I am absolutely okay with the fact that she has decided to take this stance and protest in her own way. Actually what made me want to write this post were all the comments, calling her a lesbian, commenting on her tits and that she is ugly. This is what disappoints me.

This woman is here, DARING TO BARE HER REAL BREASTS IN THE AGE OF BREAST AUGMENTATION and all people can do is call her names.

Look at the men in the scene. How DISGUSTED they are by her as if her breasts are some sort of biological weapon. Didn’t these men suckle?

Abuse, taunting remarks…where is the logical discussion. If a woman feels the need to protest like this, then why are we prepared not to listen? We are okay with fake, sexualised breasts on Victoria Secret’s angels, but we cannot see a real flesh and blood woman appear naked in society.

Kali is also naked, so are the Dakini and most enlightened feminine forms. Why do you feel such reprehension. They are just breasts. You have them too. So why the fuss?






Red hot passion- EROS IN ARIES

“Everything in the world is about sex except sex. Sex is about power.”

This man couldn’t be more correct- SEX RULES THE WORLD, not money. SEX RULES. Considering the progress we’ve had over the years, Sex is now ALL ABOUT POWER. In fact it is all about CONTROL. Yet what we fail to grasp is that losing that control during wild sex is what gives us GOD-REALISATION!

Yesterday night I experienced this powerful EROS energy- MY WHOLE BEING WAS OVERPOWERED BY SEXUAL LONGINGS! Yesterday night my body was on fire and every kiss, every touch just drove me wild. Sitting in the YABYUM yesterday with my partner, I cannot tell you how much my being was consumed by a divine longing. To join in kamamudra. Without going into much detail I can tell you that it ended kinda unconventionally. We were both so open to passionate, eager exploration and we managed to witness a true COSMIC ORGASM! There was just so much desire to copulate in me that I was pretty taken by that feeling. I love the turned-on feeling! I mean, who doesn’t?

“We are all born sexual creatures,thank God, but it’s a pity so many people despise and crush this natural gift.”
― Marilyn Monroe

Eros. The sign position of the Asteroid, Eros, can reveal some of our erotic turn-ons, as well as the level of our erotic nature…CAFE ASTROLOGY. So if you’re looking to discover your sexual nature then look for Mars, Venus, Moon and this asteroid.

Often this energy is what  makes us seek out different types of sexual experiences like BDSM, Femdom, she-males, orgies…such sexual desires are considered abhorrent by most and are frowned upon by the mainstream.

However I read somewhere that the AMERICAN PSYCHIATRIST ASSOCIATION is trying to label paedophilia as a sexual orientation!!! That is JUST WRONG. There is no excuse for rape, paedophilia, torture and killings, abuse of minors, bestiality and all such shit.

The Asteroid Eros can shed some light on some of our erotic turn-ons. In mythology, Eros was the god of sexual love and desire. He was considered irresistible. In Roman mythology, Eros was known as Cupid. “In Greek art Eros was depicted as a winged youth, slight but beautiful, often with eyes covered to symbolise the blindness of love. Sometimes he carried a flower, but more commonly the silver bow and arrows, with which he shot darts of desire into the bosoms of gods and men.” (Encarta Encyclopedia)

Why do we fight this sexual drive? I am done ignoring it, suppressing it or running away from it. After I became sexually active, I think post pregnancy, for about two years my libido was the lowest. I was breastfeeding 24/7. I still breastfeed my three year old and will do so and am not blaming that for my libido, but there was no passion, nothing. In fact a previous transit of 2015 made my sexuality come alive. And this time, I am not ashamed of it. I will not run away from it. Researching and educating myself about SEX is the only way I can consider my sexual journey as a part of my spiritual journey.

Yes they can be married. SEXUALITY and SPIRITUALITY. That sexual death was also a sexual rebirth. I echo Bukowski “Sex is kicking death in the ass while singing.” Why can’t we contextualise sex this. Only when we bring sex into context can we see how society is OBSESSED with sex and is also SUFFERING TREMENDOUSLY for it. Homosexuals, women’s contraceptive rights, planned parenthood…all of this shit we have created is hitting us in the face.

How can sex be bad? When you kiss someone the whole night or lie in each other’s arms, no matter even if it is for that one night, its beautiful. There is nothing cheap about it. Sexual exploration and adventure must be a part of the curriculum for life.

And EROS ENERGY gives your LIBIDO a swift kick. It reminds you of the insatiable sexual longings  you feel. It reminds you of how he felt when you held him so tight in your arms, the way he moved inside. It makes me weak to just write about it. lol

This transit looks GOOD.  Eros is Aries is going to make us seem sexy.  It’s going to propel the powers of whatever house you have Aries in, and it is extremely positive for attracting sexual partners.  For those of you who are already sexually active, this transit is going to add some hot bloodedness to your interactions.  Expect the unexpected from your lovers, because during this transit they are going to be seeing you with new eyes.  You are going to look like just the thing that hits the spot.  Love making under this transit is raw, sexy, enchanting and life giving.  Please, please, please take advantage of this gift….says ARTEMIS from HERETICAL ORACLES.

