Spring Equinox: The Astrological New Year begins

“What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun.” – Solomon

Can we agree with dear Solomon? You see there is nothing new. Not you, not me, not our ideas and thoughts, not the sunshine or the Moon light, the galaxies, the nebulae…nothing is new. Not even the hurt buried deep within or the smile that could light up a million galaxies!

Everything is cyclical and follows a patter. It is a fractal in an infinite arrangement of fractal realities. This New Year begins now. For us in Bengal it is actually the 14th of April when we celebrate our new years.

Spring is here…Boshonto eshe geche…

Spring scatters the petals of flowers
that are not for the fruits of the future,
but for the moment’s whim.

Joy freed from the bond of earth’s slumber
rushes into numberless leaves,
and dances in the air for a day….Tagore

The beauty of pastoral Bengal inspired many a poet, painter and philosopher. There is a sense of the newness coming in to our lives, our hearts, our souls…we feel enlivened. The bird sings of a new tomorrow, even though we may have lived that tomorrow a million times. Does it  make sense?

There is a certain element of nostalgia that is playing in my mind. That eclipse energy burst into my life as a supernovae and changed my reality completely. I knew it was the year of transformation for me. So many of my planets are in Virgo, my Moon in Pisces.

The way I look and feel changed(I managed to lose all my baby weight), the believe system that I was operating from got crushed. Believe me, it showed me that everything is inside. There is no need to hanker for spiritual growth or material progress. It will all happen in its time.

The Spring Equinox brings in a pile of fresh energy. And before I go into philosophy about the astro and give you modules to work with during this time, let me discuss the planetary alignment.

  • The ruler of the Equinox, Mars, is in Taurus
  • Sun is at the mid-point between Venus and Chiron
  • Moon exactly conjuncts Saturn at27° in Sagittarius and both conjunct the Galactic Center
  • Jupiter square Pluto
  • Jupiter opposite Uranus…What does all this mean?

I see that this is definitely going to be a huge maturing influence for us collectively. It is finally time to grow the fuck up. No more adhering to your redundant belief systems. As that meme states, If your religion requires you to kill someone, start with yourself.

That may be slightly severe. But it is important to understand the message behind this. So many wars, so much destruction, little children being bombed; animals cut, hacked, eaten. Look around us. There is no dearth of violence, is there? We are getting caught in a dense 3D awareness.

This emotional maturity that the Moon and Saturn conjunction gives is phenomenal. We know Saturn(KARMA/authority) will teach the Moon(emotions) a few things about handling the dance of existence with higher awareness. And they are conjuncting the Galactic Centre!

Saturn is conjunct the Galactic Center within a 2 degree orb of exactness between mid February and early June of 2017. Saturn turns retrograde on April 6, 2017 at 27 degrees and 47 minutes of Sagittarius while conjunct within less than a degree to the Galactic Center. This conjunction of Saturn to the Galactic center repeats after Saturn turns direct between November 6 and December 13, 2017.

This alignment is very karmic and the galactic energies are going to shed light on how humanity will survive and thrive on this planet. How will mankind adapt? Watch with bated breath as individual and collective karmic dramas play out. We are all characters in this drama of life! And soon our part will be over. But will everyone remember our performance? Or will we just fade out? Or worse…will be be known as the bad actor!

The Jup, Ura, Chi and Plu square will push us to drop the societal conditioning that is toxic and is harming our soul evolution. We will begin to question wars, famine, drone bombing and other such atrocities. Most of us will not be okay with the status quo. Yet we will function from a place of Saturnian maturity.

Sham Shanischaraya namaha will help you invoke Saturn’s positive aspects. Chant this in 108 mala japas whenever you can. Black tourmaline is a very good grounder and work with it if possible.

When we as a collective and as individual refuse to swallow the crap they give us, we will be able to shine a light on our true self. That is so important in these turbulent times. People please wake up!!! Gaia needs you. Mother Earth needs you. So for the sake of everything you hold sacred, join in this resistance to uphold human values and dignity. Let us preserve the Earth for our children. For the Native Americans were correct when they said…we do not inherit the Earth from our ancestors, we borrow it from our progeny!

Now what is the Spring Equinox all about? A time of celebration! New life is stirring beneath the ground. The Worm Full Moon happened a few days ago and we are still feeling the lunar vibe and chaotic energies. Please visit my article on the Virgo Full Moon for greater clarity.

Fear not for death, as life is happening. It is difficult to put into words but we feel it. Life is awakening. Run away into the forest and hug a tree. It is the perfect time. Install the hydroponic drip system you had thought of and grow your own food. Grow micro greens. Involve yourself with the soil. Organise a community dance around the bonfire.

In fact just hold a bit of the soil in your hands and close your eyes. Feel the cool energy in your hand. Feel it spread all through your body and mix with your consciousness. You will be aware of how Gaia’s spirit has mingled with yours. And if you keep up the breathwork, you will see that you have become one with that spirit. This is a very powerful short model. I call it, “Hold Gaia”. Hold a part of her in your hands. Oh and did you know that all your body parts are present in the palm of your hands! The soil is merging with every part of your physical body, your mental and supra consciousness as well.

I am so restive and on edge. Do you feel like that too? A friend I am working with is constantly hearing a hum. A humming sound that is driving her crazy. I believe she is facing symptoms of ascension. Actually I have been feeling this hum too. In meditation yesterday, I heard AUM. The hum had become AUM before it disappeared. So there are subtle signs everywhere of the transitioning times we are facing.

When it gets too much, please take time off. If meditating is not your thing(IT SHOULD BE NO MATTER WHAT), then BEDITATE! Lying in bed ponder the existential questions. Again no judging. Flow with the Spring. Stay still for creative life to bloom from within you. Study all the great artwork. Watch Tarkovsky. Read Blavatsky. Do something profound! Yes, in bed! 😉

What I am facing is the dichotomy between my dreamtime and the waking space. I am drifting off into visions and seeing things a lot more. My dream journal is filling up and as I traverse through the archetypes that are coming alive in my dreams, I realise how everything is so INTERCONNECTED.

All those faces I see on the streets, they occupy my dreamtime. So many people from other places,other timelines have begun to make contact with the conscious part of my brain. The unconscious is a storehouse of such information, but my conscious mind often does not understand a vision in totality. Much work needs to be done to access and evaluate a certain mind projection.

I want to stay in meditation and in my dreamtime, but Mars in Taurus, Jupiter in Libra squaring Pluto and opposing Uranus is not going to let us shrink away from the human drama playing out in the world. We have to be punched into awareness as we drift of into dreamtime. This week has that quality.

Let us work towards integrating the contradictory energies of Pisces and Aries and of Neptune and Uranus, we can successfully activate the potential for renewal.

We cannot avoid action- March is the month of Mars. Aha! Aries is the host to the planets who are aligning here and channelling some of the anxious, apprehensive and angry energies of Aries. Just be mindful of this and stay away from kerfuffles. Uranus is going to urge us to be freedom loving and to shed the calcified mask or persona to uncover our authentic selves. About time!

Pisces is not weak, she is NOT dangerous. You see when patriarchy came to power, they destroyed the sacred feminine archetypes and turned them to Lilith, Eve(she was the reason Adam ate the fucking apple). Fuck yes. The apple is symbolic of knowledge and the feminine imparts divine knowledge to the masculine. Like mothers, sisters, lovers and wives.

Pisces is behind Aries. She is imparting to him all the sacred wisdom so he can rise to his fullest potential. Pisces is the mother of the seas. Like Yemaya of the Afr0-Caribbean myth. Yemaya is a mother goddess, the goddess of home, fertility, love and family. Like water she represents both change and constancy–bringing forth life, protecting it, and changing it as is necessary. If possible, listen to Deva Premal’s track- Yemaya Assessu on Youtube and escape into the embrace of the mother goddess just like I do…


Thank you very much for reading this…if you want to book a reading by me, please email – tina@tinaheals.com


Have better sex: Sacral Chakra Activation

Are you a woman who often feels a deep dis-connect to her body? Do you fear your periods? Does intimacy make you cringe? Are you fearful of commitment? Scared to express yourself? Are body-issues plaguing you?

Then let me break it to you. Your Svadhisthana or Sacral Chakra is out of balance! Do not freak out. It is not abnormal to have chakras out of balance. Working as a Pranik Healer for the last decade I can assure you that most of us have imbalances in our chakras.

