifies whatever it touches. Balance which is not one of the strong points of this sign needs to be developed at this lunation, if anything at all.

Energies now are so strong that they can zap you. Literally to the point of exhaustion and enervation. It can also electrify you as the Moon aligns with all of this electromagnetic energy. Expand your conscious awareness. Expand your understanding. Expand your horizons. But also remember to stop or else you will expand into nothingness!

Observations indicate that the universe is expanding at an ever increasing rate. It will expand forever, getting emptier and darker. ~Stephen Hawking

How much can we grow and how quickly? Without becoming vacuous soulless zombies? How long can we peer at the abyss without the abyss drowning us? There is only the sense of change and believe me, this world has changed like never before in the last 31 years! Why 31? Why do I go back to February 1998? Saturn and Uranus met at the cusp of Capricorn, the last critical degree and the world experienced the horrors of the war in Kosovo. In terms of communication, it was the printed newsletter that showed up. The great daddy of the blog! The Sabian Symbol for that lunation was “The Pontiff…a bridge…blessing people.

This reminds me of the hierophant card. Who is this leader? The symbolic Pontiff? He is…a person, especially a priest, who interprets sacred mysteries or esoteric principles. On the flip side it could mean rigidity and is associated with Taurus. Uranus is now in Taurus and back in 1998 he was in the Cappy cusp area. Lessons are coming full circle.

There is definitely an esoteric vibe going on. And what lies at the heart of this hierophant symbol? It is doctrine. When we look at the act of blessing, we are reminded that the Pontiff is here to heal us and act as a bridge between the worlds of spirit and matter. The act of blessing brings in an outpouring of divine energies.

A single conversation with a wise man is better than ten years of study. Chinese Proverb

It literally works that way and the Universe is somehow bringing this conversation to our tables, whether it happens in real life, in your mind, in your memories or in your imagination and fantasy realms; it does not matter. It is coming to you. Something that links you to 1998 and 2012. That is again when this Sag/Cap cusp was active and we had the “end of the world”. 2012! What an iconic moment in history and yet, here we are…about to go back in time and maybe, just maybe this time the world will come to an end. In another parallel world, everything ended that fateful night of Dec 21st 2012…An unknown journey and an even stranger destination! Have we arrived where we are meant to be? I don’t know, we will see.

Remember blackholes evaporate over time! Reminding us of the ever temporal nature of reality. It is there one moment and the next…poof! It is gone. Kind of like Sag if you ask me. What can we expect to grasp under this ephemeral strawberry moon? Today it is a lesson in impermanence! Today is a phantasmagoria! A vision needs to be birthed as today will become a ghost in the fabric of our minds. Disjointed memories will haunt us in our solitude. Today does not exist in its ephemeral composition. Or is it a day of unlocked potential…like the first strawberry moon that happened on earth. Do you know that story? Read the Old Farmer’s Almanac and you will see this lunation is known as Strawberry Moon, named by Algonquin tribes of the Eastern US. this is the time when strawberry ripens and since we all know it is an aphrodisiac, we can then connect the birth of strawberries to an amorous affair. And this is as old as time itself…

There is a Cherokee tale that I will tell you under the glow of this Sag FM.