Are you feeling it? Are you attracting more sexual adventures? Or interest from potential partners? Channel the energy and make it count. Make your PERSONAL UNION A PART OF THE COSMIC UNION and you shall experience the best orgasms of your life. Sex is finite yes…but the yearning is INFINITE. Do you agree?

Do not feel pressured though, because Eros in Aries also rules being single, and basking in all of the freedom that offers…says HELIOS fro HERETICAL ORACLES

Then if you’re single, just DISCOVER HOW TO PLEASE  YOURSELF. Yes it is the BEST OPTION. I know this whole cosmic orgasm thing can sound like quite a challenge, so I implore you to not feel anxious if you don’t have such an experience. Ask yourself. Do you want it? How badly do  you want it? That cosmic intense coupling. Unabashed, open and free lovemaking…a meditation. If you want it, then take BABY STEPS towards it.

Speak to your partner or better still GET A PARTNER! Lol. There are so many amazing things you can do to get this Eros energy activated. Ping me for more.

No matter what stage of sexual exploration you are in, this Eros transit could definitely benefit. Take a dip in the erotic waters of Eros! And feel that longing…hold on to that longing like a meditative practise. Who knows what that LONGING MIGHT BECOME? Who knows what it can metamorphose into?


Sun in Aquarius

Progress lies not in enhancing what is, but in advancing toward what will be. Khalil Gibran

That is the very essence of SUN IN AQUARIUS. Bringing to light our SENSE OF SELF. I AM. ME-NESS, CORE INDIVIDUALITY.

Aquarius: Fixed Air      Ruler: Saturn

Keywords: Humanity, Idealism, Pragmatism, Community, Liberty, Equality, Science

Do you feel a shift? A shift of energy from mystical Pisces to intellectual Aquarius. The Sun(SELF) enters AQUARIUS(Intellect). Now is the time to use your MIND TO CREATE. Oh we are ENTERING THE ECLIPSE PORTALS!!! DIMENSIONAL VORTEXES!

Depending on which vibration you are tuning into for Mars, you might feel aggressive or you might feel very focused. Saturn is discipline and hard work. This square can create tension.

The moon in Libra is keeping balance.

This astro is giving me a lot of fuel to write. Why don’t you give it a go? Do whatever tickles your fancy. Use your mind.

This astroyoga will bring the collective consciousness back to community.

Higher mojo of Aquarius is PURE HUMANITARIANISM. Philanthropy. Aquarian energy is IMPARTIAL. Maybe COLD, especially in personal relationships. Truth, beauty, freedom- all such higher ideas will appeal to us now. We will seek brilliance.

But the lower frequency mojo may make you extra critical, cold, detached, unmoved, apathetic, unemotional, have a superiority complex, impracticality.

We will all try to make sense of our existence through some community bond. Individuality may be sacrificed due to integration.

My mind is HYPER ACTIVE! In fact I can barely sleep yet I am not completely enervated. The Sun moving in Aquarius does set my mind on fire. How was Sun in Capricorn for you? Did you get all structure and institution stuff sorted out? Legal issues?

Now come out of hibernation. Yes it might be winter still, but a new life will be infused in the cosmic energy field. Think more intellectually, it might work better. Be intuitive of course, but do the Aquarian thing. RESEARCH! Do your homework.

Aquarius is very much into THINKING, even OVER THINKING. The energy of the collective may focus more on the intellectual and less on the emotional. Which may be a good thing. Who knows? I like feelings…

Original thought and original ideas as well as an original person will be in DEMAND. Eccentricity may be rewarded. Be prepared to have off beat, serendipitous conversations with complete strangers in cafes. It is the new normal. In fact initiate that convo. BE FUCKING OUTRAGEOUS. Sun in Aquarius demands you do so.

Dream on baby….and dream RIDICULOUSLY OUTRAGEOUS.



Are you my #twinflame?

Art by Alex Grey


 “Our lived lives might become a protracted mourning for, or an endless tantrum about, the lives we were unable to live,” wrote the psychoanalyst Adam Phillips in his elegant case for the value of our unlived life. “But the exemptions we suffer, whether forced or chosen, make us who we are.”

Have you ever wondered how it might have been if you did not take the metro that day? Or what would have happened if you had not spoken to that person that day? What would happen if you had been with x and not y?

You may be married or in a committed relationship. You might be single or you might be fucking everything that walks. But do you ever feel WHAT IF????

What if x was the guy I lost my virginity with? What is B was my teacher instead of C? Why am I stuck with m and not n? So many what ifs…

Disoriented? Disillusioned by what I am saying because you know it is true???