If this was like 2007, then I might have expected to hear- well, what is a chakra? But not now. We all know what they connote!

The sacral chakra is the second chakra, right above the muladhara or root chakra. It is roughly the area under your navel and is the seat of the womb. Even for men, they have wombs in the etheric realms. For we all, male and female were once a part of an androgynous being. Therefore males have female sexual organs and vice versa. So even if you do not have a physical womb, you have a subtle-body or etheric womb.

Feelings, sensations, emotions are experienced by this chakra. Pleasure, sensuality, intimacy, connection, orgasms are all felt here.

You know when you get turned on, how your body reacts is also felt here. When you purge something from your life, this subtle vibratory force allows for that to happen. If you are a yogi, then you know this feeling. When we begin to get into new asanas, our bodies often hurt, but underlying all that pain, there is transformation.

The sacral chakra makes you feel this transformation and all your body undergoes. If you are connected to this energy, you will have greater control over your body. Your hormones will be in balance, you will be light on your feet and creative, blissful.

Excessive weight gain, uterine/ prostate problems, impotence, sexual disfunction and many more issues occur when we are not balanced in the second chakra. Cultivating the energy here would make you MINDFUL. In fact a lot of mindfulness programmes are designed to trigger the sacral chakras creative response.

Now you ask me…what the fuck did I do to get the damn chakra out of balance? How could I have prevented this crap from happening? Relax…it is not your fault! Not one bit. See how society has created this dichotomy around SEX.

On one hand it is the very fundamental fulcrum of society and on the other it is maligned and repressed! How the fuck did this happen? And how this work? How can we recover from this juggernaut? This duality that the mind has perceived, that society has managed to ingrain has resulted in blocking and imbalancing the sacral chakra.

Sex is a very normal process during life as a human. So why such extremes? Sacral chakra imbalance! There is no appreciation of emotionality, no applause for passionate endeavours(unless it makes a lot of money and becomes a pop culture fad), no reaction to pain and suffering…none.

There is a hollowness in us. We are like hollow people. Living life like automaton. Never feeling things deeply, never letting emotions take control. I mean how can that even be? Loosing control is dangerous and you can be incarcerated for defiant acts that don’t agree with the system. Fuck you can be targeted for your views as well.

The age of the internet has shown us that. Look what is happening to Assange or Snowden. You can be targeted for speaking the truth! So loosing control is not a good idea if you wish to remain a free woman.

Look at society…since I began to consult with people for astro, tarot and psychic readings, I can tell you that about seventy percent people want to know about their love life. That is the primary question. Yes over money. And even when guys consult. All they want to know is when and how they will meet her, or is she the one, or when will we get married…blah blah…

Most issues are sacral chakra based. Divorce, rape, infertility, misogyny, the rape culture, hyper sexualisation of children all result from sacral chakra excesses and imbalances or blockages. Deep sexual trauma can be healed when we bring balance to this chakra and often many women have had children but were declared infertile by the doctors.

So how can we activate the energy of the sacral chakra?

  1. Connect the WILD WOMAN  ARCHETYPE inside yourself to the wild energy of Mother Earth! Go into the forest. Take off those shoes. Better even- take off all your clothes too, but please find a safe spot. Go with your soul tribe, your woman gang. Do whatever that makes you feel a deeper level of connection to her. Be mindful, be aware. Speak to Gaia and ask her to fill you with her wild and creative feminine energy. Feel the transmission of energy creeping through your feet and working its way through your whole body. The energy goes all the way to the sahasrara or crown chakra and then bring that energy back to the sacral chakra and let it be there. Then bring that energy in a ball right outside the chakra. Let it sit there. Feel your consciousness there. Hovering right in front of your sacral chakra. This, if done properly can really feel very powerful. Warmth usually spreads across my whole body, but my vagina feels this vibration very strongly. It feels a magnetic pull to Earth and throbs with pleasure! End this meditation with a wild dance. Let your body dissolve into the music. Become the music and drop your sense of identity.
  2. Beach please! Seriously just head to the beach if possible. Strip down to your bare skin(if you want to), run to the water and let your body go into the embrace of the waves. Let your body melt into the water. Don’t swim or do anything forcefully. Let the water guide you. Be mindful of the hissing of the seas, the salty taste, the smell that lingers…be aware of everything that you can. If you wish to concentrate on one sensation, do so without a single thought. Follow your breath and let your awareness dance around in the waves in front of you, crashing into you. Try to become one with the waves, let your ego construct float away. Forget who you are, just know you are as eternal as the seas of deep space! If you can’t, dip into a tub after you’ve chucked some EPSOM salt in. Or get a pedicure and manicure at the very least!
  3. Do something pretty! I know Venus is retro and Astrologers tell us not to do any major beauty procedures till she goes direct, right? If you subscribe to that view, then that’s rad! Don’t do anything hardcore. But you can always start by taking the yoga class because at the end of it all, yoga will prettyfy you like no makeup can! Don’t believe me? Try it! Also remember to see beauty in whatever you can. But don’t buy the whole shop and tell me look, you asked us to see the beauty in everything!!?!! lol! What I mean is- look at the cuppa coffee you ordered. Isn’t it beautiful? The aroma? The colour? The presentation?Appreciate it and whatever else catches your fancy. Like the stars above, the dark night, a light breeze, the purple clouds right after sunset! Just find your thing and fall in love. Keep in mind that try not to propose marriage during a Venus Retro because you might feel differently later on. So hold your horses with long term commitments. But then again, if it feels right to you, go ahead. Even if it turns out to be a mistake, it was always your mistake to make. Everything is a potential teacher and a mistake teaches us a lot. About life, about love…so I hate to label times as auspicious and inauspicious…because I accept things to be beautiful as they are!

Nothing energises the sacral chakra as acceptance! Acceptance of who you are, as a person, as a woman! Embrace it woman! For to be a woman is special.

So get working on those sacral chakra portals to activate them to take you to a more 5D awareness of love and sex. Oh and of course this energy helps you manifest your twinflame. But that is again, another discussion…








The Dark Lover

There is a face in my mind.

It is yours.

There is no clear definition to it,

Just a hazy outline.

It surfaces in my Consciousness.

Forget it? I cannot.

In sleep, dreams and waking.

Are you even aware?

I do not care.

The melody of a sweet flute.

Playing in pastoral Bengal.

The golden Sun rays caressing the wheat husks.

Comprehension of the experience is not for me.

Labels fall short.

Emotions, ill equipped to handle the subtlety of feelings.

Expression of what I absorb is minimal in such a case.

How can there be expression of such intensity?

Happy I am, my Beloved.

As I sit and watch the brooks flow by.

Telling tales to the tiny pebbles.

Tales of far away places.

The pebble listens with awe and wonder.

Does it want to be swept away by the brook?

Does it want to journey into the unknown?

I do not ask for anything.

Just don’t disappear from my consciousness.

Look back at existence.

Look back at creation.

The wonder never ceases.

No matter how much we hurt.

No matter how much we bleed.

For each soul must experience all the shades of life.

Laughing and crying, singing and dancing.

In that dance of life you are my partner.

Yet you are everyone’s as well.

Yes I see it…

I see how everyone has this image of you.

Maybe its not even an image for some.

But an abstraction.

For me, you are of course MY BELOVED!

Forever, I have wanted you.

My eyes will tell you the depth of my love.

I seek not to bind you.

To possess you…

Love is not possession.

Love is knowing.

Knowing each day, and each moment,

Your face surfaces in my consciousness.

How can you have human features?

For human you are not.

But how can a human like me begin to even comprehend your true form?

Your touch I feel when I write to you about my love.

Your song I hear when I sit in silence with my self.

To hear you. To see you. To feel you.

You, my Beloved!

What a glorious night!

What a glorious moon!

A crescent of hope!

I am bathed in your scent,

Made luminous by the moonlight.

I offer myself to you.

I offer my whole being to you my Beloved!

Make love to my cosmic self!

There you come…

Wait, what is this I see?

You have peacock feathers in your hair.

You are dark as night.

The symphony of the stars and your flute,

Sets fire to the wind.

Ecstatic and receptive, I fall into your arms.

If love is meant to teach me heartbreak,

Then why do I love?

Enervated, exhausted, I ask…

Why must love hurt so?

Why must it drive daggers through my heart?

Being in your embrace, I see.