The Great Spirit created the first man and the first woman. They began to appreciate each other and settled down to a domestic life as husband and wife. Now it cannot always be the 2 of Cups, can it? It has to shift. We spoke of all the temporality, so you know. It soon became 4 of Cups and 5 of Wands. P.S- they fought a lot. Then the first woman decided to leave. What is the point of living in a toxic relationship right? She was smart. Having packed some of her belongings, she left and her man did not pursue her. His ego was hurt. How can she be without me? She won’t leave, he thought. But no. She left and he was alone. Finally he began to understand his mistake as his heart ached without her. He meditated to reconnect with his Creator and begged the Great Spirit to return his woman to him. The Great Spirit saw how love had changed the first man and how unconditional love is ultimately the whole vibe of the Universe, so he decided to help him get back with his twinflame. There appeared tempting berries on the pathways she walked through, but she did not spare them a glance. She kept up her meandering. Finally he took some strawberry plants and placed them near her. The red strawberries pulsating with divine vibes caught  her attention immediately and she stooped down to taste them. As she bit into the pure lusciousness of the strawberry, the taste awakened a hunger inside of her. A hunger to unite with her man and she longed to be by his side. She began to collect the berries for her man forgetting her grievances and anger. Then she turned back to return to her man. As she walked back, she met him on the way as he was running to meet her. Hoping the strawberries have slowed her in her path which they did. Their reunion was sweet as they fed each other strawberries on the way back home. This is why they are such powerful aphrodisiacs.

This fleeting beauty is what makes you want to make her sit down and turn this FM into a painting. A couplet. A haiku. Blackholes can slow down time…just a thought!

So moments pass as though
they wished to stay.
We have not long to love.
A night. A day….”
― Tennessee Williams, The Collected Poems

Jupiter, the ruler of the FM squares Neptune in Pisces. Both planets are in their home sign. Jupiter is RX and Neptune will do so after the Cancer solstice on the 21st. Saturn is also sextile Neptune. These two are very key energy signatures of 2019.

Jupiter and Neptune just had this complex interaction yesterday, on the 16th and this can be about what is fantasy and what is reality. The energy of making your love an idolized version of itself. Something impossible. Something unreal. Like a moment that disappears in space. That short-lived moment is crystallized. That is this energy, of crystallization. The form of your love/lover may morph into new dimensions and create new experience, but it is the substance, the crystallization, not the form that matters. The square between these two luminaries crystallizes the fugacious so you can hold eternity in the palm of your hands. A frozen moment. A snapshot. But you looked at it once, a sort of ghost of it when Jupiter met Neptune in the 1st square of 2019. It was 13th Jan and one more time you will see this image play through 25 fps to create the simulation for your observation.

Your heart will be shattered by sorrow if you force it to live in tomorrow’s ephemeral imagination – world instead of in today’s eternal reality – now. Sri Chinmoy

But it is imagination, is it not; that keeps us raw dogging it everyday. With our pain, our suffering. Ten of wands, the overburdened human. Like the child carrying that humongous schoolbag on his back. Can you imagine what happens to his spine? 21st September is the last Polaroid of this aspect. That moment frozen in time, yet as evanescent as the morning dew or like a myriad of emotions going through your face.

This aspect will bring disappointment to some people with regards to matters of their hearts. Yes in the relationship department. The fantasy can catch fire(Jupiter in Sag) or can drown(square Neptune in Pisces). Drugs and drinks are definitely not something to drown your sorrows in. If you don’t watch it, this hard aspect can have you go overboard. Be careful of who you call your guru now and do not try to get rich quick.

Venus is in Gemini and Mars is in Cancer, teaming up with the North Node and our action principle is ready to oppose Saturn/Pluto and Ketu. Saturn is the establishment, our father, our disciple which can be in conflict with the way we are doing things. The opposition of Mars/Pluto will surely keep the energy reeling. We want to move, move, move, but there are tasks to be done and miles of muck to clear before we even begin a single step. And as of now, there is no promise of sleep. You will never be able to harness the quintessential masculine Maritan energy when Mars is in Cancer, so this could be a bummer, but it all depends on what you think. What you perceive. Cancer is about honesty and are we ready to be honest with what we are doing in the world. Our dreams, our goals are getting a push with the North Node touching Mars. We are ready to embrace our North Node karma. It is the way forward…to unknown worlds. Cancer is psychic and here Mars(our actions) can be quite intuitive. Coming from a place of stone cold logic can work in your detriment. Cancer is about sustenance. Think of how the breasts contain milk even before the baby is born. That is the bounty of the Universe and Cancer shows us that through symbolism. Of course the house will tell much more…but this is the time to listen to your gut. Cancer also rules the gut, or the stomach. Mars is also conjunct Mercury who is on the 22nd degree. There is nothing more important than family right now. So it can be a source of trauma as well as therapy.