Do you ever go scrolling down your Facebook feed and see that PERSON. That person who you wanted so badly but it didn’t work out? It crushes you? For me it is a longing for someone I have never met. An experience I cannot even dream of.

I don’t know what I am missing because I have no comprehension of it, but still I AM MISSING IT. Pisces Moon, Leo Sun and Ascendant could be creating this incessant need, no I would say addiction of WANTING TO MISS SOMEONE OR SOMETHING.

The feeling is not real. For what is real? There are these conversations I have in my mind. I know they have happened, some are happening right now. I have sensed his energy, but never met him.

Don’t misunderstand. I am very, very, very much in love with my partner of fourteen years! But it is not the same feeling. You know about soul mates and twin flames yes? What if I tell you that when you miss someone without knowing whom it is you are exactly missing, then probably it’s your twin flame you are missing. We are all in a state of quantum entanglement. There are parallel realities and “spooky action at a distance”, as Einstein called it.

There is a parallel narrative happening. In fact not one, numerous and sometimes I tune into them. I sense those energies and I …SOMEONE/SOMETHING?? I have tried so desperately to put a face to the energy, but nothing. In fact I have met many people who have been my previous  lovers, but this energy, there is no name to it. Have you felt this spooky action at a distance? An immense, intense craving for someone. It is all consuming.

Tossed into the world, I have been subjected to its laws and its contingencies, ruled by wills other than my own, by circumstance and by history: it is therefore reasonable for me to feel that I am myself contingent. What staggers me is that at the same time I am not contingent. If I had not been born no question would have arisen: I have to take the fact that I do exist as my starting point. To be sure, the future of the woman I have been may turn me into someone other than myself. But in that case it would be this other woman who would be asking herself who she was. For the person who says “Here am I” there is no other coexisting possibility. Yet this necessary coincidence of the subject and his history is not enough to do away with my perplexity. My life: it is both intimately known and remote; it defines me and yet I stand outside it…. Simone de Beauvoir 

Similarly what if I had not answered that call from him? What if I never met him? I would not have my baby. Breaks my heart. There is nothing I want more than to be with him and my baby. Yet there is a craving…for something that is not and will never be.

For there is no real man. I mean this feeling is not real. And even if it is in some way, then there is nothing I can do about it. I guess it is the artist in me that craves for new inspiration. The Universe exists because we can observe it. The wave has only become a particle.

We are an accident. From the cosmic lottery hat containing zillions of universes, we happened to draw a universe that allowed life. But then again, if we had not drawn such a ticket, we would not be here to ponder the odds… Alan Lightman 

I have drawn the energies I wanted to experience in this physical body. The man I hold, the man I conjured, the man I am intimate with is the one I drew to me. But if the whole MULTIVERSE thing is real, then he cannot be with me in every single multiverse, can he?

There are others. Then it’s not one person I am missing? An amalgamation of every single man. Oh wait a minute. I refuse to believe that I am straight in every single Universe. So there are women too. My lovers.

Am I missing a congregation of all the energies that are playing with me through eternities, through infinities. Then there is this SOULMATE, TWINFLAME THEORY that went viral. The article was called THREE LOVES OF YOUR LIFE or something, basically saying we have three main lovers. It also said that the person we never live with our soul mates. Not for most.

So here in all this madness and mayhem of multiverses we have a Schrodinger’s cat. For me it is alive and for me it is dead. But in this reality is it ALIVE or DEAD. I have to decide. I make this reality.

The yoni or the Pussy is in fact like a radar for this twinflame sensation. Whenever the feeling of closeness and intimacy with someone I have never known dawns, the yoni reacts immediately. There is of course much wisdom in the Yoni that I draw from.

Do you feel your yoni come alive? And I don’t mean just feeling horny? But a sense of a lotus opening. The yoni is like the lotus and is a symbol of the COSMIC CREATRIX. Yoni means SACRED SPACE and the gateway to the womb. It is also the Holy Grail.

Which is why I think self pleasure is so amazing to experience this twinflame connection. For when you truly “TOUCH” yourself, you merge the yin and the yang. No thesis or antithesis. SYNTHESIS.

You can use self pleasure as a meditation to send energy to your twinflame anywhere. Twinflames for we are entangled with every single thing out there. There is no separation. I mean however far-fetched it sounds, but that gives me some peace. I know I regularly communicate TELEPATHICALLY with my twinflame. I use meditation, the tarot and other psycho-somatic exercises. I will write about them in greater detail.

The internet has many takes on what a twinflame could be… Most twinflame couples are physically at a distance or live in different countries. Often there is something that prevents the twinflames from being physically together in the beginning. This is usually because there is much energetic work to be done on the mental and emotional levels before the physical meeting can occur. If the physical meeting were to occur too soon the energy can often be too intense. Found that somewhere ONLINE.