No human love can feel so.

Laced in jealousy and ego battles,

Perversion of love and its concepts.

Human love seeks to possess and conquer.

Your love sets me free.

It sets us all free.

For in the windows of our minds,

You sit. Sometimes as Art.

Sometimes as God.

Sometimes as Krishna.

Sometimes as Nothingness.

Sunyata. As Pragyaparamita!

The desert of our barrenness.

Regurgitated ideas. Bloodshed. Bigotry. Violence.

Those are the concepts we humans tend to grasp.

Not only grasp, but cling on.

Like a parasite.

There is no want in any heart.

There is no pain in any soul.

The six petalled lotus, blossoms in every heart.

The eternal Anahata nad, that sings of my love.

That sings of my love for you.

My deep, dark Space.

My deep, dark lover.

The love, the lover and the loved.

The trinity! No separateness.

It is null and void. It is the VOID.

All senses, all individualities have merged.

The lover, loved and the idea of love,

Cease to exist.

What kind of a deep love is this?

Can you even call it love?

Is there even a word, an idea, a concept?

To define this merging of everything into one.

Dark matter. Dark energy. Dark lover.

Dark Krishna. Dark Kali and the dark SPACE.

I can see it. It has devoured me.

I have become one with this.

Yet the fog remains.

My lamentations do not cease.

I cry for you because being separate from you hurts.

You are the home I crave for.

The eternal rest. The eternal bliss.

To be reunited with my lover.






Orgasmic Mermaid Meditation


Osho who has been a profound experience in my life once said,”The experience of orgasm itself is always nonsexual. Even though you have achieved it through sex, it itself has no sexuality in it, and my own understanding is that meditation has grown out of the experience of orgasm.”

Yes ORGASMS are as PROFOUND as that!!!  By combining erotic and ascetic techniques, states Brooks, a TANTRIC SCHOLAR, the Tantric broke down all social and internal assumptions, became Shiva-like! Combining our erotic yearnings with meditation, I have created a solid and effective tool and then NLP applications which help improve the experience.

Today I am going to delve into a special MERMAID SPIRIT ACTIVATION/ SEX MEDITATION. With the sexy vibe in the astro of these times, we’re collectively channelling loads of Piscean watery energy. Look at the astro of the eclipse. This was a PREDOMINANTLY WATER SIGN BASED ECLIPSE. We water folks will feel it.

Why should we do sex meditations you ask? SCIENTISTS HAVE PROVEN THAT ORGASM AND MEDITATION PRODUCE THE SAME EFFECT IN THE BRAIN!!! They both can drop this FAKE EGO STRUCTURE we have created. This bullshit nonsensical inner commentary of jargon is dropped and we experience otherworldly sensations.

Do you want to walk the path of self pleasure which will LEAD TO SELF ACCEPTANCE AND IMMENSE AMOUNTS OF SELF LOVE? Then creating sensual and erotic worlds with your imagination powered by your unconscious will help you work through sexual issues and often times abuse. Yes I have seen it.

Stress increases cortisol and adrenaline levels, and these increased levels of cortisol and adrenaline decrease sexual desire and performance.

Any form of meditation is an incredibly powerful stress-reducing tool. Meditation can increase sexual desire and performance by reducing cortisol and adrenaline levels. It releases oxytocin, serotonin and dopamine. All feel good chemicals!

Sexual electricity out there! This energy may be making you go all wonky. Frustration could be igniting within if the fires of your sexual appetite have not been fed. Even if you have been having loads of sex, you might be feeling weird, different. Lots of feelings, energies and scenarios that may have never surfaced before, surface now. And they leave you bewildered.

I have been sensing the MERMAID ARCHETYPE invade my consciousness during meditation. Throughout the eclipse portals, mermaids were riding the waves of my consciousness. I just let the visions come.

They began with songs and sounds…the crashing of the waves. An eloquent voice. Shots of mermaids swimming in the deep sea. Their tails swishing by. Mesmerising!

The mermaid archetype represents a woman who is at ease while she swims in the GREAT WATERS OF LIFE. The seas of emotions and sexuality, of feelings and fertility. This archetype reveals to us the complex sexual tapestry of our psyches to us if we can channel her during meditation.

Drawing on her energy can make a woman/man feel sexually active, sensual, desired, intense. You can easily tap into your instinctual sexual centre if you manage to invoke the mermaid energy. Instantly your pussy will feel awakened.

Okay I am saying mermaid and she/her, but this is in no way only for women. Men can also tap into this vibe and channel the mermaid. If you are uncomfortable with gender blurring, then for fuck’s sake become a merman, but don’t leave. Yes you may read the word PUSSY, but so what? You popped out of one!

We contemporary women are faced with so much responsibilities- being a mom, being a wife and then of course our professional lives and then our social lives! Phew! Some of us are victims of chronic fatigue and pain, insomnia, diabetes, pressures issues…we are like walking prescriptions.

All this has led to us being DISCONNECTED to our FEMININITY. This meditation uses NLP applications fused with a rich tapestry of imagination, created by the meditator. This can release creativity and make us feel desirable.

The MERMAID can make us feel sexy although she does not have a visible vagina! Her yoni is in the subtle ether. Her sexuality is not of this world. So this kind of sexual energy can be very gentle and subtle, but can arise heightened sensations.

Our bodies are wise old things. They know everything and the mermaid lets us tap into that wisdom and enhances it by mixing it with the fish! Gene splicing and mixing! No seriously, the fish energy is very etheric and its intimate connection to water symbolises the UNCONSCIOUS, emotions, healing and purification.

The mermaid makes me playful and I cannot stress enough that we have lost the IMPORTANCE OF LEISURE AND PLAY IN OUR LIVES. Such busy beavers are we! We have lost the enjoyment of life why? Because we have given up play. And no play does not mean getting wasted, clubbing all night, retail therapy or any of the things you are thinking of!

Play is a connection to the NOW. THIS MOMENT. The HERE AND RIGHT NOW.

She is half woman and half fish! She lets me explore my WILD SIDE, my untamed animalistic ID. I can easily access that part of my sexuality through the mermaid meditation, but although raw animalistic desires is what I am talking about, there still is a spiritual vibe to all this rawness and sexual urgency.

Maybe to make it clear, she will let you get into that raw desire space, but will bring her human element into the equation. Works? Her human impulses guide you to not give into total depravity!! Hahaha!

Your unconscious and conscious mind are being fused in the seas of sexual desires.

While channelling the mermaid you may want to look at certain things…

  1. Pay attention to subtle messages from your unconscious. Often the MERMAID SPIRIT can help you release ancient sexual pains and wounds. So be very careful as to what symbols enter your unconscious as they will have a story to tell.
  2. Keep a check on what you are feeling and for whom. If certain thoughts arise about someone you are not meant to feel sexual about, then let it come. Don’t judge it or don’t get swept away by it. Let the person come into full focus and just observe.
  3. Your motives for wanting to explore your sexual side will surface. Your motives for living and being will also.
  4. After successful sessions of working with this energy, you should be able to correct water based issues.
  5. You may get motivated to really research what type of water you are drinking.
  6. You may be motivated to get healthy.
  7. You may be able to get pregnant and resolve menstrual issues.
  8. Deeper awareness may seep in- about the whole of fucking existence!
  9. You may awaken the SACRED FEMININE within and you may get closer to the water element.
  10. ABUNDANCE can be created- the FISH is the Christian symbol of Christ’s charity and abundance!

This meditation is a direct invocation. To the GREAT GODDESS. You may choose any WATER GODDESS and look at her as the MERMAID SYMBOL or you may chose any mermaid image that works with you.

THIS IS IDEALLY DONE TO RELEASE SEXUAL TENSIONS. I know meditation and primal sex do not seem a match, but let me assure you they are twinflames!

Find a comfortable spot. Relax in Sabasana. REMEMBER TO BE MINDFUL AND AWARE…works better than any Viagra!

Take a few deep breaths and begin to relax in your body. On the count of three start to bring your awareness to your right toe. Concentrate fully there and then slowly start bringing your awareness upwards till it reaches your vagina.

While bringing this energy up, your body parts begin to feel cool, like water washing over them. And then begin from your right finger and then from your head. Bring all the awareness rushing in through your body to the pussy, begin to visualise that your legs have turned into a tail. Slowly see yourself transform into the mermaid.

Your insides should feel like water. You should feel like water.