Everything seems to be fog ridden, unclear, murky and momentarily we are confused, but remember we had the Hierophant pop up in our musings. There is some secret knowledge coming to the forefront. Now let us discuss the Sabian symbol.

‘A Flag Bearer In A Battle.” The flag bearer resembles an exposed solider who is not armed with weapons, but he is not safe from the assault on the battlefield. It is about proclaiming sides some might say. Be truthful, but not critical. Watch what you say…Mercury in Cancer conjunct Mars. Maybe speak in the vibes of love and compassion. Both luminaries are trining Neptune. More of parallel realities bumping into ours.

Use the Jupiterian optimism and positive vibes. Go out there and connect…but over enthusiasm can be your downfall. Speaking brashly without consideration can also come to bite your bum, if you know what I mean.

Without really thinking about it, I spoke about the 10 of wands.

Yes what is keeping you up at night? Why are you taking all the blame? Why must you shoulder all responsibility? Have you had to take on some material or spiritual debt that does not belong to you? Do you remember the last time you relaxed? Does everything you touch feel like its turning to dust? Insurmountable obstacles always turn up?

Remember, this Leo ruled decan believes in changing the game, but can you do it without swinging to extremes? This FM is so perfect for torrid love affairs, and is also instinctive. Perfect to ask your intuition…hey what’s up? What’s going on?

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New Moon in Gemini, 3rd June 2019: Magic is in the air, There ain’t no science here~ <3


Everything is in constant motion. Arriving at stillness amidst chaotic cellular activity seems ridiculous, impossible, laughable. Yet in this lifetime and the next and the next, this is exactly our task, and Gemini’s greatest lesson. See yourself as an entity embodying this contradiction: stillness in motion. We are perpetually becoming and being. On the idea of becoming: “What would it mean to begin always from the middle? To experiment with renouncing that lure of mastery with which definitive beginnings and endings seduce thought?” – L.B. Higgins, Becoming through Multiplicity (2011)

“Do not swear by the moon, for she changes constantly. then your love would also change.” ~~William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet

Especially if this moon happens to be in the airy, communicative sign of Gemini. Everything changes as suddenly as it begins. This is the time to buckle up and enjoy the ride, with a smile…

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Full Moon in Scorpio, 18/5/2019: Find me, in another place and time~


.For life and death are one, even as the river and the sea are one. ~Kahlil Gibran

A cycle in a cycle in the bosom of infinity…and yet, we are afraid…afraid of death. Afraid of dying.

I mean how can we fear death, because when we exist in the sense of I AM, then how can there be any death? How can there be any obliteration of consciousness? Consciousness never dies, even when the body you are using now is discarded by your soul. Yes, this is all an act, you and me, the actors. Welcome to the simulation!

As Da Vinci said…While I thought that I was learning how to live, I have been learning how to die. Each day, each moment of our borrowed time in 3D is dying. One small step at a time…

A blessed Wesak festival as this is the energy of the Buddha, this…

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New Moon in Taurus, 4th/5th May 2019~Nothing’s gonna hurt you baby~~


“Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don’t know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.”
― Anais Nin

Well, its now time to revive that love…love is not a feeling, it is a state of being…it is a vibration!

This Taurean NM on the 15th degree is all about embodiment, but this time, it is slightly different. About 76 odd years later, Uranus has moved into Taurus. The Sun moved into Taurus and was conjunct Uranus on the 22nd of April and the Moon felt this electrical zap just yesterday. And today we have the NM vivified by their connect to the spiritual awakening Uranus who is on the 3rd degree of that sign whereas this lunation happens in the midpoint of Taurus.

This lunation is…

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