In simple terms this is not the human partner that we long to have here in our relationships with humans but it is our own energetic soul mate that we have disconnected from when we incarnate in this human form. …Found that too.

So often with this twinflame archetype there is the feeling of it not being HUMAN which is totally fucking believable. Because what love that is human and day to day can withhold such awesome magnetism? It can’t. For day to day reality seeps in.

I think this twinflame, when SPIRITUALISED, is RUMI’S BELOVED.

I swear, since seeing Your face,

the whole world is fraud and fantasy

The garden is bewildered as to what is leaf

or blossom. The distracted birds

can’t distinguish the birdseed from the snare.


A house of love with no limits,

a presence more beautiful than venus or the moon,

a beauty whose image fills the mirror of the heart.

Will it sound weird to you if I tell you I have lived on many different worlds before I came here? Look I know in the higher vibration, this feeling I feel is my higher self. This twinflame emotion of intense longing is for my ishta/yidam. Or my beloved.

The concept of Ishta or yidam is from this vibration. I get it. But from this 3D conception it becomes a longing for the opposite sex. We are actually ANDROGYNOUS. We split into males and females. Read up on Plato’s myth.

In the Skanda Purana, Parvati requests Shiva to allow her to reside with him, embracing “limb-to-limb”, and so Ardhanarishvara is formed. This ARDHANARISHWARA is the COSMIC ANDROGYNY. This embrace of the yin and the yang results in creation.

So when we separate from our SHIVA, we feel this SEPARATION.

Ardhanarishvara symbolizes that the male and female principles are inseparable. The composite form conveys the unity of opposites (coniunctio oppositorum) in the universe. The male half of Ardhanarishvara stands for Purusha and female half is Prakriti. Purusha is the male principle and passive force of the universe, while Prakriti is the female active force; both are “constantly drawn to embrace and fuse with each other, though… separated by the intervening axis”. The union of Purusha (Shiva) and Prikriti (Shiva’s energy, Shakti) generates the universe, an idea also manifested in the union of the Linga of Shiva and Yoni of Devi creating the cosmos. The Mahabharata lauds this form as the source of creation. Ardhanarishvara also suggests the element of Kama or Lust, which leads to creation.

This separation in my yoni is that separation to entwine with the DIVINE MALE. I feel it strongly. This pulse. This cosmic union.

There is a part of me that knows that love cannot be experienced in its higher octaves in this dense 3D. This is the world of duality which is why internet spiritualists say that most people do not end up with their TWINFLAME. This reality is so fraught with DUALITY that CONFLICT IS BOUND TO EMERGE IF YOU COHABIT WITH AN INDIVIDUAL.

Can you imagine not having a fight with the person you’re living with? Can you imagine SUCH CRAZY INTENSITY in a marriage of twenty five years. In no way am I dissing MARRIAGES. No. Long term commitment has its own pros and cons, this polarisation of the male female is a necessity for SOUL GROWTH. But TWINFLAME LOVE IS NOT MUNDANE. This is probably why people don’t land up with their twinflame.

Most people don’t even meet their TWINFLAMES…the INNER VOID ACHES!

The QUEST for my twinflame is a motif in my UNCONSCIOUS is a search for my OWN IDENTITY??? I think that is the best explanation I can find. Why else do I not have a type? A type of man I fancy. I just have ideas, smiles, words, feelings to that CONCEPT I have created. This man! I thought I will meet my twinflame in Goa. Dancing is the only true way to recognise such a primal connection. And I don’t mean clubbing. I mean dancing like no one is fucking watching. Dancing the psychedelic dance where social conditioning breaks down and ego structures collapse. But nope. Nothing….I did meet my partner who could or could not be my twinflame.

I don’t think I will call him my twinflame. He is too close for that. That elusive mystery I seek…that yearning in the Yoni, so deep that nothing can satisfy it. Maybe dying and uniting with the SOURCE CODE might keep that fire in check.

Do you feel this yearning too? This hollowness?


Instead, our souls communicate with us through symbols, metaphors, archetypes, poetry, deep feelings and magic. The human language is far too limiting to express the full spectrum of profound knowledge, insight and revelation that the soul has to share… Aletheia Luna 

It’s this symbols and metaphors and deep feelings, with a dash of magick that my twinflame communicates with me. Sometimes I need to hear a track, even a few lines and memories come flooding back. They are not coherent memories.

I feel like I have deleted those memories!!! Like Kate Winslet in Eternal Sunshine…But I’m just a fucked up girl looking for my own peace of mind…” I think that film is my favourite love story. There is so much intensity, reality in it, the HUMAN EXPERIENCE in its fragile beauty.

Communicating with your twinflame is not incessant banter. It is a deep SILENCE. It is SPIRITUAL. I mean even when I am talking of sexual love with another. This stuff is DEEP. In fact this aching in me lead to many a useless relationship. I just wish I had developed a deeper relationship with my Yoni!