You are swimming in the deep, deep sea. Looking to reconnect, to explore, to PLAY.

Slowly as you are swimming in the dark, you see a light. You hear music. Whatever works for you. You check through the plankton and the corals that it is a party.

Now look…who is there in that party. Remember you are watching from afar, but you can sort of see the other mermaids and mermen(;) of course)! Keep breathing and feel the cool water wash over you. But your pussy/cock remains warm.

Slowly float towards the home. What do you feel? Do you feel welcome? Do you think the mer-people will welcome you? Do you feel excited? Nervous?

If you feel excited, go ahead. If you feel nervous, then find the gorgeous shell by your side and take a seat. Breathe. Why do you feel this nervousness? Which is the face you attribute that feeling to as in who the fuck is making you nervous?

If you have a face, then while breathing, keep looking at that face. That face smiles and suddenly you realise that that mermaid/man is sitting right next to you. Offering you your favourite drink!

You take it. If you have TOXIC ISSUES you want to spew at this person, then just close your eyes. See that anger inside of you, like a little red cell. As you stare at the anger, it begins to lose its redness and then becomes tiny before disappearing in the black forever.

You breathe and then open your eyes. The person is still there, but this time everything is different as you open your eyes. That resentment or hurt has disappeared and you smile back. Genuinely you smile back at the person.

You sit together for a brief moment before he/she takes you into the house. Let him/her lead you. Swim slowly to the house. Who do you see? You may see familiar faces that are completely unrelated. You may see your folks also.

The whole room is smiling at you. You smile back. Let all the emotions flood into you. Watch how you feel as you go through the room greeting the mermaids and mermen present.

Take each character in individually first. Group interactions may not be fruitful unless personal one-on-one shit is not solved. What do you feel, think, experience? What colours, sounds, sights appear to you? Just try to connect with the heart chakra.

Each time you meet someone, visualise a BLUE RAY OF LIGHT EMANATING FROM YOUR HEART CHAKRA and GOING INTO THEIRS. Even if the person is angry, they relax as soon as your blue light enters their heart.

Smile, hug, kiss…whatever you need to do, do it and move on…

You are now integrated in the energy and the merfolk are dancing, celebrating and having fun. Positive energy radiates. Now visualise all those group scenes and see what happens. You can get a lot of answers on how to deal with certain people through this meditation.

You swim out to the garden full of shells and conches. You sit absorbing the beauty. What happens? Watch closely for any energy shifts.

You hear a soft swoosh! You know someone is watching you from the back. What do you do? You look back…who is it? It could be a stranger as well. Or the energy may not even have a face. You might just sense the energy. Invite that energy to come close.

Watch closely for what you feel…Now the person is standing in front of you. He reaches out and holds your hands. Your heart is beating. You are feeling so intense. You let that passionate feeling in the groin over power you as he draws you close.

He takes your breasts in his hands and caresses them. Watch for what you feel. Then slowly let the moment your mind has created guide you. Feel every moment, the touch, the kisses, the breathing.

You will see colours with each interaction. The kisses are red. The touches are pink. The bites are purple. You can come up with your own colours, but try to make the experience as audio visual as you can.

The lovemaking will not be the traditional penis in vag types…MERMAIDS remember. Experience this sexual feeling as a SPIRITUAL EXPRESSION OF THE SELF. You are twirling with your lover, in deep embrace.

Watch how you both pleasure each other. Observe all the tiny, minute details. As you both are in embrace, visualise your KUNDALINI, a serpent coiled at the base of the spine, rises up slowly.

Feel this KUNDALINI SHAKTI climb through your spine and his/hers too. It crosses all your chakras and goes out to the cosmos through your crown chakra. This happens to you both.

So much energy is being created while you join in union and twirl in the sea. YOU BOTH ARE BEING WASHED IN COSMIC LOVE WHAT JOY!! You both become a ball of light slowly.

You can see the merging of the two bodies and then they fuse into etheric bodies of light till the ball remains. You take that ball and slowly insert it in your vagina.

As you do it, feel the warmth enter you slowly…let the process happen…just let your UNCONSCIOUS GUIDE YOU.

You now touch your pussy. It is full of warmth and light. You softly caress it and say thank you. You can end the meditation by bringing yourself to climax after you touch yourself deeply and intimately.

Stay with yourself for a while after this meditation and drift off to sleep if possible to dreamy music.

If you keep creating such magical worlds of sexual intimacy, then the day you really get to make love to your dream lover, what will happen? You will be so VERY PRESENT IN THAT MOMENT. No distractions will waver your mind. You have lived through the experience and can really relive it in 3d reality.

Read the article in The Huffington Post, “Why Meditation and Orgasm Feel the Same to the Brain,” which confirms from the world of science the connection or similarity between sexual orgasm and meditation. Imagine what a diabolical mixture if you can integrate them both in a practise to enhance your spiritual self.

The main point is that ORGASM is not a end to itself, it is only the beginning, it is only a means through which you who research, embrace and understand the subject correctly can reach the final goal – the “super consciousness.”!!!

“In deep meditation, a sexual orgasm happens – not with someone outside you, but with your own polar opposite within. You meet there: your woman and your man meet. The meeting is spiritual, not bodily.” – Osho













Spiritual Sexuality

Why is sex such taboo or embarrassment in our society? Why do we deny women the status of being sexual beings who need equal amounts of sex like men? Why does the sexually awakened women or the Lilith archetype scare society like fuck?

SEX CAN BE INTENSELY SPIRITUAL and EQUALLY INTENSE SEXUALLY! Yes it is possible. Sex is not a shameful experience, but a mystical tool for spiritual ascension.

The Jungian scholar Frieda Fordham explains that “the danger of repressing the shadow is that in the unconscious it seems to acquire strength and grow in vigour, so that when the moment comes…when it must appear, it is more dangerous and more likely to overwhelm the rest of the personality, which otherwise could have acted as a wholesome check. This is particularly true, of those collective aspects of the shadow which are displayed when a mob riots and apparently harmless people behave in the most appallingly savage and destructive manner.”

What happens when we repress our sexual desires and thoughts? What do you think happens then? Not only do they become a gargantuan juggernaut ready to topple the very framework of our existence.

There is a friend I am working with. A woman in her late thirties and she is not only going through extreme imbalance of her sacral chakra, also severe depression and borderline schizophrenia. This was wreaking havoc with her life and we met at the Bombay Gym one quiet lazy afternoon.

We began to work together and let the energies guide us. She was a divorcee and a mother of two boys who go to an eminent boarding school. Being from a very affluent family, she still felt like her life was going nowhere.

Looking at the Ketu positioning and transits, I began to work on her PAST LIFE KARMA CHART. Things began to clear up. Without going into detail, I will explain how an entity had made itself home on her right shoulder to the nape of the neck.

Often times while aura reading, if I sense some form of energy vampire or entity on the person, then I tend to address that energy and see if I get any response. Because more often than not, healers and clairvoyants are not always aware of what kind of entity makes contact.

This entity was eating through her aura and was becoming avaricious for more energy. This woman is no “low-energy” types. She’s fit and can still do thirty laps of the pool without breaking a sweat. I know that personally.

Her energy levels were being depleted and she was feeling it. That is when I began to work with her. Sage. Switchwords. Meditation. We began the journey. She began to feel a special affinity to Kali, the dark Goddess and knowing my connection to her, we began Kali sadhana together. Kali became our guide.

Through meditational journeys with her I sensed that this entity had entered into her through her last lover. Things started to go haywire after she started to see him.

I never met him personally. We tried to catch up together, but somehow we never managed to meet up. She told me that after hooking up with him, her sexual appetite had increased manifolds. And here is a woman with a very balanced and healthy approach to life and is not a sex addict.

And every woman with a healthy sexual appetite is anyway a sex addict or nymphomaniac for society. Isn’t she? Now I began to notice this insect like creatures all around her aura. They looked like a swarm of bees, but they were holograms and did not really resemble bees.

Then while researching I came across Shri Aurobindo’s writings on this same matter… You have perhaps read the books of Maurice Magre. He describes this; he had come here, Maurice Magre, and we spoke and he told me that he had always noticed – he was highly sensitive – he had always noticed that people who have [excessive/pathological] sexual desires are surrounded by a kind of small swarm of entities who are somewhat viscous and rather ugly and which torment them constantly, awakening desire in them.

He said he had seen this around certain people. It was like being surrounded by a swarm of mosquitoes, yes! But it is more gross, and much uglier still, and it is viscous, it is horrible, and it turns round and round the person and gives him no peace, and it awakens in him the desire that has formed these entities and they batten on it. It is their food. This is absolutely true. His observation was quite correct. His vision was very true. It is like that. The sex-vampire eats up the other’s vital and gives nothing or very little.”

– from “The Hidden Forces of Life (Integral Yoga) – Selections from the works of Sri Aurobindo and the Mother

These sexual vampires were eating away at her vital force. Her work life was suffering, her relationships were suffering and to top it off she is at the peak of her Sade Sati.

Do you know your genitals and the sacral chakra create LIFE, DEATH, PAIN and PLEASURE…the main binaries that operate throughout our lives. Entities use these powers while you have sex to drain you from prana. Your genitals become pathways and when lower vibrational entities use this energy, they manifest as per as their wishes. That does not resonate with our higher purposes.

That is one of the esoteric reasons for abstaining from sex in various spiritual disciplines. Entities cannot enter you through your sexual organs if you are balanced. If you have deep seated sexual issues or acceptance of your gender issues, then they prey.

With a balance of the sexual energy you are actually changing your own frequency. Sex is a very important aspect of the human condition and we cannot ignore it. We cannot repress it for these feelings and longings will not go away. No matter in which convent you are locked up.

That is why Tantra, the most Scientific doctrine integrates sexuality as a spiritual practice. Yes sex can be meditation. Yes sex can be extremely rewarding on so many levels. Your orgasms are not CONFINED TO YOUR BODY. They lose the concept of space and time. Lots of creative energy can be channelled if we use the sexual energy to create.

Often times desires lose carnality and take greater expression. These sexual urges can be harnessed and used for meditation which leads to OJAS, the Sanskrit word for LIFE FORCE.

My task was to establish a holistic connection between herself and her sexuality. She told me that she hardly masturbated and instead waited to have some sexual encounter and suppressed her sexual feelings. It was not every day that a divorcee in our society gets to have sex. It is actually quite a rare phenomenon. Because women like that hardly meet any one other than their usual crowd. She is never alone usually…but due to sexual hunger, she began to find time. She hooked up on numerous occasions with random strangers and experienced nothing but humiliation. In fact she did not orgasm in most cases. In none actually. Guilt began to built up.

Sexually losing energy with random strangers does us no good and neither does suppressing our sexual thoughts. If we ignore the fact that we are sexual beings, then that approach will just make us more sex hungry and desperate. What are we to do when we have no partner? We have to understand SELF LOVE and SELF PLEASURE. Open to the idea of VAGINAL CRYSTAL EGGS, she bought a handful online. (If you want to know more google it and if you still have questions, ping me)

Each egg was to be used for specific meditations with the YONI. We are working together over the last two months, on a pretty regular basis and one thing has surely changed. The entity on her right shoulder is not being fed her FEAR BASED SEXUAL STIMULI. Now instead, she has turned this vibe and has seen the spiritual side of sex and sexuality.

We create fields of energy with  our sexual acts and intentions. And entities and beings from other dimensions and astral planes often eat away our PRANA or CHI. They know how important human sexuality is and what is ever more important- is the way it is USED. How do humans use their sexuality?

How does it find expression? Are you caught in the lower vibrations or do you feel invigorated after the sexual act? Does it satisfy you MIND, BODY and SOUL? If not, then you are probably being depleted by a sexual vampire, like this woman.

The YONI or the VAGINA is the core of our being, as women. That is the seat of our feminine power. The SACRAL CHAKRA is right on top of the vagina and controls our sexual feelings and stimuli. This CHAKRA holds many of our deepest darkest secrets. Our guilt, our shame is buried there, in the womb.

In fact sterility and other complications of the female reproductive systems arise due to IMBALANCE. When women try to be the man, there is an imbalance. You see women are women…they are unique, just like men. There is no comparison, there is no strife.

We are HUMANS. All of us. With sexual desires and fantasies. But how can we explore these sides of ourselves without guilt or shame?

I suggest become friends with your GENITALIA! As preposterous as it sounds people…go do it. Become friends with your cock and vag. Speak to her or him. Tap them lightly to establish contact.

After this, I suggest you bring awareness to your vagina/cock and let it remain there. This is the two step path to begin. Focus on the MULADHARA and see the light. Bring that light to the sacral chakra and let it LIGHT UP YOUR SEXUALITY.

Lots of thoughts will surface, feelings, emotions. Just be aware and feel everything. No labels please. After about a month of this AWARENESS GROWING, then you will see how your vagina is actually talking back to you. You will not be bothered to go out and get laid uselessly and lose respect, because you will begin to value the sexual act. You will see it as SPIRITUAL.

There the shift has begun. This is how she changed her life. The entity on her shoulder grows weak by the day. She no longer needs to have sex compulsively and feed her addiction. Now she knows how absolutely SACRED it is.

She is willing to wait…for the right person. The right person is someone who is as involved in the moment as you. That person sees the sacredness as you do too. No such encounter can ever be cheap or humiliating. There is only TRUE CONNECTION. When we have sex we share electromagnetic fields that join us forever and there is scope for much spiritual activity from that. Spiritual sex will change the individual and the society forever.

Spiritual sex brings awareness to the body, soul and mind and then integrates it. This trinity is then activated and we lose time/space sense. We become fused with the ONE during the orgasm and even later or even without orgasm. Maithuna is the name for tantric sex. It is the spiritual sex with the GODHEAD on the macro level, but on the micro level, it is TOTAL CONNECTION to your partner.

From such a space, sexuality can really be looked upon as a spiritual tool. But this article does not cover all that. Some other time…

Our ego, boasting of freedom, is at every moment the slave, toy and puppet of countless beings, powers, forces, influences in universal Nature. All life is the play of universal forces. The individual gives a personal form to these universal forces….SRI AUROBINDOab600d01dacf4c336e6b82562e0beeea


Planchette and Paranormal Chanelling

Saw this Performance Art Piece where the artists had spend the night in a graveyard. It made me revisit the times I used to visit a kabaristhan(Muslim burial ground) with a friend in the dark of the night.

No I am not telling you the plot line of some hypothetical M. NIGHT SHYAMALAN film..

I was always into spirits, ghosts, energies and spooky shit. Pisces moon- intense obsession and love affair with the occult. 11 degrees of Pisces- Robin Williams had his at 9 degrees!(Had to add that) Very intensely involved with the human experience…what is observable and what is not.

Did you know we humans see less than 1% of the electromagnetic spectrum and hear less than 1% of the acoustic spectrum! Okay if this does not BLOW YOUR FUCKING MIND, I SERIOUSLY DON’T KNOW WHAT WILL…

That means you cannot hear and see everything…in fact it is less than 1% that you see and hear. So stop trusting your eyes and ears. There is so much out there and we cannot access it. Drives me nuts…because I sense these energies…

I hear things I know are not there and I see things that do not make sense. And those experiences at the graveyard left me changed forever and I cannot say that even till date…after a decade of those experiences have I still managed to assimilate and integrate all that I saw and heard on those trips.

I was going through some major relationship issues and was a wreck. Nothing made sense except this feeling of abject desolation and abandonment. I was becoming addicted to the pain. Chiron in Taurus. They seem to excel at taking suffering to a new level. But usually surface better and stronger. That Kanye West song probably applies best to this placement. So I was taking all this pain(more imaginary that actual because that man was like the last man I should have hooked up with and I was breaking my heart over it!!!) and the graveyard seemed to be a balm to my assaulting senses.

Because there the mundane fell away and the supramundane made itself felt. I have been super charged with ESP since I can remember. Those energies that I sensed and experienced….I need to talk about them…I need to RELEASE them…and HEAL THEM…HEAL..

I will not mention the name of the graveyard for a number of reasons…but I can tell you one thing that the main entity I met with is ANCIENT and powerful. How do I know that?

I found a stone. It did not look like the regular stones from the graves. In fact it was in a script which was intelligible to us. It looked like the Mesopotemian script. The Indus Valley script which has not been deciphered.

This graveyard is very near the sea. The stone looked slightly wet. As I went close to touch it, my friend flipped out. I almost slipped and broke my neck. Sitting down and facing the stone, I touched it…what happened next? A 404 ERROR!!