So my twinflame if you are reading this I want to end this with Kate Winslet’s lines in the same film…”COME BACK AND MAKE UP A GOODBYE AT LEAST. LET’S PRETEND WE HAD ONE…”




Manasa, the folk Goddess

Persius says,”Pinge duos anguea; pueri, sacer est locos.” “Paint two snakes, and the place is sacred.”

The venomous snakes in the red soil, the impenetrable jungles of Sal, Palash and Mohua of Rar Bangla is the treacherous dance of life and death in the arid region for the tribal folk and there is only one answer to that- the propitiation of the folk goddess Manasa.

This post is about a TRIBAL DEITY called Manasa revered by the ADIVASI’S of RAR BANGLA. They inhabit parts of Burdhawan, east and west Mednipur, Bankura, Purulia and Birbhum. They are the original people of these areas. History and geography combine to form the culture, traditions, values and mores of the peoples. Rar Bangla is made up of red, arid soil, no fertility in those waves of undulating red earth that make up this area. There are thick forests of Sal, Mohua and Palash trees which have given this area a certain type of forlornness, also a raw individuality from the rest of Bengal.

There was a time I was working for a project which was for the Government to get data from the adivasis. We were recording these in film back in 2006 in a PD camera. I travelled extensively through most of these places and have lived with the adivasis.

I spent a few months in Sundarban gathering footage about snake deaths and the mystical medicine men and women who heal  people bitten by a snake. These OJHAS or shamans heal these people through elaborate rituals, mantras, roots of plants, other medicines from animal parts(yikes)…These healings really interested me as I have witnessed once such incident in my childhood.

A seven year old was bitten and pronounced dead. After the shaman sprayed him with some smoke and mantras, he opened his eyes. The ritual was elaborate and I did not get to see the whole of it. But it touched me deeply. Can there be people who can heal such cases? Through magic?

Being of a mystical orientation, I wanted to explore this. Healing fascinated me. I’ve always wanted to pursue my soul’s call – to be a healer. So when this media work came up, I jumped at it. Travelling through Bardhawan, Birbhum, Bankura, these adivasis fascinated me. I began to speak with them and make notes.

They are the real people of the soil and their devis and rituals have the smell of antiquity. It still has some matriarchal remnants. The patriarchal Vedic religion pushed these Goddesses to the backstage and took centre stage. No place for the sacred feminine, only MASCULINE RULERS shall rule became the adage.

I stayed with the people in their huts, by the river Raymangal. Pastoral, idyllic Bengal. Vibrant red soil or ranga mati as it is called. This place was in the real interiors, Hemnagar. Thick canopies of mangrove surrounding me. No electricity in the hut. No toilet either. Bathing in the river. Yes brushing as well.

It was an intense month and my psycho-spiritual being was enlivened. I woke up to a new reality. At night, I would sit under the moonlight, mostly alone and wonder about life, multiple realities, the complexities of human interaction, the subtlety of feeling….so much, so much. Write, gaze at my tarot and I pod(which never had battery and I had to walk 3 miles to get it charged). Hahahaha.

Mercury was setting fire to the brain. I have to look at the astroyoga during that time and I will be left stunned surely. Anytime some event has happened and I have looked at it through the ASTRO LENS, I have been left speechless. The synchronicities between the orbs above and ME, a little Universe(YONIVERSE…haha) are too SUBLIME! Seriously if you study the sky and then study the event that happened, then you will surely, surely see how AS ABOVE SO BELOW is so fucking true.

This journey was probably one of the most self awakening one I have taken so far. These travels through RAR BANGLA have opened me up to so many ideas…of feminism(NOT THE WESTERN YOU YOU COMPREHEND THE TERM), matriarchy, the never say die attitude of BEHULA. Another myth we will explore- BEHULA and LAKHINDER, probably one of the best love stories I HAVE EVER HEARD.

No it is not a tragedy like Romeo and Juliet. Yes someone dies, but then HE is resurrected. Whoosh! Their love story is the very crux on which MANASA establishes her FEMINISM. The story is long, but essentially Behula goes through hell and high waters to get her husband back and she remains steadfast in her loyalty to Manasa. Her father in law worships Shiva and refuses to acknowledge Manasa. Fuck knows why?

You know how the WILD SACRED FEMININE cannot be IGNORED. NO WAY! I don’t mean this in a negative way. I mean if the feminine does not inspire the masculine then there is no CREATION. Nada. No yin and yan. No yoni and lingam! Finally the be all and end all of this story is much in the veins of Ishtar who forces Anu to acknowledge and accept her. Similarly Manasa who is also said to be Shiva’s daughter(but here daughter is ALLEGORICAL) but look how hard she had to work to get her point across. And again ladies and gentlemen….meet the scapegoat- the human!