My consciousness was ripped from my body and I had a sensation of falling…falling into where I don’t know. I don’t think a ketamine overdose could compare to this sensation. I fell back and found myself floored. The caretaker thinking we were troublemakers came screaming and we ran for our lives. What a chase!

But we kept revisiting this place for over a month and then one day I just did not want to go back…

There were so many bodies, all lying so close together, I wondered if they touched each other! Freaky thought!

While walking past the graves, I could hear voices. So many languages and languages I did not understand. Speaking in different tones. That freaked me out because I was ill prepared the first day to step into such an atmosphere.

Now I am in a much better place to visit graveyards and not be totally overwhelmed. In fact I went to many crematoriums after that and met with many Aghori babas who do sadhana there. Talking about Aghori Babas, I cannot not mention DR. RAMNATH AGHORI BABA who was experienced in VETAL GYAN, the science of spirits.

There are stories of Yogis from India, Nepal and Tibet who would keep entities in their bodies. Shocking! Yes…in fact PARAMHAMSA VISHUDDHANANDA kept such an entity in his skull and he had told his disciples that till the very end of times he has to keep this entity with him. For now, he kept it in some part of his brain! Imagine that!

What disturbed me the most were the lost children…so many of them…it broke my heart…why do we fear spirits so? This binary that society has fed us- we are sane and ghosts perfectly insane. How long will we be victim to this polarisation?

We often attempted planchette and tried psychic journaling, meditation and for spell work. We were totally into Wiccan magic back then. Reading IPSITA ROY CHAKRAVERTI and understanding the NEO PAGAN WAYS. Anyway we often made spells there and I can tell you that we explored some intense experiences in our minds and in the spectrum we normally could not look or hear into.

Often times I was scared. I wanted to run away. But somewhere I clutched at the idea that I was a WITCH with great healing powers and even though I was going through this tumultuous times, I could still offer healing to the dead.

I know who I helped make the transition and why. That memory will be etched in my mind forever. But I have felt such a deep and profound connection to that person and it has changed the way I look at life. That person is DEAD and died may years ago. He was not even buried in that graveyard but was caught there.10958091_941308222560512_6323119970934063656_n

Those unfinished sagas which were left unsolved touches me till today. But I knew that my time was up. I had to stop going there.

Rabindranath Tagore was heavily involved with planchette. He became a medium very many times trying to contact his wife Mrinalinidevi. His experiences were nothing short of remarkable…but this article’s scope does not cover that.

My friends made fun of the fact that the planchette phenomenon was restricted to the urban bourgeoisie. Yes most Bengalis stopped the intense ridicule if you told them that their very own KOBIGURU or Tagore was into it. Take my word, planchette really works.

The entities you want to call may not always answer, but someone will. The fear that has been ingrained in us through horror films is that all spirits are here to harm us. In fact they are NOT HERE TO HARM US. They cohabit with us and we are not even aware of them.

Another experience. I was the medium and we were calling the spirit of SUBHAS CHANDRA BOSE. Fuck knows why? Being Bengali makes one believe that Bose and Tagore are immortals that we need to aspire to. A planchette is all about interpreting the signs the spirit gives. And a lot of it is dependant on the psychology of the spirit as well as the medium. But the spirit we managed to bring forth was not Bose. He was in fact a small boy of four who had died. My planchette partners tell me that I mouthed off in Russian and said words they did not understand…Debolina, being the first girl had scribbled it down…moya mat’ ubila menya…

We later discovered that it meant My mother killed me…no amount of RAM RAM could take the creeps away…The baby boy’s cries still ring in my ears. What a piercing shriek.

In fact an English Gypsy woman was heard speaking in Bengali and she was channelling Tagore. He spoke of poetry, life, death and many things…there were a few Bengalis present and they vouch that this indeed was Tagore. The gypsy lady did not obviously know a word of Bengali.

You know I want to go back there again. This time to take with me high tech gadgets to document what I know is there. I want to visit many more such places, do a drumming and sage ceremony for healing if possible.

My friends and family do not necessarily approve…but what do you think?

Do you think that such places should be investigated so we can find some answers to life after death. Scientists are not openly saying that the consciousness travels to a different dimension after death. So we live on…forever…just not in this body…

JACQUES DERRIDA and HAUNTOLOGY…The French word hantise is the etymological root for Derrida’s hauntology. Deridda considers ghosts to be the memory of something which has never been present!!!

Ponder on that…much more coming up…

Venus Retrograde 2017

Venus is a very interesting planet. It is perhaps the most closely connected with the earth in a number of ways; and it has been said that wherever Venus goes, there goes the earth also, and vice versa. As phrased in The Secret Doctrine (II,30-1):Venus is the most occult, powerful, and mysterious of all the planets; the one whose influence upon, and relation to the Earth is most prominent. . . According to the Occult Doctrine, this planet is our Earth’s primary, and its spiritual prototype. . . .“Every sin committed on Earth is felt by Usanas-Sukra. The Guru of the Daityas is the Guardian Spirit of the Earth and Men. Every change on Sukra is felt on, and reflected by, the Earth.”…HPB

The Planet Venus has been given many names throughout history. It has been called the evening and the morning star, the dawn star, Eosphorus, Hesperus and Lucifer. It is the planet closest to Earth and has been called Earth’s sister planet, even her twin. It is easily seen in the sky in the evening and morning and is the brightest “star” in the heavens. It was second only to the sun and the moon in significance by the reckoning of many ancient cultures.

Sumerian hymn to Innana addressing the planet Venus: ‘To her who appears in the sky, to her who appears in the sky, I want to address my greeting, to the hierodule who appears in the sky, I want to address my greeting, to the great queen of heaven, Inanna, I want to address my greeting, to her who fills the sky with her pure blaze, to the luminous one, to Inanna, as bright as the sun, to the great queen of heaven.”

“Venus is the power that we invoke in spring, in the garden, when things begin growing. And we call the evening star Venus.” Ursula K. Le Guin

In Roman mythology, Venus was the goddess of love, sex, beauty, and fertility. She was the Roman counterpart to the Greek Aphrodite. However, Roman Venus had many abilities beyond the Greek Aphrodite; she was a goddess of victory, fertility, and even prostitution. In Chinese astrology, Venus is associated with the element metal (or gold), which is unyielding, strong and persistent. In Indian astrology, Venus is known as Shukra and represents wealth, pleasure and reproduction.

Venus is such a close connection, it is actually the second brightest object in the sky and is symbolic of tempestuous passions she could stir up in the heart’s of the Gods. I have my Venus in Virgo. However, my attention to for “little details” is appalling. Virgo freakishness of combing through every fucking thing with a tiny comb. No. I don’t do that.

I am here to discuss Venus, invoke her powers of HARMONY, BEAUTY, BALANCE and discuss her journey in 2017. I will discuss how we can awaken Venutian energies with stones, meditation and switch words. Identification, love, empathy are keywords of this energy. Friday is Venus’ day.

What is Venus Retrograde? Occasionally, Venus appears to be moving backwards in the sky. “Appears” is the key word here, because, technically speaking, no planet actually moves backwards in their orbits around the Sun. In fact, they don’t even slow down. Retrograde-station-direct cycles are essentially illusions that result from our point of view from Earth, simply because the Earth is also orbiting the Sun at a different speed than the other planets. Venus is Retrograde approximately 40-43 days every 18 months. CAFE ASTROLOGY

Venus retrograde 2017 lasts from March 5 to April 15 and spans 13º Aries to 26º Pisces. What a mix- Aries and Pisces! A volatile combo if the MALE and FEMALE!!!

Now while gazing at this chart, I was stunned to see how sexually energised this station is! Celestial orbs and our human bodies dosed on hormones are going all out on this passionate sexcapade. Uranus and Eris will be triggered by Jupiter in diplomatic Libra.

A stellium is formed and its fiery as it takes place in Aries. Venus is separated from her lover and she likes it not. The last ten days are the most active with these energies. Aries/Libra is activated. Venus is about to embrace Mars but then she retreats back into Pisces. Mysterious, occult Pisces.

What is this retrograde going to teach us collectively?

I feel there will be a certain female figure who will come into prominence. There could be a sex-related scandal as Venus metamorphoses from evening to morning star.

Things heat up as Venus moves closer to the Sun and with her transformation from evening to morning star. But will the Sun devour Venus in the process? 25th could be a day you can get creative solutions to lingering problems.