On a serious note, I don’t like the way myths portray humans all the time. So helpless, so pathetic. And how hard we have to try. If this reality is a simulation by aliens or worse…future humanity, then they are ONE SADISTIC BUNCH!

Manasa and Ishtar have many parallels that can be drawn. Essentially MANASA is a SNAKE GODDESS. There was a Minoan, ancient Greek Minoan, yes those guys before Plato who supposedly lived in Atlantis.

More than two thousand years ago, the Greek historian Plato wrote about Atlantis, the fabled civilisation that was swallowed by the sea. But the origins of Plato’s story have never been identified. It is only recently that some archaeologists have begun to believe the legend may have started on Crete. They are hoping that scientific investigation can provide an actual link to Plato’s ancient folk memory.

The famous Snake Goddess of ancient Crete has long attracted students of history and art. Elegant, risquée, enigmatic, she embodies the mystery and allure of Minoan civilisation. One depiction of the leading Canaanite goddess Astarte shares striking features with the Snake Goddess. Both are topless, and both are holding snakes in their hands. Astarte is ISHTAR!!!

Astarte was the goddess of the planet Venus—€”Ishtar in Mesopotamia and elsewhere, Isi (Isis) in Egypt, al-Uzza (the Sublime One) among the Arabs, by far the most important female deity of the ancient Near East. According to the theory of Immanuel Velikovsky, Ishtar/Astarte was the female version of the planet Venus.

The other common motif is the nakedness of these Goddesses. Manasa is known to wear only snakes. This is also a symbol, of their enlightenment. A dakini (Sanskrit: “sky dancer”) is a Tantric priestess of ancient India who “carried the souls of the dead to the sky”. The dakini is a female being of generally volatile temperament, who acts as a muse for spiritual practice and is also depicted naked. Astarte/Ishtar/Innana were also topless showing they have shed IGNORANCE.

Manasa is so all pervasive in the adivasi culture that I almost began to sense her presence the very moment I began to live in Hemnagar. This wild feminine energy does much to inspire me. In fact I seek communion with it. Little do I know, I am it! I mean I want to become one with it. One with the Goddess. Manasa…

I want to make ethno-fiction, like Jean Rouch. I want to live in these areas, go from one adivasi community to another, shoot and blog about them while living in their midst. That culture is so remote, surreal, almost unreal, yet so magical. Their voices, the chants, the smells…so unlike anything I have experienced in Calcutta or Bombay.

You know what was so interesting- these adivasis, Bauris, Bagdis, Bhumij, Kora, Mundas, Oraon, Bauris, Mahalis and many more have all assimilated with the Hindu religion and also pray to Shiva, Durga, but their worship is unique and they have adapted every ritual, every mantra to what works best for them. The effect is STUNNING! I mean indigenous people fascinate me, so it was normal that I was very taken by everything. Their hospitality, their responsibility for the environment, their stories…were just so different to my city life that it became one of the most important MASTER CLASSES life has given me in CHARACTERISATION! Agriculture has now become a staple profession, but some still retain their ancestral work like building with bamboo, drawing on sal leaves etc, making terracotta artefacts.

All in all the history, culture, politics and worship of this region differs greatly from the rest of Bengal, in fact it may be considered a small world on its own. Even with technology and modernisation, they still remain very close to their forefathers. The culture of these folk people are now a mixture of many elements- the Vedic, the Vaishnav, the Islamic, the Christian, but still inherently the main figures of worship are folk goddesses like Monosha, Banshuli and Chandi to name a few.

Anyway when I read up on her and her festivals and the importance of women in them, I knew I had to explore more into the myth of MANASA. In fact she called out to me. In the Vedic system women are forced to take the back-seat, so here there was, this powerful goddess who did not discriminate and was fiercely independent. I liked that.

In Rar Bangla, the amalgamation of ancient Vedic and tribal goddesses have created a peculiar synthesis, enriching both traditions and systems and I’ve seen it up front. Fascinating stuff!

Manasa is a powerful symbol of feminism and in Rar Bengal we see the women are inextricably interwoven in her festivities. In Bankura district, under the Vishnupur station there is a hamlet called Ayodhya. On a certain date, there is a festival called Ginnipalan. With the first sign of dawn, the women gather around the Darakeshwar river, in a secluded place. Then two elderly women are chosen to play the role of Ram and Sita. The women organise the rites and rituals of their wedding and beautiful songs can be heard. The women spent the whole day in this play acting and after an evening supper return home. Can you imagine? AN ALL WOMEN FESTIVAL!! OF MYTHIC PROPORTIONS!! NO MEN NEEDED!!! A female has taken the place of the male. Sita has become Ram!

Over and again what has amazed me is THE HUGE PARTICIPATION OF WOMEN!

There is so much I want to write about Manasa. In fact I want to invoke her energies. I want to write about her, make videos on her and spread her awesomeness to the whole wide world. Sounds corny? Good. It’s meant to.

I leave you with much food for thought surely. Why not look into Manasa and see if the Serpent Goddess stirs your imagination?f484b2fdf9bbf2d4200a79d039038559

Venus entangles with Chiron while Mars embraces the feminine in Pisces

“What happens when people open their hearts?”
“They get better.”
― Haruki Murakami

Feeling so strangely connected to the astro today that I had to do this post.

Mars in Pisces square Saturn in Sagittarius, both at 23° …I am born on the 23rd and any mention of that number and bam, I will be affected somehow…

I wrote about what happened to me when Mars made his foray into Pisces. It touched me in so many ways. I have forever been changed by this transit. Do go back and read that post.

Saturn in Sag and Neptune in Pisces in hard angles will play out in the skies throughout the year while we will evolve and be directed by these energies. So its best to understand what we are dealing with. The main point here will be COMPLETE TRANSFORMATION. Society will be changed forever.

Mars, the masculine archetype has stirred up quite a cauldron of turbulent energies. The retrograde period saw violence, Syrian crisis multiplied, drone bombings, terrorist attacks, shoot outs, racism. Mars has changed reality as we know it and it has travelled back through the same path. Scarred, wounded and terrified we stand. But all has not been bad.

Yes there has been turbulence, but isn’t that necessary for change and growth. 2020 the astro changes completely and a new era dawns. We are in that changing moment. In the eye of the storm.

Mars has been quite mystical for in Pisces. Swimming in the Piscean sea, Mars has connected with the feminine energy. Mars has shed some of his toxic masculinity. Mars has learnt to sense the Piscean fragility. Reminds me of Paulo Coelho who said, “The strongest love is the love that can demonstrate its fragility.” Mars is strong and fragile- a duality, like us all.

Mars is bringing all that feminine wisdom as he squares Saturn in Sag! Oh boy! Steam! Saturn here I think stands for authority and Mars is our maverick warrior. The face off is about to begin this week. How will Mars’ energy now steeped with Piscean nectar react to Saturnine vibes? How will all this blend? Most importantly how will this effect us?

Mars and Saturn will set the tone of new beginnings for 2017. Since they stand in a hard aspect, their lessons can be harsh upon the collective. We have to move and get things done surely. But we can make peace or war. So what will we do? Make war I think. Hahahaha…*sarcasm* I was just saying that because we are so good with war. Then why not? *SARCASM*

Neptune is of course at home in his watery Pisces as well. That will give us spiritual impetus and we need it so badly. This aspect will create many spiritual warriors ready to take centre stage.

Venus who is also in Pisces has already created cosmic magick folks on the 12th. Read my post about Twinflames. The portal has opened.

Now while all this happens, Chiron says hello to Mars.

Chiron is a comet with a unique and erratic orbit. In the natal chart, Chiron is symbolised by the “wounded healer”. It represents our deepest wound, and our efforts to heal the wound. Chiron was named after the centaur in Greek mythology who was a healer and teacher who, ironically, could not heal himself….CAFE ASTROLOGY

I find Chiron’s story hilarious. A healer who could not heal himself? Haha. Reminds me of humanity. WE ARE ALL HEALERS AND LOOK NOW WE CANNOT HEAL OURSELVES. LOOK AT THE WORLD. What do we do?

So Mars is action and Chiron is failure(???). Maybe not a correct word. But what I mean is Chiron’s inability to complete the ACTION(healing). So the motif is about ACTION and COMPLETION. This dialogue between these two, a comet and a red planet could symbolise our inability to take action in the world. That causes deep wounds. Psycho-somatic!

Wounds that need healing…can we heal them? Somehow can we take the energy of Mars and maybe HEAL. Do what Chiron couldn’t do? EXISTENTIAL ANGST will eat away at us for our WOUNDS will FESTER. Activate MARS energy now to find healing as Chiron’s quest is that. Mars is also feeling mystical and spiritual but on the lower vibration there could be psychotic episodes involved. So take care. If you can remember that PISCES IS ALL ABOUT DEEP CONNECTION. Think of the ocean. How beautifully life exists there. So many organisms, creatures, plants, whales, fish…so many beings, living in perfect harmony. Pisces energy is like that.

The astroyoga is primal so let the floodgates open. Feelings, emotions, bottled up desires, pain, sexual frustrations can and will surface.

If you can assimilate the higher vibration of Pisces, you will feel CONNECTION. Even in pain. Even in loss. Life will be a symphony, maybe a poignant one. But you will listen to the COSMIC MUSIC!