Venus does have a lot to face in her quest till she becomes Lucifer or the morning star.

Lucifer means lightbringer, from the Latin lux “light” and ferre “to bear or bring.” The word Lucifer is found in only one place in the Bible — Isaiah 14:12 — but only in the King James and related versions: “How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! . . .”  In other translations we find: “O shining star of the dawn!” (Moffatt) or “O morning-star, son of the dawn!” (Hebrew Bible). The King James Version is based on the Vulgate, the Latin translation of Jerome. Jerome translated the Hebrew helel (bright or brilliant one) as “lucifer,” which was a reasonable Latin equivalent. And yet it is this lucifer, the bright one or lightbearer, that came to be understood by so many as the name for Satan, Lord of Darkness…HPB

But before either the Old or New Testament, Venus was known as the “Morning Star.”  Plato, who is thought to have been born in 428 b.c.e. and therefore predates the New Testament and some of the rewrites of the Old Testament, wrote in his work called Timaeus:
Time, then, and the heaven came into being at the same instant in order that, having been created together, if ever there was to be a dissolution of them, they might be dissolved together. It was framed after the pattern of the eternal nature, that it might resemble this as far as was possible; for the pattern exists from eternity, and the created heaven has been, and is, and will be, in all time. Such was the mind and thought of God in the creation of time. The sun and moon and five other stars, which are called the planets, were created by him in order to distinguish and preserve the numbers of time; and when he had made their several bodies, he placed them in the orbits in which the circle of the other was revolving — in seven orbits seven stars. First, there was the moon in the orbit nearest the earth, and next the sun, in the second orbit above the earth; then came the morning star and the star sacred to Hermes, moving in orbits which have an equal swiftness with the sun, but in an opposite direction; and this is the reason why the sun and Hermes and Lucifer overtake and are overtaken by each other.

Plato clearly here is speaking of Lucifer as being the actual planet Venus, with Hermes as being the planet Mercury, “moving in orbits which have an equal swiftness with the Sun.”  It appears that the misogyny of the early Solar cults and the later Roman church might have had a part to play in linking the feminine Venus with Satan.

When Venus is in retrograde, one may be attracted to unattainable love. There may be covert rompings and juicy sexcapades. Be aware!

Venus will be squaring Saturn. This day will be very difficult to express ourselves. Express our loves.

Pisces decan 3 can make indulgent Venus debauched enough already, but now she is in her Lucifer phase AND square Saturn. This will bring out Venus’s dark, treacherous side, the Babylonian goddess of war Ishtar!! Here ‘sex’ and ‘conflict’ will be addressed one way or another. It could be through the catharsis of creative art or it can be through falling into the trap of seduction and indolence. Pisces tends to be a quite courtly sign, swooning and romantic but not with a particularly high libido….Darkstar Astrology

To end this dance and period of romantic and aesthetic introspection, Venus goes direct on Apr 14th.

I know lot of astrologers recommend not to have a love affair or buy luxury goods during Venus retro, but I personally think, it is entirely upto your intuition. Some of my projects have been birthed in Mars and Merc retro. Venus retro is also remarkable if you can channel this deeply feminine energy.

Venus is the harmonising influence of the Fifth Ray, which serves to blend and fuse opposites into greater creative wholes. Venus always gives the potential for greater evolution, development, and abundance of spiritual potential to any planet that she touches. Naturally, when such contact is by a difficult aspect, these benefits may be a bit harder to achieve, but the potential for victory is there…ALICE BAILLEY, ESOTERIC ASTROLOGY

There will be TEMPTATION! Venus is virginal in the first phase of retrogradation. Resist the urge to get back with an ex you don’t need. Sexual pull may tug at your heart, but again, use your powers of judgement.

However, if you wish to channel in Venus’ attraction, I could suggest a SWITCHWORD very effective during this retro time. This will make you appear irresistible to members of the opposite sex. VENUS-HOLE-CURVE-BRING-AMAZING-PRAISE-PERFECT-HOLIDAY-GIVE-TAKE. Chant this mantra constantly and watch MAGICK happen!

In medicine Venus is associated with the lumbar region, the veins, parathyroids, throat and kidneys. During the retro scene, it is best to take care of afflictions resulting from these internal organs. Meditation and yoga which addresses such issues will be beneficial like Paripurna Navasana(Boat pose), Baddha Konasana(bound angle pose), Bhujangasana and others. If you want a detailed list of asanas that will work for you, ping meVenus Giclee on Canvas by artist Michael Parkes

ROSE QUARTZ MEDITATION will be extremely helpful. You could wear it as a pendant or do a ritual with it. Even Jade, emerald, turquoise are helpful and in certain cases where grounding is required, go for Tourmaline. Make sure they are energised.

In the Jewish Cabbala, Venus is the seventh sphere: Victory or Netzach. This forms part of the lowest triad of spheres, together with Hôd (Mercury) and Yesôd (the Moon). Dion Fortune called this the astral triad, the domain of magic where the power of Netzach is shaped by Hôd and manifested in Yesôd. Situated at the base of the pillar of action, Netzach manifests the creative power in emotion and instinct, and all human creativity, both sexual and imaginative The latter includes the arts, and also the god-forms of polytheism, created by man in his own image, yet nevertheless reflecting something of the nature of the universe. Both desire and imagination are to some extent superficial. The term glamour originally meant a magic illusion cast upon something, and the victory of Netzach involves triumphing over the glamour of its outer manifestations to reach that which they symbolise. An ancient text calls Netzach the Hidden Intelligence, “because its brilliant outpouring is received by those spiritual virtues which are seen, in the ecstasy of faith, only by the initiated”.

Animals associated with Venus include the sparrow, dove and swan, so if you’re looking at ANIMAL SHAMANISM and channelling, then you can call upon them to solve your issues.

SPARROW TOTEM: In addition to inspiring us to love ourselves, the sparrow spirit guide also symbolises other joyful and caring qualities, such as creativity, community, friendliness, and the importance of simplicity.

The Greek goddess of love, Aphrodite (Venus in Roman mythology) is often depicted holding a dove in her hand or surrounded by a flock of white doves. Aphrodite’s seven daughters were called a “flock of doves”. Kamadeva, the Hindu god of love is known to ride a dove. The Dove is also a SYMBOL OF PURITY. This totem could help you channel some of that pristine purity.

The Swan is also a symbol of PURE SPIRIT. In India, it is of utmost value and Paramahamsa (परमाहंस), also spelled paramahansa or paramhansa, is a Sanskrit religio-theological title of honour applied to Hindu spiritual teachers who are regarded as having attained enlightenment. The title literally means “supreme swan,” and symbolises spiritual discrimination. You can call upon the totem of the swan to give you healing and spiritual transformation.

Working with colours during this time is also amazing- green, sky blue, rose, white…wear and use these. If you want a more detailed and tailored meditation, contact me. Use incense of course- cherry, vanilla, almond, apricot, sandalwood.

Venus is farther along in the number of rounds run through in this solar manvantara than the earth, and therefore is more advanced in this sense; but the planetary spirit of earth is nevertheless spiritually more advanced because older in number of cosmic manvantaras…HPB

Manasa, the folk Goddess

Persius says,”Pinge duos anguea; pueri, sacer est locos.” “Paint two snakes, and the place is sacred.”

The venomous snakes in the red soil, the impenetrable jungles of Sal, Palash and Mohua of Rar Bangla is the treacherous dance of life and death in the arid region for the tribal folk and there is only one answer to that- the propitiation of the folk goddess Manasa.

This post is about a TRIBAL DEITY called Manasa revered by the ADIVASI’S of RAR BANGLA. They inhabit parts of Burdhawan, east and west Mednipur, Bankura, Purulia and Birbhum. They are the original people of these areas. History and geography combine to form the culture, traditions, values and mores of the peoples. Rar Bangla is made up of red, arid soil, no fertility in those waves of undulating red earth that make up this area. There are thick forests of Sal, Mohua and Palash trees which have given this area a certain type of forlornness, also a raw individuality from the rest of Bengal.

There was a time I was working for a project which was for the Government to get data from the adivasis. We were recording these in film back in 2006 in a PD camera. I travelled extensively through most of these places and have lived with the adivasis.