Chiron will be conjuncting Venus on the 24th which means the wounded healer will bring his discourse now to the feminine. The masculine has been dealt with and now the feminine wounds must be atoned for. This will complete the dialogue Mars has started and will be an energy amalgamation. This wisdom will pour through the collective and we shall 15590549_1206370806113509_863278789893756897_nsomehow become better at understanding our humanity.

I leave with this perfect line…My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humour, and some style. Maya Angelou



Animal Activism as a SPIRITUAL PRACTICE

Do you feel very close to animals? When you see images of hurt animals, do you feel their pain? Will you always answer to an animal in need? No matter what! Do you have companion animals you cherish and love as family? And hope you don’t just buy pedigree animals for social status then keep them chained in your lawns or cages?

See if you are an animal empath, then you cannot FACE ANIMAL CRUELTY. You physically, emotionally, spiritually feel pain. And I don’t mean superficial pain. DEEP HEART-WRENCHING, SOUL CRUSHING PAIN. You will be howling on the floor after you’ve even started documentaries like COWSPIRACY and others. I am one such ANIMAL EMPATH. The minute I make connection to an animals, its like I am locked into her eyes. I can sense her morphological field and FEEL ALL HER EMOTIONS.

You know ANIMALS have brought me CLOSER to my HIGHER TRUTH! Do you believe it? Or are you thinking that I am talking shit? Listen yes I have helped a few animals in my childhood, like regularly feed and pet them, give them blankets,  get them vaccinated…helped an injured crow once too. But essentially I was a selfish brat living in my own la-la land.

Then I met my SPIRIT GUIDE. My first cat- Moof. They say that when you no longer cry for the past and can speak about it without feelings, you have healed. I can proudly say that each memory of tragedy in my past only brings more empathy for that person(me) suffering it. I can see the events unfold and NO I DON’T CRY. I have stopped….many, many years ago. I have healed myself from a truly devastating relationship in my teens and today I feel nothing but empathy for all the people involved, included the person I was involved with. Just catharsis. All of my past is now neatly categorised into files in my mind palace. Hahahaha. Sounds too left brain? Trust me, I’m not. But I have learnt to get things ORGANISED over the years. Too many bloody mistakes. All except that one memory.

Moof’s death. He left me after being with me for only two years and four months. I lost everything that day…16th March, 2011. The hardest day of my life and what followed was torture. I cannot explain this to you. Maybe you think why all this fuss about a cat? But you see, he was not a cat to me. He was my baby. He was my EVERYTHING.

He was the first that opened my HEART CHAKRA and I can never thank him enough for this. After he came into my life, it felt like MAGICK! He activated my compassion like never before and he will always be my baby.

Anyway, this strong activation can happen to you if you let it. If you ask an ANIMAL RESCUER or CAREGIVER if they feel MAGICK every single time they can rescue an animal. When they can treat it and feed it and when finally, the animal is homed…they feel BLISS!!! True bliss.

I have met some very passionate animal rescuers and they have found this meditation, their piece of heaven. For when you rescue and home an animal, you have invited GOD into your life. For what else is that animal in front of you, but a piece of heaven?

You know I am afraid to use the word GOD. I mean whatever you might call it- SPIRIT, VIBE, CONNECTION…The animals are your connection to the Earth! And what better way to become an Earth protector?

ANIMAL RESCUE IS SEVA, it is SPIRITUAL WORK. It is as important as meditation, if not more. According to Vivekananda, SEVA IS THE ONLY WAY TO FIND GOD! So when you throw a stone at the dog, you throw a stone at nature. For when you drive over puppies, you drive over LIFE. No matter how much puja you do. If  you see a hungry animal and don’t feed it, you starve your soul.

I care for twenty animals, so I know how difficult it can be. My friend Sameer in Lonavla has a sanctuary of about a hundred animals and ask him, has he not found life? Has he not found meaning. Yes it is HARD. Animals get sick, they get injured. It is so difficult to watch, but ANIMAL RESCUERS DO IT DAILY.

ANIMAL RESCUERS are TRULY PLUTONIAN- touched by LIFE AND DEATH…BEING FOREVER TRANSFORMED. So will you visit a local shelter and see if you can make a connect? Especially if you are going through tragedy. They are the best healers.

In fact you can even connect to animal spirits through the internet. For instance you can call upon the spirit of the wolf, the eagle, the whale…anything. You can stare at the image of the animal whose energies you seek to channel and concentrate. It works better if you find the attributes you seek and then focus on them, say loyalty(dog), horse(majestic), hummingbird(rebirth)…you get the gist. It works very well for me. And if you look for signs, then see which animal pops up. You might need to invoke that particular ARCHETYPE to address and figure our issues of your own psyche.

If you wish to contribute to Sameer’s sanctuary, please get in touch with me. He even cares for Emus, donkeys, buffaloes…basically any animal that needs to be rescued in Lonavla and around.thumb_big_other_cfbf6f51f48cbfde71163865a8238cf3