I spent a few months in Sundarban gathering footage about snake deaths and the mystical medicine men and women who heal  people bitten by a snake. These OJHAS or shamans heal these people through elaborate rituals, mantras, roots of plants, other medicines from animal parts(yikes)…These healings really interested me as I have witnessed once such incident in my childhood.

A seven year old was bitten and pronounced dead. After the shaman sprayed him with some smoke and mantras, he opened his eyes. The ritual was elaborate and I did not get to see the whole of it. But it touched me deeply. Can there be people who can heal such cases? Through magic?

Being of a mystical orientation, I wanted to explore this. Healing fascinated me. I’ve always wanted to pursue my soul’s call – to be a healer. So when this media work came up, I jumped at it. Travelling through Bardhawan, Birbhum, Bankura, these adivasis fascinated me. I began to speak with them and make notes.

They are the real people of the soil and their devis and rituals have the smell of antiquity. It still has some matriarchal remnants. The patriarchal Vedic religion pushed these Goddesses to the backstage and took centre stage. No place for the sacred feminine, only MASCULINE RULERS shall rule became the adage.

I stayed with the people in their huts, by the river Raymangal. Pastoral, idyllic Bengal. Vibrant red soil or ranga mati as it is called. This place was in the real interiors, Hemnagar. Thick canopies of mangrove surrounding me. No electricity in the hut. No toilet either. Bathing in the river. Yes brushing as well.

It was an intense month and my psycho-spiritual being was enlivened. I woke up to a new reality. At night, I would sit under the moonlight, mostly alone and wonder about life, multiple realities, the complexities of human interaction, the subtlety of feeling….so much, so much. Write, gaze at my tarot and I pod(which never had battery and I had to walk 3 miles to get it charged). Hahahaha.

Mercury was setting fire to the brain. I have to look at the astroyoga during that time and I will be left stunned surely. Anytime some event has happened and I have looked at it through the ASTRO LENS, I have been left speechless. The synchronicities between the orbs above and ME, a little Universe(YONIVERSE…haha) are too SUBLIME! Seriously if you study the sky and then study the event that happened, then you will surely, surely see how AS ABOVE SO BELOW is so fucking true.

This journey was probably one of the most self awakening one I have taken so far. These travels through RAR BANGLA have opened me up to so many ideas…of feminism(NOT THE WESTERN YOU YOU COMPREHEND THE TERM), matriarchy, the never say die attitude of BEHULA. Another myth we will explore- BEHULA and LAKHINDER, probably one of the best love stories I HAVE EVER HEARD.

No it is not a tragedy like Romeo and Juliet. Yes someone dies, but then HE is resurrected. Whoosh! Their love story is the very crux on which MANASA establishes her FEMINISM. The story is long, but essentially Behula goes through hell and high waters to get her husband back and she remains steadfast in her loyalty to Manasa. Her father in law worships Shiva and refuses to acknowledge Manasa. Fuck knows why?

You know how the WILD SACRED FEMININE cannot be IGNORED. NO WAY! I don’t mean this in a negative way. I mean if the feminine does not inspire the masculine then there is no CREATION. Nada. No yin and yan. No yoni and lingam! Finally the be all and end all of this story is much in the veins of Ishtar who forces Anu to acknowledge and accept her. Similarly Manasa who is also said to be Shiva’s daughter(but here daughter is ALLEGORICAL) but look how hard she had to work to get her point across. And again ladies and gentlemen….meet the scapegoat- the human!

On a serious note, I don’t like the way myths portray humans all the time. So helpless, so pathetic. And how hard we have to try. If this reality is a simulation by aliens or worse…future humanity, then they are ONE SADISTIC BUNCH!

Manasa and Ishtar have many parallels that can be drawn. Essentially MANASA is a SNAKE GODDESS. There was a Minoan, ancient Greek Minoan, yes those guys before Plato who supposedly lived in Atlantis.

More than two thousand years ago, the Greek historian Plato wrote about Atlantis, the fabled civilisation that was swallowed by the sea. But the origins of Plato’s story have never been identified. It is only recently that some archaeologists have begun to believe the legend may have started on Crete. They are hoping that scientific investigation can provide an actual link to Plato’s ancient folk memory.

The famous Snake Goddess of ancient Crete has long attracted students of history and art. Elegant, risquée, enigmatic, she embodies the mystery and allure of Minoan civilisation. One depiction of the leading Canaanite goddess Astarte shares striking features with the Snake Goddess. Both are topless, and both are holding snakes in their hands. Astarte is ISHTAR!!!

Astarte was the goddess of the planet Venus—€”Ishtar in Mesopotamia and elsewhere, Isi (Isis) in Egypt, al-Uzza (the Sublime One) among the Arabs, by far the most important female deity of the ancient Near East. According to the theory of Immanuel Velikovsky, Ishtar/Astarte was the female version of the planet Venus.

The other common motif is the nakedness of these Goddesses. Manasa is known to wear only snakes. This is also a symbol, of their enlightenment. A dakini (Sanskrit: “sky dancer”) is a Tantric priestess of ancient India who “carried the souls of the dead to the sky”. The dakini is a female being of generally volatile temperament, who acts as a muse for spiritual practice and is also depicted naked. Astarte/Ishtar/Innana were also topless showing they have shed IGNORANCE.

Manasa is so all pervasive in the adivasi culture that I almost began to sense her presence the very moment I began to live in Hemnagar. This wild feminine energy does much to inspire me. In fact I seek communion with it. Little do I know, I am it! I mean I want to become one with it. One with the Goddess. Manasa…

I want to make ethno-fiction, like Jean Rouch. I want to live in these areas, go from one adivasi community to another, shoot and blog about them while living in their midst. That culture is so remote, surreal, almost unreal, yet so magical. Their voices, the chants, the smells…so unlike anything I have experienced in Calcutta or Bombay.

You know what was so interesting- these adivasis, Bauris, Bagdis, Bhumij, Kora, Mundas, Oraon, Bauris, Mahalis and many more have all assimilated with the Hindu religion and also pray to Shiva, Durga, but their worship is unique and they have adapted every ritual, every mantra to what works best for them. The effect is STUNNING! I mean indigenous people fascinate me, so it was normal that I was very taken by everything. Their hospitality, their responsibility for the environment, their stories…were just so different to my city life that it became one of the most important MASTER CLASSES life has given me in CHARACTERISATION! Agriculture has now become a staple profession, but some still retain their ancestral work like building with bamboo, drawing on sal leaves etc, making terracotta artefacts.

All in all the history, culture, politics and worship of this region differs greatly from the rest of Bengal, in fact it may be considered a small world on its own. Even with technology and modernisation, they still remain very close to their forefathers. The culture of these folk people are now a mixture of many elements- the Vedic, the Vaishnav, the Islamic, the Christian, but still inherently the main figures of worship are folk goddesses like Monosha, Banshuli and Chandi to name a few.

Anyway when I read up on her and her festivals and the importance of women in them, I knew I had to explore more into the myth of MANASA. In fact she called out to me. In the Vedic system women are forced to take the back-seat, so here there was, this powerful goddess who did not discriminate and was fiercely independent. I liked that.

In Rar Bangla, the amalgamation of ancient Vedic and tribal goddesses have created a peculiar synthesis, enriching both traditions and systems and I’ve seen it up front. Fascinating stuff!

Manasa is a powerful symbol of feminism and in Rar Bengal we see the women are inextricably interwoven in her festivities. In Bankura district, under the Vishnupur station there is a hamlet called Ayodhya. On a certain date, there is a festival called Ginnipalan. With the first sign of dawn, the women gather around the Darakeshwar river, in a secluded place. Then two elderly women are chosen to play the role of Ram and Sita. The women organise the rites and rituals of their wedding and beautiful songs can be heard. The women spent the whole day in this play acting and after an evening supper return home. Can you imagine? AN ALL WOMEN FESTIVAL!! OF MYTHIC PROPORTIONS!! NO MEN NEEDED!!! A female has taken the place of the male. Sita has become Ram!

Over and again what has amazed me is THE HUGE PARTICIPATION OF WOMEN!

There is so much I want to write about Manasa. In fact I want to invoke her energies. I want to write about her, make videos on her and spread her awesomeness to the whole wide world. Sounds corny? Good. It’s meant to.

I leave you with much food for thought surely. Why not look into Manasa and see if the Serpent Goddess stirs your imagination?f484b2fdf9bbf2d4200a79d039038559